Hi,
I took prozac for a year. Yes, all my problems were gone with a snap of a finger. My obe dissapeared completely. I was mrs. perfect for a year until I noticed that I've become a totally emotionless person. I didn't want to cheat myself anymore. My soul was trying to say to me and i made it shut up, by swallowing a mirracle pill every morning. I quit the drug. I'm not a machine. My body and soul communicates with me and I should do my best to try to hear the calls  . My depression came back imedieately, I started doing regular psychotherapy, which has helped me a lot with the other problem I was battling with. I'm always depressed, but now I know why. Thanks to spiritual development and psychotherapy I am more aware of myself. I don't want to walk through life blind with a smile on my face and a pill between my teeth..( for which there are still no known long term side effects by the way..)...
I'd rather be depressed, but walk through life conciously.

this is my story.

Manuel, I totally agree with your point of view.

Lifebreath - hmmm...did you give your ego a good boost by asking Manuel to describe p450 cytochrome metabolic pathways in detail?? well, that's exactly what it seems like...quite sad, that such spiritual and inteligent people, can't handle a regular conversation, but instead they try to show off their power in such an infantile way..my son uses the same trick in kindergarden..
too bad, because the topic " lies of medical organizations ( and many others)" is a very ineresting one. Of course only to those who are aware of the fact that some people might have different points of views and different beliefs, and that this word is not only black and white, and has many other shades that are being hidden from us.
the first one 9nexus) is my absolute number 1.
Check it out Lifebreath, I'm sure you'll find someone in these sites to talk to about p450 cytochrome metabolic pathways ( in detail) , since probably most of us are not worthy...( myself included).

http://www.nexusmagazine.com
http://www.stopshrinks.org/reading_room/frame_docs/outstand.html
http://www.medicine-book.com/Your_Drug_May_Be_Your_Problem_How_and_Why_to_Stop_Taking_Psychiatric_Medications_0738203483.html
http://www.breggin.com/ritalin.html
http://www.namiscc.org/News/2002/Summer/NoMiracleDrug.htm


I found this on the Psyhic defence forum. it's about schizophrenia...but is also related to depression in away..

from kiauma..(btw..many thanks)

Bottom line, how you explain these experiences is tied directly to the paradime of your perception, whether spiritual, mental, or physical.  There is a growing underground psychological movement to identify these experiences of fragmentation and eventual larger integration of the self as part of a natural human process.  Unfortunately, the insurance industry, which largely controls the psychological industry in America, sees no need to spend the necessary money on the 'care' and understanding required to see the process through, when some cheap pills can seemingly make the 'symptoms' magically go away.

Here are some more sites:
http://www.global-vision.org/interview/perry.html
http://members.tripod.com/more_couteau/psychosis.htm
http://www.virtualcs.com/se/experiences.html
http://www.global-vision.org/dream/index.html
http://www.jungcircle.com/roberts2.html
http://www.gurdjieff.org/

thanks everyone for the help...no it won't discourage me from doing the Gateway, it's just that it hurts so much...aghh...
findtruth - Gateway Experience - www.monroeinstitute.com - + there are tons of info about it on the Astral Pulse forums...maybe look around because it's hard to explain it in just a few words...+ I don't want to omit anything..
thanks again[]