Perspective, you are soooooooooooo right! The sense of "knowing" is so strong. Yet, "knowing" what?    That's the hard part. "Consciously" bringing the info that is being shared back with you. I just feel, or sense should I say, that the info/message/teaching, will be there when it is needed!  

Yes, the knowing felt like a huge part of it. Literally felt like I got an epiphany and just knew (something) on a deep level. It might be a type of learning or knowing at a deeper level that might express or seep into your daily life as you go through time. But this is just speculation at this point. I've just had a few of these experiences that I didn't initially remember to recall that it seems significant. Some type of process we are going through.

Nameless, I personally don't have enough recall to remember what was inside of the geometric looking shapes. There was definitely something inside of them and they may have been rotating, but more of the feeling came through into my memory rather than the visuals. I think the visuals may have been too abstract to remember clearly. I don't think it really made sense to me logically which is why it is harder to remember. But the feeling was definitely a deep type of knowing or understanding feeling, like the satisfaction of finally thoroughly understanding a complex problem. Like an Aha moment and unravelling the knowing idea to get more Aha's.

But I'm struggling to remember the problem as well as the solution all together. It was definitely a large problem, and I have a feeling it may have been a large existential question/problem such as one of those common questions, "Why am I here?",  "What is life's purpose?" etc.

Lumaza, I don't believe in coincidences anymore either. I've had too many "coincidences" line up perfectly in my life more than once to be just based on chance. I find I get coincidences on this forum as well when I "coincidentally" see a brand new topic open up or resurface that is just what I was looking into earlier in the day or week.

I liked the video there. The guy is hilarious. Yeah in my experience, I didn't have enough awareness to see what was in the geometric shapes, but I'm sure there was much information, and may have been cuneiform, I can't say at this time. It definitely felt like some type of knowing feeing or download of some sort. I'm not sure if this may have been communication coming from my higher self or spirit guides or something, no idea. Very interesting experience though. I'm looking forwards to visiting there again soon.

It's interesting when experiences are somewhat common between other people. Everyone has their different angle or perception of the experiences as well which is cool.

Thank you for your input Karxx and Nameless. I will definitely incorporate this into my practices. I find I do typically like more logical approaches like counting, etc. Using creative imagination is a lot harder for me, even though, I still practice visualization frequently to improve this skill. I appreciate you bringing up this topic!

I haven't really given breathing techniques a significant practice myself. What is an example of a good breathing technique that you use? Where do you focus when you focus on your breath? Do you visualize at all or is it more of concentrating on the feeling of the breath?

Also how do you incorporate it into AP? Do you do this meditation before bed, or do the WBTB method and then do the technique? Im interested in your methodology.

Thanks!

P.S. In my daily meditations I do a combination of exercises, but my favourite one (probably because I've practiced it the most) is gazing at the black screen in front of my eyes and clearing my mind to approach nothingness as much as possible. I'm not so sure if my approach promotes AP though as I've been doing the black screen meditation for quite a long time. I started about a month ago incorporating other meditations into my practice as I'm following a self-initiation study that I recently began.

When I had my last few "download" experiences I was being bombarded with symbols akin to some kind "ancient cuneiform". It was like these symbols were being "imprinted" into my subconscious mind. I was totally aware and the accompanying sensations during this event were overpowering. It felt like some kind of "brain overload". The accompanying "energy" was quite intense. There was no other party around that I could see. To tell you the truth, I don't know if I could say I visually "saw" these symbols. It's more like I melded with them. One of those experiences that is very hard to explain using our Earthly physical terminology.

I've had a few of these weird download experiences recently similar to this post. It's very hard to explain, but it's like a complex concept is revealing itself to me like an epiphany of some sort and a deep knowing like I understand what "the answer" is to this complex problem. When I wake up I barely remember it, and don't remember what the "problem" or "answer" is. The whole concept is hard to grasp logically to be honest.

 I forgot about these dreams until I had one last night and then remembered that I've had this type of dream many times in the past couple of months. I don't see or are not aware of any other beings, but I see shapes like geometrical patterns which reveal some sort of secret truth hidden within a concept. It feels like having a huge epiphany that you are unravelling by thinking through it fully and having that "Aha" feeling throughout the whole process like you just received an important answer to a riddle.

Yes, I've used the Law of Attraction for my own benefit. And it's absolutely crazy how things sort themselves out. Here is my own personal view of it.

A lot of people live in pure survival mode, I used to as well. If you can live in survival mode, and replace the fear mindset for abundance, set goals, setup that desire, change your intent, and just live in the now regardless of what happens, that is huge. Also giving, if you can, to some organization you believe in, even if it's a small amount. These actions changed my life and lifted me out of the survival mode.

Changing the INTENT of, "I have to work to survive and pay my bills so I CAN LIVE." (selfish survival mode mentality), to "I am working at this job to help a large portion of humanity with my service and donation of time and labour and I believe in what I do and I'll do the best I can." (selfless beneficial attitude towards the WHOLE)

And you may not believe 100% in what you do (like you may not be doing your "calling"), but as long as you know you are helping people in specific ways, that's what truly matters. Even something as simple as cleaning tables at a restaurant. Maintain that mindset for a prolonged period (could be a few years depending on your intent), and you'll set yourself up for success. Obviously, you have to do what you think is best at the same time to get to your goals. Logical thinking and intuition are gifts we should be using as much as possible. So there will probably be lots of pivoting and changes along the way.

And then once you get out of that survival mode, you are already completely used to your new reality as you've already been living it in your mind. And now you have to push your limits more. Now I have to keep focussed on spiritual development to push my comfort zone as much as possible.

I recently moved to Brazil from Canada, and how things worked out was nothing short of a miracle. We were definitely meant to come here. I'm not going to go into details, but there were many, many, many obstacles in the way of this but I knew it was meant for us. And if it wasn't we wouldn't be able to go and so be it. Having that amount of faith in your desires is important. Within 2 months of deciding to go, everything lined up perfectly, mind you, at the very last second which added some stress/excitement. It was like teetering on emotions of anxiety/stress, but reminding yourself to just let go and trust that everything will work out. And it did. Literally the biggest miracle I've personally witnessed in my life. The magick of intent.

Some great experiences on this thread for sure.

But I will say that I think a measure of our reality or realness is in how we privilege certain experiences over other ones through our descriptions.

We will obviously favour an experience of hyper real vivid colors, deeply intimate sensations, and a rich tapestry of sounds compared with an experience of monotone colour values, muted sounds, and dull lethargic sensations. But actually these two hypothetical experiences are identical in terms of their level of reality. It is only how we privilege the first experience over the second one that defines it as more real.

If you consider your level of awareness in both experiences - that too is identical in both scenarios You are exquisitely aware of the vivid colors and bright sounds in experience 1 and you are equally exquisitely aware of experience 2s dull monotone colors and lethargic sensorial expression. If you weren't you wouldn't be able to describe it as such.

The only difference is a thought which chooses experience 1 which then elevates it in our experience and so we seek out more experience 1s.

These are very good points floriferous, you seem to have a very wise outlook.

Some people might interpret this vivid vs dull as "success" vs "failure". You could relate this to acquiring a skill. Where experience 1 is walking across a tightrope while maintaining balance and experience 2 is falling off. We tend to favour the mastery of difficulty scenario and have the rush of emotions at the end of the experience (1) more than the actions we consider failure. (2)

In the end of the day does it matter? Not really as we are all one anyways, so nothing essentially changes regardless of what we do because WE ARE no matter what. But if we want to experience different experiences of ourselves, practicing to get to them can open up a new experience of ourself. I think that's the whole purpose of the duality existence we have created for ourself in the first place. Exploring ourselves in different ways.

On the other hand, I think where people get caught up is in seeing experiences as bad or good or important/unimportant which I think is what you might be getting at here. It's okay to "fail" or to see dull colours as this is essentially You and what you are supposed to experience right now. It's a unique and important experience in itself and it isn't bad. It is still an equally important part or an aspect of ourself.

You could think of it as the shadow of the light, neither could exist without the other. So maintaining balance between the forces of light and darkness I think is essential. Maintaining the balance between polarities.

I just watched a mind blowing series by Matias de Stefano and he talks about this. He explains it by imagining you are in a room with a light source on one side. You have a shadow of your figure projecting on the back wall opposite of the light source. Now we are typically taught to move towards the light. Well if you do that in this scenario, the dark shadow grows bigger and bigger until it fills the whole room. His point was that if you are focussed on only light or only darkness you are ignoring an aspect of yourself and that ignored aspect of yourself will grow and grow and eventually pull you back into it. In other words, karma. So balance between the aspects is important. Like the Yin Yang symbol. The dance of light and dark is the two opposing aspects of ourself dancing together.

I thought I would share this last piece as it really opened my eyes and it might help other reader's perspectives on this forum as well.

Perspective, did you see this from a few weeks ago?

I didn't see this one, no. Very interesting! I watched most of the first link. I'm glad they are at least talking about it and somewhat taking these things more seriously now, but I also believe they are hiding a lot and just giving the public some cheap talk here. And the deeper you go in government (or what controls/influences the government behind the scenes) the more they hide things. These agencies knew all along, they are just playing the game. Maybe not at this level of government, or maybe so, it's impossible to say.

But yeah thanks! I'll watch these.

One part of me believes that there are many more believers in alien life (whether on or off of our planet) than we actually think there are, as most people have seen or know people who have seen UFO's or unexplained phenomena. (As well as the fact that our universe is basically endless.) Similarly to ghosts etc. I would say if you grabbed a handful of people, most of them would believe they exist.

But another part of me realizes that if aliens just started revealing themselves and saying hi to people, I don't think people would be able to handle this part of it. I think people are so conditioned with "knowing everything" with our "modern science" and viewing humans as the only intelligent species and aren't ready for seeing another more advanced being with more advanced spiritual and scientific growth that we can learn from. I think it would freak people out. Especially if they were aliens that didn't look anything like us humans. Heck, we just got out of our own human racial discrimination not too long ago and we are still currently discriminating against people for their medical status currently too. The movie District 9 displays a great example of discrimination against aliens actually. Great movie.

So yeah, I think most people would flip out if they actually came out to say hi. But I still hope they would say hello as I would like to believe I would be open and welcoming and I'm excited to meet more advanced beings to learn from. But it's probably similar to scuba diving next to a blue whale, I don't really know how I would feel actually being in a situation like that. Thinking something and actually experiencing it are two different things.

Interesting perspective Xanth. It makes perfect sense! Our bodies are very limiting.

Lumaza, I'm not sure what the "Technicolor" experiences are, but probably the most realistic experience where I was totally aware was after doing the Monroe track in the morning and following it with Frank's noticing exercise. I ended up seeing the typical colours and patterns which ended up forming a rip in the black screen in front of my eyes. It looked like a portal ripping very violently through the blackness but there was no sound. It looked so real and kept growing and I could see a massive planet-sized ball of blue energy on the other side. I started sweating profusely and couldn't hang on for the ride. Then everything went grey. Haha! I usually wear glasses in waking life so everything is a bit blurry at a distance, but the portal that I saw in that vision was extremely clear and vivid. I would even stretch to say it was clearer than when I have my glasses on!

Lightbeam, yes I truly hope to experience it soon! Im getting closer as I've had a few weird experiences recently. I'll keep at it. Thank you for the tip, I will do this. I started keeping a dream journal again and I've been having better memory of dreams again like I used to. I fell off of it for awhile as life got in the way there for a bit. I find the most benefits so far with keeping a dream journal and doing daily meditation. Then doing the other exercises tend to have more of a punch behind them.

Maybe the next word that comes through will be JOKE Haha, then the puzzle will be solved, that is if the ETs have a sense of humor.

But on a more serious note SETI did come through, so if an intelligent being is trying to send a message related to SETI, it would be interesting why and what is it about. I have a feeling there is a preparation going on for public info release, but it has to happen gradually, as humans cant be trusted not to create world wide chaos. Perhaps some SETI disclosures will be arranged to be one of the steps towards human mind conditioning. Bottom line, it's the ET's call, not even our gov. They are the advanced ones and they are calling the shots. We shall see. But just looking at human behavior during the pandemic and racial unrests, can you imagine a sudden confirmation of aliens presence. There WILL be a chaos especially on the religious sector, and we don't know if it could be controlled. That's why the gradual release of info is important.

It's interesting bringing up the discussion of disclosure as I just recently came across a Fox News interview publicly talking about UFO sightings and how NASA is now investigating them (like they haven't been already haha) as they have hundreds upon hundreds of UFO phenomenon reported. So finally the mainstream media is at least talking about something that is already very obvious to many people. At least it is starting to be spoken about more publicly now. It'll be interesting to see if MUFON will actually start becoming more recognized as a serious organization or if it will still remain as an "aluminum hat" organization to many people. Probably the latter as NASA tends to be the more "trusted source" of information lol.

yes, I've had so many APs of new and unexpected observations and communications, including connecting to the essence of God and feeling the oneness and the timelessness, but my mind always tends to organize things into segments that should be complete. I know this is my physical brain's wiring. I understand the concept of infinity and don't question its validity, I just can't fully comprehend it. Perhaps I can ask to understand infinity during my next AP and see what happens.

Yeah those experiences are super cool! I really want to experience more of them. Im sure that would be a really cool experience to explore infinity.

Yes, I've had certain experiences (not AP's per se) that have greatly influenced my beliefs. I know what you mean about your mind trying to bundle everything up into nicely categorized rows, mine does the same, which is why I shared my personal mind-bundled perspective above. But I also believe that we shouldn't believe anything as completely 100% true anyways until you experience it yourself. So everything I just said in the above post was my personal mind interpretation of the combination of what I have personally experienced and what I have read about so far, but I have only scratched the surface of experience. It could be completely the opposite of actual reality, who knows haha!!

Experience is paramount in my opinion because even one single experience can blow a massive hole and rip your world apart in terms of structured beliefs that you think are true. So I personally try to remain skeptical until I've experienced something as true, even with what I posted above. I use that "belief" as a sort of beacon pointing in a possible direction. My most educated guess so far, as we really know very little about our true existence and reality. One major experience can be very humbling.

Wow, thank you guys! Definitely thought-provoking ideas. Now I feel that it's ok if I can't comprehend everything at this time. But at least we started scratching the surface Thank you again for your valuable input!

Have you ever had NP experiences of getting closer to infinity? Or experience something that you could have never imagined possible? Like if someone asks you, what the craziest thing you could ever imagine, like the craziest experience and then you experience something beyond that?

Great thoughts there Floriferous!

Sammie, another perspective that I have of my own is that infinity does contain nothingness and it does sound like a paradox. I really agree with the teachings in the Kybalion and Hermetics (because they can be applied in this sort of scenario).

I could be completely wrong here, but here are my thoughts. The Law of Polarity (in the Kybalion) would assume Infinity and nothingness are the same essential thing with opposing polarity (like hot and cold are scales of temperature) so they are the essentially the same thing on a scale and we are witnessing the in-between states of infinity and nothingness. You can find nothingness and infinity in everything, yet they oppose one another. This is the paradox we live in.

We live in a paradox of duality which is essentially illusory by nature as duality is fundamentally untrue. It's a deception or fiction that we signed up to experience (like a video game sort of). Real Truth is that everything is one and exists and doesn't exist all at the same time. The issue is that we cannot understand this as our logical minds cannot comprehend existing and not existing at the same time. Or infinity and nothingness existing in the same place. And we will never be able to understand it logically.

Another way to look at it is that we aren't looking at the full picture. We are judging everything by our 5 senses which are setup to witness this limited view of reality. Our brains, eyes, ears, nose etc, can pick up a very narrow range of vibrations or experiences even though there is a whole world of happenings that we are "missing out on" happening right here and now. (Actually, everything is happening right now, we just have a limited view of time existing in this particular view of "reality" but that's another crazy discussion.) A simple example is radio waves, microwaves, wifi, and the many other signals we cannot see, but they exist. The sun's rays are passing right through us. But we can only see our dense little perspective.

It's like looking at a car crash from one person's point of view. This one person's perspective would think that the driver was an idiot and drove into a pole, a dog's perspective might be that this crazy moving animal just killed itself and injured the person inside it, a spirit's perspective may see that the person, without realizing, shifted out of their reality and AP'ed long enough to lose control of the vehicle and crashed, and yet a higher consciousness may have seen this car crash as an essential part of this person's experience as an integral part of the experience they specifically chose before "coming here".

So as you can see in this example above there are different levels of perspective depending on the level of equipment (faculties, consciousness, and awareness) a specific being is equipped with. So going back to the initial question, in my opinion we do not have all of the faculties or equipment in this physical body to fully understand nothingness and infinity existing together (from a physical perspective at least.) That's why with internal experiences sometimes we can experience something that is so real, but we cannot find the words to explain it because it's beyond the physical comprehension. Many times we forget dreams because we cannot comprehend them. It's happened to me many times. Having dreams so abstract that it just doesn't make sense in this logical waking reality and therefore it becomes an easily forgettable experience.

But logic is just one faculty or tool of many tools, just like intuition, sight, touch, hearing, etc. And I am sure there are many other faculties that we cannot even imagine that exist that humans cannot possess in human physical form. Some we could imagine would be thermal vision, telepathy, clairvoyance, etc, but what if you weren't in a body? What if you were a fundamental geometrical pattern holding up reality? What tools would you have existing as this?

I might sound a bit nuts (I went deep there), but here is the best place to share these crazy thoughts. I hope this connects some dots within your own unique perspective!

P.S. I've also heard of a belief that things are spiral or circular in nature so that the polarities of something are not like lines on a page, rather they are like circles. So the ends of the polarity end up becoming the same somewhere along in the scale. So super blistering hot will eventually become super, mind-bending, extreme cold and then back again. You might be able to think about that in relation to infinity and nothingness as well. I agree with this personally, but it's just a belief at this point and hasn't been experienced directly as much of the above stuff is. Thats philosophy for ya!

Wow! That is exciting!! For a first word, that is a pretty good one! Keep us updated on how it all progresses!!

Lightbeam, I must have read it on here before then. I could see the imagery playing in my mind. I must have visualized it while reading it last time. Interesting. Yeah that movie is pretty crazy, but it's really interesting too. There are definitely many parallels with this reality experience as usual with sci-fi movies.

I love all of these experiences! Thank you for sharing here!
Whenever I read new experiences it reignites the fire in me to keep practicing. This morning I almost got into a full blown AP, I could feel that "shift" feeling, but I focussed back on my body, so no go. Had some interesting hypnogogic imagery of a woman named Theresa trying to help me (I asked her name). She asked to follow her so I did and I asked if she was my spirit guide, but I intuitively felt that she wasn't. But the vision kept warping or fading out like a bad signal. Then I had a more realistic vision of lighting a bonfire and the fire grew and got stronger, rapidly consuming a bunch of logs until I felt that "physical shift" feeling. Then it all ended when I focussed back on my body.

Definitely getting more progress as these experiences are happening more frequently now. The early mornings or middle of the night are definitely the best time to practice. I've had the most prominent experiences during those times.

Have any of you had experiences in the dream/AP state that got intermixed with your daily waking life? Please share! For me, I started doing an inner flame meditation about a month ago and the day after I started this exercise, the neighbour set a huge fire that got out of control and spread almost onto our property. The fire department had to come and everything. Very interesting "coincidence". Not a dream experience per se, but I did have a prophetic dream when I was younger as well. I'll share it when I have some more time.

ok, last one I'm posting here, so I don't flood your topic , this one is in the bizarre categories

"This one started as a dream. I was in a hospital, laying on the exam bed. I was dressed in a hospital gown. The head doctor told me that a specialist was coming to examine me. I told the head doctor that I was not sure why I was there because I felt fine. But he insisted. Then the "specialist" entered the room and I instantly said to the head doctor "This is not a specialist, he is in disguise. Something is wrong". The "specialist" sat on the exam bed where I was laying. He gave an evil laughter and his eyes turned fiery red. He produced a ball of greenish energy ball crackling with electricity like sound and spinning with energy. He was going to attack me with that energy ball. At that moment I became lucid and I realized that this was taking place in the NP. Then I said "I will show you now who has the power". I produced a blast with my hands and both of our energies locked midway. He was pushing the ball towards me and then I was pushing the ball towards him. I kept focusing very intensely to strengthen my power, but at one point a very hot wave hit me and I turned my head because I felt like couldn't breathe. I turned my head towards the head doctor who was standing next to us but not interfering. He just nodded at me. I turned my head back at my attacker and with one last blast I hit him and he disappeared. Then the head doctor said "see you defeated him. Now you can go home". Then I woke up. But the entire day yesterday after this LD though I had a very strong headache. I rarely get headaches.

Wow, this was super trippy!! So this experience rang a huge bell in my memory like I remembered a similar experience. I thought I dreamt a similar dream at first. Or I thought I may have read it on here before or saw it in a movie or something. Then after more memory digging (about 10 minutes later) I realized the memory was actually in a movie that I saw. Thankfully I actually remembered it finally!
I'll share the link here: https://youtu.be/8SvHSEy3xCs

Check it out! This is a great movie too.

[edit] After more thinking about your dream throughout the day, I still feel drawn to this dream like I've seen it before more similar to how you are telling it. Have you written this dream on this website before?? It's very faint, so I'm not sure if it's a dream memory of mine (something I observed as a 3rd person) or something I read before on here and just used my imagination while reading. I don't know. Strange.

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Hey, if you are reading this, stop what you're doing and reply down below the weirdest and/or most profound and/or most mystical and/or just flat out a somewhat interesting experience you've personally had in these strange Alternate Realities we call the Astral Realm or the Dreamworld. What experience piqued your interest to be on this forum scrolling around?

If you haven't posted on this forum ever, or in a long while, this post is especially for you!! I (and probably many other members) want to read your crazy experience(s)! Regardless of how messed up they might seem. Please share!

I'll add some of mine in future posts. Who's gonna be the first to share their experience??

This thread reminds me of when I was younger... I used to type up a bunch of affirmations, cut them out, and stick them all over my bedroom. I highly recommend this for anyone who needs a pick me up. There are some pretty amazing quotes out there! I believe just taking this action changed the course of my life for the better. This along with daily meditations. A typical Self-Help Remedy! Haha

When I was younger I went into a deep dark depression phase that felt like an abyss, but I got to a point where I just got fed up with those same victim feelings pumping over and over in my head and just decided in a deep part of me to just change, even if I didn't feel like it. But practices like these helped a ton!! Now I can barely remember the last time I had a bout of depression even creep in.

I think a big learning in this stage for me personally too was being okay with boredom, instead of being affected by it. As boredom was a big contributor to this negative mental state. Meditation taught me to be okay with it.

Just thought I'd share one of my personal experiences as it's something I thought about while reading these posts here!!

I've had a woman trigger an ability that would allow me to dream of her meditation landscape. The dream ended without form, we were one with everything in the environment. She was surprised by the accuracy when I told her the scenery of my dream, especially because she never confided this place to me before.

I've had a similar experience with my sister when we were kids. We both woke up from a nightmare, but it was very hard to describe because it wouldn't sound like a nightmare. The nightmare seemed to involve flowing pink and blue duvet covers, sounds super weird, but the feeling of the dream was very uneasy and very uncomfortable. I woke up with a sweat. As soon as I started telling my sister about my nightmare, she was stunned as I was trying to explain exactly what her nightmare was. I've had a many of these experiences with my sister when we were younger.

My mom and my sister also had a very close connection as my mom would know when my sister wasn't feeling well. I think the link between mothers and their children is a more widespread phenomenon though. It is interesting though because as we started growing up and going our own separate ways so to speak, the connection seems to fade a bit as well, or maybe it's just my awareness of the connection isn't as strong. Maybe both of these.

Sometimes it seems more "real" than this reality we are experiencing here does. Take a moment to think about that! 

This reason alone was one of the main factors I went on this journey. The one question that prompted me, "What does "Real" really mean and how can you truly know what is truly real?" Then I learned that lucid dreams/AP's can be more real that this reality.

Then I experienced a few experiences that were pretty comparable to this reality. I'm looking forwards to experiencing one that feels more real than here.

[And this isn't the first dream where I was doing something I wouldn't normally do, I think many dreams are like this for many people.]

This is an interesting topic. The past couple nights I've been having a lot of strong sexual type dreams, one in particular was very disturbing, and it got me really thinking. In those experiences, if I had my full waking consciousness, I wouldn't be doing what I was doing in my dream, but in my dream I was just going along like "normal". And this isn't the first dream where I was doing something I wouldn't normally do, I think many dreams are like this for many people.

But this particular experience prompted some deep thought about this subject as it was a distasteful experience that didn't sit with me well when I got up. I'll illustrate an example to try to explain my point here. If you were a dog for example, you would have a completely different perspective than a human, and in that experience, sniffing another dogs butts would be a completely normal greeting, but for a human it is gross. In my dream, I was doing things that would make me gag as I would never do them in this reality, but.... I was in a completely different state of consciousness.

So a few possibilities here. A part of me thinks that maybe a big part of my consciousness was being actively blocked and I was expressing a specific piece of myself. Or maybe I was experiencing someone else's consciousness. Either a deep dark place in my consciousness or a deep dark place somewhere else. Or maybe a past life or something, I dunno, but going back to my original theory... If you believe in the All is One theory and that everything stems from one source, then this wouldn't sound too far fetched as each one of us could experience each others experiences from different perspectives and different upbringings, belief systems, etc but also experiencing a piece of our consciousness too could be looked at as the same thing as we are all one. It's just a fractal pattern at this point, experiencing a part of your consciousness (part of the whole), or a different person's experience (part of the whole), or a past life (part of the whole).

Or looking at it from a more scientific or psychological stand point, it could be just a deep dark part of myself that is starting to surface. Or maybe something to do with the reptilian part of the brain expressing itself. Maybe my dreams are showing me my fears or excessive feelings that I haven't been exposed to like absolute disgust or distain. I've heard that meditation can sometimes bring up uncomfortable feelings from past karma or whatever. I'm still a skeptic, but I'm open to these possibilities. And I've been meditating on and off throughout the years pretty consistently for quite a long time now (probably close to 10 years or so), so maybe this is just a surfacing issue.

Or maybe it's as something simple as my libido going through the roof as I've been working out quite a lot and not being as sexually active as usual. But either way it got me thinking quite a bit.

So going back to what character we feel connected to, maybe we are all of the characters all in one and we are just blocking parts of ourselves to experience an aspect of it. Segmenting ourselves in a specific way and realizing that sniffing dogs butts is gross in this setup, and in another setup, with other blockages, it's normal experience. And this could also be overlaid into the "Good" vs "Bad" discussion where something that is "bad" for me, could be normal or even good for someone else.

Maybe we are attracted to, or connected to certain characters or archetypes because of our specific setup (consciousness blockages/energy blockages).

For me personally, I have a faint feeling that I may have used to be a woman in a past life or something, but it's just a faint feeling and I obviously can't prove it, so maybe a possible connection there. In terms of connecting with specific characters, I don't have enough AP experience to be meeting specific entities as of yet.

Anyways, a lot said here, sorry for the lengthy post. All input/perspectives are welcomed. These discussions fascinate me lol

It feels like there is another presence observing me and weighing my soul.

It's interesting because I've had this feeling many times in many dreams like someone is watching me and judging my actions, sometimes I'll even see the person in the background observing me. Most of the time I don't think anything of it as I'm too involved in what I'm doing. I just catch it after the fact.

That was a great read. This reminded me of a very strange but fun dream I had last night as well having to do with this bacteria or fungus that you ingest orally, sort of like drugs, but they give you special powers, but these powers also come with severe side effects. I was a woman in this dream, and for some of the dream I was observing it like a movie and for some of it I was the main character, the woman.

I'll go into the dream here if anyone wants to read it:
This dream was based in the future as everything was very futuristic. The world was in some type of dilemma where there were negative people controlling the population and I, the woman main character, wanted to do something about it. There was a powerful man from another planet, some type of alien, but looked completely human. He was very powerful, but demanding and harsh. (Ill just call this guy Bob for ease of communication) He had a similar interest in destroying these powers and wanted to work with me to guide me, and a few others, to defeat the negative powers.

He proposed that he would work with me as long as we do it his way. I agreed that I would do whatever it takes and immediately we went to a scientist that was developing these fungi. They were colourful fuzzy balls that looked like mold growing on some type of substance (sort of like what you would see on moldy sour cream or something). Bob talked to the scientist and asked him if he had a particular mold/fungus/bacteria/fuzzy ball. He did and gave him a few of them. They were little black fuzzy balls.

He assembled the new team on his massive spaceship that was hovering over the earth (there was about 5 of us all from Earth, women and men). He told us that we would need to train with the new powers we would acquire and asked us to ingest the mold substance. He also warned us that the substance has negative side effects that could be detrimental, but it was the only way to have a chance at defeating the negative overlords. The effects would stay with us until we completed our mission. We all took them and Bob started implementing the training. He gave us black super modern looking swords that we used to attack these black super robots as training. We sucked at fighting as we were obviously new at this, but the drug that he gave us gave us super strength, agility and stamina.

Bob then turned to me, as I was the leader in the group and apparently the most developed spiritually/mentally, and gave me a special black sword. He said that it had extreme power if I used my focus properly. I had to be completely focussed on the task and if I was, it had amazing power. I used it in the training and focussed as much as possible and when I hit the robot, an explosion emerged destroying the robot completely. Really cool! Bob then took the sword away and gave it to the next person to use. Then someone came from somewhere screaming saying, "No, don't use that sword!!". She said that if you use the sword and lose focus for even a second it will kill the user. So I got a bit ticked because Bob didn't tell me that, but he didn't care.

Later, one of the crew members was sleeping and ended up killing her friend unknowingly which was one of the side effects of this drug so she was completely distressed. Again, Bob didn't seem to care. He seemed pretty ruthless. I felt like I still needed more power to get this situation over with and prevent anymore deaths and destruction so I went back to the scientist and asked him what the most powerful fungus was that he created. He told me the name of it was Lectin I believe. I asked him if he could make it and he agreed. It took him many attempts but he finally made it and gave it to me. It was weird when he made these as I would watch him and at the end there was a flash (like a psychic flash or something) that would show the entity within the mold. This mold was bigger and it was pure white. I put it in my mouth, but didn't swallow. I exclaimed, "Wow, this one is bigger than the other ones." It was like a mouthful of fuzz.

I then approached Bob and told him I had an opinion with this whole mission we were on. He got extremely furious and told me my opinion was worthless, reminded me of the agreement that we made, and told me to keep my opinion to myself. I told him anyways regardless of the result. I told him I got the scientist to make me Lectin and would be extremely powerful in order to complete our mission sooner. (This Lectin would have even worse side effects of course). Knowing that this substance would probably end up destroying me in the end, he ended up not caring and said yeah okay. So I showed him that I had it in my mouth and then swallowed it.

Unfortunately, that was the end of the dream. I wish it kept going as it was very entertaining, futuristic/sci-fi, and I was looking forwards to what would happen. Would be a good movie honestly. The drugs that were mentioned in your dream Tides with severe repercussions and being forced to take them reminded me of this dream. It's interesting when some dreams have some similarities.

Yes, balance is essential to establish happiness. If anything, AP has enhanced my physical life in all areas. I have realized that I feel at HOME anywhere I am focused in the present and that there is no specific place that we have to belong and call home. If we fixate on the idea that where we are is not our home and we belong someplace else, then we will miss out a lot on being submerged in every present moment and enjoying the adventures fully. Our home is the entire multiverse. It is truly ours. But the actual knowledge of this fact gives us the true freedom and joy.

Yes, I completely agree with everything you just said. Couldn't have said it better myself!

Yes, I agree with you guys about drugs being a dark path. After I came out of that experience, this was the first thing I realized. I could see clearly how people could get addicted. But I know that's not why we are here. We are here to go through the hardships in this physical existence head on and learn from them. Like lifting weights, if half way through the hard part of the workout you skip it, do half reps with bad form, or cheat, you won't get the results you signed up for.

I'm sure with AP it could become a bit of an escapism too if you let it. Balance and doing things that benefit your physical life here, the primary existence that we chose at this time, is important imo. I always have to remind myself this as sometimes I get a bit overly obsessed with some things.

Thank you so much, all! That's interesting to hear that other people are experiencing sound patterns as well.
I was just thinking for now to try the following: I will relax and clear my mind and I will mentally ask if someone is trying to communicate to use just one click as yes and two clicks as no to simplify the communication since I still have to learn the code and that will take time. I will let you know if the clicks will start and if that will produce any results.

So if you get 2 clicks as no, I would personally trip out. I would start asking, "Hey, who responded to my question there?! There IS someone trying to communicate with me!!"

Haha!! Or I would think that maybe it's someone just joking around with me.

But that's really cool! Keep us updated as to what happens!