this is one of those dreams that stands out.

i had few dreams like that, where they seem real and i remember each one clearly.

i have nightmares that i know are nightmares but this one was not, i wasnt scared, i was surprised.

its the whole setting and the look that it gave me that was very strange.

like u know when someone stops a conversation and looks at you for few seconds with no emotion and continues the conversation.

yesterday i had a very surprising dream.
i was in a room with 2 people as far as i remember one was doing something and otherperson was having a conversation with death( u know the one with the hood on)

and then death paused and looked at me. without saying anything.

i couldnt tell if the look was " i see you " or "stop eavesdropping on my conversation"
i had a feeling it was the second one for some reason.

it wasnt scary just unexpected and i dont know what to make of it

in a perfect world and on paper yes
except we dont live in it.
chaces for average person to be at that level are not that high

and "It's up to you, ENTIRELY, to concentrate and focus"
is an old and overused advice.

theres alot more behind that sentence. a whole lot more. if i didnt understand what you meant that line would mean nothing to me. but i rather not type it all up and im sure you dont want to either.

i did mean D sorry.

and i dont belive in the unlimited power of your mind JUST CAUSE.

how does this alleviate me from responsibility? what responsibility?


vitamins are necessary just like food and water.

you dont get nutrients you die. you dont drink water you die

youre saying is similar to running a car on willpower alone when you run out of gas.
your engine needs oil and fuel to run theres no way around it.
just like our body needs ballanced nutritional system. in order for it to perform its functions.
and brain is a part of our body it also needs nutrients to "control" everything else.

when i lived in NYC i remember i used to space out for hours listening to some drumm&bass and techno mixes on the radio.

it was during spring time. the most memorable times were during nice spring time weather.

now i live in a place that is not very sunny.

if i could i would. and i wouldnt be asking.
my attention span is shorter than youtube commercial...
only time i can focus long enough is when im high.
if i can find a cd that helps me focus without drugs that would be great.
i already have few of hemisync cds but they are not enough. the do help tho but not that much in my case.

i just browsed really quick through a meditation cd section. and as with everything else, theres waaaay to many of them and they all claim magic powers of healing etc.

are there any of them i shouldnt buy? aka. waste of money and time?
i know for sure there are people capitalizing on metitation mania and releasing junk with a nice cover claiming magical things

Children have that ability.
But they also dont follow the rules of society that we live in.
Untill we grownups teach them whats right and whats wrong.
Then they react according to what they learned from us.
Isnt that filter a part of our society?

does that mean without any emotional attachment?



say for example i see a bird poop on my car
what do i really see

btw i checked the ken kan out but will read more later

im just trying to get an idea of what it means

i know that what your eyes see and how your brain proceses it are 2 different things.

What does it really mean
After reading many articles that popped up in google search i still dont understand
They all say it but none explain what it means exactly

lost focus is usually a sign of stress
sign of a mind that operates at its limit

like a computer with RAM filled with open programs and windows

i have that problem also
and speaking from personal experience.

best way is to stay physically in shape
and keep a good diet.
when overloaded your brain needs alot of energy (sugars in whatever form they are used i forgot)
when you have too mnay tasks on your mind for too long it gets tires and needs a reset.(aka time off where you dont have to do anything at all, no plans or things to do)
having all your tasks done in a timely manner, procrastination makes your brain work hard because unfinished task is always in your mind and adds stress

theres no magic herb that will give you godlike focus that will burn through textbooks
i take multivitamins
fish oil
and in times of high stress i take focus factor for about a week and stop but might not work for you

it seems to avoid me always

but i cant stop searching for it.
if i stop then eventually with every bit of free time i find myself coming back to it
i want to experience it but for some reason i cant

one of my wifes relatives that is not anything special to me and i had no interest in her in any way

suddenly i had a dream where we shared a very intimate moment and i woke up feeling like a recharged battery.

i stepped out of the shower and was wearing a shower robe and she hugged me from behind that i didnt expect it and more so didnt expect it to be her. but i woke up like i was shocked by static. and was very surprised but full of energy.

this dream really surprised me.

almost everywhere i turn i hear people experience out of ordinary things
they see ghosts talk to spirits  see other things etc

but in my life theres nothing i can remember that is out of ordinary

i look for it and ask for it but nothing happends.

i tried to practice meditation and OBE and i cant get past certain point


i try to find it and cant but others experience it and are afraid of it why does that happend?

i even remember me and my buddy going to cemetery at night to see if there are ghosts but no luck lol

on a more serious note since this is a healing section can someone help me out
throw some good energy my way

can our ability to think be considered as a separate dimension?
we have acess to information that other animals dont.
when an apple falls on dogs head dog looks up and moves.

when an apple falls on mans head man picks it up and either throws it in anger or starts to fn wonder why did it fall
why did it hurt his dome so much its just an apple
why did it fall on him
what are the chances of it hapening and what circumstances brought him to that tree.
would the apple still have fallen if he was under a different tree?