new wave of darkness

[NaomiChan]

I apologize, I am not able to expand comments...

All the best,

Naomi Chan

[xblimeyx]

i think it has been lifted. my abilties are still cloudy though. and 2012 isnt going to be a huge battle. i dont think. im basing this on what i remember. what i see is a timeline. i look at people, or within myself, and i see a timeline, like railroad tracks. they're grey on a bluish black background. i see the events on the time line as swirls of energy, much like a spider's nest. now i look at my timeline and its black. but i think the black is lifting. and im trying to use this time to reconstruct my timeline as i see fit. and btw, im not looking to the negative, im just very alarmed when i black mass covers my future. the last time anything like that happened, my life fell apart.

i'm not an active member, a former jonas ridgeway forum member, i read alot of this forum and dont write, but i kinda feel i have to say this...

first i do not mean to be offensive, and sorry if i'm wrong, but this and very much most of your posts (erynys) sound...well...fake
(this one keeping millimeters away form exactly replicating the way seeing a timeline was pictured in Donnie Darko)
And one thing that confuses me alot is that you claim to have a vast expirience and abilities in magick, astral travel etc. but somehow still sound as a troubled, and depressed teenager. That kinda doesn't fit together, at least in my opinion and expirience, cause the expiriences i gained in the view of oobeing, lucid dreaming, and even some drug induced states, and the feeling of inner growth that fills you when you start to "open up" spiritually, has for sure made me a better and a very very much happier person, and made me realise some of the mistakes i've made and had been making with keeping myself depressed, heavy heavy drinking, and drug abuse.

And the funny thing is i got into OOBEs a few years before i started drinking, but about the time i was 17 i kinda kept it in my mind, but somehow i just cracked, and for the next few years just kept getting deeper into it, especially alcohol. And the sad truth is the more you drink, the more depressed you get, and the you drink even more..and it basically turns to crap, and you start to show more and more compulsive and addictive behaviour in every aspect of your life, finding every day more reasons to feel bad about yourself.

Sorry that this has got a bit long, but my point is, if you have the spiritual knowledge you claim to have, or even if you don't (wich IMHO is the case, sorry) you still are informed about it more than 70% of the worlds population, just use that knowledge to make a better life for yourself, you're the only one responsible for the way it will all turn out to be...so just reach and feel the true love inside and outside of you, it will make everything better and easier.

[erynys]

most of my experiences happened when i was a child, before my depression. i claim no abilties, i simply tell you what i experience. if you choose not to believe, thats fine. its not a sideshow affair where people are paying me to perform some trick. im just trying to learn as much as i can and get feedback on what i see. i loved donnie darko, but i dont recall him seeing a timeline. i remember a watery ether protruding from the chests of people, which is what i see connecting people when they are in love, except its not water, but a slightly invisible substance accompanied by a soft orange glow, or a dark red glow. but thats not the point. i am a little tired of people calling me fake, instead of giving me feedback. its very hard to learn that way, and i spend a lot of my energy responding to those accusations. i do have a tendency to learn things extremely quickly, and i am very intelligent. all of my teachers can tell you i am extremely bright. i think that because of my aptitude and intelligence, i may learn certain things a lot faster. this is only a theory of mine. i am not saying i am sure about any of it. in the future, if anyone has anything to say to me, please send me a private message instead of accusing me in the same place that i try to learn.

[xblimeyx]

i'm not accusing you, sorry if it came out that way i wish you all the best, and just wish you see that there is nothing to be depressed about

and btw, you should watch donnie darko again it's almost the same to what you are describing

[erynys]

i prolly will. i love donnie darko. and i love jake gyllenhaal. so yeah. lol. i seriously dont remember a timeline. all i remember is the thing coming out of peeps' chests.

[Canicula]

 
  hi erynys i don't really see how your post seem fake, but seems like you have a very active imagination. I'm not saying you making up your experiences. i just thought that because i used to have similar experiences when i was young and my imagination was in over drive


   



 

[erynys]

i can tell the difference between imagination and reality. im not insane. ive been through that whole ordeal.

[Nay]

I think in some cases people think they know the difference but they are still fooling themselves. 

I believe pretty much anything can happen in the astral but when it comes to the physical.. I'm not so sure.  As a child I couldn't tell the difference of being in the physical or the astral, it felt so real..solid.  I thought everyone played with colorful bugs and sparkling lights at night, in bed before falling asleep.  And here I am years later with a light-bulb over my head saying, "Ohhhh, I wasn't in the physical plane while playing with all those insects..."   

[erynys]

hmmmm. thats NEVER happened to me. nothing like it has happened to me either.

[Jelal67]

I thought people always talked to them before they fell asleep, but I never played with stuff like that... thats pretty neat...

[erynys]

yeah. none of the reasons are solid, and rely on other, non-related explanations. its not cool, guys. if you dont have a clue what im talking about, you werent meant to.

[Jelal67]

Perhaps thats how its meant to be, humanity is the one who made the divide between astral and physical, and some can break through that divide. Perhaps that schism is what original sin is all about...

[erynys]

i agree. its the humans!!! ugh. who know the worst disease was homo sapien.

[Hannah b]

 Interesting. How can one tell the difference between imagination and reality? What is imagination? What is reality? The older I get the more these boundaries seem to dissolve. Recently I've realized that I can experience situations in my "imagination", and therefore I don't have the need of experiencing them in the physical reality. I'm thrilled! What a time saver. Is it a "worse" experience since I lived it on a different level?
So one can say...yeah but how do you know that what you have experienced is the same as the "real" experience. I say: WHO CARES?? An experience is an experience whether it's a fantasy, a dream or an OBE. Personally I really don't see the difference and maybe I'm just really naive since I believe that all people on OBE forums are aware that we are multidimentional at ALL times...oh well

[Jelal67]

No Hanna, I think your very right, an experince is an experince no matter how it is viewed. Our imagination affects our perception profoundly and it is near impossible to seperate the two... but conversly their are certain trademarks of various experinces that set them apart for others... We are alwas multidimensional, its all about changing our limites minds into perciving other dimensional levels rather than just this one... its all incredibly awe inspiriing though, isn't it?