anyone else with me on this?

[Donal]

Hi, I am a bit overweight and am always worrying about it. Like if I lose a pound I get worried.

I rarely just let everything in the world go and get high or something, and not give a damn about anything, stop thinking about losing weight, everything. Suddenly feels like you can do so much then.

Swallowing sleeping pills at night and not going to sleep is a good method of getting this feeling.

It's like the feeling of the cosmos. Smoke Marijuana, sleeping pills, meth, whatever way. Then you just fade away, having a very pleasureable experience. Nothing gets in your way, and you can do so much. That chick I was too shy to go up to all my life, i'd walk up to her now to kiss me.

Those bills don't have much on me, or that I can't pay my rent, FUC! that. I'm getting high, things moving on their own in the room. excrement at the start of it I felt like I got picked ip and dropped somewhere. I like the consciousness places, rather than the everyday, worrying, I am going to lose weight or not. etc etc etc

I want a girlfriend, someone to be my princess, I am 19 and don't have one. My 1st cos had one at my age and my Sis says I need one, and I would really like one, I would cherish her footstep, and I may lose my virginity, Where should I look for my princess?


(BTW, the forum is messed up tonight, the colours are going upside down and twirling.)

[Rob]

Wow, er, you sound pretty out of it!! Well done  

To be honest, IMO the best places to meet a nice ladies are the clubs. Try a lot of different types of places too! Example, my favourite in Bath, metal/alternative club. Out with mate/mates, get hammered and chances are good I'll find myself chatting to randoms. But the more trendyish/stiggy("chav") places, people are less approachable and will approach strangers less.
Just getting used to talking to random people will help a lot, and will introduce you to a lot of new people, which is GoooOOOood. The more people you can meet, the better!! So also consider various joining groups/clubs (lol yeah the other sort of club, and I dont mean a 3ft  wooden one!). Get involved in the social scene! The more you can expand and open up your social life the better.
If you are looking for a princess, thats great. If you are looking for experience, thats great too! Good luck
I went out with a little angel for about a year and sorta more (she went to uni we had to split). Met her in my fav club, rather blatted, talked to her for about 2 minutes before getting intimate   . About a week before I prayed to God to find me a nice gf to love. Worked!!! Curiously, if we had both not been drunk it probably wouldnt have happened. The benefits of alcohol!! But yeah the praying thing....could be worth a go!

Rob

[Donal]

Haha, need to stop posting when i'm high

I think if I fancy a girl from now on i'll have the guts to eye her up. Before i'd look at her, but not have the guys to keep my eyes locked, and I would end up looking at her repeatedly and looking away straight away, and she'd be like "WTF?"

[PeacefulWarrior]

I don't have time to dedicate myself to this post right now, but I think I'll drop a few lines.  Now, I know I must take your first post with a grain of salt for obvious reasons, but I am still going to approach it in a more literal and serious way.

I used to have a drug problem, nothing very serious.  Mostly marijuana and alcohol, but I did use psychadelics and meth occassionally.  Then I realized how addiction works, and I worked my way out of it.

I am now happily married and have two degrees.  I am a successful educator and am learning web design.  I have a beautiful son and I enjoy my life immensely.

That feeling of wanting to escape the "worries" of day to day living, such as improving one's physical body, paying rent, etc. is very NEGATIVE.  When I stopped abusing drugs, I faced these worries head on.  I lost 40 lbs, I have enough money that I don't worry about rent,in fact I bought my own home (and now I worry about paying the mortgage...and I'm in Southern California, so let me tell you, my mortgage is ridiculous, at least in respect to how big my house is...in other words, lots of $$ for a small house).

Anyway, face yourself, stop getting high, lose some damned weight, and watch your happiness go up...OH, the the girl friend thing, I guaran-freakin-tee she'll appear.

Peace,
DT

[Rob]

Lol!! Great post Dan, couldnt agree more with what you have said there.

I used to have a drug problem, nothing very serious. Mostly marijuana and alcohol, but I did use psychadelics and meth occassionally. Then I realized how addiction works, and I worked my way out of it.

Ditto, except perhaps it was a bit serious on the weed front. Its a very bad way to be in, and also a very, very easy trap to fall into (slowly slowly, like some sort of creeping weed). Seriously Donal, you probably heard before, but do be careful ...
So hey, what did you work out about addiction? I would love to hear your take on it. The way I see it, it undermines your own will. So it helps to say "thats not me thinking I need another smoke, damnit! I will not!"

Anyway, face yourself, stop getting high, lose some damned weight, and watch your happiness go up...OH, the the girl friend thing, I guaran-freakin-tee she'll appear.

Aye!! Said!!
IMO a golden rule is often, you get out what you put in. If you properly and actually will yourself in a certain direction in life, sometimes even if its only in thought/intent, wheels are set in motion which inevitably produce results.

Rob

[PeacefulWarrior]

Rob-
I'm glad we see eye to eye on this.  I'm also content that my satire came through.

Addiction is a sticky wicket.  Once an addict, always an addict...even if you're not using, which is where I'm at...and although I'm happier now that I'm "clean," there's always a part of me that thinks, "Hmmm, I bet if I called what's his name right now..."  As with you, marijuana was my achilles heal.  I was/am a psychological addict.

Setting goals, big or small, is what gets us through life...that's the main thing Donal needs to realize.

[Jenadots]

First, stop getting high.  Then get yourself into some kind of school and find some kind of profession you love.  

Your angel will then be able to find you and you would be worth finding.