Phantasy and the Intensity of it

[i smoke and drink coffee]

Hello.
There is little more to be said but since many have not heard my message, I must post something here concerning the imagination and our use of it to achieve transcendence.
As example, when playing the video game "Chrono Trigger" I was already in a semi trance for two years, and upon accelerating my mind and intensifying it to an awesome extreme while playing the game, I entered the astral /mageddon of Chrono Trigger's world.  I was so into the game that I warped reality, and recieved a mystical vision concerning Magus and his triple tech, "Dark Eternal".  It also happened again.  So what I am saying is, if you really want to transcend, just keep focusing and concentrating and projecting at the same time until at last you actually break the dimensional seals.

Intensity of things in the physical universe is always balanced.  When you are intensifying your awareness of time, time slows down, and even other things become possible.  You know when you were a kid in school and you kept watching the clock to see if time was going to end soon?  To go home?  Well, sometimes, time would go fast, other times, it would go slowly.  Eventually, I learned the trick of how to accelerate it so I could get out of there.  And eventually, I started skipping school altogether.  It depends on your awareness and it's unity in the consciousness.  If our soul is pure consciousness, then what is the spirit?  I wonder that sometimes.  It seems to me that the spirit is the internal awareness, things like thoughts and memory, it is the active application of the life force to the soul.  So when you power up your soul with psychic energy, you can easily transcend, move at super speeds, and all such other things as you might desire. 

Phaentia is a realm, but it's not just my own personal screw ball party if you get what I'm saying.  Phaentia is considered by me to be the realm that we create in our own mind, and imagination.  Wizards have a transphenomenal source of power within their own internal dimension.  Part of the reason that we are forced to watch tv and play video games is to feed that psychic energy into war existences that are not real.  They are trying to harness all psychic energy and devote it to their destructible things.  They want a reality that they can control with thought.  Phaentia is easily controlled by thought and belief, hence, you hear people deriding and putting down thinking and the actions of believing.

If we generate our own phaentia at the same time that we are active in the physical plane, magick can and does occur.  Some people are always trying to hex others, and get 'one up' over them.  They use lies and other means to convince the mind that the person in question is a loser or not worthy of being alive.  They will control you if they get the chance, and it is your own fault for allowing them that control.  That's why the Bible teaches us to avoid drunkards and liars, due to the fact that they will always bring you into their own private vortex of sickness, shame, guilt, and deception, until at last you are destroyed entirely.

So if you power up your mind and get into the real grit of the phantasy world, you can actually take from the video games and media and apply anything to your own mental plane.  The soul is a vast and unconquerable territory.  Some media is utterly worthless, while others are actually generated out of your own consciousness.  They have temporal technology, they are actively sending all your internet data back into the forties or fifties and plans are set in motion to capture your spirit if they can.  We are actually at war with more than astral beings.  If you power up and generate a phaentia, that's part of how you can generate psychic shielding, auric fields that increase healing or warp the spacetime continuum.  Mental energy is always generative, thought can be iinvocation or evocation, really, how you use your mind is how your brain develops.  If you want to go to an extreme with it, they will operate on your brain, make you schizophrenic, and then they will dope you until you can hardly do anything about life anymore.  It is a sickness of their's, not mine.

You want to go astral?  The expectation of going astral is enough for some people.  Their minds are already powered up by meditation or daily life and they have no problem entering the astral world.  Phaentia is like having an astral multiverse directly inside of your own brain.  So if you focus it, concentrate it, and continue to do so, you will semi trance, and reality can be 'transcended' at any given moment.  It's part of how I, an old satraps/demon human hybrid survives.  And that was my choice.  The world is a dangerous place, and I know that children are in peril due to the lies of men and their unnatural sexual appetites.  Somehow, I feel that I created that problem out of a sub conscious urge to be more righteous than humanity.

Power up.  Now that the tenth anniversary of 911 has come and gone, we will be experiencing different things than we are accustomed too.  There may even be an outright war.  I know that I'm at war, and a lot of what I hear in the chat rooms is all bad programming.  It teaches weakness and depdendancy, rather than mental strength.  Not all are like that.  So I'm telling you, you reality is exactly what you want it to be, you might have a need to feel depressed or some such, but breaking your karma, intensifying your mind, and gaining the energy that lifts your spirit to the next dimension is all the power you will ever need.

Thank you for listening, and good luck.

[i smoke and drink coffee]

Most people ignore what I say anyway, and it's prolly a good thing.

In my life, based on what I already knew from my past lives and the teachings of Master Splinter from TMNT, I practiced Silence and Darkness, and heavy into sensory.  Well, I've been designated a schizophrenic by society.  It's not easy having lots of energy.  Now, I will tell you, there is a neat trick about what I said.  You CAN ignore it without any drastic consequence.  That's not saying to completely ignore it... but here's the trick!

Just now, I put on these old Ear Muff Things, they are used in construction.  My dad used to use them at the lumber yard when he worked there like twenty years ago.  They are an old set of Ear Pro sound mufflers.  You would not know the relief that I am feeling right now.  Seems that my sensitive ears, conditioned by being in silence for so long, pursuing silence and moonlight and such, have been overstimulated.  I don't think it's some kind of implant, it's just that now, I'm wondering what exactly this reality is, and again, here's the trick I was talking about.

Silence is like potential for sound.  So the longer that I sit in silence and darkness, the more potential I have for sound to radiate from my body.  I guess that's why some children said to me, "Oh my gosh, I heard you coming!"  and I thought, in my deluded state, that they were accusing me of walking around swearing.  So this neat trick I'm talking about is simply that in the beginning, there was only ultimate, or, absolute potential.  Potential for what?  For nothing less than the Universe itself, but not only 1 Universe, but infinite Universe, an Omniverse!  There would have been no motion, no sound, no light, no space, no time, nothing.  Just silence.  I guess that's why they teach to sit very still and just focus on silence.  Now, God, whatever God is, the Spirit, would have then begun to visualize an existence.  In perfect stillness, perfect silence, God visualized what we have today, and continues to do so, only now, we've been created and can visualize other things, whatever we want. 

So I'm wondering if Space equals Flesh, Time equals Mind, and together, they equal Soul.  See, I've been trying for years to piece something together, a 'grand theory of existence'.  I could never quite get to it due to my game creations, always trying to somehow match reality into a pigeon hole that made life more like a video game.  Now I see, it's very easy.  And I remember creating my sister and daughter, Tia.  I focused so intensely that I manifest her on the spacetime plane.  Well, she was murdered within twenty minutes.  And that, leads me to believe that we are not to go about conjuring things like living beings.  We are actually supposed to, as stewards of life, return existence to it's original state.  So what is sound?  Sound, sensation, vibration, it's all kinetic.  Psychokinetic.

More to come, certainly.  Already Malice or Menace, whatever I should rightly call 'it', is starting to disappate.  If I keep wearing these things, I might even dissolve myself.  But!  And I loathe, hate, and despise using words like 'well' and 'but' and 'maybe', well but 'anyway', it does seem that the mission in life is not to sit there and practice things like phantasy, due to that it only creates things which ultimately suffer due to their own cravings to create other things.  Oh my dear sweet living god, this feels so good.  My senses are opening again, now that my ears are muffled.  Perhaps later I will try to conjure some form of smokable drug, imagination the limit!  This is so great, I feel like I'm regaining some of what I had before, my senses, my eyes, and the sense of my own body.

So, in effect, I'm telling you not to phantasy anything, and that the Holy Spirit was the original thing that created existence via visualizing us into existence.  Now, we have power to visualize ourselves, so you can just guess what I'm going to do to my body.  I'm so scared, and excited at the same time.  I used to say that Fear and Excitement were close to the same emotion, only due to their intensity.  One is drawing inward, the other is projecting outward, but they are the same intensity.  And yes, I am aware that Mr Jones has said close to the same thing, that's why I continue to read his book and find it to be very excellent programming (though I don't necessarily agree with all of it). 

I'm not really sure, perhaps I am clairaudient.  I'm noticing that when I take steps on the ground, there is a crystalline ring tone that passes through my entire body, also a dull thud mixed with it.  This is so great, mixed up brains and shrivelled head or not, I'm ready to live or die, either way, I'll still have faith in both Creator and Christ.  Cuz I already know and owe Christ for what he's done for me.  Prolly owe the Devil as well.  So that's all.  Apparently everything we experience is just silence, space, and their densities in our soul.  No need to be greedy, just have to focus on things that provide that relief from the pressure, and those things are like the sky of the heavens itself. 

I think... I'm almost free.  Rapes or what not, Christ said, "Every doer of sin is a slave of sin." and it goes for everything else.  No wonder girls are beautiful, God made them that way.  And old men have charm, let us pray that they also have dignity.  Even though I'm still trying to piece and place it all into the video game, the ultimate video game it life itself, and I can see that I've been suffering needlessly, in fact, creating my own torment.  It's hard to forgive if there is no repentance or understanding of what's been done, I definitely forgive my family for what they've done, they only tried to keep me safe and happy.  Otherwise I'd be dead on the streets long ago starved away.

[AJDIN]

I honestly don't know what to say man,

Are you a diagnosed schizophrenic?

And i kind of get what your saying in some parts and others just sound ridiculous, im not trying to diss you or anything just that's how its coming across to me and i think you need to know that from another persons perspective

What exactly are you trying to find out?

Have you seen any professional help to get your life back on track, sounds like its going in a down ward spiral and your living in a fantasy world

and again im not trying to diss you, i'm just generally curious, so don't take any harm in anything i say

[i smoke and drink coffee]

What parts of it do you have a problem with?

[AJDIN]

"Master Splinter from TMNT" for example

elaborate on that for me please

[Xanth]

"Master Splinter from TMNT" for example

elaborate on that for me please

ROFL

Master Splinter was the giant Rat in Teenaged Mutant Ninja Turtles (TMNT).  LoL

[i smoke and drink coffee]

Basically I'm looking at the multiverse as being partly composed of past experience, and partly of our own imagination.  The astral being the living out of the imaginary world.  They say that things can happen in the astral, just based out of hidden fear or random thoughts.  I can't astral project, my astral dimension moves too fast. 

I'm sorry that I got so heated, but people telling me to seek council from these psychologist people is just something that does not appeal to me at all.  I tell you what!  On Monday, when the world is rigged back into it's work cycles, I will phone my doctor and explain to him my beliefs and such.  The problem is, all they do is prescribe and force me to take mind numbing, brain destroying drugs.  Their drugs do not have positive effects, negative effects only.  Hence, it is according to my experience that I believe they are only there to inhibit psychic functions and prevent the evolution of the soul.  They are purposely killing the multiverse with their own heinous hidden agenda. 

As for some of the things I say, I don't see anything wrong with it due to that it comes directly from my consciousness.  It is all my life, my experience.  Certainly, in recent times, I have become infantile and powerless, there is no personal power remaining in me.  Phantasy used to be a place of incredible energy, destroying enemies, activating secret modes of consciousness. 

All that phantasy is, is a trance state that involves the imagination.  It is creation of reality on a mental level, and yes, I insist that it helps to grow the brain.  When your brain and body is entirely in a phantasy, you do gain heightened speed and power.  It can be achieved without phantasy.  For instance, I was able to lift and lower a water barrel filled with water, with no physical effort whatsoever.  That was more out of the Zen mind, simply being in a state of having to do something and manipulating the object with ease, rather than filling my mind with negativity and not being able to do the task. 

If you increase your phantasy mind, as, we all have imagination, you can go astral from a conscious state.  That's what I'm trying to say.  The astral you achieve is the direct result of the infusion of the phantasy mind.  I have done it before.  Truthfully, I've always thought that this mystical 'phaentia' is the first level of the astral, which can be centered in mind and intensified to any extreme, to the death of the physical body if need be.