Sudden anger/thoughts

[ArmyOfOne1911]

I have times. Kinda like right now. Where I hate everybody, everything, and get shaky and agitated. Mostly over the silliest of things. Sometimes it's just a sudden moment. I am very controlled. I do not act out my anger but I feel hate and pain all throughout my body. Sometimes I think it's from my life and all I have to deal with. I am not sure I can even meditate right now. Is this normal? I think every chakra in my body is out of line right now. It hasn't been this bad for a while. I am not suicidal but I do have visions of hurting certain people sometimes. Again, I would never act out. It's the exact opposite of who I am. I don't know why this is happening. I am in so much pain right now. What could be causing this?

[Lionheart]

 It may be someone else's anger, feelings. You may be a conduit of people around you. Look into "Access Consciousness". I find it very interesting and have been practicing it quite a bit myself lately. Question everything that you feel, pain, emotions, etc. You will find that sometimes we carry other people's burden and it might be as easy picking it up as walking down the street.

[007]

I get that as well sometimes but less since I started trying self help with EFT, I don't know if that's something you might want to look into.  and also something that has helped me is, a meditation technique where you have to sit and not move a muscle for prolonged periods of time, this might help if you start getting in a rage

[Stookie_]

On top of the good advice already:

For me, the trick has been to learn to notice the pattern as soon as it's coming on, and immediately take hold of my thinking before a negative thought or feeling begins the loop, because I know once I get in the cycle, my day can be ruined. I've been practicing it for years, and constantly get better and better and it. Really meditating everyday has been the biggest help. Using that time to quiet my thoughts and learning to choose what I'm going to think about, rather than letting random and negative thoughts take the lead. It's not a quick fix, but a healthy one.

I've had a LOT of practice here lately, and more to come, I'm sure. That's life.

[psychedelia]

if your saying that you can maintain control over your rage when it happens but when it does you wanna explode like literally and over the smallest of things such as oh ha good example.....i just made a long post well when i make long ones everytime i touch a button it throws me back to the top of my screen and omg it makes me beyond mad just thinking about it and it shouldnt really bother me but it does;/

[ArmyOfOne1911]

^^

No, actually what I had was a manic episode. I actually got in a fetal position and cried. I was actually scaring myself. :/
Just between my anxiety, depression, touretts, women, family stuff, I think I hold all of it so well but overtime I just lose control... but I am so sensitive. I wonder if it's the spirits around me and like the above guys said I am picking up moods from other entities.

[urshebear]

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if your saying that you can maintain control over your rage when it happens but when it does you wanna explode like literally and over the smallest of things such as oh ha good example.....i just made a long post well when i make long ones everytime i touch a button it throws me back to the top of my screen and omg it makes me beyond mad just thinking about it and it shouldnt really bother me but it does;/

At the top of your screen next to the address bar there should be a button that looks like a shredded piece of paper. click on it and this shouldn't happen again

@Armyofone

I know how you feel. I absorb peoples emotions and negativity. I hate it. I am constantly trying to make everyone around me happy because if I don't it means absorbing their negative energy and feeling like crap myself.
I also cant drink alcohol anymore because even a small amount can leave me depressed for days.
It is possible to switch your mindset for example if you are thinking "everybody hates me" turn it around and say to yourself "everybody admires me" even if you don't believe it at first keep repeating it in your head.
Try to keep your mind off the crap by doing something productive. at first you wont feel like doing anything but you kind of have to force yourself haha otherwise just talking about your feelings can help too
Remember, if it weren't for the bad times we could never truly appreciate the good.

[Lionheart]

 Try to create a invisible protective "shield" around, you can enhance it every time you meditate. If you believe this will work, it will. 

[urshebear]

lionheart I dont mean to be rude but can I ask what part of the world you are from?

[Lionheart]

 I currently live in Minnesota, United States of America. Where are you from?

[Astral316]

You're placing all your bets on one table... this life, this low frequency reality. Don't let it corrupt you. Through suffering one builds righteousness which is a viable path to liberation. You're truly experiencing a free casino, everybody wins in the end you just have to know it. Let the poker chips dissolve and be free.

[urshebear]

Oh I am from New Zealand. was just tripping out for a second because what you said reminded me of someone in my metaphysics class who also calls himself lionheart sometimes

[ArmyOfOne1911]

This is really great advice everybody. I am doing so much better. I will keep in mind all of the above. I was told by a medium once I might be a "empath" I think that's what she said? (does quick google search) Yeah! That was it... I will have to read up on that... You know I got to thinking, "anxiety" "depression" touretts" are just words we use to understand eachother or describe something. After all if there were no words... there wouldn't be a such thing... I bought a book today called "The subtle body" on energy systems and chakras... It's like an encyclopedia. It's great stuff... I really think if I practice meditation and energy healing on a daily basis, and learn to control my emotions etc... I will be alot better.

Thank you all so much.

[ZiggyMike]

The trick is to notice and catch yourself doing it. And say, "Oh gosh I am doing it again aint I?" reaffirm to yourself, I am bigger than this, I am bigger than this. That should help you recover.

[Astir]

It is okay to get angry sometimes...when you focus too hard on being positive and happy at all times anger will always seem to sneak up on you.  That's my experience.  Many have told me I am the most empathic human they have ever met.  In my opinion it's a very negative attribute.  If I am near an angry toddler I will absorb their irrational (even metabolic induced) crustiness. 
And I work retail, which makes me a different person everyday from 9 to 7.  Having a disposable income apparently makes people/consumers extremely angry...I absorb all of that.  I experience a lot of other peoples anger, by the time I get home I am at peace.  It's routine, I deal with it.  I cannot meditate the emotions of others away.   

Just never act on anything you experience,  internalize it.  Don't try not to experience your emotions either, just moderate your behavior and don't unleash on others.