what disease do I suffer from?

[CFTraveler]

So I take it eating a tums won't help with the alkalinity factor?  (JK)

[cavernstoy]

 

[rygoody]

Hi, I think that when I see people on TV that they can see me, and communicate with me. Same with posters, people talking through my speakers, etc. I have had these beliefs since puberty.

Also, if I see a license plate of a car, and if it ends in a number like 4, or, 6, 8 things will happen a certain way, and that if they end like 3, or 5,7, things will happen a different way. I literally believe this. Or if the seconds hands on a clock ends on the right side of the clock this will happen that way, if it lands on the left hand side of the clock, another way.  Events like these go on etc.

I never believe that I am alone, and I never talk to people if I see them, only recently do I talk to people. Anyway, I am taking risperdal (2MG) and these experiences are lessening. I am being put up to 3MG now. I took 6MG the other day and for once for years I felt by myself, like I had control of my own thoughts, and destiny.

What do you think I suffer from? I told my psychiatrist these things (he put me on the risperdal) but does not think schizophrenia.

Feeling that your never alone and are always being watched is actually a very accurate perception I believe. I have it myself, I never do feel alone.

But understand, that the manifestation of 'people' around you is your minds doing most likely. The 'presence' you feel is not people, your subconscious is just presenting it to your conscious as people because thats the easiest way for your conscious to comprehend it. But what it really is, is your becoming intuitionally aware of the conscious the permeates through everything and does essentially always watch you, just as you unknowingly always watch it because your part of it. But people it is not. You may be schizophrenic for perceiving it as 'people', but you are by no means schizophrenic for perceiving 'presence'. We are always in the presence of something we can't comprehend directly. The schizophrenic mind has trouble grasping this thing and accepting it for it is, so it will make it easier to comprehend it by manifesting it as people, spirits, personality, anthropomorphic things. But I would not worry too much, I would not try to get rid of it. I would try to go deeper into it, analyze it through meditation, you'll discover yourself what exactly it is. Which for a while your subconscious may still manifest it as 'people', but your conscious will know what it is and eventually your subconscious will adapt and no longer do that.

[paker7]

Hi, I think that when I see people on TV that they can see me, and communicate with me. Same with posters, people talking through my speakers, etc. I have had these beliefs since puberty.

Also, if I see a license plate of a car, and if it ends in a number like 4, or, 6, 8 things will happen a certain way, and that if they end like 3, or 5,7, things will happen a different way. I literally believe this. Or if the seconds hands on a clock ends on the right side of the clock this will happen that way, if it lands on the left hand side of the clock, another way.  Events like these go on etc.

I never believe that I am alone, and I never talk to people if I see them, only recently do I talk to people. Anyway, I am taking risperdal (2MG) and these experiences are lessening. I am being put up to 3MG now. I took 6MG the other day and for once for years I felt by myself, like I had control of my own thoughts, and destiny.

What do you think I suffer from? I told my psychiatrist these things (he put me on the risperdal) but does not think schizophrenia.

Sounds like a mild case of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.

[sk8chik]

I actually made an account just to post how strongly I feel about something brought up in this post. I STRONGLY urge someone suffering from mental conditions not to use marijuana. I went through a HORRIBLE period of my life in which I can relate very much with everyone on this post who described very neurotic conditions that made just living so difficult. I entered this period while smoking high dosages of marijuana. I eventually realized how horrible the marijuana was agitating/worsening the mental condition I had gotten into and was able to cut it off point blank, and I am so proud to say I've managed to recover from that horrible period. They put me on resperdol as well but that was no good for me. I used Lamictal and that helped, although I wouldn't necessarily recommend it to anyone, but I do believe it helped me. A lot of people in my circle use marijuana as frequently as I did and don't suffer from the conditions I had, but people vary energetically so much from person to person, and some people are more vulnerable to developing terrible mental illnesses from psychological toxins such as marijuana. I very strongly believe that if you are using marijuana extensively, cutting it out will be a tremendous boost to your recovery, and if you are not currently using it, starting to is certainly not going to be a gateway to a free pass out. I feel this strongly because I have experienced it. So strongly I made this account just to make this post

[greggkroodsma]

Hi, I think that when I see people on TV that they can see me, and communicate with me. Same with posters, people talking through my speakers, etc. I have had these beliefs since puberty.

Also, if I see a license plate of a car, and if it ends in a number like 4, or, 6, 8 things will happen a certain way, and that if they end like 3, or 5,7, things will happen a different way. I literally believe this. Or if the seconds hands on a clock ends on the right side of the clock this will happen that way, if it lands on the left hand side of the clock, another way.  Events like these go on etc.

I never believe that I am alone, and I never talk to people if I see them, only recently do I talk to people. Anyway, I am taking risperdal (2MG) and these experiences are lessening. I am being put up to 3MG now. I took 6MG the other day and for once for years I felt by myself, like I had control of my own thoughts, and destiny.

What do you think I suffer from? I told my psychiatrist these things (he put me on the risperdal) but does not think schizophrenia.

I would say you are suffering from the risperdal syndrome and the doctor should be jailed or you should be calmed down one.  An overactive mind is what you suffer from.  Most musicians enjoy what you have because they haven't gone to somebody that will get them hooked on some drug that they think will cure you.  Now, however old you are will determine whether the syndrome is coupled with stupidity or not.  If it is not stupidity, it may take a little longer to cure.  Established belief systems coupled with the concept of parent/child is a strong thing to break.
My suggestion is to start with magnesium to calm the system and try to channel this 'gift' that you have.