About five years ago I started experiencing the "rushing noises," the feeling of a presence, and even tactile sensations like pulling on the blankets. I chalked it up to some kind of nighttime hallucination, or 'waking dream.' After some research I learned that many people have this. I read that it could lead to an "out of body" experience, and within a short time I was able to get out of body and I happily began to explore. So far so good.
Then in April, it all started to dry up. I'd get a few weak vibrations, but not enough to separate. Now I haven't had the aura or the vibrations in about six months. This is very disappointing, of course. I wracked my brain trying to identify what changed, and there was only one possible answer: my husband left in April (after some very stressful years) and I've been much happier ever since.
Since this was a little bit counter-intuitive, I tried to dig deeper. Some people believe in malevolent entities, and I had to consider the possibility that I was meeting his negativity in the astral realm. I do know that he watched pornography in the next room while he thought I was asleep. He also matches many of the traits of a clinical psychopath and is a high-functioning alcoholic. Is there any chance I was picking up on his negative energy? Do you think removing the TV and devices he used had any effect? The timing seems to support that.
Please note that I'm not trying to blame him here! I welcome this window into the other world, I just want to get it back. Thank you in advance for your input.
PS I have hinted at this "dry spell" in past posts, and have already been told that it's normal. I think enough time has gone by to believe that it's not just a normal dry spell.
Unfortunately, it’s going to be difficult for anyone to give you a straight answer. I know that we all have numerous personalities or states of consciousness that are triggered depending on the environment (people) that we are in. Perhaps when you were with your ex you felt like you wanted to be somewhere else which facilitated your ability to have obe?
Sometimes believing that negative entities are the root cause of your dry spell can cause unwanted placebo effects. Good luck in your troubleshooting effort.
Do you think it's a coincidence that your "dry spells" began as soon as you joined this forum? For the past few years I've dedicated my life to understanding consciousness. Spending thousands of hours reseaching and practicing, hoping to understand what it's all about. Do you know what I've learned about consciousness over all of these years? Nothing. Nothing that can be measured or quantified in any real sense.
The question you have to ask yourself is why. Why do you want to astral project? To prove that it's real, that it exists, or maybe just to have fun? And then what? I would hate to see anyone continue down a path similar to mine. Obsessing over something that cant be explained. Others spend there entire lives happily living without thinking about things such as this for a second. So, do yourself a favor, quit while you're ahead.
I will have to respectfully disagree. I think I said this before but just because you weren’t successful in figuring out what consciousness is all about doesn’t mean someone else can’t. Not every scientist that tries to find a cure for a disease succeeds.
I can only speak for myself, but this is the way I see it. The reality in which I exist is like a toy store. When we first experience life, being the curious beings that we are, we start playing with the new toys; we are enthralled by them, marvel and play with them, the novelty wears off and move on to the next toys. Some people, as they grow older, never get enough of the new toys, so they keep on playing. Other people, like me, “feel” as if we have played through every toy in the store and no longer hold any fascination for them. Since the external stimuli no longer holds our attention, we begin to search within. That’s why things such as obe’s and consciousness intrigue me.
Some people have a calling to be doctors, scientists, teachers, etc… My calling is the exploration of consciousness. That is what “I” consider to be the true final frontier. I understand that the path is no easy. It’s very time consuming, and can be lonely and depressing at times, but that is a price that I’m gladly willing to pay. It is my opinion that in order to know where I'm going, I should understand who and what I am both externally (history, science) as well as internally (consciousness).
Perhaps, although I don’t think that this is the case, obe’s are hallucinations. What then? Was all this time applied researching and experiencing them spent in vein? What about inventors such as Nokola Tesla who was able to harness the power of the subconscious mind to build and test the feasibility of highly complex machines within his imagination? I’ve had an experience in which I achieved a state of mind that allowed me to tap into a part of the subconscious that greatly enhanced my ability to express myself with words. Poetry came easy for me and I’m obviously NOT a poet, and words that would never have come to me when speaking or writing came to me effortlessly, similar to the movie
Limitless. So yes, consciousness fascinates me, and I will continue experiencing and researching this phenomenon to whatever end.
Let me ask you this—do you think that learning to have obe’s and perhaps, in a mundane sense, apply this state to help you find solutions to problems, invent, enhance your creativity in music, art and so forth, be an evolutionary advantage?
I understand that this path isn’t for everybody and that’s fine but please don’t presume to think that you know what’s best for anybody other than yourself. We’re not all built to the same specifications. We don’t all need the emotional support or the approval of others to be happy.
My 2 cents…
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