I finally figured out what my sleep paralysis was. It used to really scare me. I need some advice!
The first time it happened was when I came back from South Korea to Vancouver Canada, 2 years ago. I was super jet legged and passed out in the afternoon. As I was about to fall asleep I could hear a weird buzzing noise in my ears that got louder and louder. It freaked me out so I tried to move. I couldn't I tried harder and i finally flung myself to my left and then to my right. I felt like I was actually doing this. When I flung myself to the right I could see weird script and symbols write up my bedroom wall in red. It freaked me out more and I tried to move again to my left. I flung myself to the left and looked down at the end of my bed. To my horror I saw a little skinny man, crouching on the end of my bed with a big grin on his face. He had a really pointy chin and nose. He was also wearing a fedora hat and a suit. He seemed to be all in a grey hue. When I saw him he reacted and looked surprised that I could see him. He got up in fast motion and ran out the door, almost as though it was in fast forward motion. It really freaked me out and I finally woke up in my bed in the same position that I was starting to fall asleep in.
The second time I was just a normal night and I went to bed. I had the same symptoms as in the first experience. I started to hear buzzing in my ears and I tried to fight it by flinging myself left and right. Again! I saw the little man at the end of my bed crouching and smiling. He was still wearing the suit and fedora as last time I saw him. This time I saw him for a second and then he disappeared and I woke up in my bed in the middle of the night. I was really scared to fall asleep again, because I didn't want to see him, because of this my mind was completely awake and my body was falling asleep again. I keep fighting off the night paralysis the entire night and didn't get much sleep.
Sorry if this a long story but I promise I'll try to wrap it up and get to my point of making this post.
The third time it happened. This is the weirdest one. I was already in a dream. I was in a city and I was exploring it with my family. I some how left my family and was alone in a train station. I had a weird feeling over me in this dream. I felt as though I was fading away. My body was starting to go invisible and disappear. I kept trying to fight it because it felt as thought I was dying. I realised by now that I was in a dream. The fading kept happening and finally I gave up and let it happen. When i let it happen loud static and electronic noises bellowed in my ears, almost as though someone is changing a radio station. I saw a vortex in field of view and I could feel wind whipping around me almost as though i was moving really fast. In my head I heard a voice. It was a woman's voice. She said, "I gave birth to the universe and all life." I then felt like I was shot into my bed and woke up with a jolt. I was sweating a lot and my heart was racing. It scared me a lot and I really wanted to know what was going on with me. I couldn't sleep the rest of that night and was super tired at work the next day.
I finally decided to do some research and came across hundreds and hundreds of people with the same cases that I have, with the same symptoms. It freaked me out a little. That it was more common and maybe I wasn't crazy. As I researched I came across Astral Projection and boom! Everything finally clicked in my head. I read a lot that day and I felt really excited to finally figure out what this sleep paralysis is all about. That night I went to bed. Still a little nervous about Astral projection, because I thought what if you get stuck out side of your body and can never return. I also heard of the movie Insidious, which also freaked me out. I didn't want to get possessed or have a demon take over my body. It was really hard for me to fall asleep, because I was nervous it would happen again. The room was dark and felt a little creepy. Sure enough it did happen. The buzzing noise started to build up in my ears and i felt I couldn't move. It got really scared when this happened and tried to move and snap out of it. I broke free from the paralysis all of a sudden but I noticed I could see the room even with my eyes closed. I scrambled to grab my wife next to me in the bed. I flung my heavy arms out to grab her. They felt like rubber. I felt as though I was being pulled out of my body from behind at my legs. It felt like something was behind me pulling me out. I was in a full panic and hung on to my wife. I started to shake her but nothing happened! I tried to scream but nothing came out! I felt like I was slightly above my body. Everything was so clear and real. I could see my whole room and I could see how my wife was sleeping on her side with her back to me. The paralysis faded away and I woke up and could see my wife still asleep in the same position I saw her in that dream or whatever it was. I was terrified to fall asleep again and didn't sleep much the rest of the night.
Recently I have gotten used to the buzzing noises and paralysis. In fact when it happens, I welcome it. I'm really curious what's on the other side and I want to explore it so badly. I've been having an episode probably once a night now. I hear the buzzing noises and I let them get louder and louder until it goes quiet. I feel like I'm still in my body but I sometimes force myself to move and it feels so real that I think I'm awake and just go deeper into sleep. I then slip away into a dream. I think I'm too relaxed about it now that I find myself just slipping into a dream after i hear the buzzing. Then I forget about what I was trying to do. Sometimes I feel myself floating up but it's all black. I'm afraid to open my eyes cause I think I'll wake up. Usually I suddenly can see through my closes physical eyes and that's when I know I'm ready to try to get out of my body. But recently it's just been all black.
I need some advice. I need to know how to get up and out of my body. I don't find imagining that there is a magnet above my head works. I tried all the visual tips but they don't work. So far the closest thing to work was when I went into panic. I'm still nervous to see that little man with the hat, but I am curious to know if he is my guide? Or is he good or bad? I hope he is good even thought he has a menacing look on his face.
Any help would be greatly appreciated. I really want to get good at this so that I can do it when ever I want.
Thank you!
Jeff
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