Odd attempt

[stellina757]

I have been attempting every day with not much progress at this point. Just a lot of the same. Yesterday something was different about my attempt however. I felt like my mind was clouded completely right from the beginning and I COULDN'T really control my thoughts and my hands were going numb pretty much within a minute. This happens to me usually 30 minutes in or so never so fast. Any idea on why it happened so fast and why I couldn't really control my thoughts? It's like I had to make so much effort to rein in my thoughts. It was so clouded. Should I have just let it ride out? I got nervous because I was trying to think one thing but it's like my mind wouldn't let me.

[apsinvo]

Maybe your practice is paying off - it sounds like you did good Don't get nervous, and don't 'try' to do anything, ESPECIALLY not controlling or forcing your thinking! It sounds as if your body was starting to fall asleep - great! The most important thing is to be aware. If you have hundreds of thoughts in your head, just remain aware of them and don't fall asleep. At the same time though, don't try to force your thoughts away, or force them into anything else, as all that involves is more effort and thinking Hope this helps!