almost there

[monk-5]

One night not that long ago I was in my room sharing private thoughts with my guide when all of a sudden I became emotional again but in a good way. I sort of fell in a little trance because when I become emotional in a loving way I always do and start remembering past lives. I heard the neg say "OH NO SHE IS GETTING MORE POWERFUL" which was said in fear .. she distracted me from my trance unfortunately i regain consciousness but I was almost there. I almost dissolved her in my love. Damn it. Now if only I can go back to that state of mind without distractions! lol