Wi11iam I just wanted to tell you a say a few things here.
Before I post a reply to anybody here I have learned how important it is to go back into their "posting history" and see what i can learn. Then and only then can I properly answer their questions or post to the best of my knowledge.
I just recently found your Youtube channel and have looked at some of your videos there, definitely not all 70 though.
I see that you had an experience, like many people here do that has led you to question almost everything, your entire existence.
Tom Campbell talks about people seeing what they need to see when they need to see it.
I too had an "eye opening" experience, which consequently led me to the Astral Pulse.
At first I learned everything I could to try and learn to consciously Phase/Project. I was a great student and read every PDF and book I could find.
I began to practice what I learned and was successful, until the day I started questioning everything. I found when I started to do that, I couldn't Phase anymore. This went on for about a month.
When I finally just decided to just allow what happens to happen and drop the questions, I was "allowed back in. But this time I was constantly reminded to "just observe" and a good observer I became.
I see you have now turned into a Philosopher of types,, but unfortunately without an audience. You are definitely a "Thinking Man" and that's not a bad thing to be. You just need to ALLOW the answers to funnel through you. Do this and they will come.
I can also see that all your questions have hindered your "experiencing" anything in the NPR consciously aware anymore.
I do want to say though, I was highly impressed by your "Glass Mirrors of the Earth". Those are spectacular and very creative. You have put a lot of thought and symbolism into them. They are incredible pieces of Art in my opinion. I too create "Wheels" of sorts, but use them mostly as portals for my NPR exploration. Definitely something you should try as well.

I questioned an "End Game" before because you have now created 3 different threads, all based on the same idea. Once a thread goes dry, you wait awhile and come back and start the conversation over again under a different "guise" per say.
What is it that you wish to hear here? What can other members here finally say to you to give you "piece of mind" once more?
That's what I mean when I ask the question, "what is your end game"?
I have seen many members here reach out to you to respond to your questions or "philosophies", but then you turn around and question what they have to say.
Every answer leads to more questions which leads to more answers, which leads to more questions, until finally people here start to tire of it because they see it's going nowhere fast.
Yes this is a open Forum and we are currently in under the heading of "Welcome to Integral Philosophy", so in turn you have done nothing wrong.
But if you start to be more inviting to people and show them you are listening, instead of just debating them all the time, you will see that more people will respond to what you have to say.
No one can prove what is right and what isn't right now. Everyone has there own truths based on what they are "seeing" and experiencing themselves in the NPR. Those become their truths.
Try to ALLOW the NPR to teach you yours as well. You will see that it will oblige your request. It could be by riddles/puzzles or quests, but in the end you will find what you seek.
I see a lot of myself in you. I just enjoy my privacy too much to start a youtube channel and I'm not really into the social media stuff.
I'm just happy to come here and correspond with other like minded people, that are searching, as I am for their own truths, which leads to them finding themselves.
Just last night I saw that I have much more to learn. I have never doubted that, for this World is our classroom.
But last night I awoke in a Lucid Dream, I thought I had gained full awareness, then I experienced full Sleep Paralysis to the max and then did nothing. The next thing I knew I was being screamed at and surrounded by people telling me something serious had happened to MJ's one and only Grandson.
Once I awoke, I was extremely annoyed at myself for allowing that to happen. I knew I was Dreaming, it changed into the SP, but this SP was different than I had ever experienced. It was like being in a shaking dark tunnel, I then lost my awareness and the next thing I knew, I was in a full blown terror scene.
Oh, well, back to the drawing board! At least I knew what was happening and why.
I feel for the many people of the World that awaken in a full blown SP fear scenario. It really is the true meaning of Terror.
I hope you don't take this post of mine here as an attack, because that's the last thing I wished it to be.
I am going to listen to more of his Youtube videos, but you might want to shorten them up a bit. You seem to say the same thing over and over again. It's great info, but it seems like it takes you a long time to make a single point.
The biggest complaint and the only one I know of that is made on Tom Campbell, is that he takes a long time to answer one question and that comes across a boring and too drawn out for most.