My Journey

[Wi11iam]

Greetings All
I found this forum site through a link from “Traveller” to “The Frank Kepple Resource” page.  I have been reading Frank’s sharing on that page, as well as his postings on this forum - for the last 2 or 3 days and am intrigued with how similar his attitude/attributes are to my own – although of course not identical.

It is quiet timely (no surprises there) and refreshing – sometimes it can seem a lonesome existence surrounded by like-minded people, so much like each other and so dissimilar to myself and my view on the world we live in, in relation to the invisible reality which is mostly ignored or wrongfully described.

I have had some experiences regarding OBE and ‘things that go *bump* in the night’ – strange and terrifying reality merges etc.

I have never brought back any data to my conscious F1 reality (my dominant reality) but have communed with aspects of the invisible realm for many years and what Frank has shared aligns with those communications and elaborates – it is like reading something which confirms much of the things I have learned to understand about a realm that an aspect of myself likely visits/resides regularly, yet, as I inferred, the information experienced therein does not register as memory with me in the dominant reality of this F1 – physical reality – so from that viewpoint I have never been ‘there’ but understand/know/accept its existence and my intimate relationship/connection to it.

I enjoy Franks accounts of his travels, his model is so like the way I have learned to understand it through intelligent analysis of my own experiences (limited as they be in comparison with his) and I am enjoying this fact because it is very much conformation for me that although I have never consciously been there, I pretty much have it nailed as to what it is about.

Of course, I have had other assistance in mapping out the ins and outs through personal experience, intuition, certain philosophy, communication and conformation through…coinciding events, synchronicity/serendipity.

I have incorporated my own brand of scientific research in piecing the puzzle together, but have approached it more from a religious angle than from scepticism or pure scientific curiosity or the - prove it right or see it as wrong – angle, essentially learning the understanding that I alone am ultimately responsible for my action/reaction/inaction within every given moment, and also that my approach, while different (slightly or radically) from another’s, is no more or less valid.

I am nearing the time for procedure into that unknown realm and am grateful for the sketchy maps made available by those who have chosen to share their personal resource.

It would good to have a place of potential in which to share my own journey, here in this forum.

In Love.

William

[NoY]

Welcome to the Pulse 



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[personalreality]

welcome

[AstralBlogger]

I am new here as well Welcome!

[personalreality]

where might one find your astral blog?

pulse island?!   

[Xanth]

Hey there Wi11iam!

Welcome aboard.  

[Wi11iam]

Thank You NoY , personalreality, AstralBlogger and Xanth for your welcomes.

  Focus 1, labelled by Robert Monroe as C1, is what we usually refer to as the physical or material world. For the duration of our physical lives, our Primary Focus remains Focus 1 (F1). – Frank Kepple

We each and all have our journeys and indeed, are equal in the fact of our subjective experience.
Objectivity is a helpful tool for confirmation and alignment of testable theory.  It can also be an obstacle where ‘thoughts’ become ‘forts’ as groupings of like-minded attitudes congregate in a protective gesture to the agreed ‘precious thing’ which they will defend even to some bitter end-game, and even against logic, intelligence and proven truth.

This is not only a symptom of religion, but extends throughout the human drama embedded into our cultures, sciences, and politics. 

Ideally – and because we are ‘community’ creatures, objectivity will always remain open and fluid and attentive to changes.  We are all experiencing life on Earth as individuals – as the centre of our own subjective universe, yet we also share the same dominant reality with many, many others and as a primary focus, we are bound to experience friction and all other associated aspects of the spectrum ranging from minor disagreement to raging warfare.  It is our ‘lot’ and there is reason for this.

Where there is opportunity to share parts of individual stories, we would be remiss to ignore such, for we really are in this altogether, and truly no personality is an island, nor is it reasonable to think that what one may offer others, is a wasted effort…

So on with my own story…

I was born into this matrix (F1) in 1962, Otara, Auckland, New Zealand.
My first experience with the invisible realm ((F2F3F4)…) began when I started having extreme ‘nightmares’.
These eventually settled down as I became more focused on the dominant reality of F1.
My upbringing was for the most part dysfunctional. As a result I spent much of my time ‘daydreaming’ as a way of relief from such things as being ‘lower social economic’ ‘minority’ pushed around, ignored etc…
I used to run away from home on a regular basis – mostly for escape from my usual surrounds and also for adventure (Tom Sawyer/Robin Hood)
As I entered my teenage years, I got into minor trouble with the law and was removed from my neighbourhood and sent to live with relatives –Invercargill, South Island.

I left school as soon as it was legally possible.  Even now I don’t remember exactly how I learned to read and write – Mostly I day-dreamed and gazed out the classroom window…mostly I was a ‘loner’ observing and ignoring the groupings of others – ‘different’ enough to be noticed and when not challenged, bullied or beaten, left to my own self.
I never picked fights or sought attention, or got involved with sporting activities and social clubs. 
I was a stranger in a strange land.

My first positions of employment were on sheep and dairy farms, obviously suited to my particular personality – I think that I understood and connected with animals and felt far safer with them, than with the human variety.

This is not to say that I was antisocial/criminal or withdrawn from human contact – I was shy and hesitant to trust other humans but did not allow this to interfere with any potential forming of relationship/friendship, I remained friendly but had no real friendship’s to speak of.

I was always, and am still, very curious.

At the age of 18, while working on a sheep station as a ‘hired hand’ I met a person who was a nephew of the land-owner.  He was studying for university and would come to the station during his holiday periods, and we struck up a friendship.

During these times he would sometimes talk about his Christianity.   He was raised a Roman Catholic, in the traditional sense, but was coming from a more recent branch which was inclusive of Pentecostalism.

I myself was raised in a Protestant environment, and was aware of the stories associated with Jesus, ‘God’ etc…

Our philosophical/religious discussions I found interesting and thought provoking.  My new friend maintained that it was all very well knowing the stories about ‘God’ and Jesus, but that it was more important to have a personal relationship with these, and in order to do so, I needed to acknowledge my sin(s) and the fact that Jesus died for me because of those sins.

I had of course heard this story many times, but clearly I needed to make it personal, so one night with he and myself, I got on my knees in the small hut I slept in, and asked Jesus to forgive me and enter into my life and help me to be the person I needed to be.

At that instant I had a profound awareness of an invisible presence of at least two personalities entered that hut and from somewhere deep inside my being, a floodgate opened and tears flowed freely.

This was my second experience of the invisible realm (F2F3F4)




My third experience was some months after this.  I had left my job and moved to the North Island.  I was also seeing clear interaction between the invisible realm (F2F3F4) and this dominant reality (F1) through prayer/request to that realm and answers to those requests.

On this particular day, I was walking back to the place where I boarded.  It was very hot and humid and I was glad when I finally got home and lay on my bed.

I must have fallen ‘asleep’ pretty much immediately but did not realise it.  What I experienced was ‘dreaming’ the same hot day – I walked down the path to my home, entered through another door – witnessed a gathering of strangers disco dancing in the lounge area, though nothing of it – went to my room and lay on my bed.

As I lay down, thinking how hot it was – I suddenly became aware of a distinct heartbeat sound, to my left and near floor level.  At first I thought I was hearing things and then immediately had the sense of ‘something’ in the room with me.
As I realised this, the ‘something’ began to float upwards until it was level with the bed – heartbeat getting louder…I could sense that it was floating and at the moment I tried to turn my head to see what it was, it entered into my body through the left side.

At that point my whole body went rigid and I remember freaking big time and tried to bang my right leg against the wall hoping to attract the attention of my landlady – but I could not move a muscle.  I tried to scream.  No sound came out of my mouth but a whispered gargle.

At that point – near hysteria – I woke up.  I remember my eyes actually opening and everything was the same – same day, same sunlight/shadows coming into the room – etc…all that had changed was that I was no longer paralyzed.

Naturally, being a Christian I immediately thought I had been possessed.  This did not compute – it was not something I could reason with – I had not been mucking about with ‘occult’ things, I had been consistently praying and seeing answers to those prayers, I was certainly changing my direction in life and felt that it was for the better, so how come the Lord had allowed this to happen?

Well – I had been attending a small church group and decided to approach the pastor and tell him of this event.  He did not know what it was that I had experienced, but was convinced that it wasn’t ‘possession’ as I was not displaying the classical symptoms normally associated with ‘possession’.

The question remained unanswered and I moved on.

My next experience happened around the age of 22-23.

At this point in my life, I had moved back to the South Island, married with one child and had left the church due to seeing that the authority was more interested in preaching the imminent return of Jesus in all his glory on the one hand while trying to sell me life insurance on the other – among other things.

My beliefs were still centred on aspects of Christianity, but in examining Christendom I found no real common ground.

Due to the way things were unfolding, I found myself in a position where I felt I need to sincerely prove to myself the validity of my belief systems and began to think of myself as a ‘disciple’ and followed literally the instructions given in the Bible pertaining to selling all my possessions, doing without money and set off hitch hiking around the South Island stopping and praying in towns and cities a simple prayer along the lines of ‘Whatever it takes, may the Kingdom come in the lives, hearts and minds of the occupants.’

During these travels, my wife and child were provided for by the Gov. while I experienced first hand the amazing power of providence on a daily basis, carrying no more than a coat, spare pair of socks, toothbrush and a pen and some paper, stamps and envelopes, to keep my wife informed of my progress.

It was during this time on the road, I found myself in a very remote township.  It was near dusk and having no where to stay I found a Christian Hostel, but no one was there as it was off season.  I noticed a window slightly ajar and took the opportunity to enter the building thinking that if I were detected, they were Christians and would forgive me my trespass.

The room I entered in through the window had bunks and I jumped onto one of the top ones and promptly feel asleep.

Sometime later, I ‘awoke’ to the sound of a tin can rolling across the wooden floor of the main eating area and then heard footfalls of the person walking towards the room I was in and immediately thought it was the janitor coming in to fetch something.  I then wondered if I should get up and let him know I was in the building and then thought I would just remain on the bunk and see what would unfold.

Then there was the sound of the swinging doors opening and the footfall got louder and suddenly stopped directly outside of my room.  The door to my room opened inwards and was open at the time, and the particular bunk I chose to sleep in was in a position where my line of sight was blocked by the open door.

At this point I thought it was very strange that someone would stop directly in the doorway of the room I was in, and was about to get up to see when I was suddenly held down by a strong invisible presence and as soon as this happened, I heard the classic ‘deep evil laugh/chuckle’ coming from the presence at the doorway.

I immediately came to the conclusion that this was the ‘Devil’, and that this harassment had everything to do with my ‘pilgrimage’ – that being my recent actions around the island.

I managed to turn my head slightly in the direction of the presence and with great effort to talk at all I managed a garbled “I’m not afraid of you, because Jesus is my Lord!” no sooner having got that out than the pressure on my body left and my eyes opened and I immediately jumped out of bed and went to the doorway to confront my adversary – only to find that there was nobody there.
At this point I was totally pumped – I went out into the main hall area and there was a clock on the wall and the hands read 1:11.

I do think a lot of these notions of gods and angels etc have come about by people who have made contact with those residing in our Wider Reality without knowing exactly what was happening. They then proceeded to interpret the situation according to their pre-defined beliefs. Frank Kepple

[Wi11iam]

 

If you want to know who created the universe, I have been reliably informed that it was us!
  Frank Kepple

My experience in travelling around had forced my focus to the fact that there was ‘something’ (I called it “God”) which interacted intelligently with the physical world and was able to direct the unfolding events – in my time away from the direct assistance of the system through the use of money I had experienced being watched over/looked after and this in turn allowed me to realise and interact with that providence, and learn unusual things which captivated my focus of attention – connecting the dots…

Many months after my experience in the Christian Youth Hostel, my wife and child and I moved from the East coast (Christchurch) to the West coast – to a small village of around 200 permanent residents.  The year was 1986-1987.
We rented a small house.  I had stopped my hitch hiking and was receiving the family dole.  Work was scarce.


During this time my next experience occurred – while I have had more experiences since this one, this is the one which has had the most profound affect on me, and is responsible for major shifts in my belief systems since.

I ‘awoke’ and noticed in our child’s room directly opposite, blue, ‘electric’ type light flickering through the glass doors which separated the two rooms.  The light was reminiscent of the same effect used in Star Trek to do with the transporter.

I immediately felt concerned and went to get up to investigate, only to find myself ‘held down’ by that same invisible presence/force.
At that moment I heard the same deep evil laugh I had heard in my previous experience and moved my eyes in the direction of the sound, to see the most frightening thing I have ever experienced.


The apparition was at the end of the bed, on my side and was short with grey hued skin.
It was dressed in lose fitting grey material reminiscent of a robe and had its arms crossed over its chest area – left arm over right.
It had very long skinny fingers.
Its face was etched with wrinkles – and gave me the distinct impression that this being was very ancient.

My own reaction was a curious mix of emotions.  I could feel my physical body react with unprecedented fear – the hackles were raised and I am positive that had it been able, it would have been clawing at the walls trying to escape what it was obviously seeing as a paramount threat to survival.

My conscious awareness was reacting with what can only be honestly described as pure hate.
Hate is a symptom of fear.  It manifested itself as bravery – or more specifically as ‘putting on a brave face’ or ‘being strong in the face of adversity’.

Because of my belief systems at that time, I believed that the apparition was the ‘devil’ or more specifically “Lucifer” and I immediately focused that brave hatred towards it and the expressions I tried to speak (in this state of paralysis it is very hard to even move the mouth) I garbled:

“What do you want, you ugly bastard”

At that point the apparition began to float toward me – down the side of the bed.  Of course I couldn’t see its legs but the motion was definitely one of levitating rather than walking.
As the apparition moved closer to me I continued:

“Oh – sorry…even you have a Father.”  (sarcasm)

At this point, the apparition began to reach out with its left arm – very deliberately intent on touching my forehead – it was very close to me and I could see every detail of its face and its fingers – definitely an ancient being – and not of this Earth…

As I realised that the being intended to touch me, the very thought of this created a rush of intense anger – how DARE it (or anything) touch me without my permission!
With extreme effort, fuelled by the anger, I continued:

“You can leave right NOW!”

On the word “NOW!”, with every ounce of my strength, I managed to move my head/upper body up and towards the beings face – and for that brief moment we were directly face to face.

Then I ‘awoke’ sitting up and the apparition had vanished.

I immediately went to our child’s room and he was sleeping soundly.  Everything was fine.

So that is the outline of the experience, which couldn’t have lasted more than a minute, and likely not even that.

Now to the specifics.

While I was behaving as I was, when this creature began to reach out to touch me, I was looking at it directly in the eyes and at this point we were only arms length away from each other and I saw/recognised in those eyes an unmistakeable Love.

Huh?

What can I say…?  Well I can say this, that in that moment, whatever my attitude/intention towards this being was, ITS intention was one of profound love for me.  I just knew – it looked into me – to the very heart of who I am and I ‘knew’ in that instant that this being loved me, knew me – more than I loved or knew myself and that there was no other intent on the part of that being in relation to me, than pure love.

This was milliseconds before I lifted my body up and faced off.

Then it was over.

As one could imagine, the paradox of the whole situation – my presumptions and reactions so full of hate and anger and fear…and this Ancient Grey Being with the deep loving eyes but the ability to control my body movements and even enhance my fear by laughing in an evil way…it took literally years for me to piece together a rational and honest explanation for that one event which happened in a few moments of time.

I could not reconcile the perceived evil with the undeniable, unconditional -  Love.

My next experience happened the following night…

The people who are engaged in the religious constructs are the ones caught lower down, which is kind of ironic when you think about it. This is the main reason why I, personally, detest any kind of fundamentalist religion. These kinds of belief constructs are presented within the physical as a boon to progression in the non-physical, when in fact they turn out to be a barrier.
  Frank Kepple

 

[Timandra]

Hi William, these are some impressive experiences, and you have found the right forum to share them! 
Welcome to the Astral Pulse!

[manwesulimo2004]

Wow. That was breathtaking. I look forward to hearing more from you.

Welcome to the Pulse.

[Wi11iam]

Hi Timandra and manwesulimo2004

–   Thank you for your comments and welcome – I too hope that Astral Pulse is the right place to share these experiences – it certainly seems so in relation to the ‘maps’ others have shared which I have read here.  Certainly – if my ‘maps’ are beneficial to anyone else using this medium, then it will prove to be the right place to be sharing them.  Cheers!

  The purpose of the physical universe is to experience objective reality. Frank Kepple

…the following night I ‘awoke’ once again in a state of paralysis.
Immediately I felt invisible hands grab my wrists and pull me strait up and out of my body.  Once I was in a vertical position, my arms were placed over my chest, in the same position as I had seen the Ancient Grey Being hold its arms – left over right, crossing at the chest.
Immediately my arms were thus crossed, the invisible hands let go of my wrists and I felt myself floating above the bed.
I did not feel fearful at all – I felt quiet buoyant and rather amused and thought I would try to do something with this situation.
I thought to myself ‘what should I do now’ and decided to go take a look in my child’s room, to see how he was.
As soon as I thought this, I started to float sideways across the bed towards the left hand side and as I cleared the bed I felt myself start to float slowly towards the floor…and as soon as my feet touched the floor, I awoke, - back in my bed.

Now some years later I relayed this experience to my dad, who told me that it had happened to him once as well and that it had scared him silly and that the grip on his wrists had been so intense that it had left actual red marks around them which took many days to fade.
As well, I have spoken to one of my brothers more recently and this has happened to him too (apart from the physical marks on the wrists).



Note: I was at work this morning thinking about things and I realise there were a couple of experiences I had before the ‘visitation’ of the Ancient Grey Being – It was my intention to keep them in chronological order – but nvm – I will continue with that now…
… The actual 3rd experience I had (that I recall), happened when I was around 18-19 years old – I had come back from the North Island and had been involved with a Pentecostal church group for about a year.

I was at this time, in a rather dejected state.  I had spoken to a few people about my experience in the North and no one was able to give me any kind of explanation and I began to feel certain that the pastors/elders of my church group were more like used car salesmen than sincere enlightened individuals.
I know that the crunch came for me when on top of everything else, the pastor ( a recent replacement) had been accused of ‘misappropriate teaching of young women’ in the previous church group he had been pastor of.

I spent the next few weeks alone in my room and only left to go to work.
Actually, this time alone was real good for me – it gave me a chance to focus my thoughts without any interference from outside blah blahs.
I remember buying a model Mack truck (the ‘Rubber duck’) and spending a good amount of time putting it together and it was near perfect by the time I had completed it.
It was during this alone-time that I experienced that head buzzing electric feeling accompanied by paralysis and as freaky as it was, I couldn’t fight it and had to let it happen.
This happened a few times over this period and eventually I decided to just leave things behind and move on.
Unfortunately, my flatmates – both members of the same church group – had grave concerns as to my locking myself away in my room and when I just up and left with my back pack and guitar in case, well they decided to call in reinforcements and caught up with me, took my gear off me and took it back to their place and came back to fetch me only to find the police speaking with me and a couple of major big windows in the background with great holes in them from where I had thrown the rocks through.

So needless to say, I didn’t get to go north – I got to go for psychiatric assessment and court proceedings and was diagnosed with depression and ‘had’ to go through a series of residential courses to get to the bottom of my problems and sort myself out. The course was voluntary – but I had nothing else to do and was interested in things to do with psychiatry and wanted to understand what was happening to me.

I was placed on anti-depressants and took these for about 2 months and then decided to take myself off them.  I haven’t needed them since, and don’t know if they were helpful or not.

It is likely quiet obvious that I was wondering as to WHY these things were happening to me, and WHY my beliefs were not protecting me from something which seemed like horrible attacks from dark ‘things’.

Okay – fast forward a few years but still prior to the 1st and 2nd encounter with the Ancient Grey Being…

Oh…I want to keep my posts as short as possible while still trying to convey enough info in them – so I will share that experience in my next post.

Cheers

 

  The best we can do is to focus on the love and positivity than can arise from such painful moments, providing we give them a chance to do so. Frank Kepple

[Wi11iam]

  I should point out here that recent exploration has provided me with evidence that our desires and mental attitudes DO directly influence our physical reality to a far greater extent than previously thought; indeed our physical circumstances are DIRECTLY LINKED to our particular desires and attitudes.
  Frank Kepple

So to the experience I mentioned in my last post.
This experience dealt with the subject of duality.
Long story short – I had decided that this inner ‘battle’ was doing no great thing to help my progress.

I asked my ‘God’ to remove the ‘dark side’ of my personality.  I remember the internal dialog stating that should I do this then ‘I’ would die too (meaning the ‘light side’ to which I desired to support and integrate fully into/as my personality..
I remember replying to this that I was prepared to die if that is what it took to rid myself of this ‘darkness’.
What I was ‘asking’ was for that which I felt detrimental to this process to be removed
After this ‘prayer/request’ I went to bed. (this was during my travels on the road and I was staying overnight at a friends place)

The experience:

As I lay thinking about what I had asked, I suddenly felt as if a dial was being turned within my consciousness and my head immediately started to fell as if it were expanding – indeed – as the expansion got to its zenith, the inside of my head felt as big/roomy as an empty airport hanger – huge but also kinda flat – like things went 2 dimensional and the depth wasn’t quiet there and as huge as the ‘space’ felt – it also felt that I could reach an arm out and touch the far wall.– it was an okay feeling – and lasted only briefly before the ‘dial’ turned and things went  back to normal…but did not stop at that.

At this point, I heard my thought-voice say to me “Don’t worry Little Bird” – and I must admit my heart rate went up a notch or two as I descended into a thickness/density which immediately reminded me of long forgotten feelings I had had as a child, which were part of my nightmares.

As this feeling reached its submersed level, I felt as if I were a stick man encased within flesh – my hands felt just like two balloons (thanks PF) and I even opened my eyes to have a look at them, only to see that they were in fact quiet normal, but even looking and seeing this, they still felt huge and puffy. 

Again, this feeling/situation only lasted as briefly as the first and the ‘dial’ turned back to ‘centre’ position and I again felt ‘normal’ and lay awake thinking of what had happened and wondering what it all meant, while thinking that the goal had been accomplished – actually kidding myself that it had, but knowing that the ‘dark side’ was still there.

I slept soundly and awoke refreshed and said my farewells and hit the road…all the time thinking about my strange experience.

Now I could end this here, but think it might be a good idea to share a bit more of the unfolding day, since I have mentioned in  my intro post regarding coinciding events, synchronicity/serendipity…part and parcel of life’s experiences…

But I will be brief.

I stood on the roadside contemplating the last nights experience and wondering about it.

A short while later, a little old lady in a little old car pulled over and offered me a ride.
Of course, I accepted and got in and buckled up – I then heard bird singing and turned around to see a little bird in a cage on the back seat.

Ah “Little Bird”

We got talking and this little old lady was quiet the spiritual personality.

She picked up another hiker.  We got talking and I told them of my travels and how I didn’t use money and how ‘things just worked out on a daily basis.’

The lady dropped us off sometime later – we said our thank you’s and good byes and prepared to start walking to the open road when behind us came a voice saying ‘are you guys heading for Christchurch?”

A very cool looking guy with a very cool looking car – gassing up he had seen us being dropped off and was offering us a ride.

We accepted – on the continuing journey the guy asked me to pick some music from his large collection and I randomly selected a tape.
We had been talking about ‘spiritual’ things and there was a time of silence while we listened to the music and my thoughts were on last nights experience and what it might mean, as well as the name ‘Little Bird” and the old lady who gave me a ride and about my journeys and the things I was experiencing and learning from and I started to think that what had happened last night had something to do with ‘being at peace within oneself’ and instead of ‘dark/light’ fighting against itself, that maybe the ‘two’ should be one and learn to get on…that kind of thing..and then this songs starts playing over the stereo about a brother and sister sorting things out… and I am thinking ‘wow wow wow’ and pretty much being blown away, and while listening and thinking about this, I turned my attention to the view outside the window – over the plains to the distant foothills and further away mountains and there was the cloud shape incorporated into the landscape and an image of a large eye looking directly at me… right there in line with my thought that I am being watched over…looked after, mentored…

So the trip ended with the cool guy dropping us of in Cathedral Square, Christchurch.  I then immediately decided to walk around the Cathedral ( I often walked around ‘important’ city building/areas as part of my symbolic activity during my travels) and as I completed the circuit of the Cathedral and stood on the front steps, the bells started chiming out – ding ding ding ding ding for at least a full minute.

Hmmm…said I to myself…a strange and wonderful day…

  As I always say, the only way a person can “prove” experiences to himself or herself is to gain knowledge of an action that is unconnected with themselves.  Frank Kepple

[Wi11iam]

  With regards to F1, we are primarily FOCUSED on our physical bodies and we perceive and interact with the physical world through them but we are in no way INSIDE our bodies. Frank Kepple

So shifting forward many years now – lets see…nearly 40 years old by then… 2002 – My life circumstance has shifted radically.

I am no longer with my wife and child…ah…I should say – Children.

I am at a point where nothing makes sense and everything I have done seems to have been pointless because I am no closer to understanding the nature of the invisible realm in relation to my own and that, while yes – I did ask/invite this invisible reality into my own, I have been living in sanity ever since and the grief and anguish and feelings of violation and trying to make sense of it have taken its toll on my relationships with family and friends and acquaintances – I felt betrayed by the very things I had chosen to believe in.
So I left them all behind.

I went through a ‘numb the pains with alcohol and marijuana’ stage which really lasted a few years.

I meet someone who called herself a ‘white witch’ and we struck up a friendship.  She was a bit of an oddity among her friends/family etc and we bounced off each others experiences and she introduced me to the Tarot and Runes.

I introduced her to my belief in ‘God’

She had a sister who owned an old small hall out country and we went to live there – it was such a great place to learn to heal and indeed to learn…

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It was at this place that I awoke one day not long after we moved there and told my partner that I was going to make a Ouija board.

She asked me why I wanted to make one and I replied that I couldn’t make sense of this world and communicate effectively with ‘the living’ so maybe I will get better results communicating with ‘the dead’.

On that note I set about thinking on the layout, and designing, settling on the medium (see ‘material’) I would use to make the board, as well as what exactly I would put on the object.
Obviously I was creating a device for communication but had never used one before and had only heard what they were used for and likely had seen pictures of them.
As well as this, I had heard about them through my religious church going days and warned against them, as they were a ‘tool of the devil’, harbouring unsavoury ‘spirits’ which easily attached/anchored themselves to the perpetrator.

Come to think of it, the Tarot had a similar reputation.

I decided on mirror glass as the medium and set about etching a design on the back of the mirror.  It did not take very long to complete.
To be on the ‘safe side’ we took the finished item down to a place where two streams flowed into each other and there ‘baptised’ it, held it up to the blessings of the sun, and later, the full moon, then set about communicating.

I won’t get into the details here and now, except to say that over the months we communicated with some interesting personalities, and were taught a great deal in the process.

All of which relates directly to the ‘Astral’ – or what I call the Invisible Realm.

I eventually called the Mirror Glass Ouija’s Universal Intelligence Communications Device(s) mostly out of respect for that which were being communed with.
Also, to distance these from the awful reputation of ‘Ouija’ boards – truly a hideous    use of misinformation.

I saw much and learned much through the ‘Ouija Principle’ – a science worthy of a far closer look, is my experience.

One of the teachings I will mention now had to do with increasing the amount of available expressions able to be used within the context of intelligent information.
I was encouraged by my teachers to etch symbols all over the back of the mirror and all the symbols were assigned meaning which was far more useful for the intelligence to utilise in order to get a clear message across – better I know, than a simply alphabet, a yes, no and maybe, and numbers.

Another thing I will mention is that the lessons were not always very easy, and sometimes were an emotional rollercoaster – there was indeed, much work then to be done with me.

Ultimately – after a few years I was informed that I had indeed and all along, been communicating with myself.

Just that the ‘I’ I knew my ‘self’ to be, had not been aware of the “I” that I truly am.

Here I will state that I never once encounted so-called ‘negative spirits’ or had anything bad happened to me in relation to use of Ouija.
Nor did I ever go through motions of ‘protection’ rituals and although we did light candles occasionally, these were because we like candles and didn’t need them for anything other than ambience…these devices could be used in the dark – indeed they look great backlit.

I made a number of the UICDevices over the years.  I don’t use them as frequently as I used to because I found a way to transpose the Ouija Principle to the computer, which has speed things up a great deal.

Still, while the principle is a good learning device as well as a device of confirmation, I use it sparingly because I have ‘the voice in my head’ to commune with and intuition and self trust and as many other mediums, including but not limited to the internet, which is indeed a reflection of that Invisible Realm in more ways than one.

Interestingly, I see the internet and computers as being very Ouija-like when combined.

Next I would like to share some ‘out of body’ experiences I have had since incorporating the Ouija Principle into my realm of experience.

  Note: One of the most fundamental rules of the Wider Reality that you must take on board is the rule of 'Like attracts Like'.
  Frank Kepple

[manwesulimo2004]

I made a number of the UICDevices over the years.  I don’t use them as frequently as I used to because I found a way to transpose the Ouija Principle to the computer, which has speed things up a great deal.

Still, while the principle is a good learning device as well as a device of confirmation, I use it sparingly because I have ‘the voice in my head’ to commune with and intuition and self trust and as many other mediums, including but not limited to the internet, which is indeed a reflection of that Invisible Realm in more ways than one.

Interestingly, I see the internet and computers as being very Ouija-like when combined.

I always enjoy reading your posts. Sounds like you've been through a lot. I'd be interested in hearing more about how you use your computer and what your thoughts are on the relationship between the internet and the invisible realm. Maybe you could start a new thread?

[Wi11iam]

 

I always enjoy reading your posts. Sounds like you've been through a lot. I'd be interested in hearing more about how you use your computer and what your thoughts are on the relationship between the internet and the invisible realm. Maybe you could start a new thread?
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Thanks for your feedback manwesulimo2004 (do you have a ‘nick’ name?)
I aim to answer anyone’s Q’s and discuss in more detail aspects of what I am sharing in my ‘maps’ here, should anyone ask.
I have just a couple more maps to share before I get distracted in the details, so bear with me and hopefully continue enjoying my offerings .
I may be able even to give you clarification as I write – I certainly want to share in more detail the very aspects your Q’s relate to.
Cheers!