Hey all
I dont want to give a long winded explanation as to why I am here, but in time ill write out my experiences, ill try be brief and on point!
Its been a long road of self discovery since an experience that happened to me in late October 09, changed my life forever. I have delved into physics, philosophy, consciousness, the brain etc, trying to conceive a plausable theory to explain what happened.
I was diagnosed with a heart murmur and allthough I didnt really feel like Id die, wonder took over to me as to what would happen if I should happen to pass. I had an interest in the unknown throughout my life and I think it was a combination of all this, and my past experiences, that caused what was about to happen to happen.
Ive experienced this feeling before, where I sat on my bed closing my eyes to meditate where my head feels like a bowl bein spun around and coming to an abrupt stop or another way to describe it, I felt bein sucked out of reality, or being disacociated from the physical. When this feeling occured before I automatically stopped it and changed positions so it wouldnt happen, but this time I let it play out.
I pretty much think I was out of body at this point.. What I see is the big bang, and all the stars and planets, all life emerging from it, and experiencing an overwhelming feeling of oneness. This is extremely difficult to put into words and theres alot more to it than that and when I have the time Ill post a more descriptive interpretation of what I saw.
As I was on the verge of enlightenment or being filled with knowledge, I entered hell! From what I recall Its a place where all the experiences of pain and suffering that has even been inflicted upon any living creature is experienced, and I mean everything. To try build a picture.. to give a less graphic example.. Imagine being pricked by a needle in your finger, and all the people who experienced that, all carried off into stages of this pain, in stages ranging from the lowest threshold of pain to the highest. And now try imagine this concept with every kind of pain and suffering experienced, all played out in stages for what looked like eternity. It was extremey frightening and I would say it would take alot these days for anything to surprise or startle me to this extent.
The beginning process of this 'hell' was the colours red and blue, merging into the other colours, varying in intensity where the most extreme is violet from what I remember.
The shock of it all brought me back to the physical, I was in shock, traumatised and fit for the mental asylum!
Since then its changed my perspective dramatically and its in a good way despite what happened. Ive really learned alot thus far in trying to figure out what exactly happened to me. My question would be did anyone here who has astral traveled witnessed anything like this or anyone in general I guess.
Thats pretty much a very short introduction.. if theres anything you dont understand, like my grammar or choice of words ill do my best to elaborate more. Im not a good communicator in getting across my ideas in general but I hope i built a good enough picture for now!
Oh yeah this is how backward I am, ill introduce myself last! Im soCKrates, 24 male and from ireland
Looking forward to meeting u all.
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