You create your higher self
I've created a thought, my own higher self, in which I'm no longer bound to the eternal cycle. My higher self is myself, in a much later date, which has passed the eternity test, and is excluded from the laws of reincarnation.
My spirit works that way because, I understood that I couldn't save memories in my mind, I had to transfer those to my spirit in order to keep them astrally and after death. That's how I see it because I don't recall memories from my mind anymore. I just listen to my spirit.
The reason why my spirit act that way, is because I was annoyed by the fact that when I reincarnated, I would lose all lessons learned. To me it doesn't matter anymore because I see myself as my own spirit that control my human body. And not the opposite, as a human mind with a spirit as a secondary way of feeling things.
I know what you mean. I was also annoyed by that, and I've imprinted certain thinking patterns onto myself as a spirit that I'll take with me after death of this Human body, including some advanced math in abstract and intuition forms.
I understand most life forms dont believe they think in terms of math, but I see that as them just not knowing how their own minds work. You may not consider math important, but its a big part of what I am. I am a life form that redesigns itself using math a little at a time. I do this in how I vibrate the dimensions around me, which doesnt have as direct an effect here on Earth but its very directly visible in astral. Its what I am and what I do in any form of reality I happen to be.
I'm undecided if I'll choose to return to Earth after this Human body dies or what that process would be if I do.
I know that my consciousness can become gradually more or less stuck to things, especially things similar to what its been stuck to before, which includes Human bodies and other things on Earth. My consciousness is not just in the body but gradually all around.
It makes me feel safer that I've imprinted many advanced things on myself as a spirit (especially the abstract and intuition forms of math), but I'm worried that what I want to create out there in the space of all possible shapes and patterns, some of which is the astral, will not be easy enough with only what I've become so far as a spirit. I'm worried that when my Human body dies I'll find I'm able to create temporary structures of any kind I want but they wont be stable enough to build bigger precise things with. I'm worried I'll be stuck in a too subjective ocean of astral forms or variations of it like "focus levels" describe, and those places would decay even as I try to build things there, so I wouldnt be able to continue creating my next form of existence with the precision I need. I could become stuck in a place others might be very happy but my unusual needs of redesigning myself using advanced math may not hold their form for the millions of years at least I want to exist in those forms.
I'm worried that if I find that is true, that it is a kind of wavy unstable place as I know astral to be normally, that I would see not much future for myself there and need to come back to Earth where things are stable enough to build things with.
Its a subtle point I'm trying to make, since some things do appear stable over longer times in astral, but its a matter of how stable and precise they can be, and is it enough that I could basically create new forms of existence all around me and become some of those?
I'm not worried that I'll be unable to choose to stay out there in astral or beyond or choose when and how to come back to Earth. I'm worried that when I get far enough into it and have been there long enough I might have good reasons to think I need to come back to earth for its different ways that shapes fit together when I build new parts of myself.
I like to refer to Einstein who, on his death bed, who was still trying to figure out the universal formula that would explain every life possibilities etc. He spent the last 30 years of his life searching for it and never found it.
Fortunately I have an infinite time to figure it out, as long as I dont forget along the way.
It's not crazy to look for something like that, but to me, it looks like a deception in the end. Unless you eventually succeed, which is possible... But would require incredible mind and not just one...
Better to try for your dreams and fail than to choose failure right away. What other reason is there to exist?
Beside, it might not even be mathematical... It might be a totally different form of formula. Some kind of code of honour if you wish.
Sounds like you're talking about gametheory which is a kind of math.