Some of the members here who have been members for a good while, may remember me as one of those few, (though not the only one here surely,) that's spent a long time interested in this subject and practicing at times, but never fully and consciously had a success yet. It seems that overall, the average might be several months of working at this before one succeeded the first time. I'd be a bit embarrassed actually to put a number on the amount of time I've been fallowing that same path. LOL, the journey is the whole point I think anyway, so no matter. I am still hitting all the same usual "signposts" as many others btw... just fewer and further between in my case because of the slow progression.
Walking the slooooow path though while others race on past, (and yes, even if you've been on this path for 6 months before finally fully succeeding, you are racing past, lol) is giving me so much time to observe and notice. Recently I made another such observation. I thought I'd share it on here. The simple fact is that when one has made it their intention to project for a very long time, and tried to do so, sometimes with growing interest and sometimes after having given up on it for a long time, we have so much more time to become convinced that we are not actually able to do so. Thoughts become things in this area of reality I do believe. I'm beginning to wonder if this is becoming one great and terrible downward spiral in which the longer one goes without success, the more like our own minds might stop us from even doing so, because we have not yet done so and thus cannot be sure we can.
lol, I really do hope my odd rambling and sense of logic made a hint of sense. It's been the sort of week where I just can't seem to word things in sensible ways for some reason.