I'm sorry. I just couldn't think of a more fitting title for this topic.
Anyway I wanted to ask this group about something I've begun to notice and finally started to understand. Basically I just wonder if it's the same for everyone and what if anything to do about it.
Related to OBE practice, I can start to notice starting to fall asleep and everything quite well. As far as I understand, I'm well on the right track as much as possible with it. I think I've come very close several times. It's in those times of being very close that I notice something that hit me each time like a ton of bricks. I've always assumed it would not happen again but of course it does. Basically I will go through the steps and all that only to realize somewhere along the way that I just cannot actually comprehend nonphysical existence. I just can't imagine being able to reach up with a nonphysical arm for instance, which is odd and quite frustrating because I've actually done that very thing already. (Not actually trying the first few times I've reached up or rolled over in bed nonphysically, just the old familiar startled and confused as can be at first until it finally occurred to me to wonder if I could do it again on purpose, lol.) I certainly can't fully wrap my head around the idea of stepping or floating completely out of body. It's the oddest and craziest thing. I can get to a point it seems I might be close and then suddenly I find myself thinking that I'm perfectly fine where I am and I'd rather just stay in bed and leave well enough alone.
One of my AP goals (I think it important to have a goal in mind to follow if you do succeed early on) was always to fly from my roof. It seems nice and basic and simple one. But each time I find myself in this kind of odd close but suddenly losing motivation state, I suddenly think the last thing I can imagine or comprehend is losing gravity. Okay, so I'm used to a physical world and two feet on the ground. Logically then I should just consider maybe walking through my apartment or perhaps up the street. Thing is that seems strange to me too. It's like each time I think I'm getting closer, I suddenly just can't actually let go of the physical world.
I should write more on this, but for some reason I'm confused about how to word everything well enough that it makes any sense. I wonder though in any case if anyone might have an insight or two.