I really thought it was possible to go back in time and do changes. At first I did not believe, but then the desire to go back was so big, that I actually started trying to separate from my body, without even know what AP and OBE was, it was just like I knew what I had to do. Actually the things that I was doing to try to separate are pretty similar to actual AP techniques. But it seems nobody thinks re-entering your body back in time is possible. Going back was my only hope as I find no reason to stay in this present, that I have ruined. I guess this is it... Thanks for the responses, guys.
Part of the point of life is learning that what you do has consequences and living with those consequences.
No matter what you THINK you have done to "ruin" your life... it's NEVER a good enough reason to do what you're thinking.
Suicide is no escape either.
What exactly do you think you did?
Remember in the 'Journeys' books Robert Monroe talks about going to another reality, and he'd get into this man's body and briefly take over.... he'd always try to get out quick when something eventful happened, because he didn't wanna be responsible for messing up someone else's life. Anyway... if you can take over someone else's body, surely you could take over your own past body... which do you think would be weirder?
I don't wanna burst anyone's bubbles... but there can never be any proof that anything Monroe did was going to "change" that man's life.
And even if it did, it would be one thing to step into the "present-time" shoes of another Focus 1 reality-life of yours and live that, than it is to go BACK IN TIME to re-live a portion of your own life with a chance to change something you feel is wrong.
Also, there's probably a very good reason we can't screw with the past.
There's no telling what your one TINY small change will effect in the future.
I'm sorry, but I'm not gonna sugarcoat any of this for anyone. I won't say it's impossible, but I will say it's highly improbable.
Sorry rangestormer, but you seriously need to talk to someone about how you feel... and I'll be honest, it shouldn't be here on some Astral Projection forum.