posting link that finally DID help me.
& for the record, for others out there, perhaps this was only the case for me but it was not my own beliefs feeding this "problem" I had.
I DID figure it out & yes it was a psychic vampire (contrary to popular belief apparently on this already "out there" forum) ...
I suggest a strong wake up call to those who judged me here. because you did not help, you only added a LARGE stressor to an already very bad situation... don't judge anyone else until you can walk a mile in their shoes.
you don't know what it was like for me nor do I know what life is like for you. hence, I don't judge others btw..it is my general policy. keeps peace & allows others to be them & experience their experiences as they need to.http://www.amazon.com/Solving-Psychic-Attack-Nita-Hickok/dp/0982487622
Nita also has a blog that was helpful & described my problem very accurately.
So, I hope 1 person reads this & realizes they are not alone. I even started an anonymous blog because I am not exposing myself anymore to the level of judgmentalism I saw when I started seeking help. I am glad I stuck to my own gut intuition this time & felt what was correct for my individual situation vs. what others thought/perceived.
in the end, none of the shielding, psychic development stuff worked in the least bit. So, keep an open mind. Not all you know is correct. So if you haven't had the same exact problem as the other person you probably have nothing but sympathy/love/compassion to offer them as support. So only offer that. If you did have a similar experience perhaps it was only applicable to you.
Suspend judgment as honestly, it is the best way to learn. I know, because I realized studying science in college that the true scientist does this everytime. Otherwise you end up biasing your own studies in the process. I hope someone learns from me responding. After this I'm going to disable my account here. Love & peace out.