Traveler_2649's journal

[Traveler_2649]

I decided to start posting new AP/Dream journal entries here. I have a bunch of older ones, but I decided to start from today and post newer entries moving forward. This is from today.

13 Jun 24
Binaural Beats meditation

I decided to do a simple meditation on my Shakti mat with binaural beats playing. I put on my headphones and sleep mask and laid down on the floor. I struggled to initially focus. The mat was initially uncomfortable, which is normal. My mind was wandering and thinking about things that have already happened recently and cannot be changed or improved by thinking or worrying about them. I decided to try a mental chant of sorts. I thought to myself, "I am ok, I am safe, I am calm" over and over.

I noticed that it helped me gain focus. As I focused, I relaxed into the mat. I had some very vivid glimpses of things. I'm not sure if they would be considered hypnagogic hallucinations, but they weren't just random flashes of light or images.

I saw a first person perspective of where I was exactly in the room I was laying in, but I was sitting up instead of laying down. I saw the bed to my left, my guitars to my right, and I saw my hands in front of me. During one of the brief glimpses, I had a bolt in my hand that I had been installing on an airplane at work the previous day. I tried to not focus too hard on what I was seeing, but I was so surprised to see the exact item I had been handling. I felt it in my fingers.The experience lasted a few moments, between a few seconds to a minute, but I tried to savor and enjoy it as much as I could without being too focused on what was going on. I'm not sure if that was the right choice, but it felt right at the moment. I made a point not to look around the room and to just focus on what was in the center of my view, the small bolt I was holding.

After that, I don't recall much. Eventually, the binaural beats playlist I was listening to started to play a specific track that was incredible. I felt buzzing throughout my body (nothing like the powerful "electric current" I felt in a previous experience) that intensified with the music. The sensation was indescribably powerful and close to euphoric. I didn't want it to end.

The meditation lasted roughly one hour.

[Traveler_2649]

28 Jun 24

It's been a while since I've posted, but I've had what I interpret as progress.

In the past two weeks or so, I've been using techniques recommended by numerous members of the forum here. One that I've seen a lot of progress with the method of relaxing and "focusing" on a central focal point without focusing too much on what I see, and it's yielded interesting results.

As I relax and gently focus on the center of my mind's eye, it's as though a small, circular window will begin to open. I'll see what looks like an almost sepia tone "movie" through it.

At first, I thought this was simply hypnagogic hallucinations, but as they've occurred more frequently, I've realized that they aren't still images.

Gradually, the circular window has begun to open further and further, and yesterday I feel that my mind's eye was "fully open".

What I saw wasn't anything spectacular, but I recognized that my mind unfortunately had decided to go to my workplace. This has been my second experience of seeing my workplace in any sort of AP meditation.

I'm guessing that my mind's eye took me to a place that was very familiar to me. Although it wasn't a groundbreaking experience, I recognize the significance of this progress. I look forward to continuing and experiencing more.

[Lumaza]

At first, I thought this was simply hypnagogic hallucinations, but as they've occurred more frequently, I've realized that they aren't still images.

That "doubt" will knock you out! Experience it now, question it later. Go with the flow of what is occurring. Allow your "curiosity" to be the driver and stay the course!

 This is where many will fail. The constant need to question everything is a huge hinderance there. When was the last time you questioned whether this here physical reality was "real" or not just simply a hypnagogic "hallucination"?

[Nameless]

There are few places your mind's eye cannot go. Lumaza is absolutely right, "experience it now, question it later"

[EscapeVelocity]

Traveler-

The fact that you mention those early images are in 'sepia' tones and colors...did you read that somewhere?  If not, then it is a great indicator of the accuracy of your experience. I personally still categorize this as hypnogogic imagery (falling asleep) or hypnopompic (waking up) but your experience of noticing and following the train of imagery is the important thing. It can be sepia or light, dingy gray in my experience and I think it is an important indicator of your early success in making the non-physical or Phasing transition...so just keep on with it. As Lumaza recommended, just stay emotionally neutral and observant; don't try to force anything and just dispassionately observe where the images take you...this is part of learning the process of the transition. I think the early part of this imagery is likely derived from the subconscious but it quickly develops into more 'outward' influences, if that makes any sense. The point is- let it happen and follow.

What Nameless said about 'there are few places your mind's eye cannot go'...I have no idea, but maybe that's why she is known as the 'spooky grandma'...lol.

[Traveler_2649]

Lumaza-

I've been making a point to be as observant as I can be without trying to analyze or understand what I'm observing after initially reaching out here on the forum, as many suggested.

I think a lot of this success was from your recommendations on my post about developing patience, namely the video you shared about developing peripheral focus.

After I started to notice the "small window" I was seeing these events through, I would take a moment after my meditations to reflect on what I saw after the fact, and that video was the first thing that came to my mind. It was as if each successful meditation was allowing the small dot to develop into a larger and larger window, until it had completely filled the full view of my mind's eye.

I'm making progress every time, and I appreciate all the advice from everyone on here. You guys are awesome.

[Traveler_2649]

Today I had a powerful experience. It was in the midst of a huge change going on in my life that has been a bit stressful, but thanks to advice from many individuals here I've been managing it.

I'm not sure what the general consensus here is about acupressure, but I recently bought a Shakti Mat. So far I love it, and I've experimented with using it during both guided and unguided meditations. The results have been interesting, and I've noticed a heightened awareness of my energy body during these meditations. It's also very relaxing for me, and it helps me fall asleep quickly.

I decided to take a nap today on the mat, and it produced an unexpected result. The mat also had an acupressure pillow, and it props my head up to an angle that I guess causes me to occasionally snore for brief moments while asleep. During my nap, I heard myself occasionally snoring, but it sounded like it wasn't me snoring. I would hear the snores coming from roughly 2 feet above me. It  didn't feel like I was snoring. Thinking about it afterwards, this was probably an unexpected OBE, which is exciting.

It felt like I was either below my physical body or above it but facing down towards my body. It was an incredible experience, and I think I'm reaching a point where I'm starting to fully "let go".

[Tak]

Hey Traveler, what you said is exactly what happened. Many times during an OBE, when we start to 'leave' the physical body, it seems like we're a few centimeters further away, and we hear the body's sounds as if they belonged to someone else, because ultimately, they do. They're the body's sounds, not ours. The body snores and breathes, not 'us'. It's happened to me many times, but with breathing. It seemed like there was a hurricane in the room, and it was just the body breathing in and out, but it sounded incredibly loud. Isn't it amazing? That also happened during meditation, not feeling like I was 'leaving my body', but that my consciousness was more 'spread out' in the environment. It's hard to explain. It's kind of weird, but at the same time, you know you're reaching your goal somehow. Nice! There are always new discoveries, and I'm glad you're feeling better about the stress .

[Traveler_2649]

This morning, I did some meditating and had an epiphany of sorts and I want to share it.

I went into the meditation with the intention of trying to express gratitude to my "guides" or "higher self". I feel like all the positivity I've been striving to put out has been making it's way back to me, and I wanted to acknowledge it.

I felt myself reaching a point of very deep relaxation. I passively observed myself in this state, and I began to see swirling colors, like droplets of ink falling into water. I saw faint flashes of light, and felt the occasional wave of vibrations.

I decided to focus on the vibrations, and they began to almost come in regular intervals. In my mind, it felt like I was standing in the water at the beach, and the vibrations were flowing like the waves against the shore.

I had a thought in this moment that just sort of appeared in my mind.

"I'm like a little kid at the beach who can't quite swim that well yet."

As I thought this, I saw myself as a young boy at the beach.

The idea stuck in my mind, and it made more and more sense as I thought about it. Even now as I'm writing this, I'm understanding where I am in this journey and what the next steps might be.

[LightBeam]

I feel like all the positivity I've been striving to put out has been making it's way back to me

Yes, one of the laws of creation is what you put out, you get back. Beautiful experience, Traveler! I think that gratitude is one of the main magic keys.

[Traveler_2649]

I followed a guided Yoga Nidra meditation today, and had a powerful experience about an hour ago.

At the beginning of the meditation I use, there's an opportunity to set a sankalpa, or heartfelt intention for the meditation. I chose to set mine as, "I am a powerful spiritual being, and I will communicate with my higher self."

I followed the meditation, which has you focus on various points around your body. It feels very similar to energy body practices as I do it, and I feel as though I have been getting better at being able to focus the energy around different parts of my body.

After you focus on various points around your body, the process essentially puts you into a state of "Mind Awake, Body Asleep". After this point, the meditation had me focus on my Third Eye and visualize different objects in a moderate succession. After this part of the exercise, the meditation had me reiterate my sankalpa. I did, and then began to ask questions of my higher self. I asked about life changes going on, and the answer was essentially that I shouldn't worry, and that things will follow the path they are intended to. I then asked about an experience I had yesterday during another meditation. I had seen a pair of eyes, and they appeared to belong to a woman. It then changed to a single eye, and I sort of felt it looking through me.

I didn't necessarily ask if these eyes had anything to do with a woman that I had seen before in a very vivid projection, probably my most focused one to date. I don't know who she is, but during the projection she saw me and looked right at me. It caught me so off guard that it ended my projection and I used an AI image generator to try to get a picture as close as possible to the likeness of this woman. I have attached the image to another post of mine.

As I thought about the woman, I finally saw her again. I inquired about who she was. First I asked if she was my "Higher Self". I was told she possibly could be, or she could be a past or future life of mine. Then I asked what her name was, and there wasn't a clear answer. I saw the letters "X" and "H". Then I saw "Asha". I was under the impression that this might have been a fragment of her name, but I'm not sure.

After trying to figure out who she was, I focused more and more on her and finally saw her again. She could see me as well, and she seemed happy to see me. She hugged me. It seemed that she was very happy to see me, and wasn't expecting to see me at this moment. I got the impression that she was much more aware of what was going on than I was. It felt like our connection was not platonic. I felt drawn to her physically, and things immediately took a romantic course. It was emotionally charged, like we had known each other for a very long time. I felt like besides connecting physically and emotionally, she was trying to teach me something.

After this, we were both somewhere on top of a mountain. There were others there, dressed like tourists. It looked like a national park or something. I was following her as she walked away from the small groups of people milling about the mountaintop. Someone stopped me as I followed her towards a rocky ledge and implied that I wasn't supposed to follow her, but I ignored them and continued to follow her. We stood at the edge of the cliff, and then it all faded away.

I didn't feel any physical sensations during this meditation besides focusing on the points around my energy body, and bursts of "vibrational" energy for brief moments. I didn't experence any kind of physical sensations when I was with the woman.

I don't know what to make of it, but it was one of the longest, most vivid projections I've ever had so far.

[Traveler_2649]

I've been going through a lot of changes in life recently, including a long distance move.

It's been about a month since we moved, and I've been struggling to get into a productive routine. I let old vices get the better of me for a while, with the excuse of just being stressed out, but this week I have been making a committed effort to be more productive physically, in regards to handling things around the house, and spiritually. I'm already seeing changes that I'm happy with.

I've been successful in once again incorporating meditation and yoga practices daily, and it's like a weight has been lifted off of my mind. I feel happier, more calm, and really at peace with where I am at in my life.

I was meditating after a yoga practice earlier this week, and was doing some reflection. I made an effort to reach out to guides, and a guide contacted me. I was expressing that it felt so good to meditate again, and they responded by saying, "I'm proud of you." Without hesitation, I responded, "I'm proud of me too."

I'm still putting together my understanding of what guides and your Higher Self are in terms of subconscious and consciousness, but I understand that they are a part of us as a whole. This experience was such an uplifting, powerful reinforcement indicating that I'm making progress in a positive direction.

Throughout the rest of the week, meditations have yielded more profound results. I'm "clicking out" less during guided meditations, and I feel like I'm re-attuning with my energy body more and more with each meditation. It's just great to feel this spiritual growth again.

[Lumaza]

I was meditating after a yoga practice earlier this week, and was doing some reflection. I made an effort to reach out to guides, and a guide contacted me. I was expressing that it felt so good to meditate again, and they responded by saying, "I'm proud of you." Without hesitation, I responded, "I'm proud of me too."

I'm still putting together my understanding of what guides and your Higher Self are in terms of subconscious and consciousness, but I understand that they are a part of us as a whole. This experience was such an uplifting, powerful reinforcement indicating that I'm making progress in a positive direction.

I am glad to hear that things are becoming more "balanced" in your life again. They always say, "Ask and thou shall receive". A balanced life is a good life! 

T

hroughout the rest of the week, meditations have yielded more profound results. I'm "clicking out" less during guided meditations, and I feel like I'm re-attuning with my energy body more and more with each meditation. It's just great to feel this spiritual growth again.

Once in a while a "pause" is necessary. "Life" can force a pause as well. You kind of feel like you come back stronger though, with more ambition and drive to succeed! 

[EscapeVelocity]

"Click outs" are part of the normal Non-Physical learning environment/process...don't be disappointed nor dissuaded by them...this is often learning that has to be delivered and received at a subconscious level, thus we are 'pushed out of the conscious loop' for a time so that the essential communication/information can be downloaded for future understanding...I hope that makes sense...understanding can take days, weeks, months, even a year or more.

[Traveler_2649]

I think I just had another successful projection, despite how brief it was.

This morning I decided to try to meditate with "the training wheels off". No guidance, no binaural beats, nothing.

I went into my home office and laid out my yoga mat on the floor. I got comfortable, put on a sleep mask, and started to simply focus on my breathing.

I was able to feel myself reach a state of meditation. For those familiar with the Gateway Tapes, I'd say it was comparable to the "Focus 10" state.

I felt myself occasionally snoring for a moment, but I was completely conscious and aware of it. The snoring was taking me out of my concentrated focus, but I still maintained a "mind awake, body asleep" state.

At one point, I saw the closed door to my home office from my living room. Unfortunately, this only lasted for a brief moment because it was interrupted by another brief snore.

After ending my meditation (which lasted much shorter than it felt), I realized that it was a brief flash of an OBE.

[Tak]

Hi Traveler, that's fantastic!
It's good to meditate without the audio sometimes. In my case, it's been quite complicated to enter a deep meditation state without them... I've thought about paying for the Hemi Sync Flow subscription. It was much easier to do when I lived near the beach, since there was huge and solitary beaches with no people, just nature around... It was easy to connect with everything there, many times I felt like I was in a dream with my eyes open. In the city, I feel like I need extra help, the vital and powerful energy of nature is not present. But this can also be taken as a challenge.

That mat of yours looks magical! And I think that the fact that you meditate on it and not on your bed makes your body prepare mentally for the occasion, as Lumaza mentioned here once, having a special place and under specific conditions, the mind already predisposes itself to reach certain states of consciousness. And the fact that the mat is textured probably helps to concentrate even more.

That astral vision you described is quite curious, and I wonder what's really happening. Since, like you, while I meditate or concentrate with my eyes closed, sometimes instead of entering hypnagogia, I start seeing through my closed eyelids, the ceiling above me with the fan or lamp... For example. I also often see the curtains in the room, which are white semi-transparent fabric and the sunlight draws shapes on it, which I see. And when I remove my sleep mask, I see the curtain with the same shapes I had seen through my closed eyelids, in a kind of ethereal vision.
The thing is that I was lying on my back and to see it, I would have had to turn my physical head, and I wasn't. I always wonder what that is. In your case, did you feel like you were in the living room with your whole body looking at the office door, or was it more like a remote vision, so to speak? I still don't understand how remote viewing works, is it that one simply becomes a random perspective in the surrounding space, seeing from any angle? Without the need for an energy body acting as the observer.

Whatever it is, it's great! Good experiences, Traveler

[Traveler_2649]

I woke up early this morning, wanting to get back on a schedule with my meditative practices. We had a lot of family come visit, and things have finally calmed back down to where I have the opportunity and privacy to meditate.

I decided to revisit one of the earlier recordings from the Gateway Tapes. It didn't yield any kind of powerful, significant experiences or ideas. I realized that I had "clicked out" halfway through the recording and "came back" at the very end.

After the track ended, I just laid on my Shakti mat. The meditation felt like I had listened to two tracks, but I have to manually start each track. It just felt like a considerable amount of time had passed. I was very relaxed.

As I laid on the mat, enjoying the stillness, I unintentionally projected this morning!

At first, I felt as though My body had rotated 180 degrees (my head was facing north, but I felt like it was now facing south, and my large guitar amp that was to my right was on my left.)

I could see the door of my office. The lighting in the room was off, like a sepia tone. I didn't think much of it and decided to go use the bathroom. I felt sort of heavy and lethargic, like I was moving through a fluid. At one point, something clicked, and I realized that I was not walking  to my bathroom, I was floating. I could feel my feet occasionally touching the ground as I moved through the building like an astronaut moving around the ISS. I went to round a corner in what didn't necessarily still resemble my house, and I passed my hand through the wall. I went to go through a doorway and got stuck. Then I found myself back in my body.

It was an awesome experience.

[Traveler_2649]

So, I've needed a few days to wrap my head around this experience. Three days ago, I decided to revisit the Lumenate app for a meditation. During the meditation, I overheard what sounded like either a conversation or a narration. I had this impression that two individuals were arguing, and one was a spirit guide of mine. Then I heard, "Harry is making her curious, and annoyed." The tone of the voice sounded like someone spreading workplace gossip. My immediate thought was, "Who is Harry?"

The Lumenate meditation ended, and I loosely journaled what I experienced, but I wanted clarification. I put on one of the Gateway Experience tapes to try to get some deeper insight on what I experienced, and I made contact with the spirit guide who I felt was the entity being annoyed by this "Harry". I asked her who Harry was, and she explained that he's another guide of mine. I asked what they were disagreeing about, and she explained that Harry intended to use me as a communication beacon, and she was hesitant to let him do so.

After this explanation, I asked if my guide could help me get out of my body. She said she could, but that it wouldn't be in the dramatic sense that I experienced before. I felt a lightness in my left hand, and the sensation of lightness spread through the rest of my body. My perspective tumbled for a moment, like someone aimlessly drifting through space. After my perspective stabilized, I saw who I recognized as my daughter, but she looked older. Currently, my daughter is 1 1/2 years old, but this looked as though she was 3 or 4.

I'm struggling to put how this all felt into words. It was spooky. World-view shattering. It raised a lot more questions than it answered.

[Tak]

Traveler, what you shared today it's amazing! Well done! You have great insight. It's incredible that there's a group of beings helping us on this path. Michael Newton's books describe very well the work of guides with us and how they help us develop.

Two years ago, before I started reading more about the topic and even finding the Pulse, I received some revelations from my guides too. It seems that many of our helpers are also learners; two of them who assist me were people who recently passed away (whom I didn't know), one of them a great psychologist. Their greatest desire was to become invisible helpers (a term I learned here) after death. I've never met anyone in this life with such a great vocation of service and love for humanity as these guides; their greatest desire is truly to help/assist. They are guided by my main guide, who has more experience. Let's say they're also doing their internships! And they practice with me.
They also grow through love, continuing to learn. All this fills me with great joy, and I have no words to thank them. And yes, as you mentioned, they influence our lives more than we're aware of, but most of the time they prefer to go unnoticed. I thank them every day for their service, and I hope I'm not a headache for them! lol. There's a whole team behind the scenes working with us. Sometimes I feel like a little plant in a garden, and they're like my gardeners, patiently waiting for the fruits to come out, but the main work is ours.

It's lovely that you know the name of one of them! I don't know their names. May I ask why that shattered your worldview?

[Traveler_2649]

Seeing my daughter in the future was a powerful thing to witness, but trying to figure out who or what I could potentially be communicating with (or who/what could be using me to communicate) has been the thing that was the most broadening for me.