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i have tried to make a few psi balls and normally it seems to work. i can feel it pretty easily and its usually hot when i do. i can never seem to make them visible though, no matter how much energy i pour into it. so just now i just layed back listening to some music while i tried again, everything went like normal at first, i could feel heat building in my hand. but then something strange happened, i felt like my fingers were being electrocuted. i thought i was imagining it at first and tried to keep going but the sensation kept building and i had to stop out of pain. now im feeling jolts of pain thru my arm and my fingers are prety much numb. ,anyone else experiance something like this? still didnt manage to make it visible though.

im not saying that its possible to do but would one person changing something that would effect a large number of people be wrong? even if it seems like it would be better for all of them, would it be unethical to do something that effects many without asking every single one? i guess this could be called playing god, but still if it would improve the lives of many would it not be worth it.

I would suggest that our ego has "scope" and is only meant to exist while we maintain a physical existence here on Earth.  In that context, then, yes we could measure it on a spectrum and observe that egos in the middle tend to be neither doormats, nor tyrants (although I suspect that in the grand scheme of things doormats and tyrants have a purpose).

I'm guessing that my current ego, "Rob", came into existence when I took on a physical existence here, and that if things work out right, then I'll shed this ego at some point after my physical body dies. But I'm pretty sure I wasn't "Rob" before being born into this lifetime, and if I've had past lives I certainly wasn't "Rob" during those.  And so, most if not all of the things that I associate with my ego, will lose their meaning for me after physical death.

I guess to me, an ego is like a coat that I put on during my physical lifetime and it serves a purpose by providing a framework for my experiences here.  In that sense it's not "good" or "bad" and certainly not "evil".   Consequently, the concept of annihilating my ego during my physical lifetime has never made much sense to me.  Yet, at some point after death, I believe that I'll give up the old coat that I wore while on Earth.

The bigger question for me then is who exactly am I when I stop being Rob?  I guess the likely possibility is that when I give up the ego of "Rob" that I revert back to ANOTHER ego and that eventually I will also shed that ego. 

So perhaps ultimate enlightenment then, is the process of my shedding one ego after another until there is nothing left to shed.  At that point Buddhist annihilation has occurred and I am at one with the universe (pardon the cliche) in such a way that I don't even exist anymore.

The idea of not existing anymore might seem a bit distressing at this point to "Rob", but actually when it occurs it will just be that last ego finally acknowledging that it never had an objective existence to begin with, but rather that it (and all egos) are nothing more than passing thoughts in the mind of God.

Anyway, that's my .02

i agree with you about shedding egos and gaining a new one with each physical life. but i believe we can also have egos that stick with us in one form or another, carry on to the next bodies. maybe this is why some have memories of past lives. as for loosing your individualtiy and ceasing to exist i doubt ill be seeking ultimate enlightenment any time soon, i for one do not wish to cease to exist.

controlling my abilities became top priority when i realized many things could be done with a mere thought. when i first started i was creating things by accident, many of which were quite frightening. having high energy and doing stuff by accident can be dangerous so learning to control it was not something i took lightly. i still have a ways to go as far as learning to control it completely goes. but then again i doubt anyone has complete control.

well it used to just radiate outward or flare like flames from me, now it kinda swirls around me so it basically does that itself now. i used to think it was just me imagining things or i just generated more body heat than most but it could quickly heat an entire room when it spiked. i have had people make comments about it without even knowing about my abilities, and two who did know recently asked me how i could radiate so much without damaging my cellphone. guess the obvious solution would be to keep it as low as possible, but it changes with my mood. if my mood changes suddenly it can spike before i can get it under control again.

im new here but have known how to ap for over 3 years now. thing is when i ap my energy skyrockets and im not sure if going to the island would be a good idea for me. im surrounded by energy that can can cause physical heat or give headaches if i use it while mind walking(my term for entering someones mind). in the real world its not much of an issue but in a pure astral envoirment who knows what it could do.