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I know that there ar epeople who are in far greater need of healing energy than I, but I am going to ask for it anyway. I'm in sort of a depression and I am getting through it but if anyone could send a  bit of healing energy my way  I would be very grateful.

I'm not sure how this works but here is some info you might need.

Name: Pedro
Location: USA FLorida
Age: 16

Thanks for the consideration.

Oh man that is so difficult. Let me know if you have any luck.

It's an energy field created by all living things. It surrounds us and penetrates us. It binds the galaxy together.
Recognize it from somewhere..

Star Wars I guess?

Yes and it does make sense.

how can you be so sure? My diet could be completely different from yours, or your chakras could be much more developed, there are too many factors involved for you to claim you have the definite answer. Have you heard of other peoples personal experiences with kundalini awakenings? Or is this just based on your own personal experiences?

Hey

I was wondering, how do I know I'm ready to raise kundalini for the first time? Also, would I need to fast prior to this process?

Thanks for the help

It's blue now? I've read of it being green, but never blue. Where did you get your information on the colour of chakras?

Does anyone know? I'm not sure if it's clockwise or counterwise, or what the effects of doing so are.

Confidence comes with experience. Do as i did. Go out and speak to a lot of women. Think on that as something fun, like  a game. The more women you speak the more  you learn. I just love to go out and speak to any girl. They love that too. I just dont know how much they will love that at your age.

I have alot to work on before I can do that.

wow! people let me explain one thing: i get out for 1 day and when i came back everybody is speaking on naked stuff. When i suggested that it was more in a funny way. I was almost kiding, not intended to be taken seriously.

Lets stop with that naked bovine excrement, the real intention behind that was to break some ice here in this thread. Suicide its hard stuff, so (i thought) why not throw in some crazy nice thing?

Coming back to the topic: Heter, are you in an online shcool? Why didnt you take the normal shcool?

I few months ago I had to make a decision between military school and this. I had started getting into spiritual things and I knew the education system was crap anyway so i decided to get a high school diploma through the interenet aas opposed of going back to high school or military school. I was really hating high school for the first few motnhs I had done it and I just wanted to get away from all those false people. I am still happy with my decision and I will be getting my diploma soon.

As far as women go I know everythinga bout getting them interested and keeping them there and the rules of the game etc etc. I mastered it all years ago but I am held back by my lack of confidence.

Sorry, i was overstepping some boundries... He has said so himself though in his opening thread, so i thought if he wanted to keep it secret, he would not have posted it.

"Using others as stepping stones to feel elevated really isn't.....cool. "
...it is most certaintly not that; thats... evil. If anything, i would be making myself look like a jerk, not a better person.

Heter, would you consider going to a naked beach?

Not anywhere near this year.

Psh but what am i'm saying, your not gonna kill urself.

Probably not now. I'll wait a bit and see what happens. I'm only 15 anyway and my mindset will probably change as I 'mature'.

Now, about doing things alone, you can do all what i´ve said before. Why you dont do this: when you get a little better (you will get, believe me, i was depressed and due to chmestrys in my brain, some days i would wake up better) you will organize your life. Make a list of things that you need to do.

Have a kind of secret diary where you write what you want, what you need, and how to achieve it.

You must have an objective or something funny to do. Some ideas:

1- Bonsais Trees: thats really relaxing and great. You need intelgence to create one in the right way.

2- If you like cars and electronics, maybe you could try to build a small car, with remote control. Sometimes you can find nice collections for buying.

3- buy LEGOS! Really There are some amazing Legos outhere for adults and i am thinking in buying some: Robots. These legos (from what i read) need some learning on programming. It must be really funny you create your on Robot

4- About Programming: why not create a smal PC game? i start doing that one day but then i got tired quickly (i got tired quickly from everything)

5- Take care of your garden and try to create something new and beautiful on it.

These are some random ideas. You got the idea. Anyway, you really need friends. Do you have neighbours? cousins leaving near? If you have neighbours why dont you speak with them?

Maybe the girl on next door....if you have a girl on next door speak with us, we can give you some tips (ya: seek Hans Solo or Frank here in AP forums Wink).

Anyway, i still dont get the reason of your depression. From what i read, from researches, etc, guys that want to kill themselves at your age have their problem on family. Teenagers are not depressive-suicide-people like you think. All teenagers are very healthy and have normal problems. They only think on suicide with a good reason. Thats not teenager bovine excrement. Some of them (i hoope thats your case) jut speak on suicide (but they will never do it) because they want the attention that they never had.

Others have real bad problems.

In my teen years i was like you but i had problems with my family. Problems enough to take me into a depressive state and later on, that "cancer" was almost make me to commit "seppuku" (suicide).

If you want to expose your problems we will hear them and respect you. If you prefer to speak in PM with us thats ok too. Sometimes, "breathing" in internet its better than having no one in real life for hearing us.

And please, stop complaining that you cannot find friends: grab some of the guys that you know from your shcool and go swim naked to the river Very Happy (kiding)!

I don't need to distract myself anymore. I need to work to get out of this situation

I'm not going to hang out with people who have a completely different life style than me and completely different mindsets. I don't go to normal school anyway, so I dont see kids. People my age dont understand me and do not want to hang out with me. I ahve tried doing so before, and got severely disrespected and mocked. Also i dont have cousins sisters or brothers living in the area. I live with my grandma. 2 of my sisters live in brazil, 1 in atlanta, 1 in miami, and my mom lives in Turkey. Yes, Turkey  

Yes I know that most teenagers problems are ridiculous but I'm pretty sure my own dont fit under that category. I am also offended by the way you underestimate my situation because I am a teenager.

And do you have a job? or go to school?

No, they dont hire anyone under 16 legally here. I am completing an online course so i can get my ridiculous excuse for a 'education'  .

I intend to reply to all posts . Sorry if you even see this post, there will be responses here...

i am back.

do you know what i did this afternon? lol, it stupid but me and a group of friends (no girls...) we take a bath completly naked in the river!

you must try that some day, lol its a very pleasurable sensation (not talking in a sexual way really).

and no, we did nothing to each other, lol...since i remember i am not gay.

Well that's possible, when you have friends  

Rofl, and not to mention no air plane parts were even found at the 'crash' site.

I've recently been getting alot of money for my trip to london and i used some of it on weed.

Heter, when you're depressed and do marijuana, does it actually make you feel any worse, or does it just 'mellow you out', as they say? As far as I've heard, only psychadelics have driven depressed people to suicide.

Well it is a bit complicated. yesterday when I was high, I cryed which is quite rare for me. I began to realize the scope of the situation of me, and the world. I asked a question and I was brought the answer by myself. I sort of had a very emotional moment of clarity. I beleive I became more independent because of this experience. After that I calmed down and had some more marijuana and just 'spaced out' to relax myself from the ordeal I had just went through. Marijuana high can one of great brain storming and discovery, or a period of relaxation and fun.

That would be a WONDERFUL solution, if it worked. The reason a total revolution has not happend  YET is because the illuminati have been able to stifle every major uprising. Someone speaks out, the next day they get into a 'car crash' or something like that.

Total revolution and uprising can't be an option until the world on a whole has become more aware. Until then, we would be deemed 'whackos'. This might take some time, so until then we must become as strong as possible.

We've waited billions of years for people to become self aware enough and it has never happened. We need to speed this process up and do it OURSELVES. It is that fear that you speak of that holds us back. We must be fearless if we are to win.

Heter--Just what do you have in mind that we should be doing, if you don't mind my asking?

I work full-time at a prestigious institution of higher learning where people are always working to improve the world.  As a librarian, my entire profession is about serving others.  It's my gift, and a worthwhile one, I should think.  It may not seem like much, but I do what I can.

Oh dear, you don't want me to start talking about God.  Suffice to say, I feel He has done a great deal for me, whether my life has been good or bad, easy or hard.  My faith has never been greater than it is now.

We need people to realize that we can't work along with the government, we need to eliminate the problem. Target the source of it and end it. There is too much evidence they couldn't give a rats butt about us. they dont want to help us in any way. They only do so when enough people rally to a certain cause and focus on imrpoving and then they get so much crap that they are forced to begin easing up and we begin to win. But we aren't pushing in the right area. It's all the same people, we all need to focus our efforts on one point and then we will begin to see results. All people need to realise is:

* We all have one enemy
* Together we are unstoppable

I think the best solution would be constant protesting and recruit recruit recruit. We could have people making speeches and spreading information to everyone. The more people we recruit the harder it would make for them to gain control. What could they do? Use military force? Then it would make our cause even stronger. At some point they would ahve to comment on our motives and they can't blow off such good questions with such large amounts of evidence. We should create anarchy and unite everyone. The war should be targeted ofcourse, almost everyone with 2 and a half brain cells can agree that was a wrong move. I mean come on, they did it on a 'vague' accusation that osam bin laden attacked the twin towers. Did they ever give real proof? I remember the broadcast, "Osama Bin laden has a website up about why america sucks bla blah it must b e him". THen I bet they would try labeling us as terrorists, and that is why we cannot do anything violent. But jesus christ there is just so much evidence out there, if we bring all of that to peoples front door and rub it in there face and they STILL are against our cause, then maybe we don't deserve to to overcome the situation if we are really that ignorant.

We don't do anything to improve the world. We just sit around here acting wise  while the powers that be have there way with everyone. Why can't we just take control of our planet again? Even if you dont beleive in the reptiles/illuminati, you can't deny that there are things on this planet that certainly need fixing and there are things we could be doing to fix it. Then I here, "We our powerful and we cant be messed with and we are gods etc", but look at the state that we are in. Sounds to me like the christian god who doesen't do shhite  even though people are dying and suffering.

- Almost Mrs. Murphy: I'm only 15, and male, but I think that the fact you can type inteligent things without acting... idk like crazy or depressed big time (without seeming like that) is amazing, and good for you! If i lost my wife (in the future that is) right before mairrage, i dont know what id do!

Heter does not believe marijuana is bad for the body and person. He says he has seen proof that it is, if anything, good for the body because it raises awarness time thing (as in 'high')

Would someone here give hard proof that he is dead wrong, that marijuana is not good for you.

If no one can, well i'd have to admit hes right. But it just doesnt seem natural to use artificial 'awarness'
Heter- you should listen to her, she has it a lot worse than you, and it looks like she knows what shes talking about. Especially the park part. And indulgining in something you love is in fact good for you, if you do it sparringly, like once a week.
Acting true on your convienence totally defeats the purpose.

Yes and ned you should go bonk yourself. Who the bonk gave you permission to interfere? Don't you have some air to push around or something?

[My advice:1. See a doctor. Any doctor. These days, they all know something about how to treat depression and anxiety.So I can take anti depressants that turn me into a zombie? Did you know that 95% of school shooters were on an anti depressant like prozac.2. Spend some time outside. I know it sounds corny, but it may help more than you think. For me, it provides an immediate high. Maybe not a huge high, but enough to help me get through another hour. This would help and I'm doing that in Turkey. But the trade off for that is that I get to see the man my mom betrayed me for and the reason she hasnt beena round for 5 years.3. Accept that sometimes, you might have to just take one hour, or even one minute, at a time. Don't worry about tomorrow, or even all day today.No, Ive been behind long ebough. I need to start doing things now before I keep convincing myself that I cant do it in the future.4. While you're here in these forums, give your mind something to gnaw on! Learn how to phase or something! Life is a lot more bearable when you can experience the universe that is much greater than the here and now. And you know, you don't have to die in order to do it!I know alot about projection and phasing I just dont practice it because I can't bring myself to dedicate enough time to see results.]

I've become something of an unwilling expert on depression, including suicidal thoughts and feelings.  

Right now, I am trying to cope with life's greatest sorrow--I'm a 28-year-old widow.  Until 2 months ago, I was looking forward to a long, bright future with the most wonderful man on Earth, a man I felt was made just for me.  Well, that future is no more.  It has ended before it began.  And now I feel like I have a good 50+ years of "Why the hell am I here, and what the hell do I do now?!" ahead of me.  I feel like I'm stumbling through the dark.  Everything is a big unknown.  I fear life the way most people fear death.

I often think about dying now.  I don't have "active" suicidal tendancies, but I do have "passive" ones.  I drive a bit more recklessly.  I'm tempted not to wear my seatbelt.  I'm not afraid to walk in lightning storms any more.  And if someone confronted me with a gun or a knife, I'd tell them to $@!% themself because they can't hurt me any more than I'm already hurting.  If, Heaven forbid, terrorists ever started something in my city, $@!% them too--I'd chase the bastards down and give them their comeuppances, or else die trying.  I'm not afraid of anything or anyone any more.  In a way, that's good, but in a way, it's also self-destructive.

Honestly, there's only one thing that is sure to keep me alive, and that is the fear that suicide will sentence me to Hell.  And that I will be separated from my beloved for eternity.  

Now, I should say that I don't always feel this low.  It's really a huge roller coaster.  It doesn't head downward forever.  And I think I can say with some authority that it won't keep heading down forever, for you either, nor for any of us.  It has to get better, because no one can live for long with such suffering.

What's sad is that the state you and I are in are the illuminatis fault, and we dont do anything about it.

My advice:

1.  See a doctor.  Any doctor.  These days, they all know something about how to treat depression and anxiety.

So I can take anti depressants that turn me into a zombie? Did you know that 95% of school shooters were on an anti depressant like prozac.

2.  Spend some time outside.  I know it sounds corny, but it may help more than you think.  For me, it provides an immediate high.  Maybe not a huge high, but enough to help me get through another hour.  

This would help and I'm doing that in Turkey. But the trade off for that is that I get to see the man my mom betrayed me for and the reason she hasnt beena round for 5 years.

3.  Accept that sometimes, you might have to just take one hour, or even one minute, at a time.  Don't worry about tomorrow, or even all day today.

No, Ive been behind long ebough. I need to start doing things now before I keep convincing myself that I cant do it in the future.

4.  While you're here in these forums, give your mind something to gnaw on!  Learn how to phase or something!  Life is a lot more bearable when you can experience the universe that is much greater than the here and now.  And you know, you don't have to die in order to do it!

I know alot about projection and phasing I just dont practice it because I can't bring myself to dedicate enough time to see results.

It's nothing I'm just being teenager, I will get my things together now.

Look at it this way heter, how do you know that maybe YOU are someone special and the Illuminati are not trying to eradicate you by self-destruction because maybe you have a greater purpose here. Maybe if you can get through this state of mind currently and find out your true reason why your higher self has incarnated you here on this planet you may be surprised.

Ok and how do I do that? Why can't I just merge with my higher self and exist here. Why can't everyone just know all the lessons of life? Why do we need lessons? Why not just be as one?

Than you for the link.