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Happy new year pulsers
May 2025 treat you all well

thought id share a few youtube vids here from a channel i enjoy moojibaba has some fantastic spiritual guidance and meditation
i find his laidback demeanour relaxing and his way of explaining very clear

I've been actively trying to AP quite a bit lately and although I haven't had much success I've had a few lucid moments, last night though or I guess the early hours of today I suddenly became aware I was in the vibrational state, I had the sensation that I was laying face down which is pretty rare for me these days (but on reflection how I slept more as a teen and fits this scenario)

After a minute or so of increasing vibrations I decide it was time to make an effort to leave my body and rolled from my front to my back and used the momentum to get out which I did I was now stood up in my bedroom but my astral leg was stuck in my body lied on the bed I had to give a good yank to separate completely, I turned to look at myself and my body on the bed was doing some I'd spasms (I never usually see myself at all when I've managed to project close to my body)

I walk to leave the room and I notice my body is still buzzing and tingling quite a lot in close proximity to myself, I walk downstairs and see my reflection in the kitchen window my hair is wild and I call myself John lydon and chuckle to myself

Then my mum comes into the kitchen in her wheelchair I smile and ruffle her hair (my mum was a long time sufferer of multiple sclerosis and died just over a year and a half ago now)

I walk into the dining room and I'm looking into a bag of chocolate eggs and I wake up and scramble to find something to record the experience, nothing around school boy error I get up go to the kitchen and write some notes while I'm up I take a leak and have a drink I'm still feeling nice and groggy like I could phase again and give it a go but I'm unsuccessful and wake to my alarm

Now I'm reflecting and writing it all up in my blog a few things to note for me was the experience was from my old teenage bedroom in my mum and dads house the orientation of how I was sleeping was all correct as it would have been back then, my appearance in the window was also how my hair would have been back then in my punk rock phase, seeing my mum in her wheelchair was a short lived moment with just a ruffle of hair but still a nice moment

This is the second time I've essentially time traveled during an AP the other thing I'd like to note is it's the morning after much of the world witnessed a total eclipse (just partial here in the uk) but I wonder if that had any power to it

Not really sure where to put this topic
Just wondering if any of you have had the chance to use one
I went to a day spa and had an hour session for a birthday present
It wasn't 100% sensory deprivation tank but it was enclosed with a door and pretty dark
The first 5 - 10 minutes plays relaxing music then it goes silent for 40 mins then last 5-10 brings you back to the room with gentle wave sound

It was super relaxing and as it's in a locked room you are welcome to get naked so you really become one as the water temp syncs with your body
I felt like I was scrolling sideways through the universe and an hour went past iba heart beat

I didn't manage to have a projection but I should really go back again now covid restrictions have eased

Last nights dream was kind of lucid I was playing a game where me and a old work colleague were taking it in turns to make markings on a wall
On his turn he held my hand and completely vanished when he reappeared he was now an old guy that I just priced a job for and I was saying don't you see you can't turn invisible in real life this is just a dream
I kept pointing out dream signs to him and you suddenly saw the realisation on his face
I told him to study the plants and see how vivid they look
And I told him to jump up and fly which he did
But when I tried to do all these things I couldn't my awareness didn't seem high enough I was watching someone else achive lucidity but I didn't 100% twig myself

hi all been a few years since i checked in on the pulse hope your all well in these crazy post pandemic times
been actively trying to lucid dream and project a bit lately again so thought id share my most recent positive attempt

https://fowlskins.wordpress.com/2023/02/07/three-in-a-row/

well its been four years sinse i have had anything notable to write about ive not been dream journaling and although ive had a few lucid moments here and there they have been nothing that i have felt the need to write down
at the moment we are almost a year into the corona virus pandemic and with the rolling lockdowns ive had alot of chances to not get up to the usual alarm which i thought would be great for that extra bit of rem sleep but its not yielded as much as i thought

last night however was different i became suddenly aware of being in the vibrational state, having experienced this many times now i just neutrally observe them and feel them intensifying
after some time i feel like i need to make a effort to switch my consciousness, i have a confused clarity pinballing from the vibrations to dreamstate i have a bright flash as my astral eyes try to open then suddenly im in my old bedroom at my parents house there are two very aggressive humanoids that are giving me huge pangs of fear and uncomfortableness
im very lucid and i want to leave the room its not a pleasant feeling
i try to gather myself and make a conscious effort to change the scene but it doesnt work
i make a dash and try to fly out through the bedroom window (something that comes easy usually for me in lucid states) but i fail and im still in the room with the two entity's they are shouting and i do not understand the language
finally i face the two humanoids and kind of let go of the fear and i gain full control i change the scene to a cityscape and begin exploring
i must of drifted back into unconscious sleep and failed to download anymore of that part of the night
later on in the early hours i felt the onset of a second set of vibrations, i heard a lot of chatter that sounded close to me and silently observed them recognising them as aural hallucinations
i focus on the vibrations and change the pitch of them until they become super intense and high pitched
i dont experience an exit but do experience varying degrees of lucidity through the next series of dreams
the one thing that stuck out was sitting with a group of friends explaining the events of the last attempt with the malevolent humanoids and how i was attempting to open my astral eyes to what turned out to be dream characters as i finally opened my eyes and returned to waking life

published by weiser this was a nice little book found in one of the brilliant esoteric bookshops in Glastonbury town uk

*the blurb*
carol is a self taught astral projector. she graduated from black hills state university with a b.s in mathematics chemistry and biology and received her mba from the university of south Dakota she lives in the black hills of south Dakota this is her first book

i really enjoyed this book its written in a very analytical way due to her scientific background but its also non partial and not bias to any school of thought
for the level i am at with my own practice i found it helpful but its not just an instruction manual or a list of techniques its a step by step incremental look at the way we can enter non physical reality's and what they mean

the book starts talking about consciousnesses and dreams and really breaks down the way she felt in certain dreams it goes on to talk about lucid dreams but also trys not to label them all as separate and explains them as a continuation of consciousness

then the section on astral projection and a balanced argument as to if its a subjective reality contained within our own mind or if its actually an objective experience in a actual non physical realm or parallel dimension making no real conclusions other than the experience she has personally had

there are a few useful techniques to help you to exit into a obe but its not primarily that kind of book

then there is a whole section at the end that is made up of her journal and her more memorable obes

defiantly worth a read  not sure if some of the more experienced projectors will get quite as much from it but ii found it was written in a refreshing way than alot of other books ive read on the same subject

bit long winded but bare with me as im probably just going to copy and paste it to my online dream journal

just to set the scene sunday night was a hard night my son had been gradually going down with a fever and was pretty delirious so me and the missus was up with him most of the night i think i had probably two hours sleep before setting off to do a full days work
monday when i got home we got the kids to bed fairly early and so i was ready to crash myself and in bed by around 8.30 - 9.00 pm
read a short few pages from my current astral oddessy book and then sleep (defiantly had intent to project on my mind)
i slept right through and was woken by daughter at 6.20 am i brought her in bed with me and she cuddled in and went back to sleep so i thought great time to attempt a exit

as i was drifting off i was getting hypnogogic imagery of a piece of rough ply wood that i was trying to smooth out with poly filler
must have fallen into unconscious sleep and then began to dream of walking up the ally to my old flat it was pitch black and and i bumped into a small boy that must have been about waist height i was trying to avoid hitting him again as he sounded a bit distressed as i made for the door that lead down another section of my alleyway
when i got to the back door of my house anna was in a outside loo and she said there is someone in the flat, sure enough the door was open and i could hear people upstairs as i walked up the stairs i picked up a big stiff broom and went in and cracked the first intruder around the head (at this point my awareness was beginning to heighten) i was sneaking up on the next burgler and gave him a good crack too and then the third i was really in control of what was happening in the dream but still playing out the scene i tied the three up in the corner and i was being pretty damn nasty to them torturing and taunting them (i think the fact that i had my daugther in a sling on my front had kicked me into protective mode)
things were getting a little dark and i was telling him i was going to kick a broken bottle up his arse when i heard another noise in the kitchen
as i walked to the kitchen my awareness took another step up i was suddenly in full consciousness and i decided to jump up and float through the celling i got stuck half through it so came back into the kitchen and then jumped forwards through the kitchen window (seems to be a pattern of the way i project from a lucid dream now) i got three quarters through and then it got a bit sticky so i pulled my way out using a branch in the garden hedge
once i popped out things were at optimum vividness i looked into the distance and decided to fly there as fast as i could
while wizzing along i thought about the intent to go to Glastonbury tor in pre history before the chapel was built on top i thought hard and changed the scene but the tor hill just didnt seem right to me it was more like a mound of rocks with gaps between each one
i carry on flying down the high street there is a strange contraption being driven by a black guy i fly through it and on the back is a large observation platform/seat with a police woman sat on it
i sit next to her and i start unbuttoning her shirt and im once again caught up in the old astral sex trap again
it lasts for a very long while of foreplay on this odd trike thing moving through town and across fields and eventually i get off and am looking for somewhere to have full intercourse but there are people everywhere and its a built up area (modesty started kicking in)
i wake up and look at the clock its now 6.59 just before my alarm goes off a good 40 minute experience

on reflection i really noticed how each level of awareness was felling as it slowly heightened
a nice successful dream exit and actually following through with an intent planned from waking consciousness followed by a slight failure returning  back into the carnal pleasure fixation ive been trying to phase out
also having a longer sleep period than normal defiantly helped

all good fun though  

so after my couple of recent successes at projection ive stumbled back into missing some pretty obvious things

it seems my subconscious has offered up lots of dream signs and moments in witch i could have raised my awareness enough to exit from the dream state but ive just failed to recognize them

the other night i was deep in unconscious dream when i saw my grandmother that has been dead for over 20+ years i instantly realized that i must be dreaming and became lucid but rather than take control of the scene i proceeded to have a chat with her asking her where she had been and how was the afterlife treating her until eventually slipping back into the dream

another dream consisted of sitting around in a circle of caravans with various like minded individuals that i didn't know but we were all discussing astral projection in depth but i never made the connection that i was in the non physical already

i had a large bought of false awakenings again but struggled to get out of the loop before actually awakening

and the usual out of place dream signs that should have been a trigger to lucidity but were not

it really is tricky this lark but i love exploring the mind so much
onwards and upwards

was trying to get my head around this latest discovery of gravitational waves
was listening to six music they have brian cox on talking physics some mornings and he tends to usually explains things nicely in lamens terms interview starts at 02.09.27 here http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b06zh2nv#play (available for another 29 days)

ive always thought that time is just a human creation
but the idea that something can create waves or ripples through space and time is very interesting
the fact that we perceive time to be constantly moving forward even though there is only now and the rest could just be memory or even all just one big conscious memory makes my brain melt  

anyway interesting times i look forward to what other new discovery's this brings

went to bed with intent to astral project did a few relaxation techniques and then tried phasing but must have drifted off
was woken by my youngest she was very unsettled so i feed her a bottle and brought her into bed with me im always very conscious of her being there and i wake alot i seem to sleep lighter when she is next to me
eventually we must have both drifted off a little deeper and i was dreaming that i was outside a building where i saw two shifty figures lurking outside a doorway i walked closer to investigate and it was two very malevolent looking stereotype grey aliens with very skinny bodys this took me by surprise and a instant wave of fear shot through me (ive not had dreams about aliens like this for many years i used to get freaked out watching films like fire in the sky and communion when i was a teen, and i also had a section of my life where i was using far to many amphetamines and experienced a grey alien psychosis for quite a while witch until i stopped using and got my head together seemed very real at the time, but these days its not something that bothers me so it was strange to see a return)

this freak out must have caused me to want to wake up and i did or so i though i woke up in a bed and this time my daughter was much older than she is now
i woke up about 10 times in different scenarios some normal some with a slight nightmarish vibe ,and then at one point in one of them i remember leaping into the air as if i was going to fly and being so surprised when i actually did that i instantly became lucid the dream was so real and mundane that realizing it was a dream also took me by surprise i struggled to hang on to clarity and was losing control rapidly (i think at this point the shock had woke me properly and i gradually came around in my actual bed

i dont get false awakenings that much but when i do they are always multiple awakenings why do you think this is ive heard lots of people get the same thing is it some kind of feedback loop ??

i was awoken by my daughter at around 5.00 am for a feed after i put her back down she was unsettled until about 6.00 i thought to my self this would be ideal conditions for lucid dreaming, i got comfy and focused my attention on staying as conscious as possible as i drifted off
i became lucid at least two times through out the dream but the main point i remember was looking at he ground as i was in a graveyard and saying "vivid now" and watching the grass become greener this made me become totally lucid and i spent quite a while taking in the beauty of the surroundings examining tombstones and arches made in the hedgerows i refrained from flying this time as i was enjoying exploring the scene
at some point my attention was back at my body and i felt the unmistakable feeling of vibrations accompanied by a floating sensation i began to rise up towards the ceiling but could not see i got over exited and it woke me up
i remained still and drifted back into and semi conscious state again the vibrations returned and this time they were accompanied by a bright light pouring into my vision i had a slight spike of fear/dread as i thought about entity's but i just ignored the feeling and turned my attention to getting out of body i could see one of my arms in front of me as see through but i still couldn't get out i kept thinking outside but i think i awoke again
the third time the vibrations happened after quite a gap i felt the floating sensation again and i decided after lifting for a bit that i would try to roll out of my body as i rolled there was a disorientating sensation and when i looked back at the bed there was no one in it i was in my room and i went over to the wall to try to push my hand through it but when i put my hand on the wall my fingers went all wiggly like little tentacles
i tried to walk through a wall but just ended up back in another lucid dream about trying to get out of the room by running at walls eventually i found a secret door that i opened that lead to an alternative reality there was a woman opposite me doing the same movements as me from another door across an expanse of electronic chips it was almost like it was an alternative me and we were both looking in to a kind of back stage area of reality that your not supposed to see

i climbed in through the door and tiptoed across the circuit board using transistors as stepping stones , then i was awoken again by her at 8.00 am
this felt to me like the closest i have come to actual exit to date but still feels like i got sucked in to a dream again,

can this be defined as an astral projection or was it a lucid dream ?

ive recently copied all my old dream journals to a online blog so i have a digital copy

you can find them here if anyone is interested

https://fowlskins.wordpress.com/

i like to indulge in conscious experiments and things of that ilk
one of my reoccurring pastimes is lucid dreaming
ive been able to do it from a kid and really started getting into it in my teenage years training myself to do it more often
i have kept a dream journal for quite a few years recently going through phases of updating it religiously and getting lazy with it

ok so here is the main story a while ago i watched a vid on youtube to do with lucid dreaming that i thought would be fun for me to try myself
it involved looking for your dream item in a lucid dream and once finding it trying to find it in real life so it kinda becomes a dream totem that links to waking and dream states
so after a couple of times failing to remember to do this in a lucid dream i finally remembered and asked myself to find my dream item while i was lucid
i rooted around in a old metal biscuit tin and alot of the things i put my hands on didn't feel right but eventually i held a small white clay pipe witch was either shorter than normal or broken
i awakened that morning and then wrote down all the details of the dream in my journal

i then went to work searching for the pipe in real life i didnt want to just look on ebay and buy something that resembled it i wanted it to kind of have a bit of significance i looked in bric a brac shops ,i looked in hippy shops around glastonbury i searched endless markets and curio shops in thailand that were full of old dusty opium pipe but none felt right

this Christmas i played an annual game of escape from colditz a board game that me and a group of friends have been playing for years as a christmas tradition we played this year in an old derelict methodist church that my friend is working in we chose this venue so that we could be as rowdy as we liked without tinkling off any of our spouses
the game takes a long time and after 8 hours of drinking and playing the game it was time to pack up and on packing up the board game right there by my left hand was the pipe it had been in the room with me all that time without noticing it

it had been dug up by my friends while at work and i told them the story and they let me have it as it ment more to me than any of them
when i got home i opened my journal to read the entry of when i dreamt of it to see what it said
it discribed it exactly as white clay pipe plain but slightly ornate and short or possibly broken and the best part was on seeing the date in my journal that i dreamt of it it happened on new years eve/morning witch was almost 1 year to the day that i found it short by 1 day
i placed it by my bed that night and had my first lucid dream of 2012

eat your heart out inception !!!

hi all
not posted here in ages but had a experience that made me want to post

ive been doing the night shift with my newly born son so ive been sleeping a couple of hours getting up for a hour then going back to sleep
i thought this was going to be ideal conditions for lucid dreaming
what i didnt expect to have was the onset of obe last night out of the blue

i remember becoming semi conscious and then thinking about projecting towards the celling as i did this the vibration came on real quick it resonated at a much higher pitch than ive had before and i was then aware of a floating sensation and i stayed calm and went with it i then remember getting aural hallucinations of people talking it was a bit freaky but i kept telling myself that it was all part of the exit process
then i could see small patches through my eyelids but i was having difficulty actualy getting out then i heard my son cry and it woke me up

this really felt like the closest ive ever come to getting oob and i remember being exited at the time thinking im going to finaly do it after all these years

any tips on the best way to get out if i make it this far again   

OK Ive studied lucid dreaming alot and have become completely conscious and in control on many occasions
the way i do this is by asking myself everyday in waking life "am i dreaming is this a dream" and then looking for triggers that i might be dreaming things like reading words as when dreaming words tend to move around and change to other things
i also look for out of the ordinary things like being with celebrity's or being on a pirate ship or being in a out of place setting like a desert
ask yourself this question everyday and 95% of the time the answer will be no I'm not dreaming i am awake
eventually your sub conscious will have got in the habit of asking this question and you will think it while in a dream and something will be out of the ordinary you will notice some kind of trigger
at this point when i start to become conscious that I'm dreaming i look down at the back of my hands and this triggers full consciousness and complete control to do what ever i like.
flying is usually the first thing i do it feels amazing and you wake up feeling exilerated
sometimes holding on to that consciosness can be quite difficult and the lucidity can begin to fade i have read that spinning around in your dream is a good way to regain lucidity i have only tryed this once it did work and lengthened the dream a little but then i awoke
hope you find some of these tips usefull

hello to everyone
im fowlskins im 32 from england

ive been interested in astral projection for a long time and have read several books on it
as far as i know i have never managed to do it properly although i have had some wierd things happen
while trying that leads me to think i have come close
i use a few different relaxation methods and have tryed lots of different visualisations to try to leave my body
the few things that made me think i was getting close was on one time after a long relaxation period a overwelming
vibration was pulsing in waves over my whole body i eventualy freaked out and stopped
another time and this one is harder to explain i was waking up in the morning after trying to astral project and felt that i was lying facing towards my door in my bedroom but when i opened my eyes i was facing the other way
it was almost as if my astral body had become loose and disorientated me
the final thing was again in my wakeing moments this time i was looking down on myself from the celing of my bedroom it felt very real but i still cant be sure if it was a lucid dream
i have trained myself to lucid dream and usualy i triger it myself while asleep by looking at the back of my hands when i start to begin to realise that im dreaming but this didnt feel like that at all

anyway ive started trying again as of late and i just found this website so ill keep you all informed and look forward to reading everyone elses experiences