My name is Toni (am a dude tho). Been depressed since I was a teen. Last 3-4 years I have been on the bottom and I have been drinking heavily. I have always been interested in spiritual things, but what can you do when you're lost yourself? A week ago I got a little wake up call. Things went so overhands that I realized I'm gonna be dead soon if things continue like they did. I have been suicidal so to say.
In the last week I have been evaluating new priorities and things have been really interesting. Had one really fast obe (I think) and 1 and a half of sleep paralysis
, one just before I wrote this message. I have a new fuel for my life, and it ain't no alcohol. Now I really hope this lasts.
I have been lurking this site for years now, always hoping that someday I have something worth writing down here also.
Thanks for reading, Toni.
In the last week I have been evaluating new priorities and things have been really interesting. Had one really fast obe (I think) and 1 and a half of sleep paralysis
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I have been lurking this site for years now, always hoping that someday I have something worth writing down here also.
Thanks for reading, Toni.