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Lately I've been noticing something quite unusual that no-one else in my house seems to notice. It all started one night when I was in the bathroom. I was extremely furious, to the point where It felt like I was radiating fury. So I stood there, then all of a sudden, my entire body started to buzz with what felt like some sort of electrical energy, and all the bathroom lights shut off. Then I walked into the kitchen and my body started buzzing even more and all the electronics in the kitchen and living room started going crazy, the stove beeped several times, lights were turning on and off, then all of a sudden, it stopped. The buzzing reached a crescendo and I felt some kind of wave wash over me as I walked down the stairs to my room, then it all faded away when I sat on my bed. I texted my friend about it, but she didn't seem interested. Now, if this were only a one time thing I probably wouldn't be quite as interested as I am, but the other night it happened again. This time, I was in my room arguing with my mom, she kept saying how I was sinning, and spending too much time in the dark. Eventually she left and went upstairs, leaving me fuming on my bed, and then it happened. I didn't have any lights on in my room, but I sleep right beside the stairs and the I could see the stair lights going on and off, and I could here the stove beeping like crazy and also, I could see through holes in the wall that the lights in another room were turning on and off as well. Once again, no-one seemed to notice.

So, this has all happened within the last week, the first time it only occured in the room I was in, but the second time it affected the whole house, and both times nobody out of the four other people in the house noticed. Does anyone have any thoughts or knowledge on what happened, because we don't have electrical problems and I don't believe in coincidences.

Alright, so today was my first day back to school and yesterday was my first day back with my mom after spending most of the summer at my grandparent's. My dilemna began yesterday. Alright so, on my way back home I stopped to spend some time with a friend who I probably won't see for at least a couple weeks, probably more. We're really close and I had a really good time with her, but I could see she was really sad that she wouldn't see me for quite a while, and she could see I was quite sad about it too. So when I got home, I was already a bit down. When I got home, I went inside and this is when my emotions really started to blacken. My room was empty except for a mattress on my bed frame. Apparently, my mom allowed the house to get so humid that mold grew all over my stuff, which is ironic because she has a mold phobia. The only things of mine that were still in the house was my clock, my art box, and my chair. She said I can keep my clock after she cleans it, same with the art box, but the chair was literally covered in mold. Needless to say, I was quite upset. She said I couldn't even sleep in my bed because she had to wipe the mattress with bleach first. So, I ended sleeping on a bed with a sheet and a damp blanket with no pillow in my street clothes. This combined with many other things that have happened with my mom really hit me hard. I got up in the morning, got my things out of the car because there was literally nowhere to put them inside, and got on the bus. School was normal, it sucked. This is the end of the story part.

So, the reason I'm writing this is not to complain, but seek help. Right now, my insides feel like they are destroying themselves, and I just want to scream. Everything has been building up inside and having to come home when It's worse than it's ever been and declining, and start going to school which I hate with a passion, has sort of triggered every negative emotion I've ever buried and I feel like I'm dying inside.

I've been curious about manifestation for a while now, and I've looked around on the forums, but I still haven't found anything about how it works or how one would consciously manifest objects and such. Could someone help me out?

Hello everyone, I'm Steelflame and I live in Canada! This forum seems to be what I've been seeking for quite some time, so I hope that I can learn and contribute with everone!