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I never introduced myself.
My name is Boyana, I am from Bulgaria, 22 years old.
When I was four or five, I couldn't distinguish between this reality and out of body experience. I remember that I knew what the difference between a dream and an OBE was, because I just felt it in two specific different ways. But when I would experience OBE in the same environment of this reality, it would get very ridiculous. I was furious that I could fly so easily around the house in the first moment, and then the next - bound! and I couldn't lift my legs in the way I was so familiar to. I was sure it wasn't a dream because I was fully awake when I flied, that's why I was so angry the next moment the method of levitating wouldnt work.
I knew that it was really me flying around the house and when I tried to do it the next day while I was awake, I would get very angry because I couldn't do it again, so I wondered: "Oh, come on, yesterday I did it so easily, why can't I do it today!" Apparently as a child I was very disappointed that the physical body couldn't fly, subconsciously I was mad that flying was so easy and my body wouldn't allow me to do it. Very funny.
Here is a photo of mine:
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Well, here, little by little, I will try to tell my story. For now I will create the topic so I can have the motivation to come back later, probably today, to share with you some of my stories because they may interest you.  

Yesterday I woke up in my dream. It was either some guy from this forum (this is how the entity presented itself) or my subconsciousness building an 'avatar' for it? So I showed him around my past 'supernatural' experiences and showed him that I knew exactly how to fly with my body. I showed him the home of my friend where we were 'visited' by 'demons', then I showed him my classrom, and in every place I got kind of scared and flied away, as if running by some invisible power hidden in my past I was scared of. The guy tried to tell me some things which I barely remember but it was clearly a visitor from this forum (well the guy specifically told me he was from here?!), or at least my brain created you for me. It might have been the second case because I had been thinking about being visited so (just like Robert Monroe would visit friends at times). By the way, according to you could oneself create an unexisting phantom just out of the desire for it? Because if that is so, all the supernatural stuff I've seen, especially in sleep paralyses, might have been just nothing that seems too real. Like, if no one says that they visited me, it would be a sign in that direction. Or another entity just excused itself to be a part of this community because it knew that I wouldn't get scared this way? But it definitely seemed like some sort of spiritual illumination because it concerned my past experiences and what made me feel uncomfortable, it was like facing my previous xp and difficulties... hmm.. we should totally invite my spiritual guide to register in this forum. Like, why don't we try to create the forum in our dreams and arrange meetings there, it would go viral in the 'astral' web.

I mean, how does the 'separation' feel? Does it feel like being connected to your physical body while being someone else? How do you feel both existences at the same time? When you look around and see yourself, does it feel like being someone else? Do you still feel your physical organs' functioning?

People are social animals, spirits - too. If we have a society and we seek groups and feel best in them because that's how we operate, then why after death we can get stuck so easily in our own reality? Aren't we supposed to end up in a beyond where other spirits can reach us easily, guide us, take us to rest. What I mean is, why do you think we depend on each other so much in the physical realm and the other world seems so isolated and singular for everyone? And if you want to reach a friend and you are lost, then ... I mean, it sounds like the other world is just a vast space of lost beings. Why do you think we transition from such a place like our dependant on company world to a place where we don't understand what is going on? how did we even decide to incarnate, given that we may end up stuck in our own fear realm?

...or guardian angel Michael, and if yes, what did they say, how did you feel them, was it legit? Or said in other words, do you believe Jesus exists, has been born to Earth with higher purpose and now is in a state of pure lights that guards people? If you are skeptical, then why?

I believe people have ethereal bodies with which they can project. But there is one thing bugging me: when people do it, they are still alive physically and most importantly, they keep breathing with their physical lungs, their organs keep functioning. How is it possible to function as a purely ethereal body, how would breathing occur, when a human being is so dependant on the functions of its physical organism. How did you get so sure that after death pure ether can replace what the body is doing for us now? What if death shuts even such experiences down? Couldn't the ether be just a inseparable part of the physical and when we die, it would disintegrate and vanquish as well?