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Dreamt I have been seeing aunt's ghost which is still confused and thinks it's alive. Remembered within the dream other dreams I have had of aunt that were similar. My grandma seems to treat her as if she's alive but the cousins don't. Then dreamt other Grandma died and had been some sort of serial killer trying to bring Grandpa back to life. She was trying to tell me to focus on how much I loved her and she loved me and to not focus on what she did. She didn't say what she did but wouldn't show me her face, only an arm, which I think was holding my hand. This conversation all seemed like it was happening in my bedroom. Most lifelike dream I have ever had and the conversation was in broken English and Spanish just like it would be in real life.

Dreamt Wife and I were married in another life with a baby. A dangerous snake was about to bite one of them so I took the bite on my hand and killed it. Green and big snake. Seemed like South Africa or Australia. Caused my hand to decompose and had to have it amputated. I'd guess late 1800s. I was very happy to be with Candace but also sad because I was severely disabled by only having one hand for the rest of my life. Possibly Eastern Green Mamba, only one whose color and bite profile line up.

First dream with (son) Lorenzo in it. I don't remember all the details but I know the gist. Very positive and meaningful dream. Felt like there was a lot of reality to it underlying the metaphors and symbols. Pretty sure Lorenzo was spiritually actually there and part of the dream. Wife was focused on captaining the ship and not really involved in the other events. Very clear image of him staring at the stars in awe from space. (SO CUTE) Telepathically Said he wanted us to call him "Lo". At any rate,Wife was a future spaceship captain and I was a crew mate. Wife's grandpa was involved somehow, making bad decisions (pretty accurate unfortunately), and Lorenzo wanted to help him. I did what I could but it didn't work out. The message Lorenzo learned was no matter how hard you try, you can't save everyone. Woke up feeling very happy and loving towards Lorenzo.

Had been hearing weird scratching sounds irl (but it wasn't cats from what I could tell, I went to look for the source of the noise and I couldn't find it. It wasn't in Nanny's room from what I could tell) and also randomly  getting elevated heart rate like I was sensing something dangerous. Wife and son seemed to be reacting to the noise in their sleep. In the dream Wife was asleep, F.I.L. and M.I.L. were awake (but not generally useful), and Grandma-In-Law was there and seemed relatively alert and aware of what was going on. Either Grma.I.L. or Wife had a visible third eye (don't remember which, but leaning Grma.I.L.). There was another family there with 4 babies and it wasn't our current house. Anyways, the important thing is that there were demons who I could sense but not see who were freaking out son, who seemed to be reacting irl to what I was doing in the dream timing wise. I tried praying to get one of the demons that was attacking to leave (which did absolutely nothing... luuul), so when it tried to bite me... I forced it back then tore its head in two- pretty metal. son woke up right after I killed the demon.
Might have had a feeling of something on top of me crushing me (before the dream events) but my memory is unclear, forgot all about that part until hours later.

Dreamt son said "mama" for the first time. Also that the dead family dog (about 5 years dead who never met my son) was laying down next to him and licked his face really good. Also rolled over for belly pets.
Son actually said "mom" for the first time ten minutes after I woke up from this dream.

I'm looking for a teacher/mentor. I would consider myself to have pretty strong empathic and intuitive abilities, and am looking for someone to teach me how to develop various aspects of my spirituality. I have extreme difficulty visualizing, so having someone who can relate to those issues would be ideal. I'm also a pretty skeptical type, but I have experienced things that forced me to reject my assumption that spirituality was a load of crap. (I came from a very oppressive Christian religious background that colored my perspective as a whole).

I've tried to do self-past life readings but haven't seen much beyond a figure in a dress (I'm a man in this life). I *Think* I was German before the Nazis, but I really can't be sure. Is there a reasonable way to get past life readings done in a reliable and efficacious way without blowing tons of money?

I have something called hypophantasia, which means that I have extreme difficulty in visualizing, and that when I do, the image only lasts for a couple of seconds, is almost completely transparent, and will disappear if I try to do anything particularly complicated. For example, I can visualize a blue ball, but ask me to visualize a man holding a blue ball and it just falls apart.

I have seen visions (some of which have already come true) while completely sober and wide awake, but they are nearly impossible for me to control or trigger. I can also sometimes see the room around me with my eyes closed.

At any rate, I'm trying to discover effective psychic development techniques which can be done without visualization. Thanks in advance!

I found out from my mother that psychic abilities run in the family about a month before these events. I was always a skeptic and atheist (and I still consider myself to be one to a certain extent), but gave her the benefit of the doubt and experimented with trying to discover abilities.

What triggered this was having done one rather basic meditation/visualization for about fifteen minutes earlier in the day. I was low on sleep, but I'm an insomniac so that's normal for me. There were no drugs or alcohol involved- I hadn't drank or done anything else in over a year when these events started happening.

Before the first event, I was seeing moving red cuboids (maybe ½ an inch across) moving on the walls. I could see through the back window (through a fence) that in one of the houses near me there was a man sitting at a table... like a full, glowing bright pink silhouette. Then with my waking eye, super vivid scenes that changed every two seconds were playing out before my eyes. A lot of the images were of people dressed in Nazi-esque clothing (think brown uniforms with red armbands, but no swastika on the armband. It was just a deep red with no designs on it). Practically just like the Brownshirts, the Strurmabteilung, except no Swastika or circle on the armband. And I knew without a doubt that they weren't Nazis, despite how they were dressed. I looked to the left, and I saw an electric blue portal, about a foot by 8 inches (this isn't the only one I saw but it was definitely the closest), and through it came our fully grown (transparent, electric blue) baby. It looked like a boy but it's pretty hard to tell with newborns. I freaked the bonk out, which caused the baby to be pulled back through the portal by an electric blue umbilical cord wrapped around it. It was crying, scared, and confused as to why I didn't want to see it. I looked away and saw my cat's soul, and knew she was trying to protect me (she was laying on my chest and looking into my eyes and purring). Her soul looked like a deep black silhouette without eyes (which wasn't really scary, it was just like there were pits where her eyes are... which sounds scary but it wasn't.) After that the images became more and more intense and came faster and faster, to the point where it was overwhelming. Then I have a memory gap, and the next bit I remember is being in Space in my mind's eye, communicating telepathically with far away beings of some sort throughout the cosmos. I asked if our dead dog Charlie was out there. I got a "yes" back. I was asked if I want to see him. I said "yes". Then I could sense him moving towards me. At that point I freaked out a bit again and communicated telepathically that I do want to see him, but I wasn't ready at that moment because of how overwhelming and new it all was. Down the road, I asked him to be a spirit guardian for me and he said yes to that. Also HOLY excrement he's sassy, it's hilarious. Also, the telepathic communication is pretty disorienting. Every time I send or receive a message I get a really disorienting brain zap, like "buzz buzz", almost like a cell phone vibrating, but IN MY HEAD. The most buzzes I've had is 7 back to back. After that I was like holy excrement, I need to turn this off and calm down, but I couldn't visualize myself to do the necessary mental exercise to turn it off due to the intensity of the images, so I got up, went to the bathroom, and looked at a picture of myself so I could visualize myself to turn it off (mostly). (Turns out I have hypophantasia which explains the inability to visualize myself, but that's a whole other story.)

For a couple of weeks after that, whenever I was in a dark setting trying to wind down for bed, I could sense the preliminary stages of another vision starting and I would shut it off because I was freaked out and didn't really understand it.

During my son's birth (a solid 72 hours of labor):
Pretty sure partial astral and physical plane projections through my third eye. Like making a window into another world that I could interact through. Had to focus really hard to make the images more clear and was having serious difficulty interacting with things- typing, etc. In the physical ones it seemed like they might have seen something, or at least my mother-in-law (who was in the room). My wife seemed to react but not really see. Astral ones were pretty weird too. Something like a spiritual google but I couldn't type. Another where I couldn't really control my flight speed and angle and I almost flew into power lines a couple of times. Didn't feel like a dream. Somewhere between an incredibly powerful lucid dream (far more powerful than have ever had before) and reality. Felt pretty real. Also when I stopped focusing on my third eye the whole thing would shut off. To interact I had to keep the third eye part going and multitask in tangent with other things. I was also hearing all the interaction with the nurses and stuff they were doing while having these experiences. Also there seems to be a very clear parallel between the windows I was making with my mind and the vision of Lorenzo months ago... they're the exact same size and shape... might have sent it to myself from the future... that's bonking nuts. Intentionally or not I have no idea. Which means the Nazi looking people information in the vision might have been sent by me as well in the future. (The implications of this trip me the hell out.)

It's been almost a year now since that vision, and only about a month ago did the size and look of my son line up with what I saw in that vision. I've gotten to the point where I typically can see an incredibly detailed image without distortion, and also without the electric blue border around the "window".

I'm trying to learn all I can about astral projection and general "abilities". I want to find a teacher/mentor in this area, if at all possible. I also look forward to learning what kind of craziness this universe has to offer!

Sorry for the wall of text!