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First im watching 3 panoramic views of a big city, one of them I can see 4 pillars of black smoke.  Then im standing in the street about 1000 feet from a big building, and 1000 feet behind that is the 4 pillars of smoke.  I am standing next to someone (guide?) and ask them if thats one or four explosions and then I see a flash brighter than the sun.  I first think it is the sun.  Im not in the street anymore.  I am watching the spot where I was just standing and cant see the building or the smoke anymore.  People start running through my vision, cars and busses get pushed into my vision.  I wake up.

Dont know what to think of this, it was extremely vivid and detailed.  Havent had an experience this clear in a very long time.  Hope nothing happens.  Everyone be careful.

      Welllll this one was a bit out there.  I woke up early after having a very short RTZ OBE in which I walked out to my living room, saw my mother and told her I was OBE.  Then I rolled over on my side and phased into a house.  The door in front of me suddenly smashed down and Jack Bauer from 24 burst in and told me to freeze.  I was like "whoa dude I just got here.... besides this is just a dream, take it easy!" and he grabbed one of my hands and bent my arm behind my back.  That made me rather angry.  I ran backwards and smashed him against the wall.  He let go of me and doubled over for a second.  I saw a crate full of guns in the corner and grabbed one and pointed it at him.  He walked right up to the barrel and grabbed the gun.  I pulled the trigger but it wasnt loaded!!!! *doh* He ripped the gun out of my hand and whipped me across the face with it.  Man did that hurt.  Most of the time in lucid dreams I dont feel pain... just... pressure.  This HURT!!

      I could feel blood pouring down my face and he grabbed a sac off his waist and threw powder in my face.  I could feel my sinuses filling with the powder.  He held me against the wall and said "That was anthrax.  If you dont cooperate with me you will die slowly and painfully.  If you do cooperate I will give you a cure.  Come with me."  As always I thought of just waking up or trying to teleport away but I always get pulled into the experiences.... this isnt exactly something I get to experience or dream about often!  I figure I usually wont find anything more interesting to do and I didnt want to wake myself up just yet.  He led me down a flight of stairs into an elevator.  We went down for a while and when the doors opened he said "I was sent to bring you to our secret base.  What everyone says to you is a lie.  Join our organization and learn the truth.  This is a one time offer."  I was just like "uh.... what?"  and didnt know what to say.  He led me to a room with 4 others and they looked at me in a rather shocked fashion.  One of them said "Thats him?" and another laughed.  I was about 2 seconds away from just saying screw it and beating the hell out of all of them but then I started to loose lucidity and I cant remember what happened after that........... 

I also had a very brief experience in which I was a half robot half man who was hit in the head with a crowbar every day of his life for 35 years by a corrupt cop.......... and this was part of a plot of a hannah barbara cartoon....  I need to see a psychologist!!!! 

I phased into walmart and could hear music coming from a few aisles away.  It was really ridiculously harmonized guitars old school metallica style and they where building up.  I ran towards them and in the middle of walmart there was a band.  It was 4 guys, all about 30 or so, scruffy.  THe drummer had an electronic drum set plugged into a computer and a giant amp and was playing ridiculously fast as the band churned along.  I rocked out for a bit and observed the band from multiple angles as a point of consciousness.  It was like directing my own music video basically, and the band was really good.  They dissapeared randomly and I was a bit dissapointed.  I walked around aimlessly and wondered what I wanted to do with the rest of the experience.  I knew I was asleep really heavy and wouldnt wake up for a while because I was VERY much rooted in the experience and couldnt feel my body at all, this usually results in my longest experiences.  I saw a girl wandering around and I asked her what she was looking for and she said tweezers and shampoo.  I said "well the tweezers are right there and the shampoo is in aisle 8"  For some reason I knew the info and she looked at me like I was a wierdo and walked away. 

I walked towards the doors of the walmart and as they opened a snowy midevil scene opened up in front of me.  The walmart dissapeared and I was surrounded by tall brick walls.  I knew I was in some kind of contest and saw 3 other people, a woman and 2 men.  The two men where attacking the woman so I decided to help her out.  I ran over and drop kicked one of the guys in the head.  The other guy pushed the girl down and pulled out a gun and pointed it at me.  The girl kicked it out of his hands and it slid to my feet.  I picked it up and the guys ran off.  The girl ran up to me and said "We have to find a way out of here, they'll be back and it wont be pretty this time."  I ran towards the wall and looked for a way out.  There where no doors at all, just 4 solid walls.  I saw someone on the top of the wall but they where standing right in front of the sun so I couldnt see who they where.  As the person walked to the right I raised my gun and prepared to fire.  The woman told me not to.  As the guy became more clear I could see he was holding a rifle and seemed to be making sure we didnt leave, like a royal guard or something.  I pulled the clip out of the gun to see if I had any bullets left or not.  The clip was constructed so you would put bullets on both sides facing away from each other and when you needed to reload you would pull the clip out and flip it around and put it back in.  I found this amusing and as I went to put the clip back in I had it at a bad angle and the bullets started to fall out all over.  As I bent over I caught a glimpse of the 2 guys coming back.  I looked up quickly and braced for impact.  One of the guys ran right into me and knocked me over, the other guy brandished a frickin bazooka and shoved it in my face.

I figured it was basically over from there.  He would blow me away and I would wake up or I would teleport myself somplace else but as I thought about what to do the guy pulled the trigger.  I was thrown into the air as a point of consciousness and landed back in human form in a setting alot like... well... the place where the Teletubbies live.  Big rolling cartoony hills and an enormous sky (no evil sun baby face thingy though).  The girl from the fight was standing next to me and she started walking.  I followed her and asked her where she was going.  She said I should follower her and she was taking me somewhere new.  We climbed a tall hill and on top of the hill was a little alcove.  In this alcove was a variety of coolers and backpacks.  The coolers where filled with warm soda that expired in 2004 and the backpacks where filled with junk food.  The girl told me that janet jackson had hid here during a time of turmoil and left this all behind.  I laughed so hard I thought I was going to pee my astral pants.  How random is that?  Then she walked back down the hill and as we rounded the hill I could see a GIANT tower in the distance, one that was so tall you couldnt see the top of it.  I stopped in my tracks and just stared at it.  Then of course I woke up.......    I always miss the good stuff.

I had been dreaming away for a while, dont remember much of it and then I became lucid on a long road in a car.  I drove the car faster and faster because it seemed like the road went on for a long ways without anything on it at all.  I spotted a grey form coming and slowed down to about 15 mph.  it was a ghostly figure on a bicycle.  I kept at his pace and he veered off the road into the forest that lined the sides of the road.  I had been looking off to my right without paying attention to the road and as I turned back to the road 2 people where standing in the road ahead.  They where ghostly too and I drove through them.  THey didnt seem to care.  I saw lights coming from a house on the right side of the road.  It was a large A frame house with a sign outside and some beer signs in the windows.  I figured I could stop in for a drink and see what was going on inside.  I stepped in expecting a typical bar setting but it was alot like a normal house inside.  There where lots of rooms and they where set up with sofas and TV's and such.  I walked into a room and there where about 12 metal folding chairs set up with people in them and a guy talking to them.  As soon as I walked in everyone stopped talking and turned to stare at me.  I turned around and walked out.  I walked through a room with nothing in it but a guy laying on a sofa with his arm over his face and then into a little 4 seat bar like area.  My manager from work was standing at the bar.  I had had a dream with her in it the night before as well.  I walked up to her and we both laughed and said "What are you doing here?Huh" and exchanged formalitys.  Things blur there but I remember at one point heading towards the stairs going to the top floor and someone telling me something strange about it.  I went up the stairs and felt a wierd gravity shift, alot like vertigo.  I kept going as I was interested in what was ahead and got a very ominous sense.  I walked into a small room about 5 feet by 12 feet.  I imediately lost the use of my left eye which wouldnt let me keep it open and would twitch when I tried to open it and my right eye was blurring.  I couldnt walk really anymore, I was being pulled down and couldnt control which direction I walked in or moved.  With my one good eye (if you could call it that) I made out two people standing at the far right side of the room and in front of me in the left corner was a person crouched behind some kind of dresser.  I could only see there arm and leg sticking out and it was covered in ratty robes.

The person spoke to me in my mind, it was an old woman.  She said she was glad I had made it and she had to do what she had to do now.  It had been a long time coming and now that she had finally lured me there with the help of the other 2 she now had her chance.  Then she said "Its the end now Bill Fredrick" and I managed to drunkenly blurt out "Im not Bill" and the two people on the other end of the room began shouting randomly and making strange noises and one of them said "Its NOT him" and the old woman said "Well now you know all and I cant let you go."  I said "I know who Bill is, I can tell you where he is" and I could feel a hand reaching inside my body.  It went away and she said "For being so cooperative I give you this ring" and I could see something bounce across the ground infront of me.  I reached out for it and it was indeed a ring.  I slid it on my pinky finger and could feel its energy.  She slid back behind the dresser and everything went black.  When I woke up and looked around I realized that the room was the same shape as my bedroom and that sticking out from behind a plastic storage bin next to my bed was my hamper and clothes shaped EXACTLY like the old woman sticking out of the dresser.  It was all exactly the same and I was freaked out.  I rolled over and realized I had slept until 3PM and freaked out and got in the shower.  What a wierd AP.  I did some energy work and read my aura and there is  now a red and blue band on my pinky finger where the ring was........  Does anyone else think this is really freakin strange?

I had 2 very interesting Lucid Dreams today.  The first started in a house with a close friend of mine and some random person.  It was going normal, I wasnt lucid yet but then i realized I didnt know one of them and didnt know where I was and I became lucid.  I asked the 2 what was going on and said hi to my friend.  For no reason they both leap on me and sprout vampire fangs.  They start talking back and forth in some strange language and keep trying to bite me.  I figured I could just whip them silly but every time I pushed them back they came back stronger.  It turned into a frenzied Matrix style battle, I used everything around me as a weapon, lamps, bottles, chairs, sofas.  I tried to force myself to wake up but I couldnt, I was so immersed in this scenario I couldnt even feel my body no matter how hard I tried.  My friend said "This is the end, you cant escape, we are in control.  Its time we took your soul, we've waited so long."  and I suddenly couldnt hold either of them back.  They were just too strong.  I went absolutely crazy with rage.  I KNEW this was total crap and knew I had the strength to crush them.  I inhaled deeply focusing on channeling energy and imagined pushing a giant wave of energy at them.  I screamed "NO I AM IN CONTROL OF MY WORLD!" and things slowed way down.  This huge amazing wave rippled through the air.  Everything distorted through the wave and when it hit the vampires it was like they had been hit by an invisible wrecking ball.  A mist of blood seemed to puff out from their pores and streams squirted from their eyes and ears and mouth.  As soon as they crumpled to the ground I reached through the dream to my body.  I had a brief bought of paralysis as I had forced myself out of a pretty deep sleep but awoke refreshed and invigorated from the battle.  I replayed it a few times in my head and though "That should be in a movie.......  Grin " and went back to bed.

This experience started as a dream as well but was a bit more twisted.  It started out as a movie trailer for a new disney movie.  There was a family of bears traveling down this big brick tunnel that didnt seem to end.  A voice went on to describe various aspects of the movie and I dont remember all of it but it got interesting when the bears gave up trying to find the end of the tunnel and suddenly the brick wall opened next to them and it exposed a hidden secret complex where the evil north pole elves had a base.  Apparently they where trying to plot the end of the world.  The bears where CGI and the elves where stop motion so it was an interesting combo.  That faded and I was in a library... well... a room full of books... it was pretty small but it was wall to wall books and I was there with my dad.  I became lucid and saw a guy crawling on the ground and collecting a series of books from the shelf.  I asked him how to get out.  He said there was one way but it sometimes released the Gorgans and their followers.  I was a bit perplexed... I asked him how often it happened.  He said it happened every once in a while and said I probably should find another way but he didnt know of one.  I thought he was just dumb or something and opened the door out.  Through the door I saw a guy who looked like some strange goblin cheiftan guy with a head dress and a big bone cane.  He screamed "ITS TIME!!!!!  TIME TO DOMINATE!  RELEASE THE GORGANS!" and I just shook my head at the absurdity of it all.  I asked my dad why this stuff always happens to me and he stared blankly at me.  The gorgans werent your usual medusas, these looked like giant purple squid with wierd eyes.  They left stuff that looked like purple jelly behind them and started pouring through the door.  I managed to dodge them but my dad didnt.  THey grabbed him and barged through the wall.  I followed the group through the wall into a large science lab setting.  I managed to avoid the gorgans as more came through the original door behind me and I lost the one who had my dad.  I followed the path up a large white stair case and a scientist woman was at the top of the stairs.  She was wearing a white uniform and asked me what I wanted.  I told her I just wanted to find my dad but since its just a dream I want to know whats up with this place.  She started to explain it to me but then I woke up.

I set intent to project after a long tiresome day of work and a far too long night of partying.  I was fairly sober at this point and figured I was probably just relaxed enough to seperate easily for once.  I layed down and in typical fashion blacked out.  I awoke in a two tiered circular futuristic interior setting.  There was an elevator on one end and two circular levels with a walkway that looked like an X in the middle.  A kid I knew from high school was pacing anxiously in the center of the X.  I walked out towards him and looked down from the second level.  It appeared to be something like a mall almost, there really werent any people but it seemed the place was lined with shops of some kind.  I asked the boy Chris what was going on and he said he was waiting for it to come, he had to wait and bring it to the people.  I asked him if he could be more specific and he backed away from me a bit and looked over my shoulder like something was behind me.  I turned slowly and saw something coming out of a shadow.  It was a rather large lion, a female, strutting towards us licking its lips.  I backed up and got out of its way.  By the look on Chris' face, that was what he was waiting for and he wasnt too happy to see it.  He walked slowly towards the lion with a look on his face as if he thought he was dead for sure and slowly extended his hand towards the lions neck.  The lion stood still.  Chris' hand touched the fur and the lion began to curl its neck to the left and bare its teeth.  Chris put the lion in a half head lock and tried to lead it towards the elevator.  I didnt know what to think of this at all really, I began to get closer and told Chris to be careful.

For a second I contemplated trying to go elsewhere or maybe get to F3 but I was somehow facinated by this scenario and decided to continue on.  The lion resisted Chris greatly and with a sudden burst of anger swatted quickly at his face.  The giant paw came within centimeters of his face and he pulled back suddenly and gave me a look like "CHRIST IM DEAD HELP" and was frozen solid in fear.  I slowly walked over and told Chris I would help but I needed him to help me too.  I ran my hand through the lions fur, it felt amazing and so real I can still feel it in my mind.  I petted the lion for a little bit in an effort to calm it down and it sort of just licked it lips and closed its eyes a bit.  I thought it was probably more calm and asked Chris what we should do.  I was half tempted to tell him it was a dream anyway and that he wasnt even real but usually that makes people freak out or dissapear or something so I bit my tongue.  Halfway through my sentence the tiger simply started walking by itself towards the elevator.  We both just sort of shrugged and followed it.  As we approached the elevator it opened and it wasnt an elevator at all.  It opened up into a large area with a 3 tiered concrete water fall/fountain and a few benches.  There also was a little alcove on a tier by the fountain.  The lion imediately leaped up a tier and layed on the concrete in the alcove and closed its eyes.  I turned and Chris was gone.  I looked back and suddenly there was 4 military looking people in grey uniforms standing about.  One of them was a very very attractive girl, probably 18 or 19 sitting on the third tier of the concrete fountain with her legs dangling over the edge.  I climbed the concrete and sat next to her.  I asked her about the lion and she said "Shes home...  in a way.  She has to come with us and meet somebody."

I told her, "You folks sure like to be very non-specific around here doncha!" and smiled at her.  She looked at the water flowing over the fountain and then looked straight ahead.  She got up and at the exact same time so did the lion.  All 4 of the people and the lion began walking towards a door.  It opened and it was a large concrete square room with what seemed to be a blast door on the other side.  A block with yellow painted squares on it was in the middle, it was about 8 feet by 8 feet.  The people fanned out and seemed to be taking cover.  I of course didnt care at all what happend and walked up to the doors.  I noticed that there was an opened area through the doors... a back way sort of, not easy to see.  I walked through it and came acrossed 4 stunningly beautiful asian women dressed in military clothing with huge guns.  I didnt know if I should run or what, just as I was going to turn away 3 of them turned towards me and just sort of looked at me indifferently as they chewed gum.  I reached into my pocket and pulled out 6 dollars.  I held it up and said "I got 6 bucks, what will that get me?  Huh ladies?"  and began laughing at the top of my lungs at how absurd this whole scenario was and how ridiculous I am and I couldnt handle it anymore.  They looked at me with a mixture of disgust and "Oh no you didnt" and said I "Just... just kidding.... im gonna go now" and walked back behind the wall into the square room.  I walked up to one of the original people.  He was a tall buff austrian looking guy, very arnoldesque with blonde hair and blue eyes.  I said to him, "Dude, the chicks are over there, I can show you the hole in the wall.  They got big guns though." and I pointed out the place in the wall.  The group moved towards the wall apprehensively and when they rounded the corner they walked right up to the women and the 8 people embraced like they havent seen each other in ages.

At this point all of what I had experienced made absolutely NO SENSE.  I didnt know how much longer I could take this and began to give up on my lucidity.  I began to analyze it all and some sense was made, it was so symbolic and ambiguous that I decided to give up on it all and let myself peice it together as I wrote this entry.  I began to lose lucidity and blacked out.  As per usual instead of waking up or continuing sleep I was thrown into a very creepy room.  It had a tiny little bed and there was an ice cream truck parked in the room.  A hallway led to a large area that was half inside half outside.  I felt like I was in a video game or something.  Everything was dark and forboding, lots of black and purple and lots of dingy colors.  I heard steps coming from behind the truck and out stepped 3 cabbage patch dolls.  One was a little girl, one was the swedish chef from the muppet show and one was a vampire.  I knew instantly that it was SO on.  I put my hand out and gave them the "Bring it" gesture as I began glancing around looking for possible weapons.  They began stepping towards me and as they did I began to shrink.  I went from 6' 2" to 3' tall.  Instead of being about 10 times the size of them I was now only 3 times the size.  The little girl looked at me and said "My mommy says souls taste good" and the vampire one said "Ready for a draining experience?!"  There was something about the way he said that that I got really freaked out, it was as if he knew I knew it was a dream or whatever and he was going to torment me, not as a dream character but as a real threat.  The swedish chef began to make strange gurgling sucking noises that scared the crap out of me and I began to stumble back in fear.  I knew I had to get under control and find something to defend myself with.  I toyed with the idea of trying to wake myself up, but I KNEW I would be in sleep paralysis upon waking and I didnt want to go from a nightmare into sleep paralysis.

I decided my only option was to get into the truck and run them over, or simply use it as a quick escape, possibly into a better experience.  I ran to the truck and hopped into the drivers seat.  My perspective went from first person to third ala the original Grand Theft Auto, top down and in very low quality graphics.  The dolls began to chase my and I swung the truck around and tried to nail them with it.  I managed to take out the swedish chef but couldnt hit the other two.  I started to feel myself waking up and felt relieved.  I awoke and when I tried to move I was paralyzed.  I thought "Fantastic... I will probably end up back in the stupid truck or who knows where"  and right as I finished that thought the little girl doll ran past my head and started doing laps around my bed at insane speeds.  She turned into a blur and started screaming " I cant find my way out!" over and over until it sounded like she was right next to my head.  Suddenly my body snapped free and I was glad to finally be awake.

Well I just got back from a LONG night of solid projecting.  I dont know whats going on but over the past month or so my projections during the night have been more lucid and vivid than ever before.  I had a long dream to start it all off, just a typical obstacle course dream, alot like a video game.  Then I was at work and had another bird attacking my head dream that made me wake up.  I shook it off and went back to bed.  I faded into sleep and came out in a large field full of people walking up a stair case up the side of a hill to a giant tent.  The tent was all white and probably the length of a football field, it was made of silky semi transparent material and had a lectern at one end.  I followed the people up the hill.  I knew I was in F3, I just knew it.  I made my way through the crowd to what seemed like someone important.  I said "Excuse me, but could I make an announcement?" and the man looked over at me and said "well.... I guess..." and sort of seemed confused.  People where glancing at me like I seemed out of place and as we reached the tent people seperated into groups and sat in the grass under the tent.  Some in chairs, some in the lotus position.  A quick glance over the crowd reveiled that most of the people where of Indian Muslim or Tibetan lineage.  Some monks where adorned in white Buddhist robes and a section of Hindus with red dots on their heads sat peacefully.  I asked the man again if I could make an announcement and he held out his hand towards the crowd and took a seat in an ornate chair in front of the crowd along with some other people.

I stood facing the people and then turned to face the front and the back.  I stated loudly and clearly "I am here from my living body on earth, I came here through extra dimensional travel.  I am glad to be here with all of you.  Thank you"  I grimaced at my choice of words and decided I could have spoken better given the situation but it was the best I could do.  The man sitting in the chair rose up and with a grin said "What?  Why?  Isnt that... boring?  Or pointless?"  I turned to face the people in the crowd, some of them where talking amongst themselves now and a few just sort of grinned at me like they where trying not to laugh.  I said "Not at all, I find it amazing!  You will have to forgive me if I dissapear randomly though, I dont know how long my visit here will last."  He nodded and feigning patience said "We understand, is there anything else we can do for you?"  At this point I felt my attachment to the area fading and myself returning to my bed.  I gripped feverishly onto the images I was still seeing, staying there for as long as I could.  I began to have a F2 overlay of bees attacking me and I screamed "Ahh, the bees!  I gotta get out of here!"  The guy looked at me like I had lost my mind and then I woke up.

I felt strange and looked about.  I was definitely not awake.  I wasnt even in my house as a matter of fact.  I got up and walked into a hallway.  I could hear people talking and I walked into a kitchen and some members of a rather large family where sitting at a table.  My memory of this house isnt very good but I do remember being astonished by how large the family was (probably 20 or 25 members) and how surreal the house was.  It was straight out of a Tim Burton movie.  Doors at strange angles and archaic gothic appliances.

I woke up finally and put my feet on the floor, glad to be back.  I had my doubts again but atleast I was in my room.  I stood up and moved my limbs, everything seemed normal.  I glanced at my clock and it read 10G47 and I knew I wasnt awake....     I hate getting trapped in a cycle of situations like this.  I walked into my living room and my dad was sitting there watching a TV that was off.  I talked with him but dont recall the conversation and I went to go outside and woke up again.  I was paralyzed and disoriented and allowed myself to slip back into sleep.  I woke up again for the final time and was glad to be back.

I was trapped in a state of sleep paralysis for about 30 minutes today.  It all started with me waking up to hands on me.  This isnt anything new by any means but these hands where different.  I had been searching for the source of the hands I had experienced in the past and who the hands came from.  Today I found out the gender of the hands and they where different.  I awoke and my hands where held tightly by a pair of warm clenched hands.  Clenched in a way that was insistant, if I let go they searched for my hands and clutched them close.  In past experience the hands where always cold and dead, never moving.  These hands had a mind of their own, they where attached to an invisible female form.  I knew they where the same by the feel and the vibe of them, but the presence was awake and in my face so to speak.  I found out the gender by relocating the hands breifly and feeling about, I landed in the forms crotch with my hand and needless to say it wasnt hard to figure out what gender the inviso-woman was.  I struggled to awaken as the hands where creeping me out, clutching at me and not letting me go for more than a second. 

My body from the neck down was free but when I tried to move my head my whole body would freeze and reality would begin to warp around me.  I saw a reddish grey form of a baby floating closer to me during one of these episodes as well as a feather (attached to some animal, but I couldnt move my head far enough to one side to see the rest of it)  that would move and a voice that came from the animal that would say "I won!  I win!"  When I wasnt trying to break the paralysis I would slip into a strange dream area, sometimes I would be lucid sometimes I wouldnt be.  When I was lucid I searched willy nilly for anything entertaining.  When I wasnt lucid... well... I just went along with whatever.

After struggling with this state for about 25 minutes I thought I woke up.  Of course I hadnt, and when I moved my arms I couldnt see them moving.  My ghost arms felt real, I put my palm on my forehead and rubbed it in frusturation and stuck one of my fingers in my mouth.  I felt my body and tried to move but only my arms would move....  I struggled hard this time, trying to pry my head up and wake up finally.  A rush of astral sounds and images came at me and then suddenly I was awake. 

I had an incredibly strange dream this morning where I went in and out of lucidity over a 15 minute experience.  First I was searching a dimly lit hallway for some sort of information.  I remember thinking it was a computer disk or I needed to find a jack so I could extract the information.  I vaguely remember talking to someone in the hallway but I cant remember who or what it was.  The most memorable part of the experience came after that.  I was in a room talking with some friends of mine when I noticed off to the one side of the room sat 3 figures in the dark in a long sofa.  As I got closer I could see one of them was sitting between 2 candles and appeared to be levitating.  I studied him closely.  He had greenish skin and messed up teeth and wore big round brass looking glasses.  I got kind of creeped out and returned to a table in the middle of the room which I realized I was in a kitchen.  I started to become more lucid at this point, knowing I was either dreaming or projecting and approached the main island in the kitchen.  On the table sat a square baking pan full of mewling kittens and a big knife.

I suddenly knew that I had to cut off the kittens feet, but there feet where different than usual.  It was as if a paw was growing out of their first paw and I had to trim it off.  As I reached for the knife my lucidity started to wane again and I grabbed ahold of one of the kittens feet and quickly hacked off the strange growth.  The cat of course didnt enjoy it but there was no blood and it seemed to be ok.  As I raised the knife again my lucidity peaked sharply and I dropped the knife and couldnt continue.  I was still feeling shadow feelings of cutting the cats paw and how it squealed and I couldnt stand to see the cats in their strange mutated state any longer.  

I moved towards the couch again and with full lucidity still intact I wanted to know why the forms on the couch where watching and who they where.  I approached the one in the middle I had already seen and looked at him again.  He didnt seem to notice me watching him, he was too intent on watching thing play out as if he had set it all up himself.  I spoke softly in an attempt to not startle the guy and I wanted to inquire as to how he learned to levitate in an attempt to break the ice and maybe gain some knowledge I didnt have already.  I whispered "Excuse me but ..." and he turned suddenly to me and in a hushed manner said "Oh I'm sorry..." as if he was being too loud and sunk back into his chair and the candles dimmed around him making him blend deeper in the shadows.  

I said "Oh no I wasnt commenting on that I was wondering how it was you learned to levitate."  He said " Oh I wasnt, it may have looked that way, the shadows can play tricks you know!"  and he laughed quietly and a bit maniacly.  He leaned towards me and said with wide eyes "You know it takes 89 lifetimes to learn that!"  I said "My 'higher self' (using my fingers to put quotes in the air) told me I had already lived 78 sooo...." and before I could finish he became very angry with me.  I assumed it was my attitude towards the notion of higher self as that was the impression I got from him.  He rose from the couch and waved his hand at me while making a comment I didnt hear.  The torso and head of a ventriloquist dummy appeared and began flying at me as if summoned by the trollish man to attack.

My lucidity peaked to a disturbing level and I grabbed at the dummy and slammed him on the table.  I had my hand on his neck and grabbed the knife off the table and began stabbing him in the face. His face had the consistency of styrofoam under my knife and I soon gouged almost all of his face above the mouth away and on the floor.  The trollish man sprung forward into the light suddenly and with a grimace on his face exclaimed "WAAAAIIIT!!!  Ask him for the 15 million dollars Junta owes me first!!!"  I didnt know if he was refering to the doll as being named Junta (junta, juntar, juntha, I couldnt make it out exactly) and I forcefully asked the dummy for the money and as the dummies mouth opened to reply I woke up.

Boy oh boy was this a wierd one.  I had been having really strange dreams and LD's recently but this one takes the cake.

Hey I was having a really vivid lucid dream yesterday morning in which I was walking along and suddenly everything went black and then I was standing in a big city and I heard a voice say "Tomorrow cities will be under water...."  and then a giant wave came and went over me and the buildings.  I wake up today and turn on the news and Houston and a bunch of places down south are covered in water!!!!!!!!!!!!         I tried to get on yesterday and post something about this but I kept getting error messages with wierd code mySQL errors and I couldnt get on here.  Is this the beginning of a psychic awakening?  I have been having more and more moments like this recently.

I was laying in bed last night and I was drifting off to sleep and suddenly I heard a scraping sound by my head.  One of my hands was over the top edge of my bed and I felt something bump against my fingers and then I felt teeth and a tongue on my finger!  :aargh:   I jumped up so fast and turned on my lights I think I broke a world record.  I checked my room over about a million times but nothing was there and both my parents cats where locked in the basement during the night as usual.  My heart was pounding so fast I thought I was going to have a heart attack.  I cant figure out what happened, I am assuming it was some kind of hallucination on the border of sleep but that was just about the scariest thing that has ever happened to me, I spent the next hour laying in bed exhausted but not able to sleep because I thought whatever it was was going to come back....  

I was having a very very very odd dream about sports nutrition (dont ask) and I was writing on a white board explaining something to no one in particular.  I left the room and came back and something had been written on the board that I didnt write.  I actually physically wrote next to the part I didnt write "I didnt write this" and asked who wrote it.  Suddenly the white board is in my room and I am semi-lucid.  A voice comes from behind my fan and says "It was me!  I can do what I want!  You cant stop me!"  and I say "you wanna bet?" and erase what was written.  

The voice gets very irritated and goes on some strange tirade I dont remember much about and then says if I continue to tinkle him off he will put stoppers in all the holes in my floors and over flow the bathtub and flood my house and proceed to ride around in a small inflatable boat and rule me and my house for eternity... or something to that effect.  He also stated that I would wake up and I better be prepared.  I thought this was strange and quite disturbing.  

I woke up thinking WTF?  and groggily opened my eyes.  Before I could sit up I was paralyzed by fear and terror, I could hear water running quickly in my bathroom and felt someone standing next to my bed.  I tried to move but couldnt sit up.  I let my hand fall over the side of the bed and sure enough there was about 6 inches of water standing in my room.     :eyecrazy:  :eyecrazy:  :eyecrazy:  :eyecrazy:  :confusion:  :WTF:   I was in an all out panic now completely over come by the fact that it had come true and as I looked to where the presence was the feeling faded.  I then heard the sound of someone making there way through the water towards me.  I lay still, entirely unable to cope with how this was effecting me mentally.   :eyetwitch:  :crazy:   In a fit of rage and desperation when the sound reached me I lunged forward and grabbed ahold of a small inflatable boat.  I ripped it from the water and sunk my teeth into it trying to deflate it.  I expected to catch sight of the occupant as I savagely ripped into the boat with my canines.  I failed in popping the boat, flung it into the corner of my room and sat up quickly preparing myself for anything.

There was no sign of the wee person around anywhere.  I stood up feeling the luke warm water on my feet and walked towards the bathroom.  I crept slowly and peered into the room.  A person about 3 feet tall stood by the bath tub stuffing towels into the drain and making sure the water pooled properly.  I was overcome by rage and screamed "I dont know where you came from but your going back in pieces!!!!!!" and promptly drop kicked the munchkin into the wall.  I then began to loose lucidity and my memory fades from there.  I awoke again and was in the physical, water free!!!!  Talk about strange.  Another all too convincing experience as well as probably one of the more bizzarre to date.

I thought you magickal types may find this video and song interesting.  Lots of stuff going on in the video, can anyone name any of the sigils?  Enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=in1AnNY5a8I

I found the lyrics to this song, apparently they are from Poland, their english isnt the best but here they are.

APO PANTOZ KAKODAIMONOZ

We transgress the context of commonplacenes
We deny normality, trample morality
We destroy angels with sound
We destroy angels with silence

Currents of tantric anarchy seize our bodies
Into the cosmic dance of four scythes
The curtains of Absurd Theatre are raised
Synchronicity - Mother Chaos on the stage

"Wisdom says: be strong!"Thrilling words are
spreading down the spine
Vibrating... "be strong!"Exhausted
I'm running towards the last shines of consciousness
Which is absorbed by shadows of madness

APO PANTOZ KAKODAIMONOZ
APO PANTOZ KAKODAIMONOZ

Here are the star and the snake servants;
-they rise the hexagram
Sun - in the triangle hidden ;
Sight - sacred visions entwined
And union with Nothingness body I'll find
Strength - go along the Mars path, fighting if we must;
Light - oh, you are Ahathoor, goddess of blue sky

There is might of dawn, in non-quality state I remain
Of commonness crippled time or sand
- glass you don't see again
Sigillum dei, picture of myself I'm drawing
With life, venom and hell I'm sprinkling it
His name is Esial, I want him more

I decided after working out for a while and surfing the net that I was rather tired and wanted to take a nap.  I also decided that I was tired enough to project and would attempt to do so.  I downed 2 shots of vodka to help me relax and headed for bed.  I ended up getting up every 30 minutes to tinkle and it began to get really annoying.  I felt another urge to get up and go.  I opened my eyes and saw something moving in the bed next to me.  It was small and fluffy.  I started debating with myself over whether or not I was in the RTZ or not and as the form got closer I realized it was a bird.   Not just any bird, but a sparrow, exactly like the one I saw in the RTZ about 6 months ago.  http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/viewtopic.php?t=21242&highlight=

I went to swat at it because it was getting really close to me and it seemed to be heading right for my head.  My hand brushed up against it and it was all wet and I noticed it was shaking its head about trying to dry off.  For some insanely stupid reason I was convinced this was really happening and tried to stand up and I woke up.  I went over it in my mind and I obviously had been in the RTZ and after thinking about it for a while realized that I had been laying in my old bed that used to be in the same room.

I lay back down now knowing I could probably squeeze another experience out as I was still really relaxed and feeling a bit tingly.  I began to drift off again and I heard a small child repeat 2 words I couldnt make out 3 times.  I thought "well... thats just annoying!" and realized it was an auditory hallucination.  I then heard very loud  "Carol Anne?  Carole Anne?  What are we?  Carole Anne?  What are we?"  Followed by a reply that seemed to come from right next to my ear, "Too cool!  Tell them!  Too cool!"  

"Yeah!  Too Cool!"  The first voice blurted out in a confused manor.  I thought "well... thats good for you Carole... when the hell am I going to exit???" and I focused on spinning around.  I began to twist about and I felt a snap.  I sat up without opening my eyes and felt rather solid.  I was tempted to roll out of my bed but was glad I hadnt as I realized I was in the physical.  I tried to lay back down and get out again but only succeeded in falling asleep for an hour and waking up completely soaked in sweat.  Off to the shower!  :gasp:

I have been getting back into practicing astral projection recently and I am starting to wonder............... where is this place?

I have been having a ton of lucid dreams in the past few months but no conscious start to finish OBE's.  I sort of got used to the lucid dreams occurring on their own and enjoyed them so much I stopped trying to OBE.  Now the lucid dreams have cut down to about once a month so I began starting to try to OBE about once or twice a day recently.  I have also been reliving things from the beginning, starting over, doing it old school.

This new chapter started with a series of false awakenings.  I havent had a good freaky crazy false awakening in a while and I had hoped I had gotten over them mostly.  About a week ago I pried my eyes open in the morning after hearing a loud bang.  My door was open a few inches and it looked like someone was standing there.  The more I focused on them the more unfocused they became until finally one of my parents cats leaped onto the bed and over my head.  I sprang awake and sat up so fast I thought I pulled something.  The door was closed.........  Thus it begins.

I went back to sleep knowing I had reopened a door long since closed.  Almost instantly I was in another false awakening this time it looked like someone was peaking at me from over the edge of my bed on my left side.  As usual I began attempting to speak and spewing expletives at the thing, mear whispers came out.  I forced my hand up and did my best to strike at the things head, but my hand fell on a raised part of my blanket and my paralysis broke.  My eyes remained open the whole time...... this used to happen to me all the time.  Paralysis breaking and giving me the impression that I had experienced it ALL while fully awake, not half in a dream.  I closed my eyes and breathed out softly, knowing what would come next.

Herein lies the problem, and an explanation is in order.  Ever since I began OBEing I have on occasion been taken to a place... a place that fully fits the description of FZ or the 3d blackness but it is always accompanied by ice cold dead hands.  Sometimes I would also wake up with a hand on a part of my body or a hand pulling me off my bed.  Of course this was all a false awakening and I would soon wake up.  But where is this black place?    Where do the  hands come from?

2 nights ago I lay in bed having trouble sleeping and began to try to OBE.  I got to the same old spot I almost always get stuck at.  I am deeply relaxed and almost there, I can feel the rush coming and then I feel like I am choking.  I try to regulate my breathing but then it just wakes me up more and I fail my attempt.  After this happened I sighed heavily and rolled over on my side like I always do and try to sleep.  Then it happened.  I went THERE again.

I woke up and felt as if I was submerged in water.  A hand covered my eyes.  A hand covered my mouth.  A hand rested in the palm of each of my hands.  All the hands where as cold as death, like when you lay on your arm and wake up to a cold dead useless hand, it feels bloated and detached and cold.  I felt a twinge of surprise but quickly fell into a very calm state, bobbing in the water.  The hands where completely void of motion, simply holding there place, keeping my eyes closed, my mouth shut and my hands held.  I interlocked my fingers with the hands and waited for motion.  None came, just the feeling of cold bloodless flesh and the gentle motion of the water.... then I woke up.



WHAT IS THIS PLACE?

I was having a strange semi-lucid dream this morning that didnt really interest me.  It was basically one of those dreams you have after eating something that doesnt agree with you or drinking too much which I just so happened to have done both.  I swam back to consciousness and layed there silently for a couple seconds.  Then much to my surprise I realized a large warm hand was gripping mine.  I didnt open my eyes, I didnt really want to.  I gave it a squeeze and it suddenly pulled me strongly between my pillows down into my bed.  I was relatively calm until half my body seemed to be inside the bed and I seemed fully physical.  I panicked and forced myself awake.  What happened???  

I have had a few things like this happen before during projections but not like this.  I also seem to be being targeted by some local spirit of some kind.  I will be sleeping and having a horrible dream and upon awakening something will be in my room.  The first time it happened it was a bird.  The second time it was a swarm of black dots.  Last week it happened again and it was a man.  I can clearly see these things when I awaken and they fade out.  All of the "spirits" seem to be quietly watching me have a nightmare and feeding off the energy.  WHen I wake up they seem to not notice the fact I can see them and just walk away from me because I assume I am not supplying them with what they want anymore.  Anyone have any similar experience?

This morning I was drifting in and out of sleep and felt terrible.  My sinuses and ears where plugged and sore and I had a hangover on top of all of it.  At one point I woke up and cracked my eyes open for a second and realized I wasnt in my room.  In a mirror on the wall I could see that behind me was, well, me.  I had a shaved head and I was picking up stuff off the floor and rearranging things.  I rolled over in the bed and looked at myself.  (hmm this could get a bit confusing)  I1 looked at I2, I2 had a shaved head and a green shirt on with my standard jeans and shoes on.  I1 sort of sat there, a bit dazed and confused.  I2 looked at I1 and for a brief moment gave I1 the impression that I1 wasnt meant to see I2, ever.  I2 grinned a bit, looked around nervously and seemed to be holding out some hope that I1 wasnt really awake or anything.  I1 said "are you... me? whats going on here?"  and I2 began recounting a story about something that I cant fully remember unfortunately, but basically came down to the fact that I was meeting another part of me I hadnt met before.  I2 also seemed to give off a very strong aura of fatherly love, acceptance, and patience.  I distinctly remember asking the other me many times why I couldnt just stay in this place with him and what it all meant, life and that stuff, what it all meant.  Of course I wasnt given an answer.

Then I walked outside and found myself on a strange island setting, the house I had been in was just a small 2 story bungalow by the sea.  I waded into the water and found what seemed to be a tower of some kind, it looked like an electrical tower and had a wire fence around it.  I went through the fence and to the control panel, and what happened then I cant remember.  Knowing me I probably flipped as many switches as I could or atleast looked for some sort of instructions before pushing one big red button.  I get the impression that I did indeed flip a switch, but what happened I dont recall.

My memory picks up in a gathering of people, I got the impression that it was a funeral for someone but I didnt see a casket, it was outside and it was all very random people.  I recall John Gibson from Fox News being there and I also remember calling him a few bad names and making fun of him.  I know I talked to quite a few people but my memory is foggy.

Then I was in what seemed to be a dormitory of some kind and was talking with some friends of mine.  It took me a few minutes to gain full lucidity in this situation, and when I did I attempted to explain to them what was going on.  A few of the people there didnt know what AP was but my friend Doug knew what I was talking about but didnt believe me.  I told him I would prove it and flipped onto my hands, then pushed up so I was doing a hand stand.  Then I started kicking around and going into some crazy physically impossible contortioned poses, followed by me hopping around on my hands.  I tried to fly and go through walls but everything seemed rather solid.  I couldnt seem to convince anyone and then I woke up for good.

Last night I decided to just relax before bed and do a bit of mental projection.  I didnt get very far and passed out.  I had a series of very very very intense and real lucid dreams, but one sticks out and makes me wonder just why this life is so solid compared to all the things I have experienced while phased, and why I dont have one of those lives as my main life.

I awoke.  I reached for the light switch, it flipped up and down but didnt work.  I rolled over and looked around.  I was laying on a mattress in a living room of a house I have never seen.  I looked to my right and a very short woman who I knew was named Belle was laying next to me.  She moved slightly and looked over at me, wondering why I had awoken so suddenly.  I told her I was having this strange dream about living in the house I do now and having the job I do now and how strange it all had been.  She nodded and put her head back down and I put my arm over her and said "Belle... you complete me." and lowered myself completely back to the mattress.  I contemplated the 'dream' I had had, how it seemed to last for so many years and it all seemed so strange.  I was convinced I had finally woke up in the life I had been living for all this time and hadnt realized it.  The thought of my life now being more than a dream wasnt anywhere in my mind.

Thats the part that scares me the most.  It wasnt that I was convinced it was real, it WAS.  Its like when you are dreaming and wake up, how you feel then, you KNOW you are awake and that you are in the main life you focus on and everything is solid and normal.  What life was this?  Have I finally lost it?  Am I reaching into the parts of the consciousness continuum that Monroe did when he would live another life in "Journeys out of the body"?  I am glad the memory of this is fading because its something I want to forget, something that is so haunting, so surreal, that I would rather not experience it again.

I recently have been clued into the idea of Mental Projection.  The more I work on this form of projection it makes me wonder if it is all my imagination, or something bigger?  Anyone have any ideas?  Any experiences?

I had an unbelievably hard time sleeping last night and I didnt fall totally asleep until 7am (thank god I didnt have to get up until 1pm) and as I drifted to sleep I managed to hang onto the process very well and slipped into a large auditorium setting.  A wierd metal band was playing and I sort of sat off to the side watching and listening, slowly gaining more and more lucidity.  I started to slowly get into the music, bobbing my head and smiling as I watched these bands play that I have never heard before and marveling at how my mind managed to come up with all of this stuff when I cant write a song to save my life lately.  I took note of the songs and their progression, trying to remember them enough to use some of the parts for my own songs.  

The first 2 bands seemed to blur together, only playing for a couple minutes each and I dont remember the first band leaving the stage at all.  The third band helped the second band pack up and as the third band set up I walked into the front row and stood in front of the band.  I looked behind me and there appeared to be no one here but me and the bands.  Just how I always wanted it!     I love a good metal show with lots of crazy wild people but I always wanted to just have my fav bands play for me only once and I was getting one of my wildest dreams fulfilled, except I didnt know who any of these people were!  :confused:

The band eyed me strangely as they plugged in and prepared to play.  It was half "where did this guy come from" and half "we better perform good because this guys important" kind of looks.  They began their first song and my lucidity went through the roof.  I was flooded with intense euphoric waves of energy and I started thrashing about wildly, sort of... well... self moshing and rocking out.  The song had a long intro and began to build up faster and heavier and I anticipated the moment of take off, which I also figured would be accompanied by a mind splitting throat shredding scream by the singer.  

I leaped head long onto the stage, grabbed the mic and screamed so hard I probably would have started to bleed in real life.  I had been right and the singer and I screamed in unison, creating a hellish harmonization that would have made the devil himself proud.  The singer smiled broadly and continued gutturally spraying vocals over the thrashing machine gun beat of the song. The sound of the music and now the fact I was participating as well began to get to me, it was so full and rich, so lifelike and real I started to loose my grip on it all and float back to F1 due to over stimulation, much like a sexual F2 experience does for me.  

I woke up laughing, smiling broadly.  It was great.  hope to get back in touch with them and jam again!  I would love to have F2 jam partners, would help my music writing a lot!  I dont know too many musicians who write music in their sleep.  

After my last experience I worked a hellish day confronted on all sides by drowsiness and mind numbing work.  I arrived home and ate a bite and decided to catch up on some sleep I had missed during the week.  I wondered what caused my paralysis.  I hoped to induce it during the next couple of hours before I had to leave to a local bar to meet up with some friends.  I slept for about an hour when I awoke.  Nothing seemed strange.  Everything was perfectly fine.  I glanced around disappointed.  No paralysis... just... normal.

I decided it was pointless to aim for it because I only seem to get it when I dont try at all and have almost forgotten about it.  I began going over my latest experience with the pants and such in my head and trying to figure out where it had come from and eventually began seeing some hypnogogic randomness.

I was convinced that I was about to project when suddenly I was awake again.  I knew something was wrong from the beginning.  I stood up and walked to my living room.  Everything was an accurate representation but I was definitely not awake.  My usual vision disturbances in the RTZ where not affecting me so I must have been in  F2.  A elven figure sat in the chair that my mother usually occupies.  Obviously my deduction had been correct and I grinned as the santas helper knitted a scarf in my living room.  I looked at the strange creature up close, it didnt seem to care I was there but at least seemed to know i was in its presence.  Its knitting was far too important to give me any attention.

I turned and everything had changed behind me.  I was in a hospital of some kind.  I turned back and the part of my house that I was in had totally changed.  I began to walk forward confused by the reality of it all.  One of my more vivid F2 experiences for sure.  I turned a corner and a scruffy 20 something guy ran into me.  He began to get very very very angry with me.  He seemed totally irrational in his anger, cursing me and pushing me.  I decided to hell with it, I was in F2 and he deserved to get wiped from my personal space.  I smacked him so hard he stood there stunned.  Suddenly my punches lost all power.  It began to hurt me to try and punch and he reached into his coat and produced a knife.  I was  suddenly feeling very helpless and trying to wake up.  I knew I could tear him apart if I put my mind to it but being in a fight with a guy with a knife isnt the most appealing situation.

I lunged at him and he stabbed me right in the arm.  A huge hole opened.  It was like my arm was jello and he had stabbed me with an ice pick.  I could see the wound flapping opened, I could easily fit my whole finger in it and barely touch the sides.  I didnt bleed at all and felt a bit of power surge back.  I knocked one of his teeth out and he slashed me in the chest.  I said "you know... this is stupid..."  and he agreed....  :eh?:

We stopped fighting and went our separate ways.  I contemplated who he had been.  Maybe he was just a traveler like me, getting stuck in a situation that just turned bad.  I went to the closest nurse and she brought me to a room with a doctor.  He stitched up my gaping wound and sent me on my way with a look of disappointment.  As I left the waiting room a man rushed up to me and told me he had to speak with me.  He was wearing what amounted to a mad scientist outfit, he even had crazy bozo the clown style hair.  I decided I wanted to find out what he had to say.  I have been looking for a bit of meaning in my F2 experiences and this seemed like an opportune time to gain some knowledge.  

We entered a vault like area, the doors we stood in front of where about 18 feet high and where made of a giant slab of bullet proof glass.  We where looking at a cage.  It was a mini ecosystem designed to contain one of the worst of the worlds evils according to the scientist.  Much to my surprise and dismay he simply opened the door.  I stood there as the door opened, everything going in slow motion as i realized what was just unleashed and turned to run.  When thinking about the worlds worst evils, the thought of waiting around to see one doesnt strike me as a good idea.  As I ran I looked behind me and a man who looked like he was made out of metal pipes sprayed with house insulation and covered in concrete that hadnt dried yet ran after the doctor, holding him to the ground and sucking his soul clean out of his body.  The area behind us turned to snow and I looked forwards, trying to find a way out.  

I made it into the parking lot.  People where running all over.  I saw my father walking towards me and I told him to find a fast car and get in.  He jumped into a large monster truck and we tore out of there.  He didnt know what I was running from but i guess he could tell it was bad.  The thing chased us in a speed that almost rivaled the monster truck.  We tore through houses and back yards and everyone who didnt get out of the way died at the hands of the Evil.  Needless to say i was terrified.  Things had gone from bad to worse and if it had just been me in the experience I wouldnt have panicked as much.  Having the life of another person, even if it is just a F2 representation of someone, in your hands isnt fun.  

We ended up escaping the thing eventually but I was so scared of it coming back that I wouldnt leave the car.  I woke up and noticed it was already 12am.  Time to drink.  Seeya.

Hey folks been a while since I posted but I had an awesome experience this morning so I figured I would come and share.  I woke up a few hours before I had to get up so I sat there and thought about rhythm napping and why I hadnt really had any good experiences lately.  I closed my eyes and curled up on my side and continued to think about past dreams and phasings and I blacked out.  

I woke up and everything seemed normal at first.  I looked at the clock and it said 2:30pm and that was the time i wanted to get up.  I tried to move but was mostly paralyzed.  I heard some strange rustling, but the sound seemed to be backwards, like someone had recorded it and then reversed it, very creepy.  My eyes widened at the sound and I saw something moving next to my bed.  I turned my head as much as I could and looked over the edge of the bed.  A pair of my jeans was on the ground and it was shifting slightly and the material was moving and acting almost like water.  I tried to say something but it came out all slowed down and strange sounding.  I thought to myself 'ok... strange false awakening... should be over soon' and I laid back.  My pants began to make sounds like they where trying to talk and I looked at them again and they where much closer to my bed.  I started to freak out a bit and scream profanity at them.  I blacked out again.

I woke up, and was paralyzed AGAIN...  my pants where still behaving freakishly but more calmly and not as frightening.  I looked at my computer screen and my screen saver was working right, the clock said 2:20 this time and a few things where missing from my room.  I looked at the wiring going from my computer to the outlet and I could see strange lines running all over it, like spaghetti noodles.  They where slightly transparent and swarmed around the cable.  I decided that an attempt to get up and explore was in order.  I sat up, fighting the paralysis which seemed to be an extreme heaviness now.  I tried to stand but began to float instead.  I headed towards the nearest wall and passed through it and blacked out again.

I woke up yet again but separated instantly.  I made my way through the wall with a bit of difficulty and I was suddenly walking through my neighborhood which was covered in snow.  I decided to go to my friends houses but then was torn on which friend, they both lived close but I couldnt decide.  I began to panic knowing that if i didnt make up my mind quickly I would probably wake up or black out and start over again.  I decided to attempt to travel instantly.  I closed my eyes and thought about my friends house and leaned in the general direction of his house, stretching my torso out like Stretch Armstrong.  It felt amazing and I could feel myself stretching further and further and then I felt like my whole body was being sucked into a black hole.  I opened my eyes but found myself about 10 feet from where i had been to begin with.  I slumped my shoulders in dismay and decided to just fly around and eavesdrop on whatever random people I could find.  

I thought I was in the RTZ up until this point but the more I looked at the buildings around me the more I realized it was not my neighborhood.  I could fly but something didnt seem right.  As I flew about attempting to find someone I noticed a house with a group of people in it.  I swooped through the wall... well... slamming into it like a bird trying to fly through glass and then prying my way through the wall layer by layer would be a better description, but i made my way through it with a bit of effort and found myself in a kitchen.  An older woman was walking through it and I tried to hide.  She didnt notice me but she should have as my effort to hide involved flying right in front of her and then fleeing panicked into the exact room she was heading to by accident.  She didnt see me at all.  I shrugged and headed to another room which seemed to be a storage room or a basement, but it wasnt underground.  The walls where concrete and the floor was dirt.  I looked over a few things sitting about, boxes filled with random things and a fuse box, nothing exciting.  I tried to find the group of people I had seen through the window earlier but they where gone and so was the old woman.  As soon as I left the house I woke up for good when my alarm went off at 1:30pm.  I forgot I had set it an hour earlier than I wanted to wake up so I wouldnt be more lazy than I already am.  That about wraps it up, got a long night of stupid work ahead of me.  Hope I will had some of the same luck I had tomorrow or tonight.

Before going to bed last night I did a bit of noticing and had some strange pulsings of light and slight images appear and drifted off.  I started in a dream, a very archetypal dream, one where my teeth fall out.  I used to have these dreams alot and they where always the most vivid, 2nd only to my nightmares.  

If you havent had one of these dreams thank the stars.  Usually it always starts with one tooth and then before you know it your swishing and rolling all your teeth around in your mouth while the taste of blood overwhelms your senses and all you can hear is the clicking grinding sound of your teeth in your mouth.  Its even worse when you spit them out and your hand is covered in blood and a huge pile of teeth is laying there.  OK... ok... sorry for the horrific description but its something that has haunted me for a long time.  The point is I always would think when I woke up "WHY THE *&(& DID I NOT GO LUCID?!?!?!"  Its not like my teeth have a habit of falling out of my face on a regular basis.  Well last night I began to have another one of these dreams.  I was sitting in my room talking with my dad and suddenly I could taste the blood.  I could feel the tooth shifting and I grabbed it and pulled it out.  Other teeth started to loosen and suddenly for the first time in my entire life I realized what was going on.

I started laughing and said to my dad "hey!!!  I must be dreaming!  This is so awesome!"  and I pried another tooth free and looked at it.  It was all so real, no separation from this dreamscape and reality.  My dad just sort of sat there.  I reached into my mouth and started pulling teeth out, swishing my tongue around and spitting them into my hand.  I just kept laughing and wondering over it all.  I threw the hand full of teeth to the ground just as my mom walked into the room.  I turned to her and said "Hey there mom, dont mind me, I am just dreaming one of those damned tooth falling out dreams.  I think I'm going to go and do something fun now, all my teeth are out anyway."  and I tried to walk through my kitchen counter.  

Solid.  I couldnt push through it.  My stomach hurt as I jammed it into the counter.  I looked over my shoulder and my parents where watching me.  I said "Ok.... I hope I am dreaming...."  and headed towards the door.  

Suddenly I am awake, but not if you know what i mean.  I sit of slowly in my bed and instantly know it is a false awakening.  I look at my lamp and behind it on the wall is a strange little furry creature shaking and moving.  I start laughing uproariously and am so overjoyed by the experience.  Suddenly in my minds eye I see a satanic teddy bear walking next to my bed.  I can see it get closer.  I turn to look to see if it is there and I suddenly am in a grocery store.

Things get fuzzy at this point as I started to loose lucidity.  I remember only a few still images and not much else.  Strange experience but fun.  I always have fun whenever I am 100% lucid.

Heres some info on teeth dreams from dreammoods.com, I dont know how accurate this is considering it, of course, is sweeping and ambiguous.

"My Teeth Are Falling"

Dreams that your teeth are falling out are the most common dreams we here at Dream Moods receive. Common dream scenarios include having your teeth crumbling in your hands or your teeth falling out one by one with just a light tap. Such dreams are not only horrifying and shocking, but often leaves the dreamer with a lasting image of the dream. So what does it mean?

One theory is that dreams about your teeth reflect your anxiety about your appearance and how others perceive you. Sadly, we live in a world where good looks are valued highly and your teeth play an important role in conveying that image. Teeth are used in the game of flirtations, whether it be a dazzling and gleaming smile or affectionate necking. These dreams may stem from a fear of your sexual impotence or the consequences of getting old. Teeth are an important feature of our attractiveness and presentation to others. Everybody worries about how they appear to others. Caring about our appearance is natural and healthy.

Another rationalization for these falling teeth dream may be rooted in your fear of being embarrassed or making a fool of yourself in some specific situation. These dreams are an over-exaggeration of your worries and anxiety.

Teeth are used to bite, tear, chew and gnaw. In this regard, teeth represent power. And the loss of teeth in your dream may be from a sense of powerlessness. Are you lacking power in some current situation? Perhaps you are having difficulties expressing yourself or getting your point across. You feel frustrated when your voice is not being heard. You may be experiencing feelings of inferiority and a lack of self-confidence in some situation or relationship in your life. This dream is an indication that you need to be more assertive and believe in the value of your own opinion.

In the latest research, it has been shown that women in menopause have frequent dreams about teeth. This may be related to getting older and/or feeling unattractive and less feminine.

Traditionally, it was thought that dreaming that you did not have teeth, represent malnutrition which may be applicable to some dreamers.

Other Perspectives

A scriptural interpretation for bad or falling teeth indicate that you are putting your faith, trust, and beliefs in what man thinks rather than in the word of God. The bible says that God speaks once, yea twice in a dream or a vision in order to hide pride from us, to keep us back from the pit, to open our ears (spiritually) and to instruct and correct us.

In the Greek culture, when you dream about loose, rotten, or missing teeth, it indicates that a family member or close friend is very sick or even near death.

According to the Chinese, there is a saying that your teeth will fall out if your are telling lies.

It has also been said that if you dream of your teeth falling out, then it symbolizes money. This is based on the old tooth fairy story. If you lose a tooth and leave it under the pillow, a tooth fairy would bring you money.

(Thank you to Brook who emailed us with the biblical significance of teeth dreams and to Eleni who shared the Greek perspective. Anna contributed her mother's story about teeth and money).

I have a strange element that keeps recurring in my lucid dreams lately.  I will be lucid walking about or in a really strange situation and suddenly I lose about 50% of my lucidity and I start walking on my hands and my body arches my legs over my back so my feet can almost touch the ground.  My butt is basically resting on my back and I go around walking like this.  It is a strange strange strange sensation and not really pleasant even to remember.  

:scared2: It just occurred to me while typing this that a long time ago I had a dream involving contortionistic shadowpeople-esque creatures who walked the same way.  Now I am really confused.... lets see if I can find the drawing I did.  Maybe it has a date.

Heres a quick cap of the sketch I did... apparently I had the dreams (there where 2) on back to back nights 2/17/03 and 2/18/03... WTF>>??  :scratchy:   These creatures where involved in my first lucid dreams (maybe my 4th at the time) that I ever recorded and they bothered me enough to sketch them out.  They would walk out of blackness (standing on their legs) and spring up and over and walk quickly away on their hands.  They where all black with golden eyes.  Anyone ever see anything like this?  Is it just something I made up and why do I walk like them sometimes?  Creeeeepy.

Last night I was meandering about the 'net for a while and I came across an article on phasing where it said if you see blobs or whatever while noticing to try to spin them with your mind or astral hands and that would help.  I first tried a normal OBE exit than I tried some noticing and dozed off.  I woke up and stayed still and started noticing.  I remembered in another thread about how Selski said tactile sensation was important to her for phasing and I concurred with that and decided to try the method I read about and to try to feel the objects.

I was noticing and nothing happened... not a blob, not any spots nothing.  I was so relaxed and almost asleep I didnt want to waste the opportunity so I tried some visualization.  I am a bartender and I use alot of different mixes like :strawberry, raspberry, bloody mary, banana, etc. and they are all in different colored containers.  I handle them every day and I figured if I was going to visualize something I could imagine easily and feel easily I should imagine one of the containers as I had worked 11 hours that day and handled plenty of them.  I started to imagine the container and suddenly POOF there it was in the blackness!  I grabbed it and suddenly I was phased into work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  :confusion:  I dropped the container sending strawberry flying everywhere and I just stood there.  People where milling around and some of my coworkers walked by me and said hi to me.  I couldnt believe it.  I had never phased so easily in my life.:seeya:

I woke up again and stayed still again.  I imagined the container again but this time when I grabbed it I was in a house.  My uncle was there and he was holding a shoe box full of random things and he tried to give it to me but I started to feel sick and he was creeping me out so I jumped through the wall and closed my eyes.  When I opened them I was laying on my back with my legs up in the air pinned in an awkward position between 2 things I couldnt see and a fly was walking around on my chest.  I closed my eyes again and opened them and I was in bed.  I noticed some things where out of place and something moving out of the corner of my eye.  I reached down over the edge of my bed and one of my parents cats brushed up against my hand.  I thought "well if you had been in here all night (I keep my door closed at night) you must really want out!" and then suddenly I look down and its my cat that has been dead for 3 years and suddenly I am falling and falling and falling............  :aargh:  and I wake up in my bed for good.  I continued using this technique for the whole night until I woke up this morning and I must say it was WAY easy but I am not sure what state I was in to make it work so well.  I tried using this morning when I woke up and I just couldnt do it.  All the experiences I had last night where the most lucid and amazing I have ever had.  Selski you gotta try this!!!  

I was trying to sleep last night and before I fell asleep I entered a trance and tried to reach the aspect of myself that is blocking me in any way when it comes to OBE's etc.  I didnt contact anything directly but I figured if it was out there it was listening.  I basically told it to stop blocking me in any way and to help me instead.  I fell asleep shortly afterwards.  I had a strange semi-lucid dream where I was in my house and suddenly there was a bird flying around my head.  It swooped behind me and nailed me with its beak right in the base of my spine.  It hurt like a mofo and the bird flew around and did it again!  I became more lucid and decided it was tinkling me off so I made myself wake up.  I opened my eyes and I could see a bird sitting on my chair in front of my computer!!!!!  :ughh:

I stared at it, it stayed stationary and then slowly faded.  I then went back to bed and soon after the sound of my phone vibrating on something woke me up.  It sounded like my phone was sitting on the book next to my bed and vibrating on the plastic cover causing a racket.  My eyes shot open and my phone wasnt there, it wasnt even in the ROOOMMM!!!!   :WTF:

I think about it for a second and shrug it off and go to bed again.  This time the sound of someone saying my name through a kazoo wakes me up.  I am about to go batty and commit myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    :poh:

I didnt think of the following things related to the experience until I typed the above and went back and read it a couple of times and thought about everything involved.

A)  When the bird pecked me it made me lucid.  It effectively was giving me access to a lucid dream but it was causing me pain and freaking me out so unfortunately I didnt take advantage of it.

B)  The bird in my room seemed friendly, is it that aspect of myself??  Did I effectively reprogram it?

C)  The book the phone sounded like it was vibrating on is Astral Dynamics of all books... like the book is calling me....   :reading:
Cue twilight zone music!

If anyone has any input that would be awesome!
:feedback:

Last night I was trying to project and succeeded.  I came back to the physical and I opened my eyes and in my room was my old dresser with my dead cat perched on it.  It stood up and knocked something off of the dresser and hissed at me.  I awoke again, the same thing happened.  I awoke for a third time and my astral sight or clairvoyance or whatever you want to call it was activated and I could see a swirling mass of black dots at the foot of my bed and I felt strange harsh vibrations.  I shot my hands out and sent a bolt of energy flying at the mass.  A high pitched roaring sound came from what seemed to be my computer and the feelings and vibrations started to fade.  I looked at the direction the sound came from and looked back and the mass was gone.  

The dresser that I saw during the 2 false awakenings used to be in my room and in the exact same spot I saw it.  The cat I saw on top of it has been dead for 2 or 3 years.  

I remember reading in a book (probably PPSD   ) that a mass of swirling black "flys" means a dark entity is gaining energy and is manifesting.  Did my mind create all this???  Any input would be great.

I phased by attempting to locate myself somewhere else.  Not relocate but find a copy of myself somewhere in the other focus levels.  I started to slip into F2 and found myself semi-lucid in a work type situation.  I quickly realized that I was phased and that my attempt worked.  I began quickly thinking of how to optimize my phased situation because most of my phasing experiences are short.  I began asking people various questions and asking them if they knew they where in my dream and not real and suddenly I felt a rush of energy and was in a super market.  It was dim and stormy outside the market and many people where walking down the aisles towards the doors.  I immediately felt that this was NOT f2.  I felt whole, I felt awake and I felt purely physical.  

I saw all these people walking towards the doors and stopped one of them.  They had a look of shock and appeared to be trying to remember something.  I said "Do you know where you are?"  They said "I... well...." and looked around confused and walked past me.  I noticed a young attractive girl and her cat sitting in a produce display.  I thought this was a bit odd and approached them.  The cat looked at me with a bit of dismay and meowed pensively at me.  I looked at the girl and said "Your cat seems to be a bit grumpy."  She looked at me and said "Where am I?"  I said "well.... I am trying to figure that out too but I have a guess."  She cocked her head at me and said "well a moment ago I was on a boat.... and... now I'm here..."  I didnt know what to say and I didnt want to be wrong so I said "Well what is the last thing you remember?"  She  sat there dumbfounded and speechless while her cat continued to eye me suspiciously.  

I decided to push my luck and just give in to my desire to wreck her day.  "sorry hun but your dead."  She came out of her haze and gave me an icy look.  "No I'm not.  I cant be!"  She said.  Her cat began to curl up tightly and hiss.  I said "How did you get from your boat here?  What is the last thing you remember?"  And as she thought some more she had a EUREKA!!!  moment as her eyes lit up and her mouth opened into a half smile half gape and she faded away with her cat.  

I walked slowly towards the door everyone else seemed so interested in and thought about what had just happened.  I decided to try my luck at effecting the surroundings with my mind as it would be easy to do in F2.  I couldnt stretch my fingers out or make psi balls or produce different clothes, all things I have done easily in the past in F2.  I tried to fly but couldnt.  I got the sudden sense that it may be set up that way so people who transition there dont freak out when suddenly they are walking on the walls or sinking into the floor.  

I approached the doors and there was a woman in her early 20's standing at the door.  I walked up to her and she said "Welcome!  How are you?"  and I said "You dont have to treat me like one of them, I'm not dead."  She looked at me rather severely "Are you sure?"  
I raised my eye brow and said "Well if I am I must have randomly died in my sleep then."  She shrugged and looked around at the others briefly with a look of concern and questioning.  I got the impression she was making sure they where behaving.  I said "So whats outside of the doors?"  She said "We like to call that the Create Your Own."

I stepped outside and felt strange.  I floated up a ways and back down.  I became  a point of consciousness and a full person at will.  I seemed to have entered a personal space as no one else came out of the doors despite the fact I saw people in a steady stream leaving them before I left.  I didnt know what to do so I decided to try some ninja action.  I said "Bring it on!" and suddenly out of nowhere 3 guys walk up and start attacking me.  I started whipping up on them and everything started to fade just as I unleashed a monster roundhouse.  I woke and kicked my wall so hard I expected to break my toe but its ok I think.  I have NO IDEA where I was on the spectrum of consciousness and the Wider Reality so to speak but it was an interesting experience for sure!

[YES]

I just bought a ouija board.  I am relatively sensitive to energies and spirits so I figured I should buy a ouija and try it out.  Interesting for sure.  I sat in a chair, put the board on top of the box and asked if anyone was there.

YES (went to moon in top left)

Are you dead?

YES (letters next to moon)

What is your initials or name.

C

I got a C.  Continue.

U

I got a U.  Continue.

T

I got a T.  Did you mean to spell Cut?

E

Cute?  Me?  Thanks.

I

Are you happy right now?

YES (up high almost off the board by the letters YES)

Do you know *name emitted*  (a love interest)

L
D
R

I interpreted this to mean louder after a minute of thought because I was whispering in my bedroom.

I thought I heard strange dissembodied chattering voices in the distance so I said  I must go, please leave now.
GOODBYE



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ALOT of people use this technique.  I have used it once.  It worked good but felt like I was still physical.  Every time I go to use it I think "no, I dont feel any sensations... nope..." as I start to roll "naw still physical" and I just stay still and try something else.  I would LOVE it if anyone here who uses this technique can give me an overview and some signposts they follow to know when to begin rolling.  Thanks. :rolling:

I was also wondering about a travelling technique I have been reading alot about in Monroes books called stretching.  He simply thinks about his destination (usually a person, not a place) and stretches out for it at the same time.  Anyone use this to move around?  Sounds easy and effective.

The last few days I have finished Monroes first and second books.  I read that all the Gateway Voyager members used affirmations before each attempt and had great results when they modified their affirmations.  I began using affirmations as well before bed and have had good results (just need to add "and I will remember everything").  What are your views on affirmations?  Any stories?

Due to my recent re-commitment to OBE's I have apparently become sensitive to something in my parents house.  I just moved back in 2 months ago and when I used to live here I had my first OBE many years ago.  I moved out, came acrossed RB's and Monroes stuff, this forum, had a few good OBE's.  At my old place I had a few experiences with things in my room at night and just odd things happening to me.  Now that I am back at my parents house I dont have anything really wild happen while I sleep like I did at my old place but instead I see things in my parents house. Alot. It started with just random multicolored circles or patterns that appeared in my peripheral vision and disappeared almost instantly but now I see shapes in the dark all the time.  Never in my room but in the living room.  It is always dark because the only light we have is a big halogen light and my parents freak out if I leave it on afraid I will burn down the house.  I must go through the living room or look into the living room in order to get anywhere else in the house during the night.  To go to the kitchen I must go through it.  To go the bathroom I must look into it.  

A man died in our house after building it basically by hand.  WHen we moved in poltergeist activity was usual and when I moved out it stopped mostly.  We dont have any anymore but now I see things.   Always a black form.  Usually crouched down or behind something.  It isnt something you see out of the corner of your eye, its in your vision for as long as you look at it, or until you turn on the light.   It seems to have form.  It isnt just on the wall or up against something, it is as if there is a big rock sitting there about 3 feet tall and a foot wide.  Any ideas??  I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE!  Last night I was so on edge by it I had to go to a bar and get drunk so I could come home and sleep.

I was laying and relaxing for a bit and I began to spin quickly and upon my exit I was kneeling on the floor in a house I have never been to in F2 with stuffed animals laying about.  One was a foxish character with a tall wizards hat on.  I looked about and  could tell my time was running short already, everything was dim and hard to focus upon.  Then the animals started to stand themselves up and look at me.  I said to one of them "I am projecting, why are you here???" and it got up and said "I am here for the same reason you are."  I had no idea what it was talking about.  

I turned around and there was another animal of the same variety standing behind me with glasses on and I saw in its hand what appeared to be a pack of cigarettes.  It appeared to be a pack of Parliament full flavors, they come in a blue box and where my favorite kind when I still smoked.  I figured "ah hell, im in F2 for god sakes I can have a smoke!!"  and as I looked at the pack closer I realized I was looking at my screensaver on my computer, which is blue.  the screen went from sideways way off in the distance to where it is in relation to my bed and I was back in my bed nearly instantly.  I could move my eyes and as I put my hand up to my face I could feel it on my face, but I put it over my eyes and I couldnt see it at all!  I could feel my hand pressed firmly over my eyes but it simply wasnt there.  I looked off to my left and standing behind my garbage can was one of the animals.  Up until that point I figured I was just suffering from paralysis but now I was having one of the most extreme overlay experiences I have ever had.

The animal started to move and then I realized by my left arm an animal was laying with me in bed!!!!!!!!!!  I freaked out and grabbed it with my still invisible hand and pushed it towards my air purifier, trying to imagine it getting sucked in and removed from my room.  The other animal was still milling about being really freakin' creepy behind my garbage can and I was spouting profanity at it.  I thought any moment I would surely wake up for good and look about and have everything back to normal but it just didnt happen.  I grabbed both of the animals with my inviso-hands and pushed them into the back of the purifier where they remained stuck fast and immobile.  I relaxed and tried to move or wake up but feeling was returning really slowly.  

Just then I saw something out of the corner of my eye and I looked up at my computer monitor and out from behind it floated a cloaked figure about 2 feet tall.  It looked like the grim reaper but it had an animal skull with a mole nose and a tail coming out of the bottom of the robe.  It was all beige and wasnt moving its arms or anything, just floating slowly towards me.  I thought "oh for the love of pete!!!!! wake up you dumb muppet, wake up!!!" and it got closer.  I thought "oh no, your not gonna scare me, I got the power!  Take this!" and pushed my hands out towards it while imagining energy flying at it.  The energy hit it and it flashed like a damaged enemy in an old school video game and flew back a few feet.  I did it again and it disappeared for good.  I started to feel my arms wake up and I sat up in bed so fast I pulled a muscle and I flicked on the light.  Not once through the whole experience did I wake up from it.  It was all seamless!!!!  Talk about crazy overlays!

I was laying down having a semi lucid dream about being trapped in a horror movie (very traumatic and I dont want to recant it) and I woke up and I saw what looked like a leg slide over my face and I could feel something small clinging to my back.  It was thin and warm, about the size of a 3 year old child.  It felt perfectly real and I was scared but I didnt feel threatened.  I heard it make a noise as it moved over me and settled on my back.  I was laying on my side and I kept my head straight forwards.  I didnt care to look at it.  I knew that no matter what it looked like, just seeing it would throw me into an all out panic and I was in no shape to deal with it.  It seemed to be sucking my energy as I was almost totally paralyzed.  I could only move my head and eyes and bend my elbows.  I didnt know what to do!     I had a thousand thoughts racing through my head.  I was laying awake in my bed with a humanoid creature laying against my back, what now???    I started to question the reality of it all.  I layed silent and looked around the room.  Everything seemed normal until I glanced up towards the ceiling and realized that my computer monitor was attached to the ceiling and was somehow relecting off of the wall.  I looked at this for a while and blinked hard.  I knew I was having an overlay experience on steroids and I had to get this little thing off of me soon or I was going to be so creeped out I was going to scream.

I didnt know what to do and I could only raise my arms up to my chest, I couldnt move them far enough or grab at the thing.  I decided to use my creative mind and I realized that I was in control.  Whatever this little bastard spawn of my mind was, I was in control!     I decided that since I could only touch myself I would have to use myself as the weapon.  I raised my hand to my chest and jabbed myself hard in the chest making a zapping sound and imagining thousands of volts of electricity shooting  from my hand through me into the thing attached to me.  I could hear crackling and I could feel static electricity coursing and popping all over my body.   The feeling of the thing faded and I could move freely.  I sat bolt upright and flipped on the light.  Everything was normal and whatever it was was long gone.

This has been the first experience in a LONG time that got to me but I am not realizing more and more that I HAVE THE POWER!  This door I have opened, be it in the Astral or in my mind, whatever the case may be cant be closed and it has new things for me every day, but I can take comfort (and you should too) in the fact that we are powerful and capable of dealing with whatever it throws at us.  I hope this experience comes to mind if you are ever in the same situation.  I just hope I did the right thing, I hope it wasnt something nice and I kicked its butt away from me.  

Why do astral sounds suck so bad?  Am I the only one who hates them?  I have no problems with various phenomenon when it happens for reasons I can understand like my subconscious affecting what happens to my surroundings during phasing experiences and the like, but astral sounds bug me.  

Last night I was phased and after a dramatic fight with some random constructs I began to fall.  I fell and fell and I stopped suddenly at a football field with 4 people standing.  All had no shirt on and black makeup under their eyes and each had a date on their stomach.  THe only person I looked at and recognized was John Candy and he had 1965 on his stomach, they where all jumping about randomly.  This was strange to me but only mildly creepy.  I then began to fall even faster and felt like I was being pulled apart and I wasnt panicked but I was getting a bit uncomfortable.  This is where the sounds come in.  

I heard what sounded like people screaming in pain.  First one on the left, then the right, a woman right next to my ear and then it sounded like I was falling into a tunnel with screaming people strapped on all sides.  I felt like the sounds where being directed at me and I was shaken to the core.  I awoke vibrating lightly and swirling patterns in my vision but I couldnt let myself go back.  I did eventually after turning the light on and falling asleep lightly for about 30 minutes.  I woke up and turned the light back off and went to sleep eventually, but the sounds came from nowhere!! I wasnt thinking of anything related to it.  I had an experience in the past with hearing a person talking and focusing on it until I realized it wasnt outside but in my head!  It got loud and suddenly it was an evil growl that was so loud it hurt my mind.  Anyone else really hate this?    

I have had a few experiences recently where I have been dreaming and suddenly gained lucidity inside of F2/phased successfully.  I will immediately approach the nearest person (if there is someone in the room/locale that I know I will choose them) and say "Do you know that your in my dream?"  I have asked quite a few people this and I was wondering if any of you have and how they respond.  For me they generally seem to snap out of a trance state (they blink rapidly and look confusedly around at their surroundings) and say "No...." and seem shocked.  They also tend to regard me with a bit of fear as well.  Just the other night I was in a dream about a school and there where tons of people in a classroom.  An older lady insulted me for some reason and I walked up to her and grabbed her by the throat and said "you know your in my dream right?" and she continued her diatribe against me and I repeated "you know your in MY dream?" and she blinked a few times and said "No..." looking around rather worriedly and shut up like she realized where she was and the fact that she was essentially insulting a god.

I said "Do you want me to kill you?  Do you want this to be painful?"  She cowered before me when just a minute before she was insulting me and going on about how I was terrible and I havent even seen her before!!  I was a bit shocked the whole time, not knowing what would happen.  I honestly think I was just as scared as she was!!!  I just cant get over the reaction I get every time I ask this question.  Its like I awaken them and they suddenly realize that the moment I wake up they are gone.  They seem to have a will to survive and separate and self sustained emotions.  Anyone else have any experience with this?  If you havent and remember this will you ask someone for me?  Thanks.

I was at work, bored, thinking of if I ever made a movie that it would be about AP and I would make it really terrifying.  I was thinking about a scene where I would have 2 people sleeping in a room and one would wake up and look over and see the other paralyzed.  Then out of the shadows this wickedly deformed semi humanoid thing would crawl out making strange sucking and gasping noises and make its way on top of the other person and psychically feed on them.  I kept envisioning this thing and refining how it would look and sound and how I could use the lighting to my advantage and make it really creepy.  I made it so real in my mind that when I went to project last night I was terrified of it!  I couldnt stop imagining it in the darkness of my room and I had to turn my light on to sleep.  

I realize that this thing is only in my mind and if it does attack me I have the power to destroy it because it is my creation, but my phasing experiences have been cut short recently due to my insane fear of this thing.  I cant tell you how truely disturbing and aweful this thing is to me without making the impression of it in my mind even more clear and solid.  Just last night I was SOOOO close to phasing, my body started to fade away and I KNEW if I kept going I would be phased in under a minute but I held myself back.  Any suggestions as to battling this thing?  Should I confront it face to face in F2?  Should I wait until I have lost my strong impression of it?  Any advice is welcome.

I must say im on a roll lately!     This morning I was laying there after a night of too many drinks (again!   ) trying to get back to sleep after waking up from a dream.  I laid quiet for a long while, maybe an hour and I started Noticing after I realized I might not get to sleep any time soon.  Immediately I sunk into a very deep trance and for the first time I got what some describe as the screen effect.  It was alot like looking at a website for me, I was scrolling down a huge screen of images and words and as my thoughts changed so did the images.  I marveled at how realistic they where and how mentally clear I was.  I even opened and closed my eyes and was able to maintain the screen after leaving my eyes open for about 15 seconds.  After this became a bit boring I decided to try to enter it.  I managed to get it to come close to my face and then I passed through it.  I began to feel vibrations which I havent felt for about 2 months.  They where very high pitched and refined not ragged and painful like before.  I got very relaxed and soon I felt like I had no body.  I thought for sure I would have phased by this time and just sort of sat there feeling totally empty and non existent aside from my mind.  

I didnt know what else to do so I started noticing again.  The vibrations returned and it felt as if someone shot me in the chest with a cannon ball!!  I was hurtling backwards at a frightening rate with scenery passing by me.  I couldnt control myself and I just kept flying backwards.  I eventually slowed to an immediate stop and I was in a strange house.  I wandered around feeling like I was on the edge of phasing, I didnt feel totally there.  I thought for sure any moment I would wake and it would be over.  I floated around looking for people and I came acrossed a strange dirty man who looked like he just got done sweeping a million chimneys.  He looked at me with strange red eyes.  I approached him and asked him if he knew where I could find someone I knew.  He said "They are right through that door."  He gave me a strange grin like he knew something I didnt about that room.  I started to go towards it but I felt strange vibrations the closer I got and felt threatened.  I backed off and decided to make a run for it.  I shot up through the ceiling and I was expecting to be somewhere outside but instead I was back in the emptiness.

I decided to open my eyes and I was in my room but paralyzed.  I still couldnt feel my body but I could move my hands.  I raised them in front of my eyes but I couldnt see them!!!!!!!     I could see what looked like the outlines of my fingers and I moved them in front of each other but it was very faint.  I rubbed them together and I could feel them.  I mentally shrugged ( ) and returned to noticing, attempting to repeat my astounding exit.  Things started off kind of slow and I was just sitting there in my no body state.  Again, out of nowhere, I was shot backwards at Ludicrous speed (if anyone gets that reference you get a cookie) and this time I didnt stop.  The more I tried to slow down the faster I went and I couldnt see anything.  I decided to try to imagine a place and go there.  I started to imagine my house and I began to see a building.  It wasnt my house but it was something!  I reached out hard for it and I found myself in the lawn of a school.  People where passing in and out and looking at me oddly as I sat there staring from the grass.  

I moved closer and realized just how small this building was.  It looked like it couldnt have been any bigger than one classroom.  I stepped inside and saw one door straight ahead and a group of women standing next to it.  I approached them and asked "what school is this?" they just giggled at me and turned back to each other and started talking gibberish.  I looked at the label by the door and it said "Class 1".  I entered the door and there was another door right in front of it!  As you can guess it was class 2.  I kept going up to 10 and then it changed to different things like health and sports and then it changed to pictures.  I felt a tug and woke up.  

I laid there paralyzed again trying to move but then I realized I could here someone talking.  I didnt recognize the voice.  The more I concentrated on it the louder it got and it suddenly sounded like it was in my mind!  I got a little freaked out and suddenly I heard a wicked sounding screaming and I spazzed!  I struggled so hard to wake up completely while this insane yelling in my mind got louder.  I eventually woke up and breathed a sigh of relief.

In closing, dont trust creepy red eyed chimney sweepers and beware of the cannon pointed at you while your noticing!  

Every once in a while I will be sleeping and wake up with hands on me.  Usually they are not moving and when I go to touch them they are not there.  A few days ago I woke up and felt an ice cold hand on my leg and I reached down to touch it thinking I wouldnt feel anything anyhow, and I grabbed right onto it!!     It was cold and I grabbed it firmly expecting it to grab back or something but it didnt, it just disappeared after a few seconds.  I have never seen these hands and I dont know where they come from.  Any ideas?  At first I freaked out hardcore when I would feel it but now I just want to know where they come from and try to lay there as long as I can to see if they move or if they are attached to something.  They never move, not one bit.  I dont feel a presence associated with them.

Last night I flopped down on my bed after a long night of drinking and a 45 minute walk home and started my noticing.  I do this every night before bed and recently I have been having awesome success acheiving hypnogogic imagery and sometimes controlling it a bit.  I slipped into sleep and awoke with a mighty mighty thirst.  I got up, chugged some water, confirmed that I was still intoxicated and flopped back in my bed.  I still had a few hours before I had to get up so I did some more noticing.

I started to see some pulsing lights and something like a keyhole in the distance.  I reached out and pulled them towards me.  I was in a strange dream state observing a typical dream situation and suddenly I slapped myself on the forehead and said out loud "im a freakin idiot!  I've been phased for a while and not even known it."  I began floating around a neighborhood interacting with various people, noting interesting things and moving on.  I was talking with one of my best friends at a scary creepy house when suddenly I felt an extreme tugging, I said to my friend "I guess im going this way now, seeya!" and I was being shot through a tunnel with images of a street, road construction, and detour signs.  I tried to remember what they said but I failed.  I made it to the end of the tunnel and there was a man there.  He floated next to me as I looked at all the images.  I asked his name, which was David, and shook his hand.  

He watched me marvel at the images with a fatherly smile. I asked him if he was going to help me remember all of this because I usually have troubles remembering my phasing experiences vividly.  He said he would try but it wasnt up to him.  He told me I should follow him.  We went through a door into a chamber over looking a large dining hall table with about 20 seats.  A mad scientist type was standing in front of a window that seperated us from the table.  He turned to me and said I had a job to do.  I had to rescue the damsel in distress from the maniac opressive king holding her prisoner.  He told me to follow him to a room to the left closed off by giant 30 foot high red doors.  He held the door and I was greeted by a group of people who appeared to be scholars.  Some had clip boards, others had cameras.  The scientist told me to demonstrate my powers.  I looked at him sideways and not wanting to cast any doubt upon myself in the eyes of the group I leaned close to him and whispered "what the hell are you talkin' about???"  

He explained that I was not bound by the rules that these people bound themselves to, such as gravity and physical harm.  I was a free mind, unbound by such notions.  He looked up and smiled a worried smile at the group who looked at me with less interest and more impatience.  I had no clue what any of this was about and decided to take a light hearted approach and I struck a superhero pose.  The scientist came over a loud speaker and said "let the demonstration begin".  I stood there, glancing around, expecting to begin the scenario I was told about earlier, but nothing happened.  Looks of excitement turned to confusion amongst the group.  The scientist gestured frantic motions at me.  I was so blown away by the clarity, lucidity and realism of the experience I just sort of chuckled nervously under the glare of the scholars and attempted to formulate an exit plan.  I tried willing myself away, that didnt work.  I tried to fly away but I just smashed into the ceiling and stuck there.  I looked down and one of the people had passed out and the others had their jaws on the floor.  The scientist seemed rather relieved.  I floated back down to applause.  I laughed and said "You've got to be kidding me!  Can I go now???"  

Apparently my prayers had been answered and I was shot at insane speeds through a kaleidiscope tube with faces of clowns flashing in neon blue and red.  The realism of the experience had doubled now, I felt I had made a permanent transition and felt no sense of body to return to.  At first I moved at what felt like 65mph or so, similar to hanging your arm out the window on the highway.  I could still move but the speed began to increase drastically until my body seemed to dissapear and I was a point of consiousness flying at mach speed through a carnivalized tunnel to who knows where!  

I appeared at a house full of people I knew.  I began to talk to a friend of mine and I felt a tug again, but I knew this one was my body calling.  I was somewhat relieved as the whole experience seemed like an hour or more.  I said "I gotta go, bodies calling." and I awoke with my mind completely blown.