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hahaha! Very nice!

I for one have once considered myself asexual because of the complete lack of desire/curiosity/subconscious manifestations of things related to this. It's gotten myself into a lot of trouble before, even close friends calling out and flat out saying that I was lying... But honestly, I just don't care one way or another. I'll go ahead and leave the rest of my social life out of it. Nobody's business. I don't think there's anything wrong with me, I just can't relate at all.

I'm always surprised how negative it is taken by a lot of people. I've been flat out accused that no one would ever love me because of it. I've been accused that I must have been raped as a child in some sort of repressed memory. It has taken me to the brink before of believing that there was something seriously wrong with me, but I'm at peace now. Just take it as it comes. I'm glad I haven't outright caused hostility by you guys, though I was half expecting it, haha!

Neato... thanks for sharing

A lot of everything has to do with what you believe. If you think eating meat will hinder, it will.

In what way are you referring to telekinesis?

I have a hard time taking this seriously. @_@ But sex is really one of the last things in my mind, so I guess I'm the odd one out.

I've tossed the possibility of the origin of succubi and such to be part a way to explain an external source of such sexual feelings and thoughts. Perhaps even a manifestation of guilt. No, I did not have these thoughts of having sex with another being. They must be evil thoughts put onto me from an outside source. Thus, the person is guilty free and essentially victimizing themself.

I know it's not very sensitive of me to say that and I apologize. I mean, there's certainly nothing wrong with having sexual thoughts, but to some people, they do feel guilty, and this seems like a convenient way to push that blame on something external rather than internal.

I'm not connecting that to your experience Dark. And I'm not trying to imply that you were astrally masturbating. There very well could be another entity that came over for some pleasuring fun. Just specifically with evil spirits coming and people feeling like victims of it.

They could also be projections of fear or specifically the fear of being violated. But either way, they are projections from the self and can be confronted if the person inclines to.

Eating soap? Oh gosh, I need to stop reading things wrong. Soup, not soap. I think I am turning dyslexic.

I agree that we get enough chemicals in our bodies without adding more. @_@

Just eat healthy and exercise! Get enough sleep! Relax! The best medicine.

Memories or imprints on past evens have been shown to me before. Sometimes it has been terrifying. And even more scary is that it matched up perfectly even though I had no prior knowledge. My most vivid experience was on a WW2 aircraft carrier. I wrote about it here:

http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_metaphysics/imprints-t38879.0.html

But now that I think about it, that was in the physical... I completely missed the point.

Non physical wise I have seen places and events, some related to the same aircraft carrier. I was able to draw a map of the island with Pearl Harbor (though it was a little different from now because time has passed) and also went to Micronesia. Of course, some things are very hard to match up, mostly because there is always the possibility that everything is preconceived by perceiving a place even without being aware of it. Taking the details that we know and recreating it from what we know. I have tossed the idea of a past life since there has been so much surrounding it that I have experienced, but I have no idea WHY. I hate war, but I've had a few very detailed experiences as a young man aboard that aircraft carrier in WW2. Now why would that happen? There are certainly more possibilities than a past life. I entertain the idea, but when it comes down to it, I am very skeptical.

Regardless it is fascinating. And a little scary, haha!

Have you ever visited any historical events on earth while in the astral?

I'm a child in good number of my dreams. And even more are in the town of my childhood. Sometimes I recognize things I encounter from my childhood too. It's a great time of imagination. A great place for your subconscious to pull from. I haven't noticed any sort of pattern with them, but just kind of out of no where. It seems like I can never get myself to dream what I want to dream. If I try, it just goes on a completely different tangent, hehe. It's fine though. More fun in a lot of ways.

If you are recalling specific things that you had forgotten about, they might be brought back to the surface for a reason. You can see how it relates to your waking life, if anything.

Never knew you were part snake... Or maybe cicada.

I forgot to add, is there a difference between a test and a retrieval? I just want to clarify this for myself.

Thank you for making this topic, it really gives the opportunity to think. Especially to be able to reflect on the personality differences. It is really exciting to read in the past few threads recently that others have a sort of personality shift in such a way. I've always felt a sense of "growing up in two places at once" kind of thing. It is me, but at the same time there are differences. Maybe in a way of my physical self aspiring to be.

I have a hard time imagining how I would physically react in such situations because I've never come across them in the physical world. Whereas, I know how my non physical self would react from experience. Sometimes in the physical I imagine, "how would I react if suddenly so and so happened", but I can never imagine a clear answer. Would I cower? Would I be foolish? Would I put myself in danger? But there is no answer.

Once, and this is recalling a rather low part of my life... The lowest actually, in a depression. On the spur of the moment I decided to drive a few states north on a whim to see fall in the mountains. I just needed to escape things for a while. On my way back, I noticed some hitchhikers at a rest stop. I've always wanted to pick up hitchhikers and give them a hand, but I had always been too afraid that I would be tricked and possibly killed. Against better judgement, I asked them where they were going and I told them I could being them part way, about 200 miles. I let them into my car with full intentions that if they tried to harm me, I would crash the car, of course hoping that nothing would go wrong. They were actually very interesting people. They asked me if I was a hippie because I have a bumper sticker that says "I <3 chickens" on it. They even told me "Don't you ever dare pick up hitchhikers again", haha. I still don't tell many people about it. Like I said, I felt like I had nothing to lose.

But otherwise? Would I put myself into danger in the physical? Would I stand up to someone with a weapon? Probably not. Sorry, for derailing like that.

As for my non physical self, even with no knowledge that I am asleep and believe that I am in danger, I still face it for a purpose. Especially children. I would risk everything. I've died, come close to dying to help save them. It doesn't matter if they are from an "enemy side" (referring to a prior retrieval) or what. That's not to say I am never conflicted, or oblivious to the danger. I certainly understand it, but it's that I don't believe I would be able to live with myself if I didn't do what I felt was right.

As for the situation brought up, in the non physical, I would observe, but be ready to intervene if the 16 year old posed any threat. Depending on what he was yelling about, probably try to calm him down. Put myself between the two then depending on the situation make my next move.

I'm no superman, but I sure can put up a fight.
And above all, if I have purpose, I will keep on going till I'm done for. Wouldn't have it any other way.

I met my guide in the form of a hawk. Now that I'm older, I usually see him as a young boy. They don't have to be human in form. It's more of their function over how they are perceived.

I would say keep open to anything. You stated that you were not afraid of it. That's good! Learning comes from everywhere.

Welcome!! That sounds so exciting! Oh my goodness! I'd love to fly up to space!! Don't be afraid of not being able to find your way back. You are completely safe! Distance is nothing! Wow! Don't limit yourself! Explore to your heart's content!

Florida gets little pussy ones that rarely meet the ground... Good for us.

But one of the joys of being a camp counselor were that I was always tricked by the others into going outside and watching them form. If one started coming down nearby I would have to run inside and tell everyone to seek shelter.

Once we were outside and one started forming right above us... I had to distract the kids from looking up and get them to move their little butts to safety.

That job was the most masochistic thing in my life. I still don't know why I came back for a second year...

I <3 you guys...

That sounds like a great idea! Conquer the fear by turning it into something positive!

100% correct. I'd love to meet you in that form too. Its amazing then some...

Haha, go ahead and look for me, I don't think I'd be hard to miss.

I hope so too. Strong like bull!

Oh boy! Again with these creepy mirrors, haha!

Congratulations on your experience.

Think: some people see monsters, some people see "shadow people"... you get a mirror.

No no, seriously, that is good, I'm just passing out here, it's so late. xD I'm not even qualified to post anymore tonight.

It's all about the intent. Most of my experiences I leave up to my subconscious in a kind of "whatever I'm meant to see this time" way. But I know it's possible to intentionally go places.

I would think that visualizing would play a nice big role in all that. But the big point is the intent, wanting it to happen, and believing it will happen. I wouldn't be able to write instructions, though. :/

I guess I still don't know what the difference between tests/retrievals/whatevermacallits are xD

Oh well, words will be words, hehe. Could someone explain the differences?

Took me a little bit to find but here is where I was explained about tests before:
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_astral_projection_experiences/complaints_about_a_zebra_striped_bathroom-t39108.0.html

Really well explained by Bedeekin and Szaxx.

Hilarious!!!

The first thing it made me think of was false awakenings. But being in the NPR is like apples and oranges... they're all fruit. As for discovering yourself in SP, do you believe that you will begin this in SP? When you wake up, do you often find yourself in it? It could be reflecting there or I'm just completely off, hehe.

False awakenings can be really quirky things. Especially when they start stacking.

For me, my false awakenings are incredibly vivid and I usually have no idea I am dreaming in the slightest. The other senses in dreams are kind of hit or miss for me. Sometimes everything's there, sometimes not, but I don't think about it much. If I eat something, it has taste. If I pay attention to something in detail such as walking barefoot on sand, I feel the texture. But I guess I don't always notice.

Sounds awesome how vivid yours have been recently

And yeah, belief and expectation play huge roles.

It reminds me of this:
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_astral_projection_experiences/i_think_i_had_a_retrieval_last_night-t39940.0.html

That sounds really terrifying... I know what you mean by feeling like you are a completely different person, no knowledge of your waking self. Szaxx best describes what I'm getting at with these retrieval things... ^_^; I can just speak for what I've personally experienced and have read of others.

Here is one that I have had, though I was not human. I still completely believed I was living my life. Different memories, personality. I wasn't me as I know myself.
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_dreams/failed_a_test-t39167.0.html

I don't want to assume anything, but just throwing this idea out there because it's what first came to my mind. Just gotta clarify that. @_@ We are put into situations sometimes that kind of function as a test to see how we would react and think on our feet. They are learning experiences. They are incredibly vivid and if we don't know we're dreaming, we actually feel like we are in danger. It keeps it truer to how we would react since if we knew we weren't in danger, we might not learn much. What is important is how you react. And how you grow.

I wasn't able to protect the person in mine and I still have a small knot in my stomach for it. They can really seem so incredibly real... And linger long after they're over.

hahaha!

This makes me wish I was witty! xD

That's what I thought too, just making sure I'm on the same page, hahaha! xD

Anybody mess with me and they get a taloned kick in the butt. ...if they don't get scared away in the first place, that is.