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in the active and recent topics sheets i keep seeing that people are posting to the MAP Project forum, but when i try to view their messages or visit the forum, i get a message saying i'm not allowed to.

so i'm just wondering if the MAP Project forum is something that just a few people asked to set up so they could do some sort of experiment (hence the "Project") or if i'm just not wanted there[].  (j/k [])

~kakkarot

http://www.poisonwind.com/Comics/Icy%27s%20dojo/Astralcombat.htm

or here: http://www.poisonwind.com/Comics.htm for a bigger list of comics. and the astral combat and other stuff is near the bottom of the page under the heading "Icymasamune's Dojo".

(the spellcasting link on their page doesn't work so i'll give you a direct link to it http://www.poisonwind.com/Comics/Icy%27s%20dojo/Spellcasting.htm ).

~kakkarot

i don't know if anyone has mentioned it yet, but when i go to the active topics area, it tells me i have no active topics, eventhough the red number after the active topics header reads 14 (and it read 11 the last time i was on, earlier today).

and i don't know whether you intended to or not, but the personal area (section_id=2) is gone as well. just thought i'd mention it in case you didn't know.

otherwise, a darned nifty site. []
great work, all who helped (if it was more than just Adrian) deserve a pat on the back.

~kakkarot

i forgot most of it, but that's ok, because only the part i kinda remember felt kinda important.  

at some point in the dream, i was in the middle of a street, in what looked like a downtown area. i was talking to some guy who was going to start attacking some police that were a short ways off. i kept telling him not to fight them, but he kept wanting to. as he was going towards them to start the fight, i said something about him that really p.o.'ed him. it was something like "just because you've been hurt doesn't mean you can go around hurting others". i don't know why i said this, i didn't know anything about the guy in my dream, but after i said it, me and him got into a fight. the weirdest part of the dream though, was after i started walking away from the fight.

well actually, i got into a duality kinda thing where what i knew was my body, was walking away from the fight, while my spirit was continuing to hold the guy on the ground (where i had him before my body started walking away). while he was on the ground i heard him say something about going after my body because it was weak and he could destroy it easily. so my spirit self pushed him against the ground harder and started stepping on his throat to keep him there. i felt something like contempt for my power (he was like twice as heavy as me, and his was all muscle, and he was about  inches taller than me) and i felt his intent to rise off the ground and attack my body. so i gathered all of my power and forced him to the ground and said to him something like "my body is more powerful than you think, and if you go after it you will die".

now he was quite powerful and i was having a rather hard time in the dream holding him back, until i gathered up my power and directed it at him. at that point i could feel he realizing that i was stronger than him when i use my full power. so he decided not to fight anymore, and i let him up. then we said a couple of things to each other that sounded really important, but i have forgotten what they were. after our talk we felt more friendly towards each other, and then the dream ended. but after i was awake, i still had the feeling like this dream was important somehow, and that i should remember the face of the person i was fighting, almost as though it were a real person and we had somehow met up in the dreamscape.

so weird.

the only other time that i have had a dream where i strongly felt, both in the dream and out, that i had met up with another real person in the dreamscape was when i was having a dream about me being some sort of government agent and i was trying to stop a bridge from blowing up or something. and as i was talking to some other agents, my mom showed up off to one side. i pretended to not notice her for a few seconds, but then i got the feeling like she was wondering if she was having a dream about me or what? so i looked over at her, said "hi mom" kinda sheepishly, and went back to talking to the other guys. my mom then left and it actually felt like a person was leaving my dream. so strange.  

~kakkarot
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Zim:Gir! I'm captured!
GIR: YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYY!!!!!!!
Zim:No, thats bad Gir!
GIR: YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYY!!!!!
Zim:*sigh* Gir. I need you to listen very very very very very very VERY carfully.
GIR:*slurp* Wha?
-Invader Zim, Episode 5.

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(very long. plus, whenever i use the word God, please understand that i mean Jehovah, unless otherwise noted. if confused, please ask. thank you.)
ok, so those two words don't normally go together in most circles of conversation, but the point of this thread (i'm hoping) is to find out why, and to maybe even have the two occuring side by side.

now, i am going to start by giving some thoughts that i have had regarding the (non)relationship between magic and christianity, and then by asking you guys your thoughts on them. hopefully we will be able to figure out something that i am slowly coming to the conclusion may be true, though ironic. (and it doesn't matter which spelling you use, i am talking about the magic that can change the physical world, not just trick people into thinking that things happen)

1) "magic is against the will of God." it is written in the bible that people who practice magic will go to hell. however, i have read one book (Divine Magic, forgot author) which says the word magician (and its renditions) were mis-translated in the King James version of the bible because mr james didn't like magic and it was a way for the printers of the bible to score brownie points (paraphrasing). i have done some research into this and found out that any time in the english that the word magician comes up, it means magistrate (one who is wise; a ruler; etc). but, i am no greek major (geek major, yes.  :p  ), so can anyone out there comment on this?

2) magic is traditionally related to calling upon other gods and beings to do the actual manipulation of the physical world (and those people then worship those gods for their greatness). and looking at that, it is easy to see why Jehovah, being the "jealous God" that he is, wouldn't like people practicing magic. however, in today's age, the methods to magic are being changed. it is becoming ever more popular for people to no longer try to invoke other beings when working magic, but instead use their own power/energy and look inward when trying to do the difficult of changing things. so in this light, is it feasable that Jehovah would allow the use of such magic?

3) i use chi. it is a form of energy. using chi i can sometimes affect the physical (usually the biological is easier) just as someone using magic can. but i am pretty sure that it was Jehovah who led me to the path that showed me about energy and other "paranormal/supernatural" things. and i know that Jehovah has no problem with me using chi. (in fact a friend of mine told me that Jehovah is the one who gave her the ability to use chi, and the amount of power she has.) also, the one time that i cast a magic spell, i invoked certain elements of nature to do what i told them to do. i was not treating them like they were dieties, but as "beings" (maybe essences would be a better word here) of equal status. the entire time i did the spell, i got the feeling that, while Jehovah wasn't displeased with what i was doing, Jehovah was keeping a close eye on me to make sure i didn't do anything he didn't like. so if magic is just manipulating energy (either a different form of energy, or the same form in a different way), then how could Jehovah have a problem with it when he doesn't have a problem with chi?


now, when i was fourteen (or maybe fifteen) i was given a series of five visions over a few months (i am pretty sure it was by Jehovah considering the beginning part of the first vision) that showed a war that would be happening in my lifetime. not just any war though, but a war against demons (i think) that could destroy all of humanity. if this were so, then wouldn't it be reasonable that powerful people using magic could help just as much in the protection of the human race as powerful people using chi, or smart people using technology? i mean, war is war right? especially when one side is trying for genocide. (i seriously hope those visions were just delusions, but my memories all have a mental tag saying that they really were visions.)

CONCLUSION: so if magic is just the manipulation of energy, just like chi, and when one practices magic without resorting to using worshipped beings, then is it really so "damning" that a christian would use magic?

thanks in advance to all who reply.

~kakkarot

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i was wondering why you guys do energy work. i haven't read anything about practical uses of using energy (except by cainam and a few others, in a martial arts thread), so i was just wondering what you guys use energy for.

i use energy for quite a number of different things in my life; keeping warm(er) in the winter, healing fatigue and injuries quicker than normal, moving stealthily, and trying to manipulate other things in the world around me.

so how about you all? what are some practical uses that you have for using energy?

~kakkarot

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just kidding.   (anybody here like eminem?)

got back from vacation yesterday and, damn, DID I LIKE IT! i love medicine hat. and i love my friends too. but anyway.

the dark ki thing is "clean and clear and under control" now. i was finally told something i really needed to know.

BYE TYRONE! too bad i couldn't PM you before you left. i really wanted to change the weather for you. if you ever come back here on an urge and see this message, PM or email me and i'll see what i can do for you.

ides: sorry, can't do that reconnosaince i said i might be able to. i haven't gained clairvoyance, remote viewing, or oob projecting ability yet (though i think i will in the next couple of months). and besides, i am NOT supposed to be helping you cause i have to be "going through stuff" (like training) for my own fate. but i would like to PM you with some advice i think might help concerning the curse (eventhough you probably wouldn't do it anyway    ). just let me know if you want me to PM you.

umm, yeah.... so... hey! my life just hit a pretty good hill after going through a pretty lousy trough. i got rid of the dark ki threat, i have reabsorbed plenty of chi (which subsequently absorbed itself into my muscles and bones, showing how starved of chi I have been for the past year), and i will be going to Air-Drie tonight to reabsorb EVEN MORE CHI !!!! ha ha ha ! kick @$$!. plus i finally got told via a REAL person that the visions i had years earlier is gonna happen (actually, she started talking about what the future was going to be like, and it just so happened that it reaffirmed what my visions told me) so i have regained my sense of purpose and LOVING life (all capitals because i am just soooo full of happiness and energy right now!). plus i am gonna fall in love soon (something i feel and was reaffirmed by the same person) and get my VERY FIRST GIRLFRIEND! YAH!!!! dang, am i ever happy. (ya know, i actually used to work with a person whos first name was "Dang". pretty cool    ).

blah blah blah. feelin' good. blah blah blah. doin' good. blah blah blah. life is good. blah blah blah. etc etc. blah blah blah.  

PEACE AND LOVE AND HAPPINESS AND LIGHT AND GREENNESS AND uhhh... JOY... and uhhh... and STUFF and ... BEER!!!! BEER TO ALL!!!! (except those who like coolers more. then coolers to you.)

"Smearnoff Ice. Don't break the ice, crack it open." -lame pick up line by your's truly.  

~kakkarot

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i was reading through some older posts just now and i read something where Adrian was talking about feeling his chakras as spinning. i have heard that before, but the memory never hit me till just now. when i first started absorbing energy from outside my body into my body, i had to change the energy from the form it was in to something that was more.... me. and the way i did this was by making the energy spin in my arms or legs (cause at the time i was only used to absorbing energy through my limbs) and then "feel"/force it to change. so i just realized, that by making the energy spin (which was something i did just because it felt like the right thing to do at the time), i may have been using secondary chakras in my limbs.

the only problem with this theory is that the energy was contained throughout the entire length of my limbs (from finger to shoulder, and from toe to hip), and everybody says that chakras are only about the size of your fist.  so, does this make sense to anyone else?

just thought i'd post; no real relevance to anything. nope, none. hey! this could be a topic where people post miscellaneous (spelling?) things that they do/did with anything.  

~kakkarot

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in the "month's events" area when you click on the calender date that you want to see, it takes you to the day previous.

not much, but i thought you might want to know.

~kakkarot

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i was in class just an hour ago and i had this urge to draw something. when i was finished drawing it, i felt kinda empty. the feeling to draw this "shape" has been nagging me for the past few years, but now that i have drawn it, it feels as though it has nothing to do with me personally.

so i was wondering if anyone has ever seen it or anything like it before, and could give me some info on what it is. (and if nobody knows what it is then i shall chalk this one up to my over active imagination  ).

the file has been attached somewhere...

btw the gray lines are lines that don't seem to fit quite right (maybe that is why i feel so empty (?))

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for many years now, i have experimented with creating personalities, kind of like putting myself through what people with multiple personality disorders have. i have been very successful in my endeavors, i created more than 4 personalities consciously and another 3 or 4 were created accidentally. over the years, i have kept, destroyed, and recreated most of them.

the three main ones that i created were a martial artist with a personality akin to Goku from dragon ball z; the perfect soldier (my opinion of what a perfect soldier was to be, anyway) which i later modified into an olden day assassin type (i was in the military and i created him because i didn't want any psycological disorders to develop by the time i got out of it. then i just kept him around because he was very useful for focusing, logical thinking, and stealth); and a personality who is more at ease in the wilds of nature than near anything of mankind.

i am so accustomed to switching between personalities that i can make the switch within a single second without any side effects (like forgetting something or mental dizzyness or whatever might be accompanied by a complete change in mental identity).

now to side track for a second: a friend of mine that i just met last year is very powerful in using chi and telepathy. she claims that just being in her presence allows people's bodies to begin developing "supernatural" (is there a better word that could be used to encompass all these abilities since i don't think any of them are beyond the natural, merely beyond the normal?) abilities. she has also told me how when people with schitzophrenia (sp?), ya know the people who "hear voices", are around her, the voices stop. she says that, with her experiences with the schitzophrenic, that demons are the cause of the voices and that whenever demons come near her she attacks them and so they tend to stay away.

another side track: the soldier-turned-assassin personality, which i named Talis, can be fairly mean at times just cause i created him to be without feelings and without caring (so as not to get in the way of his "duty"). so whenever i use him (bring him out, switch to him, or whatever you want to call it), i tend to be tinkle people off to no end, just because i become so blunt; no sugar coating whatsoever, when you ask me a question i answer it truthfully and completely even if it is rude. now, this is quite contradictory to the real me cause i am usually a nice person who doesn't like hurting others and is more often to say nothing than say anything, let alone the truth.

back to the issue: i care about my friend (and her daughter) very much because they are very goodly individuals who are definately worth caring about and protecting. so when one day i was playing pool with them at a local pool hall, a person walked in who i recognized as someone who had once, for no good reason, punched my best friend, i got rather angry. i did nothing though. later on in the night, another person came in, who happened to be a friend of my two friends who i was playing pool with. apparently, the person who had punched my best friend had also stolen ten bucks off the guy who had just walked in, and the guy who just walked in had stolen a watch in retaliation.  (confused yet?)

an hour or so later, the friend of my friends told us that he had agreed to go get the watch and that the guy who punched my friend would give him back the ten bucks. the thing was, he didn't want to go alone since the guy who punched my best friend had two buddies with him. so my two friends and i agreed to go with him, just in case. (btw, both of my friends have practiced the martial arts for years and even i would be wary to mess with them.) however, i didn't feel confident in my abilities with the way i was at the time, being the real me.

so i tried to bring out Talis so that if trouble did happen i wouldn't be the weakest person there, in fact being Talis would have made me quite powerful in that situation. BUT i couldn't for the life of me bring him out. i tried the usual techniques (saying his name to "invoke" him, focusing for a while until he just took over, and tricking myself into getting him to come out). i know i did feel bad inside about trying to bring him out because i didn't want my friends to see me like that, but i have also talked to a completely different friend who told me once that he had witnessed a minister "casting out" demons from someone who had multiple personalities (and supposedly each personality was a different demon).

so what i am trying to figure out is whether my personalities were demons who wouldn't come out while my friend was around, or if i felt so bad about showing them a "darker" side of myself that i subconsciously prevented myself from changing my identity. can anybody help me out on this?

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that's right people, 19 says it's a sin to call on anyone but God for help and he's ABSOLUTELY RIGHT!

so the next time you're finding that you're carrying a box that's too heavy for you to handle, don't call your friends or family to help you cause that's a sin, call God.

the next time you see a crime happening (theft, vandalism, rape, murder), don't call 911 cause that's a sin, call God.

the next time you can't find your child and are extremely worried about their whereabouts, don't call around asking their friends' parents if they're with them cause it's a sin to ask anyone but God for help, so ask God.

[/sarcasm, y0] now many of you know that i'm very "christian" myself, but there's a line between reality and fanatical thinking. and the further that reality shows itself to be, the further AWAY from fanatical thinking it is.

calling upon "lucifer" within a summoning-type magical ritual/spell would be done for whatever purposes a summoner might have. just like calling upon any other being in any other summoning. just like calling upon God.

~kakkarot

is the point of power to change the world then, whereever and whenever you can, without just letting things be? is it to change it so you can be happy... or so others can? and is death, the way that all the earth goes, really that bad? [|)]

~kakkarot

oh yeah, something i forgot to mention: my above post was for the greek language, which the new testament was written in. the old testament was written in aramaic/hebrew/whatever-it's-called and so some/many of the definitions of similar-meaning words/terms could be slightly different enough that they portray vastly different ideas. (ie, the aramaic word for "angel" could be literally defined as a specific race of created beings who serve "God" (by His various names and titles)).

i've not done much study into the aramaic language, so if anyone out there /has/ and could enlighten us, it would be wonderful for more information on the subject (of angels and demons, or just any commonly mistranslated words) to be made available [].

~kakkarot

welcome back []

~kakkarot

exothen, please use the edit button instead of replying to a thread three times in a row []

~kakkarot

welcome back []

~kakkarot

quote:The bible says a man should hit his wife. Do you think that is right too?

really? please provide the passage.

~kakkarot

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~kakkarot

you didn't ask for topics started by mr bruce, just long discussions that he's been in ^_^

~kakkarot

burning arc, the ice cream thing was a joke meant to illustrate how visualization doesn't harm one's chakras.

shen: you need to stop believing things merely because you've heard someone say them once or twice, and start experiencing things and learning for yourself what really is true [].

~kakkarot

can you scan the pic?

~kakkarot

if you really want to understand what i'm trying to say, then i'll leave out the bits which seem to confuse you regarding the attitude a christian should have.

sacrifice is an act of giving up something important, usually in order to do something good for someone else.

love is doing good for others and christians should love others. we should also help others whenever we can, in the ways that those people need help (ie, don't give them a blanket if they are hungry).

a christian should do these things from their own heart, from their own desire to do good.

~kakkarot

i had no passage in mind. i've seen these things happen, i've done these things. i'm not talking out of a book, i'm talking out of my life.

"All scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness", but reading is not the will of God. living God's word is the will of God.

~kakkarot

i'm curious, have you ever been to the official haarp homepage? (and for anyone else interested in some of the environmental issues of HAARP, try http://www.haarp.com)

~kakkarot