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I posted this in the PSD Forum and sent out several PMs to moderators.
This needs to be said
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It's time I came clean, I wait any longer with this.

I am receiving help from someone on the pulse. Upon investigation, my attacker's origin was revealed.

Many of you know I am a Grey ET Abductee. Well, my attackers are related along familiar lines.

My attacker is a member of the US governement's mind control/remote viewing program.

Apparently I am not the only one this is happening to, I've met and spoken to other abductees who have described similar experiences. There is a counselor nearby who has admitted she has counselled people (abductees) who have undergone this experience.

Friday I was followed home from work. Driving to work I heard in my head, "Dammit, Dammit, I lost her." Driving home, I heard in my head, "I'm so close to you now." What I've managed to learn is that this guy can control me from far away when I am under his thumb. When I start to break away, he drives to where ever I am to regain control.

That's what he did Friday. Saturday I was harshly attacked by two people, not just one. My energy was very severely drained and once again, my need to write down everything that happened was in vain.

Then there's you Michael_Stonewing!

I'm sure you don't mind me sharing the PM you sent me with the rest of the class:

 

quote:By the way why did you send all of that energy my way the other day after replying to my topic post? Not that it didn't feel good but I still wonder why someone would send (what white light?)
It is actually interesting that you did that since I immediately became interested in who this person was that was sending me such nice gifts. Anyway I checked out some of your posts and I went to a section of Astral Pulse I had never cared to be in the Channelings/prophecy section and believe it or not we really are not that different from each other. Let me guess - needle like puncture marks sometimes as many as four of five (I forget... been awhile) on your neck near your arteries? Some on the backs of your hands and wrists. Bruises and cuts really anywhere on your body but the upper thighs espeacially. Feelings of utter exhaustion after you wake up and really have no idea how you got them because as far as you know you didnt even dream that night.....
Yes, I definately could be either luring you or trapping you even if I didnt consciously know it but still its interesting.... by Michael Stonewing

No, in answer to your question, I have never had markings like that except for the scar on my upper right thigh that I received last year. And, no, I am not the one who sent you that energy...and I know this God Damn game, it's been played with me way too much! I'm sure someone helped you to that energy, and I'm equally sure you were one of the two attackers that came to me on Saturday.

Which brings me to the quote you made in the Astral Experiences forum with regards to the Dark Haired Guy:

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45-50 year old male. Dark hair and normally looks younger than he should.... High level of Government backing and lots of friends in some very high places. Adept at the most powerful magics available to humans/half humans.....

Ask him if his name is Alan?
Just a friend of a friend saying HI! by Michael Stonewing

I am not going to make any threats, actually, from what I've been told in the Communications forum, I am the living threat! Or one of them, anyway.

I am not going to be intimidated, I am not going to be stopped, and I feel you siphoning off my energy as I type this! Metal, I have some Hematite and you're right it works. I have ordered the Psy Vamp book and it's on it's way...money or no money, I guess I'll just be in debt forever.

For the rest of you guys, what was channeled to me about my situation is in the Communications Forum, You'll find it easily.

Wish me luck, I'm going to have a horrible life.

Check out this website:

http://my.dmci.net/~casey/

This is a link to a person who was subjected to governmental experimentation. This isn't conspiracy theory, this is fact, this information came out on the news a few years ago, but I didn't even know all the information listed.

I pray to God for forgiveness of my sins and protection from evil and all it's lies.

Is that supposed to be a threat, like the PM you sent me, Michael:

quote:By the way why did you send all of that energy my way the other day after replying to my topic post? Not that it didn't feel good but I still wonder why someone would send (what white light?)
It is actually interesting that you did that since I immediately became interested in who this person was that was sending me such nice gifts. Anyway I checked out some of your posts and I went to a section of Astral Pulse I had never cared to be in the Channelings/prophecy section and believe it or not we really are not that different from each other. Let me guess - needle like puncture marks sometimes as many as four of five (I forget... been awhile) on your neck near your arteries? Some on the backs of your hands and wrists. Bruises and cuts really anywhere on your body but the upper thighs espeacially. Feelings of utter exhaustion after you wake up and really have no idea how you got them because as far as you know you didnt even dream that night.....
Yes, I definately could be either luring you or trapping you even if I didnt consciously know it but still its interesting.... by Michael Stonewing PM'd to Dark Knight

Amazon has it, and Robert Bruce's book.

I'd look them both up if you can.

The book you've mentioned has been around for a while. So has all the other information you've mentioned.

You should be careful in handing your responsiblity over to others, anytime you hand over any part of yourself, there's often something nasty out there ready to take it...that's why there are always consequences to yourself and others

Oh I do know, I know what I felt when I saw your avatar signature...

The other book highly recommended on this site besides RB's Practical Psychic Self Defense is Psychic Vampires: Protection from Energy Predators & Parasites by Joe H. Slate (2 more weeks, Metal Ice, 2 more weeks and I'll have it).

I'll let Metal Ice tell you about the Iron Fry Pans and Steel Locks[]

How specifically have you set conditions with "permission"? I'm in the process of doing it with my attacker, but I'm learning that it's like trying to outwit a lawyer. It's not impossible but you have to understand they can set conditions too. I'm closing doors he's opened.

If you can read my post (Psychic Attack cure), it kind of gives a better idea.

Please write back and let us know how you're doing.

Crim,

but feeling anger doesn't mean it's your anger. For the first two years of my attack, I couldn't feel anything, I mean ANYTHING. If I had won the lottery, I had no capacity to feel or experience happiness it was like a wall had gone up. It's devastating over time becuase the mind takes everything literally. You try things to feel an experience. After two years of trying things and feeling nothing, I started associating the feelings of nothingness with the experience.

holidays meant nothing, love meant nothing, people's concern for me meant nothing.

Then I was partially freed, but the attack changed. MY emotions were blocked but I was channeled emotions to feel, often emotions which were not appropriate for the level and context of the situation...more mind bending.

Having the ability to feel something is not enough, you need to be free to feel you. That's part of how you are able to seperate between self and other, make dilineations...determine what reality is.

If the anger he is feeling isn't his, and if he isn't allowed to feel anything else (the way I was), it has a devastating affect, causes the personality to dissociate, it's a horrible, destructive experience.

Edi,

I'm freeing up. I'm actually having moments where I can feel my emotions...MY emotions, not the channeled emotions of someone else.

I'm not completely free, but it is working.

Edi I have more questions (like you don't get enough questions from this crowd). WHen you have time, can I talk to you?

Edi, is the shift starting (a gradual start people, please don't freak)?

You're emotions are getting stuck?

Not allowed to feel your own, except anger, whether you need to or not, so it's like you're always in a state of an artificial grudge?

Yeah it's not good.

OK, let's get the punchline of everyone on this site out of the way first:

Get Robert Bruce's book, "Practical Psychic Self Defense" first. RB has really done an excellent job, blows the myths out of the water, and tells it like it is.

While you're waiting to get the book, what have you been doing to survive for the past two years?

Let me guess, if you're a kid (under 20), you're probably living with your parents and "parents rules" will probably dictate whether or not you can burn incense, oil, sulfur, or garlic for that matter.

Do you have any money of your own (to get the book and other little things too)?

Do you have any religous beliefs? Could you try prayer (I say that loosely because I remember how hard it was for me to start praying again in the begining...not because I objected to God, but because the emotional abuse and torment was so strong to overcome).

The best ward RB has suggested in his book is the writing of religous symbols on different parts of your body...middle of the forehead, across the heart, across the solar plexus, tops of both hands, tops of both feet, bottom of both feet.

Now with mom and dad running amok in the same dwelling it might be hard (Honey, why do you have that star in the middle of your forehead). In blue ball point ink, draw symbols on the places that can be hidden by clothing.

See if this works, if it doesn't, don't give up, there are a lot of other things you can try. It's just process of elimination and we have to go through it to see what will eventually work.

It's important to write back and tell us how you're doing, there's lot's of help here, there's only so much space and time to write []

Metal,

I can't believe I'm saying this...I'm clearing up.

Oh I'm not totally free, but I am clearing up. I actually felt my emotions, clearly, and without interferrence on and off through out the day.

For the past several days I have been setting boundaries, trying to listen for my guide, and listening to figure out this guy's game. Like playing a game of mental chess...no, nothing glamorous about it, it's hard and awful, but I am winning.

This morning while driving to work, I was being attacked. I was frustrated until I felt a sense of "ask him what he's doing." I asked him, "How are you able to do this?" He answered, "Because I didn't tell you something and I got you to agree with me." He barely finished the sentence and I felt him getting a fierce butt kicking. One of the stipulations I made was that my attacker had to be truthful about how he is attacking me. He wasn't and was punished, I felt myself lightening up. It went like that throughout the day, how do you play a game with the truth? You can't! He lost every match.

SO how is he still able to get in...because of the last problem I have.

One thing I noticed over the years was that my thoughts were gravitating to a certain part of my brain. I also noticed that it seemed to be the part of my brain I felt when my channeling/telepathy would spontaneously activate (by him). I was told during my download that I could no longer tell the difference between a Channel, a telepathic signal, and a thought. They were all the same (boundaries were gone). I was "open to receive" all the time (when are you not thinking)? Compounding the fact was the brainwashing, and being so abused, I retreated into my head further. You figure things out by feeling things out. When I would "feel" things out,...I never left my head. I would always "open up" to feel what was around, what was going to attack me. After a while, I couldn't tell the difference between feeling out through my head and feeling out with my heart.

I have to break from this (and this could take time, there is a lot of damage) and then I think that's it...I think.

We'll see what happens.

quote:Of course by nature I am a taker of others emotions, thoughts, and energies but I only use that when I wish to present a specific face to someone or to acquire something...

I am always a nice guy even when I am doing not so nice things.

You obviously don't consider the consequences of you're actions, well, you'd have to think of someone other than yourself...

Nice guy...yeah, you're sorry, you didn't mean to drop that anvil on our foot, therefore, our foot shouldn't hurt; Where have I hurt that before?

Enderwiggin, I think there's a chew toy here waiting for you.

Are you that much of an butt to treat this lightly. This is isn't a joke, I've almost been killed and nearly committed suicide on more than one occasion.

I'll still look into some cheap steel.

Metal, I'm broke, living paycheck to paycheck with nothing left. I may not even see my family for US Thanksgiving because I don't have enough money. $20.00 is a fortune for me right now. Oh I can get the Psy Vamp book and a few others as soon as I receive the gift certificate for getting the crummy company credit card (well, you gotta make compromises to survive).

I just took a new job which starts Dec 8th, benefits are great (I'll have health insurance again for the first time in 1.5 years), but the pay is the lowest I've had since coming back East.

I'm going to be broke for a long time, and unless I win the loterry and get rid of the overpriced car payment (had to trade my paid off car and the Jeep for a new car toget rid of the Jeep. I'm paying an extra $5000 on a car that is worthless) and the $5000 credit card bill, I am financially screwed.

Sunnyblue, I'll send you an email maybe next week, I'm working 12hr shifts everyday till the coming Monday because I'm trying to get money and time off to see my family...may not work but I have to try.

Ok, first off, if you feel vulnerable after doing meditation work, my first suggestion is to stop completely and backtrack.

I'm not saying stop meditating forever, just for now.

Then I would suggest looking at some of Robert Bruce's books, namely "Practical Psychic Self Defense" and some of his latest books on OBE and Astral Projection, just to get a sense of how enities, thought forms, people interact.

You know it really is hard, when you turn on the TV and see John Edwards, and you here all the fun love and light stuff, but no one talks about the nasty dangerous stuff. It really is a hazard to operate psychically, it isn't all warm and fuzzy.

In the meantime (this is assuming you have to order RB's books or can't get to the bookstore/library right away) you have to feel safe until you get the books (if that's what you want to do).

Do the normal everyday stuff most people do to protect themselves, burn incense, oil, write holy symbols on your third eye, over your heart, solar plexus, tops of both hands, tops of both feet, soles of both feet, preferrably in blue ball point ink. This is one of RB's techniques in his PPSD book and it really is effective. Pray and invite guardian angels, particularly Michael and Uriel to surround you at all times.

You mentioned not being able to feel your feelings and feeling anger...do you suspect the anger is not yours (happens to me). Give us a little more information if you can.

Squeek, Squeek, Squeeeeeeekkkkkk!

Good Luck!

I wasn't born with the knowledge of how to be a chemist, I had to go to grade school, high school, and finally college. I used my intellect and reasoning to get through the courses but I needed to attended classes and listen to professors to bring me up to speed.

The greys are nothing more than that, you can attend class and decide how to apply the lesson yourself, and they don't have the answers to everything I've had to act as teacher to them, so have many other abductees.

We are all teachers and students, and we have not stopped looking to ourselves just because we ask for an opinion...maybe someone older has a little more experience, or maybe the younger person has a newer, fresher idea.

Metal,

Magnets? I remember Metal but not Magnets! Let me go get some. Like fridge magnets...Wow I have those it that's it. Let me know so I haven't made an butt of myself.

Which Dollar Store are you finding the Locks, I can't find them where I am...

Right now, my focus is on getting the Psy Vampire book and a few other books. Metal, soemthing else has been going on I haven't come clean about on this forum, and can't yet.

That and money is bad (I may not have enough money to go and see my family for US Thanksgiving). Wanna know how desperate I am...I went and got a credit card for a popular media website because they're handing out certificates worth a certain amount of money...I'm going to us the certificate to get the books I need.

When you feel safe, you're free to email me...if not, I can wait.

firetoice

I haven't felt my emotions, MY EMOTIONS, in 5.5 years.

I have reached a point where I feel some of them but not as I normally should.

My "senses are cloaked" as it was once put. Mental and emotional blocks. I'm physically and directly being interferred with.

Edi,

I just PM'd you on this. In all my years as an abductee I have never had scars. Last year on the upper portion of my right thigh I had a scar, looked like an injection mark. I want to know NOW who left it there, the greys or the government? What was done, was something put in or taken out? What else has been done to me?

I need to know this Edi, and once you get it, POST IT!

Please do, Metal, like I said, my situation isn't foolproof. I still haven't found all the triggers and he's still getting in in some spots.

Everything helps

I want you guys to look at this:

http://my.dmci.net/~casey/

I'm still picking my jaw up off the ground. Edi, I take it back, they deserve the Nazi Salute, and are probably doing it, it isn't impolita at all.

These people should be strung up and killed, I'm not even going to sugar coat what I am feeling right now.

Check out this website:

http://my.dmci.net/~casey/

I still trying to pick my jaw up off the ground...this all sounds too much like what has happened to me.

I'm sorry, but I am not going to be positive energy about this: I think these people should be killed, each and every one of them. I'm not even going to sugar coat what I am feeling right now.

Wynn,

You may have done nothing to this individual/entity/whoever...his demands for answers may just be a tactic to get access to you.

He's demanding answers from you which automatically puts you on the defensive, which probably weakens your confidence, lowers your energy, and lowers your natural defenses. You're so busy concentrating on something you didn't do (because you're thinking giving him the right answer will stop this), looking for an answer that doesn't exist, he's getting access to you, making you feel worse. It's a vicious sick cycle.

I made a post here a couple of days before on Psychic attack (see Psychic Attack cure) which might help in your case (or it may not, not everyone's situation is the same and you're the expert on you're experience, don't let ANYONE tell you other wise, I don't care how many years "experience" they have). It sounds like someone is using a psychic greeting to get at you and forcing you to put your focus on something else instead right where it needs to be...yourself.

It's brainwashing, hon. I've been through it and know too many of the same sick lines and games.

OK,

Something has been bugging me the past few days...

I was told during my download to learn how to channel and learn all the etiquette that goes along with it. I know why, now. But there is something else. Like I said above, this guy has made broad definitions (boundaries) as to what communication with me will entail. One thing I noticed was that I was constantly pushed into a specific part of my brain for thinking, for telepathy when it came on, for my psychic ability, and for the little channeling I was capable of. What I was told during my download was that I could not tell the difference between a thought, a telepathic signal, or a channel. THe boundaries differentiating them were gone, like they had all beome one thing. THis has most likely given my attacker the broad definitions to attack me. If a thought has no difference from a channal, and me being a chemist, I think all the time...it's an open door for this guy to come through and do whatever.

I'm still cloudy and an attachment I can't break has attached itself to the left side of my head (temple). Have to figure out what goofy definition he came up with to get this one to work.

Maybe treating it under the guidelines of channeling etiquette will work then.