Quote from: Zecora on September 27, 2014, 10:07:50This is what I don't understand about the whole AP/LDing thing.
So as I was out and about with a friend in the RTZ, I noticed a non-physical entity in the vicinity, I wasn't sure what it's purpose was, but after scanning it, we decided since I have the most experience, I'd make contact, whilist my friend would go back to his body and ground me. So I watched him fly back, he didn't touch my hand when he slipped in, but I wasn't worried, as he was so much more aware than I had ever seen prior(normally he sleep APs).
So I wait for the entity to come by, it looked similar to that No-face in the movie Spirited away, except it was more hunchback-y and literally had no face. It didn't communicate in pictures, nor words, or any of the standard methods normally encountered. I decided to try and link up or make a connection with it. As I did so, it formed a face, male, pointy bangs, no eyeballs, it seemed to be trying, but I felt a spark of fear, I was merging with it, it was a large emotional entity, but at a rate faster than I could control. It communicated with emotions, not my thing, and it was so fast, high frequency, I started to feel a panic, so I yelled to my SO to ground me, he didn't budge. I yell, louder and louder, no effect. He was so out. I was rather ticked as I didn't want to full merge(I have a big fear of it), so I split my consciousness into my body and try and move my finger to touch his body. But when I did so I had sleep catalpsy, I'm feeling more and more fear, try and force my finger to just move enough to ground but not wake up entirely, but FAIL. I did move, but woke up my body. I slammed right in, jumped up, yelling at SO nonetheless who was still asleep. I try and go back out, but just couldn't manage.
I'm pretty frustrated with myself right now. This is a perpetual problem, which I feel hinders my progress, and certainly cool experiences.
Whenever I meet a higher frequency entity, I feel like I'm going to die, the vibrations can be rather intense, but I know from prior experiences, that relaxing helps, but I tend to resonate with fear instead or resist which complicates the pattern. It feels like I am dissolving into the other entity, I've heard people digging that whole bliss-merge-into-one-with-universe-stuff, but everytime I have a chance I panic, unless it's a more mental based entity, in which it's all good, with none of that bliss stuff.I'm not sure how to describe it in other terms, but electrically speaking, the grounding works the same as it would for household wires, if that helps.
I'd like to transcend all of my fears, but atm this seems to be a real impedance. Any tips? I figure working out the fear would be the best option, but struggle with as too how? Is there a way I can ground myself internally whilist traveling(rather than depend on say....my SO's energy field)?
Everytime I have dreams, sometimes lucid sometimes not, sometimes vivid/somewhat realistic and sometimes very weird and confusing (what mostly happens) they look nothing like experiences in 'the real time zone', they (afterwards) always feel and look like dreams.
Now in these 2/3 years that this has interested me, I never had one experience that felt like I was in the world so to speak with my spirit. I have left my body consciously, felt myself being pulled out and all, but I always end up in a not realistic dream environment.
And now you come here saying casually that you were in the RTZ with a friend and all.
So could you please describe your experience in a detailed way, how you and your friend leave the body, how you perceive your surroundings, how you perceive eachother and if you talk with eachother after the experience, thank you.
Now as for you problem, idk what to say because you already know your an infinite spirit, that in the unknown there is only more of yourself etc.
Though I can recommend meditation and staying as the awareness for reducing any anxiety, also don't forget that these experience too shall pass

And you also don't have to be in a hurry because you have an infinite amount of time