Hi rem,
Our beliefs have power. Maybe another way to look at what you're going through is to realize that inner fear-based beliefs (which nearly every human adult has) have to come out in order to stop them from inhibiting you. I came to see it as my subconscious freaking out in the beginning...and in a relaxed state I had to actually talk to it with respect, reassuring it that what I was attempting to do was good. I even struck a deal with my sub
, asking that it help me, guard my body while I was APing, promising that I would always return 
. Kinda silly but it worked.
Hope this helps and much love,
Ginny
Our beliefs have power. Maybe another way to look at what you're going through is to realize that inner fear-based beliefs (which nearly every human adult has) have to come out in order to stop them from inhibiting you. I came to see it as my subconscious freaking out in the beginning...and in a relaxed state I had to actually talk to it with respect, reassuring it that what I was attempting to do was good. I even struck a deal with my sub
, asking that it help me, guard my body while I was APing, promising that I would always return . Kinda silly but it worked.Hope this helps and much love,
Ginny