I'm just starting out too so I can't really give advice on how to separate but I do feel the same. I feel like something wants to get out but just can't. My back arches up sometimes like it just won't come out. I'm trying to rewire 26 years of thinking my body and soul are both one in the same. It won't be easy. I think if you just keep pushing the limits with practice it will happen. Like learning to ride a bike. You keep falling down until something clicks and then you wonder why it was so hard to ever ride. I think you are very close like I am. Keep up the good work and it will happen.