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Once, not to long ago, my guide appeared in a dream when i was confused. He told me that this spirituality
business (Ap'ing and individualization processes) was all about "watching out for the beast". Then in an episode of the
x-files, a senator says that this universe is all about monsters begetting monsters.

Do you choose to become a hermit? Is there any escape out of all the madness in the first place? This same guide i mentioned
also appeared in another form in a dream, and said: "once upon a time i was also a prisoner, but then i developed 'stereovision' ". But to
what end? To gain power?

I mean, is a person able to process the power that comes with the ability to astrally project. Power corrupts they say.

In the book "Gôdel, Escher, Bach" by Hofstadter Douglas, the author states that the human brain is organized like a totalitarian
state. Without going into the issue if this is true or not, i realize that our models largely shape the world we are in. The author
also talks about the nature of meaning. Related to the brain; if we consider language for instance in conjunction with the interaction of this
brain with the environment, i wonder how far this goes. We read about things in the newspapers and interpret it in Aristotelian terms, two-valued logic.

Does this mean that when our models of the brain change, the world also changes? Not being a neurologist, i feel like a victim of my own brain.
I cannot choose the most optimal model. I can't help but to see the world and the beings using language as if this western world is all about ego and
becoming rich and famous. I am fighting this tendency day in, day out. I see and interpret things on several levels at once, but then suddenly, this
forms a single category on its own and i am a prisoner again. I cannot seem to objectify things. I mean, not that i want to objectify
recognition and fame. Absolutely not.

It's all like some hierarchical nightmare, where people are trampling and piling up on top of each other to gain fame and recognition. And when
the truth comes out regarding this, a societal security protocol surfaces telling us to shut up about the secrets of the universe, because empowerment
has to stay secret. We have therefore hierarchies, and "entangled hierarchies". In how far this latter conception anarchistically solves the issue i do not now.

I am a victim of language. Do i give meaning to it? I don't think so. Sometimes the analogies are fully consistent, resulting in total equality
and chaos. I don't get it.

This happened a while ago, but the experience is still fresh in my recall.

I found myself in a limo with three MIBs, me in the back seat with one of them. It was dark outside. I felt i was somewhere in
the USA. Suddenly the car was stopped by a black cop. One of the MIBs opened the window. The cop asked where we
were heading in a somewhat frightened and soft way. One MIB then said: "Beat it spook". The whole thing had all the
characteristics of a normal dream. Then suddenly i looked out of the front window and saw a large circular portal
opening. We drove through it. The whole dream character changed here. We were driving on a road, but this road was like...suspended
and isolated floating and extending in "midair". It was like we entered a large dome with only the road and a house in the distance
to were we were driving. There was no sky, just a big colored astral giant membrane enclosing our space with a somewhat 2D character,
because when we took small turns the whole background stayed the same. It was like a giant computer simulated thing.

Then we arrived at the house. Suddenly i found myself inside the house. There was a woman there but i didn't see her clearly. Then,
i was carrying a child and ran down some stairs. I needed to get out of there with this child. I almost fell when going down the circular stairs,
but managed to keep my balance. I had the feeling i needed to save this child from the mother. This was it. I woke up.

I have more of these types of experiences, with criminals in particular. Sometimes i tune into private conversations
of nasty characters also. I don't know who they are and why i unconsciously keep spying on them. It seems i do not have a choice. 

This is a classical topic, regarding the recurring appearance of certain numbers.

I have found the numbers 11, 22, 33, 44 and 55 of paramount importance, relating to behavioral cycles, experiental,
These numbers tend to denote major angles as gyrating points in spacetime. There are lesser numbers relating to these,
as these form a part in the subsystems of experience, of which these major angles form the greater nodes. Greater changes.

It has occurred to me that these greater numbers manifest whenever we turn into other activities, like anchors, wedges, connecting separate cycles.
If you pay close attention (bypassing the antagonistic working on short-term memory), this seems to be the case. However, they appear
less often compared with minor activities, but they keep impressing, also as "minor major" turns. Thus whenever these
numbers appear in greater numbers, meaning more often and clustered, major changes tend to nonlocalize (verb) awareness
in the perception of singularity, fueling our readiness for the next step.

Personally, i also found a lot of confusing terminology all over the web regarding this numerology.
They are the "angel numbers" of which you find yourself almost paralyzed with. I am working on the de-conditioning process
myself with this, gyrating into a more scientific worldview, excluding the positivist attitude (not relating to angels).
So personally a more systemic approach is preferred. I am learning.

My general attitude (seeing the above) is a generalized view. To counter this, for example, i cannot fully understand yet what 11 is
compared to the other numbers. I cannot seem to identify the frequency types, as no relation is obvious, meaning i don't know
what quality they stand for. It would be a mistake to consider 11 as the "lowest" node, as nonlocallity and hyperspace do not allow
separation. My intellect cannot make anything of it.

I tried meditating on the hypercube, but the image itself tends to separate things. Meaning, the little cube inside the bigger one
with the angles connecting it to the greater one, should denote the greater one, superimposed on it. But it still looks as "positioned lower". I learned that
the cubes in hyperspace all occupy the same space, but this is all i learned from it. Manipulating quaternions isn't exactly my turf.

Maybe i should meditate on the connected "angles", not "angels". But, do you see the problem here? It is as if the angels built in
a safety device for us in the construction of meaning when the apple is being bitten. The difference however, ironically put, is obvious.

This is somewhat related to an OBE. A lot of times, i get signals from some source.  I found that whenever i have some thoughts, generally put, these tend to come back to me further up in time carrying more information than i'd experienced during the time i had the thoughts, like some type of advanced feedback that i get.

Another way to explain it, is using the MP model or multiple personality view. As an example, say i am cooking dinner, that defines a "cook identity". Now, if i burn a finger say, this then is also felt emotionally due to a certain frustration. Later in time, when i am reading something, i am "the reader". It is at It this point that i get a signal, like going first into a light or heavy trance, relating to the intensity of the emotional experience or burning. The signal that i then get consists of the thoughts i got when i burned my finger. The catch here is that i get more info about the "burning" that i had when it did happen. It seems that at that moment of burning, i also pick up signals from other individuals who burned themselves at the same time. So there's more info.

It is as if the activity of burning a finger is experienced at the same time by others, like af if there's a type of quantum entanglement or something, tuning in, into the "groupsoul".

The point is the same if for example i am lacing my shoe. Then probability says that someone else is also lacing it, at the same moment. This is the "looping lacing group", as it would not be the last time i would've laced my shoes,

I don't remember exactly where i picked up this idea:

There are people living inside of us.

From my experience, there are. I seem to connect a lot with strangers. During my spontaneous "remote viewing" sessions, i see images of people i don't actually know or have met. Sometimes i do or have. If i have to believe the theosophical view or concepts out of Matrix V by the Valdemar, these men and women are my "incarnations". But one time i saw my ex-psychiatrist. I found it is hard to distinguish between my incarnations or the actual etheric experiences.

But my point is somewhat related to the preceding paragraph, in that some of these states are postmortem. Now i was wondering about the number of people famous personalities could access. Do these, due to their fame, create a "larger plane"? If we would consider Albert Einstein with his relativity, the man should be in almost al of us.

And there they go, all those little attack helicopters and tanks.

I have a bad feeling about this.  

Hello all,

For several years i tried to understand how the subconscious works. Now the idea of it as a type of programmable machine is fairly ingrained in the community.

I tried to make it work several times and failed, but after a while i learned the empty mind philosophy or the zen approach of indifference in making it work: "Doing is not doing" etc... . This latter actually works. We know that the subconscious talks in pictures or symbols. And somehow this is correct. But it doesn't always work.

Then i turned to analogies in trying to understand it and make it work. I realized that the function of repeating affirmations for example (as words and letters are also symbols) is to induce a state of oblivion regarding the original intent (thus related to repetition). It is also commonly established that when repeating a word over and over in your head, it loses its meaning (try it). Now this loss of semantic data or meaning can be compared to the shedding of a snake skin. Then one can say that the meaning is "absorbed".

However, the level on which these meanings find themselves, is the personal level. This might work, but there is a better way.

As an analogy, it is somewhat like preparing a package. You've got your command, say "PROJECT". Now this term is loaded with info of the personal level, so it might produce noise due to interference. To solve this, i simply put "PROJECT" in a box. This is the same as the analogy of encryption, transformation. A popular way of doing this is with anagrams, that is (i believe) the key. Rhymes can also work.

Now to encrypt it, one can use "CJ's ET ROPE" which is more or less an anagram of "PROJECT"

Now "CJ's ET ROPE" is the code that has to be used as a mantra. When it loses its meaning then, "PROJECT" should be absorbed by the sunconscious and off you go.

This worked several times for me.

Have a good one,

M