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#1
Vibrations + Dream + Memories (2013-01-10 )

I was semi consciouss when I woke up in the middle of the night in the vibrational state. It feels as a dream although many elements feel very real and not dream like at all. From the vibrational state I remember thinking that perhaps I can get somewhere this time and not just fall asleep again. I then felt the vibrations increase and got finer but much more intense, the sound of it also increased and I felt what seemed to be an incredible speed forward. It then cooled and I thought it was lost but then I felt my astral hands reaching out and touching eachother and I sat up and imidiately tried to get away from the bed.
The next part felt a bit confusing because there were many elements that didn't fit with the physical, hence why I think it was either a lucid dream or a dream. I had to move away from my physical body as I couldn't se at all. It appeared that I had a beuty mask on my head and it cleared away from my vision as I got a little angry and firmly shouted "VISION NOW". When it cleared I was eager to get further away from my physical body as I knew that had to be done to gain clarity. I  looked for a window and thought that it finally would be amazing to try and walk through it, and before that I touched a bookshelf (which we don't have) and thought that it was amazing how real it all felt. I got to the veranda door and touched the glas. It was firm and  solid as real glas, but I thought that I just gotta know I'm able to step through it. And so I did and felt the structure and texture of the glas. I was so happy to finally do this.
I jumped on to a lawn with frost on it. I felt the crisp feel of frosty gras undermy bare feet. I think I was naked to but that didn't seem to bother me. I knew I had to return soon as I would have no memory of the experience afterwards otherwize so I just wanted to try to fly first. Just a tiny bit.
At first I didn't move but after putting real thought into it I took of. First slowly and then with insanelly fast speed, lightspeed and faster. I went very very far into space in almost no time at all. There was dustclouds and other blueish cloud like substanses where I was. I was very happy to have been able to do this. The space I was watching seemed to be morphing in different shapes and thats where I think I ended it, waking up in my physical a bit confused.

Thoughts:
Many elements in this experience makes it hard to know if it was a dream or a lucid dream or something else. For one we don't have a bookshelf, we don't have a lawn outside, and the apartment and the surrounding environment outside looked nothing of what it does in real life. Totally different layout. It could be a memory from an astral travel, but I'm more in tune with the idea of that it was a lucid dream memory. The vibrations felt very real though. Its as if certain parts of this memory feels more real than others. Perhaps thats a side effect of me not having experienced this kind of adventure before. Also the dream is very streamlined and goes from point to point when in my normal dreams its very random and events can unfold in and between eachother. This really felt like I was conscious at some point and experienced something from A - Z so to speak.
#2
40. Thread Under The Chin ( 2012-12-17 )

I dreamt of pulling a straw of beard from my chin, and to my surprise it was a piece of long grey thread which was stuck under my skin at different locations under my chin. I showed it to my girlfriend and we both thought it was somewhat macabre or discusting pulling a thread out of the skin. In this dream I watched myself pulling the thread out so it was a third person perspecitve.

Keywords:

- Beard: outgrowth of hair, a masculine attribute/feature, always comes back

- Grey: dull color, a lifeless color, between black and white (balance between), boring

- Thread: symbolizes a line/path/start - end, can tie things together, fate

- Chin: a masculine form, an area of the face not commonly noticed


Conclusion:

The feeling I get when trying to interpret this dream is that I either have found, or must find, a balance in my masculinity. To balance the male qualities in myself is apparently important. I find that I have alot of feminine features in my personality, like all the artistic interests and how I am emotionally.
Do I have a problem beeing more of a man that I naturally am? This is perhaps the thing I need to think about, and the answer to that, I believe, is that sometimes I think I need to express qualities that is not truly me. And those qualities could be masculine.
I get a feeling that I need to stay true to myself and find the balance in my personality regarding my masculine qualities.



41. Down The Water Slide ( 2012-12-17 )

I was at a amusement park with lots of bathing areas and water in it. I feel that the theme of the park was water. There was a big slide which I felt was one of the highest ever (not in the world but probably one of the highest/longest I'v seen), and I wanted to ride it. I felt kind of adventurous in this dream and most of the dream was experienced from a first person perspective. The slide was light blue.
I watched some kid going down the slide and he stuck to the slide with his pants so that he went very slow downwards and I worried that I wouldn't get enough speed. I also worried that if I got enough speed, I would fall off the slide. I continued to climb the stairs to the top floor where the slide started, it was on floor 10 and went all the way down to floor 1. When I reached the top I jumped into the slide and rode it all the way down and landed in the water. I said something to my friend who was at the bottom but I can't remember what exactly, but the feeling in the conversation was that of worry combined with relief. I guess it was a feeling of beeing safe having gotten all the way down and that it wasn't as dangerous as I first thought.

Keywords:

- Amusement park: playing ground, area of amusement, place to have fun, place to not be all serious in

- Water: emotions, life, flow, waves (patterns/frequencies)

- Slide: a downward motion, a linear path/direction with twists and turns, a way of traveling forward/downwards

- Light blue: a clear sky, throat chakra, clear water, turquoise (stone), calmness, happiness, warmth, spiritual


Conclusion:

The theme here is emotions, since the place I'm at is a place of emotions of different forms/patterns. The slide seems to symbolize a path in life that I can choose to take if I want, but in the dream I wanted it. Its a kind of joyride, a fun ride with many twists and turns which indeed life is. This slide is situated in this place of emotions which tells me that the slide has to do with the theme itself, it is to take a ride in emotions. In the dream I worry that I won't get enough speed or that I could fall of and that is pretty self explanatory to me. It's the fear of loosing myself emotionally, as in getting depressed, not having the energy to stay with something or that things will be to hard emotionally for me to bare.
The slide started at the highest emotional peak and stopped at the lowest emotional place and thats because the slide represents the entire spectrum of emotions. As I wrote before, its a fun ride and it should be. It is emotional experience being gained by riding it. The slide has the color of light blue which tells me that it has a spiritual meanig to it, but also that it is a slide I shouldn't be worried about riding. It has the color of a clear sky, or of clear water in the mediterranean which is very soothing and calming.
This dream tells me that I shouldn't be afraid of emotions in the sense that they can do me harm or be bad for me, I should enjoy the ride and the experience it gives me. I should ride the waves of emotions in life and take in all the experience it gives me. Don't hate the emotions, instead welcome them and learn from them. Don't be to hard on yourself when getting angry or sad.
Its nice to see that I confront fears in my dreamstate.
#3
Last night, after going to sleep, I decided to slip into a trance/meditate/reach some state. So I began affirming "I'm outside of my body" like a mantra and mixed that with visualizing myself in my living room. I drifted into a nice trance where my body became numb and my mind started to slip in and out of consciousness. I remember that the earhiss disapeared a couple of times and that I gained to much waking consciousness after that. All in all it was nice.
But in the end something unexpected happened, which have never happened before I think. Usually I get a strong flutter/pulsating in my forehead at my brow-chakra area. That comes very easily and very often to me as my third eye activates, and I got that yesterday to but very early in the session. The thing yesterday was that I got a strong flutter in my base-chakra.
Well, I don't know if I have a clear question here but I can give a few.

-My guess is that this was my base-chakra activating, what do you think?
-Do you usually get a chakra activated like this, with very physical like sensations?
-Why does it activate like this when not even focused on?

Kind regards - Linus
#4
And i also want to share this little video. It's beutifull. Watch it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HocQYn1GQY4
#5
Welcome to News and Media! / Mind In A Box - Fear
December 13, 2012, 06:55:47
Just thought I'd post this beutifull song from Mind In A Box. The songtitle is Fear and is about just that. I think it touches subjects discussed here on this site and it makes me think about what it does to you. Enjoy, hope you liek it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-0-kz1vDHc8
#6
This really feels as a memory from an adventure in consciousness as in a downloaded memory. My physical waking self interprets the experience more as a dream but this "dream" differs from my usuall dreams in that it was very streamlined, it had context, it followed a direction and it really felt as an adventure and not some symbolic dreamscape with random events followed by another random event. It was extremely vivid and I remember almost everything in the entire "dream" to a degree I almost never do. Also the whole experience I experienced from a first person perspective as it was I myself who was experiencing it.

The first thing I can remember is me waking up to very physical sensations of intense vibrations. If this was when I was physically conscious I can't say for sure but I think so. I kept thinking that I shouldn't be afraid and to just go with the experience. The vibrations faded and I thought "damn, they faded..", but then the rush came again and more intense. The vibrations were extremely physical and teh speed in which it felt I traveled in was very fast too. I tried to stay calm again but I also tried to force the vibrations to increase with my will and when it seemed almost as if I physically tensed up I though I blew it again. I had this thought of a place that I really didn't want to wake up in, as if I was a fraid of it. And this was in an old house I lived in, where I have bad feelings/memories from. I sometimes dream about this house and often I try to overcome fears in that particular place. I guess I calmed down and those thoughts faded away.

The next thing I know I am walking up from my bed with the intention to get something to drink. I am not where I live but in a unfamiliar surrounding with a familiar feel to it. It felt as my fathers house when I lived at home. It did not look like it though. When I came out to the hallway some force suddently pulled me back from where I came from and I immediately knew that I'd had a false awakening.
I thought that this force was some helping/guiding force that wanted me to realize I wasn't in my phyiscal body and I was never afraid of the "force". Now, I never saw my physical body because I never went back to it, it never crossed my mind. Instead I was just totally happy that I was out of my body.
I wanted to get out of the house so I went to the door. As I opened it I thought it was foggy, but the fog cleared away and very vibrant colors appeared on everything. I looked at a butterfly that was huge, I saw a tree, grass and further away I saw buildings. Everything had this slightly animated, pixelated videogame feel to it and the colors were very vivid and bright. I remember that I noticed this and remembered that I had come across this before in an OBE.
Then I saw a girl playing around some flowers. She looked very animated to, as she was a character in a videogame, but yet alive. I took all this as it should be this way, as it was natural. I approcahed her a bit fast so she backed away and I excused myself and said that I shouldn't have approched her so fast. She had very big eyes and looked at me somewhat curiously. I asked her what her name was and I could hardly understand what she said/transmitted to me, but I think I understood that she didn't have any name or that she felt that I didn't need to know at this point as it was unimportant.
The pixelation and the bright colors faded away after this into more lifelike and "normal" colors so to speak.

What happened next was that I saw a smaller girl walking around on a path and I don't know if I got the hunch to follow her from the first girl I met or if I just knew it. Either way I knew by now that I had to talk to that girl because she knew where my sister was, and I needed to talk to her about something important. And also this feeling that I needed to talk to my sister came either from the blue or from one of these persons. I can't remember that.

The next part is a bit fuzzy.
I followed the little girl and she had something in her hand or pocket that looked wierd. I think she dropped it or gave it to me and it was some kind of device you could breathe in. I thought it was a pipe.
I followed this girl to a place where she lived. it looked like a school or a home with a different kind of environment.
I was told by the girl that the device I was holding was a device in which to breathe helium through. I was confused and didn't understand what I needed that for so I think I gave it back to her.

As the girl left I went ahead and looked for where my sister was. I knew she was in the place I was but I didn't know the way. Then I saw that the girl had put tiny posters with the text "This way" on it that I followed. I had to climb on furnature and cross the rooms in wierd ways for some reason. I don't know why I did that but I feel that this was a playfull environment, kind of like a kindergarten, and as I was in this environment I too were playfull.
I came across an older person (female) that looked Chinese or Japanese who had a name that I cant remember anymore. She was the one taking care of the small girl and perhaps of my sister to. I said hello and excused myself for climbing on her furnature and said that I could talk to her later because I didn't have much time. I was very aware of that I shouldn't remember this when I woke up if I took to much time. She said it was okey and then I saw a room beside the one I was in where my sister was. I didn't see her but I knew it.

I approached the room and I saw my sister who looked very young, perhaps 6 years old or something. This didn't feel strange to me either and I don't know why. She is 26 in real life. She laid in a small bed, reading something I think and turned her head and was very glad to see me.
She told me that she wanted to see me because she wanted to talk to me about that me and her should show each other that we love each other. She said that we both know that we love each other and its time to show it in a better way. I aggreed and understood what she said.
I laid close to her, in a very comforting way, as if she needed comforting. She seemed happy that I listened and it felt very natural to be close to her. This is not what it feels like in real life as there has always been love between us but also some distance that, when I think of it, feels strange that it exists.

When we were done talking I told her that I better leave so that I remembered this when I woke up. I guess she understod but I can't emember that part. It felt okey at least.
When I left I saw the Chinese/Japanese person beeing with the little girl in the other room. The little girl wanted me to play with her and brought out some pencils and a big bucked of water. I excused myself and said to both the girl and the adult person that I needed to go so that I coul'd remember all this. The adult said it was okey and I think that the girl also understood.
They put teh penicils and the water bucket on a table and I got the feeling that they wanted me to come back at another time to spend some time with them.

Then I woke up in my bed. The shift in consciousness was really smooth.

Thoughts:
My first thought is about the pixelation/videogame feeling in this experience. I have been told that this can be related to that we are not "tuned in" properly to the environment, plane or whatever we choose to call it we are experiencing. Also as this pixelation dissapears it seems the memory of the rest of the experience gets somewhat weaker. Its as if, if this theory is correct, once you are properly tuned in to the environment you loose foothold in whatever place/thing that keeps your memorystream intact. Its hard to formulate myself on this one, but I think I got it somewhat right.
My second thought is about the vibrations and the very physical sensations that I felt during the exit. It felt as if my consciousness was located on a very thin line between waking and dreaming consciousness. In a wierd way this makes it so that I never doubt what is happening to me. The vibrations and all other sensations just happens and feels very natural and I just think everything is okey and are familiar with it. It has been like this almost every time with every experience and memory, with some exceptions. I usually "wake up" in the middle of some vibrations or other experience and just go with it, thinking stuff like "Oh, now I can see through my eyes.. thats good" or "Oh, vibrations... I need to go with this". There is almost never any real confusion. But this is ususally in this in-between state I am reffering to. There have been one time where I woke up from a dream into an OBE and at that time I was just wondering about everything I experienced all the time. Also this time I didn't really know what to do and I just observed. And that leads me to believe that my consciousness that is closer to my physical person or ego was more present at that time. This time, however, I was further from that level of consciousness.
Thats what I can make of this experience and thats why it all felt very natural although more dreamlike.

What do you make of this? Any thoughts?
#7
Welcome to Spiritual Evolution! / Meeting my guide
November 07, 2012, 07:14:03
Meditation and my guide (2012-11-06)

Meditated with a new guided meditation mp3 that I got from a Swedish medium called Zoƫ, thought I'd try it out. The meditation is specifically aimed for contacting your guide. It takes you through some simple relaxation exercises and invites your guide to you in a calm relaxing way. What I percieved was a bluish shimmering entity with a female apearance that I think I have come across before in a dream. I also felt his/her the name is Dalu or Daluu.

Thoughts:
Its very hard for me to know when I make things up in my mind and when things come to me from an outside source (I could also say inside source *smiles*), but what many says is to trust your feelings so I have to go with that.
In the meditation I was guided up a mountain inside a temple where I sat down on a bench in a garden and met my guide. She was bluish and shimmering mildly and had a female apearance. I kept seeing her face occasionally as the environment faded and only her face was left in my vision. At one time her face morphed into something that looked very Indian (as in the country India), with tattoos and marking over her face and very intense eyes. It almost startled me but I kept my cool.
It felt as if I should have had a conversation with her but I wasn't prepared to ask simple direct questions so instead I asked her assistance in my OBE endeavours and I kept repeating that thought. What I felt the answer was, was that it wasn't as simple as that. To just ask and get it done, and offcource I already know that so I felt kind of stupid.
I also felt that his/her sex was undecided, and I guess there is no male or female sex for real and that its just a physical trait.

I asked my guide for a name I could use and at first I felt that it really had no meaning if there was a name or not, but I still got the name "Dalu" or "Daluu". Curious as I am I googled Daluu and couldn't find any comprehensive stuff about that name. When googling Dalu I found alot of Chinese references to it and coupled with that I'v had China apear in dreams on several occasions. Very interesting for me to say the least.

Another thing I found was the meaning of the word dalu in the Telugu language of India. Here it is: http://telugu.indiandictionaries.com/meaning.php?id=8232&lang=Telugu
The translation says: Brilliancy, lustre of complexion, prettyness, a shield.

I feel the english translation fits beutifully as a name for a guide. All the words fits for what a guide could be like when viewed from my perspective. Especially "lustre of complexion" gets to me as he/she looked like he/she was shining. Coincidence or fact?

Whichever of the two things could be true, or both together in some way I cant comprehend right now. What I feel is that somehow he/she is at least connected to India.

Now, my main problem with all this is that I have a pretty wild imagination and as said before I do not know when I make things up and when things just come to me. The next time I try this I will have to try and trust my feelings more and also come up with some good questions.
#8
Welcome to Dreams! / Quarrel
October 30, 2012, 03:52:33
Quarrel ( 2012-10-30 )

I found myself arguing over dinner with some people, amongst one of them was an old friend of mine. We argued about how I made the dinner. They questioned my cooking and I said that I only did what the teacher told me (apparently there was a teacher) so they should just shut up. I was very angry. I walked away and my old friend followed and we had a small fight, a kind of harmless one where I tripped him in some way. He started to complain about some pain he got from the fight. And I noticed that I also had this pain/desease around my nose. I told my friend not to worry as I had something much worse. I started trying to blow the desease out with my nose. I also coughed alot. Out came various brown/green substances that I didnt find very disgusting in the dream but I do now in waking reality. It just kept on comming and the dream ended when it settled somewhat.

Keywords:

- Dinner: a gathering of people socializing, time for contemplation, relaxing and winding down, last meal of the day

- Teacher: tutor, a person with knowledge of what to do in a certain proffession, guide

- Nose: sense of smell, sensitivity, air passage


It feels as if Im arguing with guides or with other aspects of me over something that I'v done. And I can't accept them beeing angry at me as I just did what the teacher told me to do. I think that both the people and the teacher are guides helping me with some realization. And this realization I think is that I should be aware of my temper and not loose my cool in a pressed situation. In this case I walk away and my olrd friend (guide) follows and nags me anyway. I guess they insisted that I stayed and dealt with the problem or something. When I trip my friend I kind of hurt him and he complains about some pain, but I say that I also have something bad around my nose. Then I proceed to get rid of this thing/desease/negative thing. What that was I dont know but I know that when the dream ended I had gotten rid of most of it. I guess when I think of what it was a thought of a negative attitude or that I am beeing too sensitive regarding certain things comes to mind. I find this dream very hard to interpret but to conclude I think my guides were trying to help me realize something about myself and to get rid of it. I think that they were successfull in the dream. If this sensitivity is gone in waking reality I don't know but at least now I'm more aware of it.
#9
Welcome to News and Media! / Movie About Dreams
October 23, 2012, 07:15:36
Just found it. Its old but hey, here it is: http://www.documentarystream.com/waking-life/
#10
Welcome to Dreams! / Alien sightings
October 22, 2012, 05:23:39
Alien sightings ( 2012-10-22 )

A lot was going on in this dream.
I remember I was on my way from somewhere and was standing with my bicycle near a bicycle stand and the rain was pouring down. I had an umbrella with me. It was an automatic umbrella that folded and unfolded with the press of a button. An old man came up to me and took the umbrella and said very calmly but firmly that it was not mine. He took it and gave to his wife (I think it was his wife). I remember his face very clearly. I protested by yelling that it WAS mine but I stopped yelling and was just angry at him for taking it. My friend Dan was with me and the scene shifted towards the black sky where I saw a UFO. I was so hyped up I just yelled "OH MY GOD". A flying saucer really was in the sky, and I saw it. I yelled to Dan that he should look at it. He couldn't see it because of a building that was in the way. He ran a bit so he could se it and got equally hyped about it. We watched it and the military fired missiles at it. Some explosions went off and there were alot of debris in the sky. I kept thinking that the UFO was intact anyway and why there were debris all over the sky floating with it.

Keywords:

- Bicycle: transportation device, vehicle of the soul, manual transportation device, slow transportation

- Umbrella: protection from rain

- Rain: cleansing, nourishing for the earth, wet, fertillity

- UFO: unknown object, aliens, mystical object, non earthly, visitors

- Black: no color, no sight, dark, not possible to see- Sky: heavens, spiritual place, higher realm, higher knowing

- Dan: close friend, negative, missfortunate, possible part of me/guide

- Missiles: destructive, causes death and mass destruction, bad, negative, dangerous, explosive


Conclusion:

I feel that this is a tough one to interpret. To begin wth I was going to travel with my small transportation device from somewhere. It feels like I was using an ineffective way to transport myself forward. I had no car as I have had in other dreams. It also feels like bicycles are safer to travel with than cars. Perhaps this suggests that I'm progressing slow but safe spiritually. I would like a car though.
Then the old man comes and take the umbrella from me. Its not mine he says. I guess it wasn't although I thought so. It suggests that I don't need any protection from the rain. Hence I dont need protection from something that is apparently good in nature. Am I trying to shield myself from cleansing/fertile things? Things that perhaps can bring nourishment to my life? If so, my higher self tells me that I dont need this protection that I think I do.
When I look up to the sky I see a UFO and it symbolises something unknown or alien. Something that I dont know what it is. Yet I see it and I'm amazed. Dan, the negative and missfortunate part of me can't see it at first, but once he can he to is amazed. It seems then that both me and this other part of me can see the mystical object. It feels as if something unknown is comming into my life. From what I can tell, it is something yet alien to me. It also feels as if when the umbrella was taken from me, the nourishing rain made it so that I saw this new thing in the sky.
The sky was black, signifying that I have no vision of this higher place I seek in spirituality. That then points to that I suddently see something in this area in which I currently have no sight of. I can see something but I dont know what it is. Yet the fact that I see this UFO is possitive in nature since it signals the comming of something in an area I'm trying to explore.
The missiles that the military fire in this case symbolizes my own defences trying to shoot down this unknown object. They hit and explode but they fail to shoot it down. Im thinking here of my ego's defences trying to bring this mystical new object down because it doesn't like that I lowered my defences in the first place. It also seems that this unknown is undestroyable.
Some other things worth mentioning is the building that stops Dan from seeing this UFO. It symbolizes firm structures or beliefs that are in the way of seeing it. If he sheds/runs to the side and looks past them, he can see it. I can't help to think that I need to shed some beliefs on my spiritual road.
The last thing is the debris in the sky and that to me is stuff that came with the UFO. So it feels that they symbolizes fragments of knowledge/information that becomes visible to me in the same way as the UFO.

To sumarize this, it feels as if I need to get rid of the shield I have put up, "protecting" me from nourishment and progress in these higher realms aka. spirituallity. This shield I suspect is my egos unwillingness to addapt to, lets say, practicing MAP for instance. Or meditate on a regular basis. It also points to my laziness when it comes to routines.
If I do get rid of these bad habbits and laziness then I will discover new things in the area where I currently have no vision. Even if these new things is not understandable to me, its new things and progress indeed. The fact that my negative and unfortunate side also saw this unknown object is a good sign to me, meaning that that part of me will also be able to progress in a good way.
#11
Im Linus from Sweden signing up :)
Have been active on the Astral Dynamics community since August 2011 after beginning practicing MAP the same year. 10 years ago spirituality was not something I thought of, ever, but various influenses and events that took place in my life made it so.
I have experienced alot of things since getting involved in spiritual matters the last 2 - 2,5 years trying to achieve astral projection. It ranges from all kinds of classical stuff like seeing through the eyelids, lucid dreaming and racing through a tunnel only to end up awestruck in space (the void). I have yet to achieve conscious OBE's and projections to the RTZ though.
Im joining because it would't hurt getting even more influenses through this site helping me to reach my goals.

Looking forward to chatting with you all!

Regards Linus