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Tom, how are the mice doing?

W3RD.

Good thing is that cures are out. People are still brainwashed by big pharma for the most part, but some are smartening up. Just imagine this. Chemotherapy renders the very thing that is supposed to cure the cancer useless. Your immune system.

The word is spreading per the internet.

Google Dr. Kelley Cancer

Problem because you see it to be only that. A problem is something that people focus on. Always fixing problems and more problems arise. What has anybody solved really in the world? We are so focused on DOING and not BEING and that is why nothing ever will change, ever. You have to change yourself from within. No amount of feeling bad about someone else or something else is going to solve anything. You solve problems by not giving them your attention. You give a problem your attention and unwitting counter intentions and watch the problem proliferate and multiply ten fold.

This has nothing to do with positive thinking. Universe does not care about (+) thinking. It's global consciousness. We got rid of Hitler, then communism, now the flavor of the day is terrorism. Why? Because people wont stop giving it their energy. When you give something your energy, the universe give you more. Period. You will eventually learn this valuable lesson, whether you like it or not. It's not about ignoring a problem. There are no problems, but beliefs in the way we look at things. Look at it without judgment and it will fall away in favor of something better. The universe IS a friendly place. We choose to believe otherwise because of unconscious unwitting intentions.

I'm not arguing with anybody. My way works for me. My thinking has got me out of the holes that I have created and disassociated me from any system created by man. However your beliefs in such systems as  non malleable create them as such.

Kevin

Ignoring something doesn't make it go away.

Well, since you are not willing to choose again, the very thing you focus on is embodied in your experience. You don't have to ignore, you can simply notice it without judgment.

Kevin

It's like this folks. As long as you concentrate your energy without, you are not at peace within. You will NEVER EVER EVER change the way YOU THINK the world operates as long as your a victim of effect. Nobody will ever fix the problem of hunger and disease in Africa. In fact feeling it and thinking about it does the very thing you want to see disappear a great disservice.

You get cancer? You figure out how to fix it. It's not limited to some tree in the rain forest. As soon as you start believing that, someone will come along and make sure there is not one molecule of said tree left on the planet. That's the way it works as long as your in effect of the world and not affect.

Money is another matter. As long as you have the viewpoint that money is a bad thing, this will be reflected in every area of your life. Money is a part of society, but you can be of it but not IN IT. Just like politics. Used to drive me insane. I mean to the point of RAGE 24/7 towards the government. Now I just notice the government, but I'm independent of it. I have no feelings whatsoever towards it. In fact it doesn't even exist in my world until someone brings it up, then I just switch to another channel in my head.

ITS ALL IN YOUR HEAD MAN. YOU GUYS/GALS SHOULD KNOW THIS.

Wake up again.

Kevin

Where's Frank?

Ok Folks. What is the solution here? Mom is breastfeeding our 2 month old. She's introduced her to organic formula. Formula is crap full of chemicals and the only organic thing in it is milk. I already understand that eating cow sh*t is probably healthier than milk. She does not have the time to pump milk and is going back to work. So if not formula then what?

Kevin

where's Frank?

SLIPKNOT - PEOPLE=SH*T   

Seriously, I need a life transforming experience. It'd be nice to rid myself of all anxiety and fear that has plagued me for the better part of my life. Is this stuff legal?

kevin

I have mass ammounts of this stuff. Figuring that the Federales will be shutting it down soon, I ordered up.  I never use a sitter caus I don't really care to. I use to get panic attacks a lot, before I even tried Salvia.

I was scared s-less to try Salvia. Here's the deal. Become at peace with death before you try it. See, I'm all about excitement,  I could care less what happens.

Now for me, Salvia is more or less a different type of thing everytime. Mostly it's body sensations. However, for me it's usually like feeling like my body is sevaral feet from me. I don't really see my body, but it's like, if I'm walking, it's ahead of me. I've been sucked into vacuums, black holes, vortexes. I've been to fairy lands, pumpkin farms.

I've tried all the brands. Word of advice. Don't go and buy it at a smoke shop locally. You'll get screwed. I dont' take one hit either. I take like 50 hits. Of course after the initial BANG.

Some say Salvia is not a party drug? I call BS. I've had more fun with Salvia at parties. I usually pack a huge huge pipe, have peopel sit in a circle and pass the thing around till everyone is obliterated. It's hella fun I think.  Especially when a first timer is going HOLY SH**, WHAT THE HELL IS THAT STUFF.

I have tried the regular leaf, and the extract. I bought a huge bag of the leaf for very cheap. I'll tell you whut. The big leaf, for me is far more potent. I took like 10 huge hits and I was trippin my socks off for a good 1/2 hour. I was praying to just come down. Seriously. It was like acid for me. But I'm just that way. Things affect me far greater than other people since I started having panic attacks.

However, the only thing that really gives me anxiety, is worrying about how the salvia trip is going to be. So I just tell myself, if I die, I die and that's how I've come to peace with the effects of Sally D.

Kevin

Awesome, bring it. I can't wait. No more work. HOORAY

It says in the movie, you don't have to take action, just that you have to be in receiving mode and the universe will bring it to you.

Intent.
Staying in line with your goal.
Staying in receiving mode.

Did I miss something?

 Well Kevin, you sound just as up beat and positive as always... Have no idea why it wouldn't work for you.

I ordered mine and can't wait for it to get here!   It was less than twenty bucks and I've already seen the product.  At least I didn't hand over $300.00 for a product I will never recieve.. tsk, tsk...talk about making millions..

Well, I am positive, I just don't get it. I just don't frign get the process. Also like I said, where are all the people that actually practiced the LOA and got great results? I'm not trying to sound like a jerk, but where are they? I ordered the DVD as well. I liked the movie. I'm not complaining about the money. I just think I've come to the conclusion that searching for things external to my own belief system is not the way.

Nobody is going to change my life, except me. I've read over and over about LOA. I can't stay on track. I lose my way real quick and I don't know what to do. Perhaps it works for some, but where are they? If I used this process and achieved great things, I'd be going nuts telling others about it.

So here's how I understand it. You have a dream or an idea. If your positive and feel good, your in receiving mode, and in line with your goal/dream. If you stay like this, reality will bend in  your favor to support your dream/goal. Did I miss anything? Oh gratitude. Yep. Well one thing is I don't beat myself up over work anymore. My health has become more important than me kicking my own asss beating myself up over my job. What else is there too this? Did I miss anything?

Kevin

If you want the book version of the secret, just go and buy "ask and it is given" by abraham-hicks. It's the same thing as the movie.

It's funny. You hear about all these people that make small successes in their life, but where are all the millionaires?

It's a fantastic marketing scheme. Put up a website about a "secret" that is thousands of years old that nobody wants you to know about.

Make people drool for it for months and then finally unleash it. $5 is not bad to watch a movie. But the whole process of attraction does not work. If it does, where are all all the people that have manifested great things with it. I've read countless stories from people from the abraham-hicks school of thought that have given up on the process.

Yes, we create our own reality, but it creates only small changes in our lives. If this was a proven process, where are all the testimonials from people that have achieved great things.

Just like Ramtha, just like, Tolle, just like Andrew Cohen, just like Abraham-hicks, where are all the miracles and great things that people have done?

Know what I think? I think all these people are FULL OF POOP. Here's what I think. Screw Ramtha, Screw Tolle, Screw Abraham, Screw the Greys, Screw Hicks, Screw Christianity.

I've decided I don't need any of their BS anymore. I've decided to instill a new belief system in my mind, and I'm no longer looking for others for answers. What I believe, is my answer, and is my belief. I'm glad I've learned this at my age of 35, before wasting any of my money looking for answers from any of these vultures listed above. THEY DON'T HAVE THE ANSWERS.

Neither does Jesus. I have the answer, it's just a matter of breaking down the belief systems that society has warped my brain into believing, and instilling my own belief system, based on my truth and what seems right to me.

Kevin

knucklebrain1970:

What do you want out of life? What is ideal? Being happy - be specific.

Rob

Thanks everyone for the kind comments. What do I want out of life?
1. Move closer to my daughter so that I can feel like she's not growing up without me.

It could be worse, I'm only 1 hour from her.

2. I want to live a long life with my wife.

3. I want time and money to have more hobbies and travel (once I get over fear of flying )

4. I want to be in a band and make music.

5. I want to be financially independent, with no mortgage, no debt, endless money to help friends and family and I don't want to work, not another day in my life.  

I go to a shrink for PTSD. I don't play the victim with this stuff, but I had a nasty nasty childhood. Parents fighting daily, for 18 years. Blood, ambulances, police, knives. So I think I might have PTSD and although I don't empower the past, I think that some of the memories that come up attribute to my grim outlook on life that I had in the past "All there is is pain"

So rather than go to a shrink, where I sit there and talk, as I've done for many years with many different ones. This woman has a more hands on approach where she's using techniques such as hypnotism, some therapy where she has me hold a memory and watch her hand move left to right with my eyes (forget what it's called)

Anyhow she says my traumatic memories are stuck. Her goal is to have them bottled and put on the shelf like the rest of the normal memories everyone has.

Jeesh, sorry to go off on a tangent as I always do. Point? She asked what I like to do. I had to think for a long long time. I initially thought I don't like to do anything. However I did remember that I always went back to music. I take breaks and whatnot throughout the years, but I love playing music. Of all the hobbies I get into and forget about. Music has remained a constant.

So she suggested I start again, and instead of sitting by myself and pigeonholing my dreams of being in a band that I get off my asss and do it.

I love playing guitar. When I play guitar, 5 hours goes by in 2 minutes. I get angry because work takes away from the time I have with my daughter and the things I love. But anyhow, I love to play music. I want to make an old time band. Old stuff, like the Carter Family and early banjo/fiddle music. I could care less if I make any money at it. I want to create that vibe you get when everyone in the band just "gets it"

It's magical when everyone enters into that magical area when everything is just synchronized and perfect. Time stands still and nothing compares. It's tough to describe. Once at a bluegrass festival, there were some guys on bongos, another guy had wooden bones that he was playing. About 10 people had some sort of percussive instrument. When they all finally got the vibe going, that magical moment happened again. It was another realm of space and time. Nothing compares to it.

I like to put smiles on peoples faces. I like to make people laugh. I like to help people. I once got a Chinese ladies keys out of her car (locked inside)
She was freaking out. After I got the keys out, the smile on her face, went from here to Beijing. That moment was magical.

I'm the type of person that feels real pain when I see others in pain, especially animals. I can not drive by a car accident without stopping. I once saw a Suzuki small SUV thing slide off the highway on ice in NH and flip multiple times down a ravine on the left. I couldn't believe it. I was the only one there. He was upside down when I got there screaming that he was going to die. he luckily had his seat belt on, upside down. I released him carefully and got him outside. It was winter. I got him a blanket and he kept rocking back and forth yelling "I'm going to die" I said, OK, stop. Do you want to die. He looked at me funny and said No. I said OK then stop, your not going to die. Think that over and over I told him.

The state police arrived. Took one look at him with the flashlight and didn't even ask if he was OK. They started searching the vehicle for empty beer cans or drugs or whatever. I'm like WTF, aren't you going to call an ambulance? The cop goes, oh, yeah, you think he needs one? WTF?

I said, you cops are inhuman. The guy slides on ice, flips his car over 20 times and your worried about busting him for a DUI. NICE. Real nice. He walked to his car and called in for an ambulance.  After that, I felt real good that I was able to comfort this guy. If I had just driven by, he would have been alone for about 20 minutes.

These are the things in life I find worthwhile. I love acting like a boob in front of my kid and putting a smile on her face. She's very serious and intuitive for her age. She's a thinker and thinks way too much for her age.

Well, I'm done complaining. I'm going to forget even the word. I guess it comes from my childhood and upbringing where nothing less than perfection is any good. "Your going to Harvard" "All my colleagues kids go to Yale" "Why aren't you studying"

I think that's where I get the "nothing is good enough attitude" Not blaming anyone, I'm my own person.

The movie struck a chord with me and I'm glad I watched it. I realize I probably always feel like crap because I'm always telling myself I never get enough sleep. Well as an experiment I tried keeping my motivation 100% positive since the movie and with little sleep I stopped telling myself that I "NEED" 8 hours of sleep. When you are truly motivated by something nothing can get in the way. Sleep, or anything else.

I got about 4 hours the other night and 5 hours last night. I stopped concentrating on the clock and the amount of sleep I need and at work I was fine all day. None of the usual back aches and whatnot. This is something small, but a true revelation for me.

I truly 100% realize that it's not the STUFF in life that makes you happy. I know that, really. I just complain too much instead of appreciating what I have. I don't feel much bad for people in lack. What's the use. If I had endless money, I'd help. But what's the use of driving or walking by and saying "oh, look at that poor family or man" What is that going to do. I stopped feeling bad for folks. If I can help, I will. If someone asks for my help, I never say no. My point is that I know that people create their own life. And if you have a limited thought base, you have a limited life.

I have 1000's of things I want to do in life. I just feel that working 40-50 hours a week leaves me with no time to do the things I want to do. So, I'm going to focus on a huge huge house. I figure if my goal is to have a huge mansion or something, something else will manifest to support that. I just want a moderate living and lots of free time. That's what I want.

You can't put a price tag on free time. I never thought to appreciate where I've got to at this point. I started off making $10/hr fixing pc's to where I'm at now. But, I have put a cap on myself so to speak, thinking that this is the limit. Not so. Time to get my head out of my ***

Thanks for the motivational posts, and I don't disagree with any one of them. When I get advice, I don't shout back in defensive mode. I do listen, it's just applying the knowledge in life that is the difficult part. I like the idea that someone mentioned about a picture of my daughter and wife, or perhaps I'll make a gratitude poster.

Well, what could I do? I fell into the trap every other idiot does. Thinking that money is going to make me happy. Well, there is no price tag on free time. And when you spend your life at work, what good is all the crap you own, or you think you own. Well, that's enough of the complaining. TIME FOR A NEW DAMN DAY DAMMIT.  

Well, I could really give 2 ***ts about money. But, it's what makes the world go round. Without it, your squat. I for one know first hand that money doesn't buy happieness. I have had/have anything anyone could want. New house, two new cars, beautiful wife, Daughter (doesn't live with me but my x girlfriend).

Guitars, banjos, tv's, cable, pc's, dirt bikes, you name it. However, I've got rid of most of the crap. I have 1 guitar, instead of 10 and 1 banjo. I'd really like to rent a ******g dumpster and throw it all out. It's all meaningless crap.

I've learned through experience that all this stuff does not fill the inner void. The reason I hate work is because I'm a slave. We're conditioned into thinking because we have a house, a car and some stuff that we're not slaves. However you don't own a house, neither do I.

Slave - A machine or component controlled by another machine or component.

My definition - If your not the one deciding when you will get out of bed, if you'll get out of bed and what your going to do on any given day. YOUR A SLAVE. I'm a slave. Most of us are slaves to the credit system.

What do I really want? No job, house paid off and TIME to play my music. The only thing I really like to do is play music. If I pick up my guitar, I can make 4 hours go by in 5 minutes. That's what I like to do.

I'd like to get my daughter and her mother and family out of low income housing. I'd like to make a band and go play old style Johnny Cash and Carter tunes to people at old folks homes.

I'd like to spend an evening handing out $100 bills randomly. Believe it or not, I like to put a smile on peoples faces. That's the only thing I really discovered puts a smile on my face. Whooda thought, ha? But I'm bound to a job, and I'm a slave. However after watching the movie (wife ordered it too)    I realize why my attitude is the way it is and my life is the way it is. All I do is bittch and complain.

I have a not card, I read every day I get up. First thing it says on it?
I never complain. I've read it 1000's of times. Why is it so difficult for me though? I don't get it.

So, if you were me and you had these goals how would you go about it?

I don't want money to buy things. I want money so I can have TIME to do the things I love. I hate TV. Can't stand sitting idle. I like the outdoors. I'd have 5,000 hobbies if I had time and money. But, why bother? I'm stuck at work 50 hours a week. For what? A wooden box to sleep in and hold all the crap I thought would make me happy? What is that?

Ok, enough complaining. How do I fix this. I can't seem to stop myself. I get on a roll, like after the movie, but the enthusiasm wears off and I lose faith in the process when things don't happen quickly, like on this SLOOOOWWWWWWWWWW planet.

Yeah , that's my daughter in the pic. She was 6 then, she's 9 now.
here's her and my wife on the left at her 9th birthday party. Most polite and softspoken kid in the world. Highly complicated in the cortex though. Just like dad.

Thanks for all the responses folks. It's nice to know there are caring folk left in the world. I'm really not that bad of a bastid

Kevin

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Yeah I admit it. My lifes battle, bittching and moaning  

I watched the movie with wife. It was very good. I was thinking, Jeesh, this sucks watching a movie on a 17" computer screen 10' from the couch. Then it got to the gratitude section and I had to wonder. Perhaps that's what's missing in my life. I mean I have 3 27"  flat panel TV's in my house and a widescreen and I'm bitching about watching this on a 17"  

I give up too easy. My # 1 gripe on this planet is having to work. I can't stand work. I focus too much on how I hate it. However I don't know what to fixate on as far as my goals. All I know is I want money, lots of it, so I don't have to work. I hate work, I've always hated it, I've had every job you could think of. I make over 100k a year, not bragging at all either, and I'm still not happy? Why? Caus I have 2 weeks of vacation per year.

My daughter (9) is growing up without me caus I don't have a lot of time to visit with her because I'm always ROTTING at work. For what? This is my #1 gripe on this planet. Work. I hated it when I was 5, I hate it when I'm 35.

What do you suggest I do? I focus on mansions, money, I lose focus though and revert back to complaining after a few months when nothing happens. I've been doing this for 2 years. I can't stand this anymore. I hate work so much I don't want to live.

Any help is appreciated. I watched the movie and I still don't really get the part about action. I fail to see anything jump out at me.

Kevin

Alright. ENOUGH. I watched the trailer. What's the secret?

Anybody? I hope someone that pays the $5 will reveal it. Alright, I'll order the DVD.

It better not say I have to go to a frign retreat to find out the secret.

OMG I just looked at the site, it's been updated since I last saw it.

HFS- SECRET OF THE UNIVERSE FINALLY REVEALED. HS HS HS

I can't believe it. It's 2006 and finally the secret of the universe is revealed. This time it's not Buddha, not Jesus, pfffffffff, maybe not even God. Damn with this attitude I've got today I'll be convinced by the end of the night that when I'm dead, I'm just buried in the dirt and that's it.

Seriously though. I'll bet, $10,000 that there is not one shred of SOLID, UNDENYABLE evidence in this film. I'm not dissing it, I'm just here in the physical. EARTH. Nothing extraordinary happens on Earth. It's just taste, smell, touch, hear and feel. That's it. Anything else is not possible. I repeat, not possible.

So someone can turn Solid gold into dust? Did I hear that right? Did Jesus come back to Earth? I'll believe it when I can see it 2" from my own eyes.

I'm almost done looking for answers.

Well, after almost 2 years of practicing this attraction stuff. I can say that it DOES NOT WORK.

All of the people I know and talk to are still working their CRAP job that they hate, just like me. Don't tell me that people don't want to manifest money either, caus it's all we want to manifest on this miserable ******g planet. Plain and simple, it doesn't work. Or, I don't know how to do it and the 100's of people on these forums don't know how to do it.

Well until I see an ark turn gold into powder, I'll consider it BS. Law of attraction? Maybe I suck at it, I've been practicing it for 2 years and nothing so far.

Kevin