Interesting! In the few times Ive started out, I did once see a faint outline of my hands moving up, which was cool to me! The last time I tried it, I got into just focusing on the blackness, rather than trying anything (I can clear my mind instantly, and I was just calm, and open) - little dots of white - stars, or something - appeared, and I just focused on them (im my head, I was kinda imagining that meme of "zoom in! enhance the image!, but just general) As time went on, I saw the color of the ceiling in my room, the popcorn texture barely there - sorta just swirling into the black void - and got to the point where I saw my own 'literal' gate - a diamond shape, made up of these green-yellow neon wires - strange to me, so I didnt approach it further. The second time I did this focus method - the center was a blue color, rather than a black void - with many dots of lighter and darker blues mixed in. Ive also had a time before last time where a spirit, or guide followed me in my real life, even though I hadnt ever yet tried doing the full AP stuff, I just felt a presence (not religious, but it felt powerful - especially since it followed me into my awake life) - where I was struggling to start doing these methods, and I envisioned the memory i have when I feel joy - and this entity communicated though that 'language' too (seen another post, calling it like however you 'communicate' with others in the OBEs, without words) She basically sent these emotions - joy, love, guidance, etc - heard my own brain 'receive' entire sentences, she was telling me to breathe slowly, and calm down, and sorta chuckling at me having a harder time to get the hang of the whole thing.
Pretty much, there were flashes of other visions, that I see now as myself - human form, demon, idk - just the depression I have, some OTHER 'thing' flashed me a negative view of it - just seemed like she was there, but like a full picture - where this entity was visible, and standing above a younger me - like whatever else was there wanted me to see 'her' as negative, talking down to me, idk. (What I saw, in the 'good' and 'bad' visions was the same of her face - no face details, long, slightly curly black/brown hair, kinda tall - and at the end, pink energy, or an aura, emanating from her). I kinda of imagined it being mother mary, or something, but it showed me pink, instead of mother marys' theme color of blue lol.
To go on, after waking up, I saw this pink blotch in random places - at work, right before bed, etc.Any time I was thinking about what 'she' was, Id see psrt of that hue, or a white dot, without even being asleep (thought maybe I opened up my perception to more things, or something, started digging into theology, and religious conatations, idk). NDEs, and many youtube interviews have also gotten me hopeful, and almost faithful that something is there, in the beyond, it has to be. One piece of info about spiritual stuff said these 'entities' can latch on, or want to be noticed, or observed, by those of us opening up, and being meditative and stuff, and just the other week I saw shadow figures, felt like I was being watched, and saw a figure in the corner of my eye - and while some of that seems to be there, the shadows, and pink aura is gone after I spoke into the universe that I notice it. The pink aura seemed to be nice when it was here, I also caught UFO, or energy in the sky on video THREE TIMES, and a picture, of this pink energy outside in some flowers, before I said I noticed it. which I find pretty cool.
Thats what Ive done so far. I do hope to try the focusing, and rope methods tonight, maybe itll work all the way lol
Pretty much, there were flashes of other visions, that I see now as myself - human form, demon, idk - just the depression I have, some OTHER 'thing' flashed me a negative view of it - just seemed like she was there, but like a full picture - where this entity was visible, and standing above a younger me - like whatever else was there wanted me to see 'her' as negative, talking down to me, idk. (What I saw, in the 'good' and 'bad' visions was the same of her face - no face details, long, slightly curly black/brown hair, kinda tall - and at the end, pink energy, or an aura, emanating from her). I kinda of imagined it being mother mary, or something, but it showed me pink, instead of mother marys' theme color of blue lol.
To go on, after waking up, I saw this pink blotch in random places - at work, right before bed, etc.Any time I was thinking about what 'she' was, Id see psrt of that hue, or a white dot, without even being asleep (thought maybe I opened up my perception to more things, or something, started digging into theology, and religious conatations, idk). NDEs, and many youtube interviews have also gotten me hopeful, and almost faithful that something is there, in the beyond, it has to be. One piece of info about spiritual stuff said these 'entities' can latch on, or want to be noticed, or observed, by those of us opening up, and being meditative and stuff, and just the other week I saw shadow figures, felt like I was being watched, and saw a figure in the corner of my eye - and while some of that seems to be there, the shadows, and pink aura is gone after I spoke into the universe that I notice it. The pink aura seemed to be nice when it was here, I also caught UFO, or energy in the sky on video THREE TIMES, and a picture, of this pink energy outside in some flowers, before I said I noticed it. which I find pretty cool.
Thats what Ive done so far. I do hope to try the focusing, and rope methods tonight, maybe itll work all the way lol