whats here around seattle area any good places to visit? spiritual "places of power" or whatever hey are called

or any good spiritual schools/teachers here

i have a feeling that there isnt much due to crappy weather im guessing they dont like the rain:)

after years of not being able to get anywhere yesterday just randomly I almost did

I made a burger and had a drink then drank some mint tea mixed with yerba mate and valerian root

and had a sip of vine before bed.

put on the hemi sync cd that I haven't listened to in about 3 months the ascension cd

and it got set on repeat so I kept repeating part! out of 4 . it kind put me in a loop

and I remember a lot of tension in my head then vibrations and I felt like I was stretching indefinitely again.
then flying etc it lasted for a good while and I got more and more excited then I thought about my wife and it just faded away quickly.
she always interrupts me even though she knows what im doing...

can anyone explain why this type of music is so full of energy and it makes you like a recharged battery.

every time I head a badass track I get chills on my back when the buildup starts and I get that feeling like when I was a kid.

it just brings so much energy (im not talking about radio pop music) I mean real trance music that is played at night clubs by good djs

I feel free if I was to put it in short but for few minutes while the track is playing...

so there are people that physically strong and get their way by means of force.

and then theres people that are attractive/charismatic/etc that create followers and get their way

then theres people that seem to lack either one but they are like lazer beam so focused on their target that anything will burn in their path..
and you feel it when you re around them
even though they might look nerdy and skinny and ugly etc


what is that and how to develop that type of power to focus on your goals like a terminator?

I feel like the people that im around now  affecting me in negative way
I have very bad luck with everything I do

my favorite hobby( cars ) has been pretty much one big fail one after another. just sht breaking one thing after another for really stupid reasons and costing me a lot of money i

and many other things are just generally dirty. in completely out of balance and turning into one of those middle aged grumpy men that were beat down by life and just powerlessly grump about every thing that is wrong in their life.


but these dirty people are like fn spiders the cast webs around you and don't let go that easy.


i mean do i just drop everything and move away or what?

im not gonna go into details too much
I belive that I have a strong effect on whata going on around me and I ve been keeping track of the things happening and my mental state and thoughts etc.
small things happen but the effects of my thinking are very fast (weeks sometimes days)

I keep going back to negative thoughts and ideas and negative expectations and my life falls apart very quickly

I also have a tendency not to listen to my gut feeling that is right on point most of the time and that doesn't help much either( after the fact its always that feeling: I told you so coming from the back of my mind)


I try to stay positive but I need positive people around me and right now I feel like im stuck with bunch of dirty influences on me(including my wife and my employer etc)   I feel stuck. but its the person im married to and have a great kid so its a hard situation to get out of.

I can also turn it around with positive thoughts but without any guidance is damn hard. anyone can give me a hand here
what to do, maybe some inspiring books to read( short books not 500 page babbles) or anything else.


i just finished watching the night watch and it got to me deep got me thinking... or to realize again that im in a loop of self destruction AGAIN and this time much longer than before

have any of you seen it
done it yourself repeatedly?

I asked because I would imagine it would take massive amount of energy mental and physical to do such a thing.
more so than just holding with your hand.

its an illusion that you are a part of theres no denial.

I think better way would be to accept your place in this illusion but also accept that theres something beyond it as well.


I would think its like converting energy in our real world illusion

you convert cold to hot and back you will need to bring energy from outside because of the system losses.

you focus your mind in real world to use the energy that doesn't naturally exist here

physical is what we call world that we see feel and smell around us. I donno why deny its existence.
the pencil is here what connects it to something outside the physical world

I remember a girl in my class secretly( or so she thought) tried to hold the pencil on the tip with her mind powers.


in physics I understand at least in physical world there has to be a force(or energy) to to hold something in unnatural position against force of gravity.

everything falls like drunk people.

and from my noobish understanding 

if we want to control something with out mind

or make physical changes to physical world we have to connect our mind to physical plane

or something like that:)


so in short:

what moves the pencil?
 what applies the force to physical object if one to try to apply his mind to it and attempt to do something ?

this is one of those dreams that stands out.

i had few dreams like that, where they seem real and i remember each one clearly.

i have nightmares that i know are nightmares but this one was not, i wasnt scared, i was surprised.

its the whole setting and the look that it gave me that was very strange.

like u know when someone stops a conversation and looks at you for few seconds with no emotion and continues the conversation.

yesterday i had a very surprising dream.
i was in a room with 2 people as far as i remember one was doing something and otherperson was having a conversation with death( u know the one with the hood on)

and then death paused and looked at me. without saying anything.

i couldnt tell if the look was " i see you " or "stop eavesdropping on my conversation"
i had a feeling it was the second one for some reason.

it wasnt scary just unexpected and i dont know what to make of it

in a perfect world and on paper yes
except we dont live in it.
chaces for average person to be at that level are not that high

and "It's up to you, ENTIRELY, to concentrate and focus"
is an old and overused advice.

theres alot more behind that sentence. a whole lot more. if i didnt understand what you meant that line would mean nothing to me. but i rather not type it all up and im sure you dont want to either.

i did mean D sorry.

and i dont belive in the unlimited power of your mind JUST CAUSE.

how does this alleviate me from responsibility? what responsibility?


vitamins are necessary just like food and water.

you dont get nutrients you die. you dont drink water you die

youre saying is similar to running a car on willpower alone when you run out of gas.
your engine needs oil and fuel to run theres no way around it.
just like our body needs ballanced nutritional system. in order for it to perform its functions.
and brain is a part of our body it also needs nutrients to "control" everything else.

when i lived in NYC i remember i used to space out for hours listening to some drumm&bass and techno mixes on the radio.

it was during spring time. the most memorable times were during nice spring time weather.

now i live in a place that is not very sunny.

if i could i would. and i wouldnt be asking.
my attention span is shorter than youtube commercial...
only time i can focus long enough is when im high.
if i can find a cd that helps me focus without drugs that would be great.
i already have few of hemisync cds but they are not enough. the do help tho but not that much in my case.

i just browsed really quick through a meditation cd section. and as with everything else, theres waaaay to many of them and they all claim magic powers of healing etc.

are there any of them i shouldnt buy? aka. waste of money and time?
i know for sure there are people capitalizing on metitation mania and releasing junk with a nice cover claiming magical things

Children have that ability.
But they also dont follow the rules of society that we live in.
Untill we grownups teach them whats right and whats wrong.
Then they react according to what they learned from us.
Isnt that filter a part of our society?

does that mean without any emotional attachment?



say for example i see a bird poop on my car
what do i really see

btw i checked the ken kan out but will read more later

im just trying to get an idea of what it means

i know that what your eyes see and how your brain proceses it are 2 different things.

What does it really mean
After reading many articles that popped up in google search i still dont understand
They all say it but none explain what it means exactly

lost focus is usually a sign of stress
sign of a mind that operates at its limit

like a computer with RAM filled with open programs and windows

i have that problem also
and speaking from personal experience.

best way is to stay physically in shape
and keep a good diet.
when overloaded your brain needs alot of energy (sugars in whatever form they are used i forgot)
when you have too mnay tasks on your mind for too long it gets tires and needs a reset.(aka time off where you dont have to do anything at all, no plans or things to do)
having all your tasks done in a timely manner, procrastination makes your brain work hard because unfinished task is always in your mind and adds stress

theres no magic herb that will give you godlike focus that will burn through textbooks
i take multivitamins
fish oil
and in times of high stress i take focus factor for about a week and stop but might not work for you

it seems to avoid me always

but i cant stop searching for it.
if i stop then eventually with every bit of free time i find myself coming back to it
i want to experience it but for some reason i cant

one of my wifes relatives that is not anything special to me and i had no interest in her in any way

suddenly i had a dream where we shared a very intimate moment and i woke up feeling like a recharged battery.

i stepped out of the shower and was wearing a shower robe and she hugged me from behind that i didnt expect it and more so didnt expect it to be her. but i woke up like i was shocked by static. and was very surprised but full of energy.

this dream really surprised me.

almost everywhere i turn i hear people experience out of ordinary things
they see ghosts talk to spirits  see other things etc

but in my life theres nothing i can remember that is out of ordinary

i look for it and ask for it but nothing happends.

i tried to practice meditation and OBE and i cant get past certain point


i try to find it and cant but others experience it and are afraid of it why does that happend?

i even remember me and my buddy going to cemetery at night to see if there are ghosts but no luck lol

on a more serious note since this is a healing section can someone help me out
throw some good energy my way

can our ability to think be considered as a separate dimension?
we have acess to information that other animals dont.
when an apple falls on dogs head dog looks up and moves.

when an apple falls on mans head man picks it up and either throws it in anger or starts to fn wonder why did it fall
why did it hurt his dome so much its just an apple
why did it fall on him
what are the chances of it hapening and what circumstances brought him to that tree.
would the apple still have fallen if he was under a different tree?

lol i couldnt pass this up.

  your mom's house