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1  Psychic and Paranormal / Welcome to Psychic and Paranormal! / negs and shyness on: July 22, 2002, 05:55:59
does anyone think there could be a connection between people who are shy to the point that it causes them a lot of hardship with their life, and negs? i do. i mean i don't blame the bogeys in the dark for general life trouble, but here i can really see where they could be involved on occasion.

think of it. shy people are usually irrationally afraid in many ways of just living. what feeds on fear? negs. so what might be helping to keep them down in their shy pattern or even instigating the pattern? negs. may the light expose those pitiful things that would trouble the meek.

2  Psychic and Paranormal / Welcome to Psychic and Paranormal! / horrible situation on: April 21, 2002, 14:21:09
I'd rather have been able to email this directly to robert instead of posting my sad story in front of everyone,  but on the other hand I am entirely aware of how he must be swamped with emails and how he (like anybody would be) finds it difficult to get much done with them when there's that much.

here's hoping he can respond though, because I'm interested from some mentoring here from someone with a lot of real experience in energy, emotions and spiritual matters. I welcome anyone to respond who is experienced in such a regard though. however I am feeling really down and have been through every possible speculation and answer thought up on the fly on this, so if that's what you have to offer I'd prefer a virtual hug rather then revisiting that type of stuff.

Anyway, my problem is I'm wondering if my home is some sort of vortex of bad energy. Vortex I am just using rather to mean collecting place. This place seems to be a place of fear and anger,  and it seems to instill in people a lethargy that makes them stuck there so it can feed off them. My brother is 24 and hasn't moved out. I'm about to turn 21 and desperately want out. My sister is at college but I just found out that while she seemed happily adjusted, she is as devestated inside as I am. We all feel just completely broken, and easily loose hope. None of us get along too well in my family. A major issue is that the house is always a huge mess, people aren't really allowed to visit, and my mother is kind of whacko, she's been supposedly 'cleaning' the house for twenty years now but it's just a giant mess and she gets very defensive about anyone who says anything about it.

Now obviously a lot of our problems could be psychological and social. While our parents never beat us, and they set an example of never abusing substances, they also didn't particularly raise us or nurture us. We just hung around in the house all the time, being creative or whatever, dinner was usually the highlight of our activities. None of us lived any real social life.

so while that sort of undisciplined, unnurturing madness has effects of it's own, I see negs and bad energies tying themselves into it - they would naturally be drawn into it. I have scratches on my back for which there was no physical cause, recently a red mark like a cat's paw has appeared on the back of my neck and won't go away,  and I get lots of new, tiny moles. just by those symptoms you can probably tell that I'm a real mess here. this energy is just chaotic. I find myself alienated in the midst of it from everyone, only able to think about how messed up things are and I'm full of fear that I'm guilty of living such an abnormal life. I'm probably the one most prone naturally to fear in this family so things really hit me hard in this situation.

lately, I'll actually shake my head,  you know try to let some of this energy drop off, I can't stand it. what my heart wants to do is just hit the road right now and walk a thousand miles so I can feel all of this wretched energy dropping off and out of me.

but the other end of the problem here is I feel so weak and all my attempts at making some sort of bridge out of here seem to crumble. If I felt half way empowered I would have run off a long time ago, but fear gets the better of me. and not being social is a huge problem,  that's where you make all your connections, that's where you get all your synchronicities, that's where the doors to life are, and of course I'm terribly lonely for people - but the attitude of this place has always reinforced fear over my natural wants. the messy house thing is the biggie, it's kept us unsocialized and made me feel profoundly guilty about my station in life - like I don't come from anywhere, or like my origins are an evil thing that must be kept from everyone.

I have learned an incredible amount from all this emotional suffering in the lifetime. I'm very broad-minded and sympathetic now, very creative. I write, draw, play music. And at times I've gotten away from this, especially when I can establish myself as the important center of my life and do what I want - well then all my old problems are nothing. I feel just fine. But most of the time I am here and in this rotten, unmerciful depression. all I need is a way out but I feel optionless.

any advice for someone this down low in the spirit? I want to get away from here more then anything but I don't feel strong enough, I'm too afraid I guess, being this wreck of a man, to somehow put myself out there and get back to normal.

3  Astral Projection & Out of Body Experiences / Welcome to Out of Body Experiences! / rats! I'm jealous of you all. on: March 03, 2002, 02:11:12
all you lucky folks projecting. you see, I can do it, I'm a good relaxer, good at willing things, and good at dealing with energy... but... I'm living in a place that's just too hectic and doesn't have very good energy, and I've lived here my whole life... so even though I feel very capable and have had small instances of demonstration, I can't get my hands on the real thing. stinky, eh? oh well, I'm moving out soon, hopefully I can get into a situation that's good for it. you really need certain conditions, most especially a comfortableness in your energy on all levels, that is for ideal projecting anyway. you can get a lot of whacky sorts of trips and half trips otherwise, sure

4  Spiritual Evolution / Welcome to Spiritual Evolution! / Seeing stars? (Sparkly vision) on: July 16, 2002, 14:23:45
they are like little atoms of light smashing against each other. it might be an ocular phenomenom since I can see it very strongly all the time, and when I shift my head, what I'm seeing stays with my head, not with what I was looking at. I believe it's known medically. I think the main cause is staring at a very bright light source, i.e. sky, causes some feedback in the optic nerves. stare at a computer screen for a minute in a dark room and then look at the dark, bright light definitely overwhelms the visual system. are there spiritual relations to it? possibly, well there are spiritual relations to everything, I just don't know exactly where they lie with this one

5  Astral Projection & Out of Body Experiences / Welcome to Out of Body Experiences! / What is all this new age crap? on: July 15, 2002, 18:14:42
ah yikes,

I got into this on another board just the other day, discussing spirituality. one thing I mentioned there is that I don't necessarily see a way or a cause to be able to communicate with someone on an opposite polarity.

I don't mean that is my stance by choice, I mean that might just be the way the universe is. You can't turn an intuitive into a rationalist overnight, or vice versa. And I don't believe you have to anyway.

See, it's funny, your comments about the brain answer being the simplest and most straightforward, are exactly what I said about the soul the other day! And that's true to me. Do you suppose other people to be less sincere then you when they speak of their beliefs?

but we are coming from two very different places, and the best thing to do is accept and respect each other. No one's point of view is a lie to theirself so why must people always try to undermine each other? It's obviously because we want external confirmation and reinforcement of our own beliefs, but so friggin what? all that is is draggin each other into the mud and trying to prove  dominion over another person by force.

Perhaps one of the most interesting things the universe is trying to teach us that nearly none of us grasps, is to stop looking for a single answer. that's all we do, isn't it? like aphex we go through phases of belief, of single-mindedness. we look for a single 'god', no matter if we dress it as atheism or religion, to place our confidence in.

let's think of the qualities a person looking for a single 'god' has: selfishness, self-centeredness, intolerance, narrow views, ridgidness. thinking of that, it strikes me that this belief game isn't so smart, and that maybe we've got to do the remarkable and stop playing before we really can learn anything.

6  Psychic and Paranormal / Welcome to Psychic and Paranormal! / horrible situation on: April 21, 2002, 14:33:17
and one weird thing - the whole house has a pretty negative feel to it, but my parents bed is always serenely peaceful, almost radiantly so. it's almost as if all the life is being sucked there - but that's more of a funny sentiment then anything else to me. Smiley

7  Astral Projection & Out of Body Experiences / Welcome to Out of Body Experiences! / Astral danger on: April 11, 2002, 16:39:17
inspiring stuff Frank. you validate many of the things I believed about life and the astral but haven't had the chance to explore yet. I know I'm going to have quite a storm to weather in the 'training grounds' when I really get going, but understanding that it's worth it for the growth that comes of it helps.

8  Psychic and Paranormal / Welcome to Psychic and Paranormal! / Shizophrenia, psychic defense and "A BeautifulMind on: March 28, 2002, 01:48:25
When Rabbit Howls is another interesting tale along the mind/spirit connection questions. It's about a women who suffered such severe sexual abuse as a child that she split into something like 90 personalities.

As always I find interesting that most of the doctors/therapists in the story are aware of the odd spiritual/energy connections (such as how her excessive energy because of the multiples effected electronics) but could do little more then acknowledge it privately, those sorts of effects.

Personally, evidence, common sense and experience points to me that releases and cures under psychoanalysis work within energy fields, and that the fields we consider psychology, energy, and spirituality are all rather close to the same thing.

9  Astral Projection & Out of Body Experiences / Welcome to Out of Body Experiences! / "Chosen one" syndrome on: March 26, 2002, 00:50:17
yeah, but don't worry about it. Smiley anything people haven't accepted in mass form sounds whacko. just follow the truth wherever it goes

10  Psychic and Paranormal / Welcome to Psychic and Paranormal! / Shizophrenia, psychic defense and "A BeautifulMind on: March 25, 2002, 16:03:35
best information on this would be from the schizophrenics themselves. John Nash seems like he has some insights into his own condition, he ought to elaborate...

11  Psychic and Paranormal / Welcome to Psychic and Paranormal! / 'Geniuses' astral planes and purity on: March 25, 2002, 15:55:29
to get in touch with the spirit, or intellectual ideas, or creativity in a big way, is to become a bit incompetent in being societally adapted. I should know, as I have a hell of a lot of envy at this point for people with street smarts, interpersonal skills and excellent competency in the realm of material things. but we're in touch with what we practice, and the genius spends all his time pondering and practices what others are practicing very little at all.

my opinion is all people are genius, and they can channel it different ways. I suppose some people might block themselves up, but to me it's just a given that we all posess a latent amount of supreme creativity. and yes, it can be expressed in ways we don't always think about first, in fact, I think the majority of people express it just through talking, joking, and expressing through everyday dialogue. from my viewpoint I can appreciate how frickin amazing people are just in that respect and they don't even notice it.

there's also the question of putting the creativity to work or not. I'm still young and exploring all of this, but most lately I think that because when you are not putting it towards something you don't really feel it, then maybe you really should put it towards something. unfortunately, spiritual matters being so confusing, there's also the opposite thought that you shouldn't force it to work (as all us pained genuis's do, we become obsessed with the creative process while others just dismiss it) like buddhist or taoist thought, maybe you should just go with the flow and not painfully try to catch it. I don't know. makes my life fun as that's a very big question I have about how to be -- is it better to let the spirit live through your relaxed cooperation and kind participation with the way things are, or is it better to enter into the harrowing road of the profound and try to accomplish something for the spirit? And even worse, is one of those ways to be wrong? Don't know. Although I've always been pretty far gone in the latter, so I don't think I could give it up. Personally, I wish to heck I had not starting reading spiritual texts and others ideas, as I used to be just feel my heart and intuition but now I'm always worried about all the contradictory ideas.

12  Psychic and Paranormal / Welcome to Psychic and Paranormal! / RB -- Urgent Request for Help with exorcism on: March 25, 2002, 14:11:05
I'll pray.

I have a question though. Isn't any sort of posession, whether a real demonic force or imagined one, strongly reliant on the victims own thought entanglement with the whole thing? I mean I don't imagine it's helped this girl to have seen so many specialists who have apparently failed her, so she can keep going on her way believing she's hopelessly conquered. This may sound stupid, but I think sometimes both the patient and the doctor in spiritual cases get into drama instead of getting down to business. It's easy to do, what more ensnaring drama can we imagine? And just because she's seen lamas, shamans, and all that doesn't mean the ones she saw were qualified to handle this problem, regardless of what title they've been given. I think the ability to bypass all the drama and go to the source is what is needed, but I don't know if you can find too many practitioners like that. Anyway, all my hope in my prayers is for Romero to have this strength now and to 'take out the trash' so to speak. It simply has to be done, that's how I see it, no one should falter an inch in the face of this thing, it has no right whatsoever to interfere with us or anyone.

13  Astral Projection & Out of Body Experiences / Welcome to Out of Body Experiences! / "Chosen one" syndrome on: March 25, 2002, 13:19:31
you have an interesting point. people who are into aliens or channeling certain entities, talking about secret spirit organizations, this undoubtedly sounds whacko to us all. and getting into this to gratify seems an obvious human instinct.

on the other hand, we are all choosen, so we musn't look down on the idea. well, those that go around pontificating cults and religions, that make spirituality into words and stories instead of doing anything - we can look down on them, because what they are doing is ridiculous. we are all choosen, but none of us is an ambassador, figurehead, king, or emporer in being choosen, we're simply supposed to do work. it's what will really make us happy anyway.

14  Psychic and Paranormal / Welcome to Psychic and Paranormal! / psychic ties led me to almost suicide on: March 20, 2002, 13:16:22
Falken, part of the trouble when you feel down low, or like you have 'soul loss', is your own view of it. You or may not have energy problems, but you can't fix them as long as you're feeling victimized or like you're not perfect anymore. Perfect is not an option and not real. Don't think you need to magically hop out of your problems and be on top of the world again. You don't. You need to accept yourself, accept imperfect but real progress. If you're feeling loss and dis-integrated... do things that require structure, practice and knowledge! You will learn again what growth is, it is not conscious examination of the world all the time, a lot of it is unconscious acceptance of the world.

15  Psychic and Paranormal / Welcome to Psychic and Paranormal! / A self-introduction/question concerning Dark Elves on: March 14, 2002, 17:45:38
uh oh, I caught you guys talking about alternative perceptions of good and evil.

here's one:

in the beginning, there was silence. we were all part of the silence, united, asleep, undisturbed, at peace. until one jerk wakes up, we'll call him god. he becomes the creative force, and what the creative force does, is construct, make noise, and bind together... he creates form, the forcing together of the darkness, and he insists on waking everyone one of us up to join him and play the same games he is playing. some of us are notably ticked at this jerk who won't stop trying to disturb our natural state. we might even lash out to defend our peace. others agree, that, what the hell, you woke me up, but you're a fun bloke. I'm going to hang out with you and help spread this fun. the most wise of the 'evil' are above distractions and clear in the purpose of silence and peace. the most wise of the 'good' are above distractions and clear in the purpose of creativity and sharing. which side is right? who can say. they are just different.

that's just some fiction I made up. I'll be the first to tell anyone who should catch such imaginative thought from me that there is a truth but you don't get it by imagining.

16  Psychic and Paranormal / Welcome to Psychic and Paranormal! / evil eye & psychic attack on: March 12, 2002, 17:08:31
murphy, at least a part of the problem is your centering the view in the self, so to speak. your luck does not sound that uncommonly bad at all. in fact it just seems like you are attibuting things we all have to deal with, to being, in your case only - a curse. the length you've gone to validate this as the truth only reinforces your troubles. take it easy! let yourself get out of the self-evaluation and deep thinking mode for awhile. You need some natural balance, and balance right now is for you to no longer be self-concerned and introspective. It is a time for you to not worry about anything serious, to indulge in materialism and earthy existence, this will ground you and help your energies get stable and confident again because they aren't constantly being second-guessed by your mind.

17  Bug Reports and Questions / Forums Bugs Reports and Questions / Major Website Changes: have -YOUR- say!!! on: February 28, 2002, 20:00:19
blue is fine by me. Wink I've been loving the new astral pulse header graphic too.

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