New awareness and my experiences...

[Quark]

Hi everyone!

I've always been a very spiritual person. Not really religious, but I have always felt spirituality was a very big part of my being even when I was younger. I did not actively pursue this part of myself because it did not seem like I had the right focus during my earlier years and I was involved with other things that were at the forefront of growing up. Now I believe is the time for my journey.

I've always felt the sensation of energy within my body. The best way I can describe it is, moving from my limbs up towards the top of the body. Usually I can feel it sort of like entering my feet and hands and rushing up my torso and to the very top of my head. I've always felt this and I'm sure everyone does but I never really paid much attention until recently.

Within the last couple years I've started to notice certain things. Especially but not limited to, after smoking pot and maintaining a healthy diet, I noticed that I can control these sensations and I can also really intensify them. Recently, I sat down in front of some of my plants and meditated. I was able to increase my energy to a startling level. It was such an amazing experience. As I steadied my breath and concentrated on my plants and my energies, the flow was so strong that it felt like it was holding me up. My forehead right between my eye and the very top of my head were tingling with sensations. As I continued this I was staring at my plants and things started to look different. The plants started to sway. Things started to look like they were morphing. The plants looked like they were alive and breathing. When I saw this I was startled because it reminded me of another situation. It reminded me several years ago while I was on a mushroom trip! It was awesome! Then unfortunately my girlfriend came home and I was zapped out of the state I was in.

Another strange experience I've had is lying on the couch with my girlfriend. We were watching a movie and for some reason while lying close with each other my arm ended up along her hamstring area and my hand was cupped into the back of her knee area. After a few minutes I started to notice my arm was feeling strange. I could really feel my hand and arm concentrated with vibrations. I found this very interesting so I focused on it. I tried to increase the sensation in that particular area. After the sensation began increasing I started to loose feeling of my physical arm. I thought it was maybe a lack of blood flow or it was asleep but I found out it wasn't that. After a few minutes this all really started to amaze me so I asked my girlfriend if she feels anything weird along her leg area and the back of her knee where my arm was. Too my surprise she said YES! Then as I described what I was feeling she was startled and said she could feel that too. When she moved her leg away from my arm it would ago away almost instantly. But as soon as we went back in the same position it would happen again. We tried that several times. To tell you the truth it may sound weird but it almost felt like my arm was fusing with her leg.

Id like to hear what you have to say about these experiences? What they may be related to?

I have always had strange sleeping habbits.  Sleep paralysis, sleep walking etc.  Several times I have jumped out of bed feeling a presence in my room.  One time I saw an old woman in red at the end of my bed.  I was so freaked out by this I went to wave my hand at her to touch her.  At that moment she broke apart.  

Well thanks for listening.  Im on a new spiritual direction with my life.  I always knew I would end up at this point.  

Peace, Love and happiness  =]

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I have always had strange sleeping habbits.  Sleep paralysis, sleep walking etc.  Several times I have jumped out of bed feeling a presence in my room.  One time I saw an old woman in red at the end of my bed.  I was so freaked out by this I went to wave my hand at her to touch her.  At that moment she broke apart.

Ah, you get the hallucinations with sleep paralysis. You can also have auditory hallucinations, which can get kind of frightening because you can hear it, but you can't see where it is. The presence (is it evil in your case?) is also common with people who have SP. I've only had twice or three times where I've sensed (just evil/wrong feeling), heard (dog at the end of my bed... and it sounded big and like one that would bite me), seen a supposedly evil presence, once I was so amazed that I was seeing something totally impossible. I wasn't scared, just amazed at what I was seeing.

[Quark]

Yes, sleep paralysis and hallucinations are common.  Although never auditory for myself.  That would indeed be freaky!  I have also noticed that I tend to get these things happening to me when I sleep on my back.  Another thing that may sound weird but I have noticed that if I have the curtains open and the moon is directly shining on me I tend to get  these sleep disturbances as well.   WEIRD!  =\

So many times I have felt presences in my room.  Too many too count.  Often,  I will jump right out of bed and look around the house or look outside the windows trying to find whatever has eluded me.  

I had a real intense bout of sleep paralysis last week.  It was so weird.  It felt as if I was no longer my body.  I was just my thoughts.  I tried to scream so I could wake my girlfriend up so she could wake me up.  All that came out was gasping.  It is SO weird not feeling anything!  

Another thing that happens to me sometimes during SP is my vision turns into a sort of kaleidoscope.

I'm trying to get rid of my fear of these sleep habits.  That is my main objective right now.

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I've never had kaleidoscope vision, and I don't think that I've ever had my vision distorted while in SP. Yeah, yelling or shouting doesn't really work well. It's stopped by the paralysis thing and makes it so you don't talk in your sleep. First time I had it, I tried to yell or shout to get help after I realized that I couldn't move. Tried it in other episodes when I wanted someone to poke me with their finger to snap me out of it, but it didn't work either.

Just remembered dreaming a few times and trying to see if I could bite my tongue and feel pain in the dream. I probably tried it to switch to a different dream (the closing my eyes way to do it was my usual one when I was young and prone to nightmares). All I got was a very small and light sensation on my tongue, which was probably from trying to actually bite down with SP in while I was asleep.

The SP with the moon... well, I'm not completely sure at this point, still guessing at some stuff, but I'll explain this simply. Everybody has sleep paralysis while they are sleeping, what we get is awareness during sleep paralysis (which we just called sleep paralysis because that's just another name people use for it). I've been wondering WHY we wake up without our brains noticing (and because of that, it doesn't know to flick the paralysis switch off). It's possible that the light of the moon will cue you to wake up, but the part of the brain that does the switching doesn't realize it.

It's odd, though, because your sight from your eyes isn't being shown to you, what you would be seeing is a dream while the light from the moon is in your eyes. I'm not sure how often people wake up in the middle of the night for no apparent reason, to find themselves in SP, like what happens to me (sounds like you do that too). I'm not even sure that I'm awake before I realize that I'm in SP, sometimes I know that I am paralysised before I open my eyes.

Another thing I was just thinking about. It could be that if your eyes get some sort of stimulous throught the lids, it will wake your conscienceness up, but maybe your mind isn't supposed to pick up sight as a reason to flick the switch. A sound or touch will break you out of it (and awake as well), but I'm not sure why your sight through your eyes would return while you are in a dream... hmm... it would still work if you were in a pitch-black room. The signals from the optic nerve would still be reaching the brain, but wouldn't be sending back much of anything.... wish I knew more about how the brain worked, because the information would work wonders in trying to puzzle this stuff out with nothing but ideas, general knowledge, and the timeline of what happens to go by.

That's about it for now. Didn't mean to go ranting after I answered some of the stuff, but it might be interesting to read.