update on chaos mage

[Chaos Mage]

Hello members of the Astral Pulse.
I haven't been allowed online, which is quite bogus, yet, it was for the betterment of myself.  In my time offline, I have put my writing into more functional uses for my own personal advancement, and have found some peace to do things that I like.
I have had a situation with the people where I live, a vulgar explosion on FB, and after that, being screwed around with money.  Other than that, I have tried to work part time, yet the mental health medicine prevents me from working to my maximum.  Recently, I have discovered that I can activate my chakra by focusing them with a motivation of speed, and they did say to me once, "Speed is next to Divinity".  So I plan on having more fulfilling multiversal experiences as I build my speed and abandon the Planet Earth.

Other than that, I hope that the AP is still doing well, and that when I do get back online, we will be able to work in unison with our combined knowledge resources, and perhaps see the rise of some form of 'order' or group to form.  In my own space, I am setting the preparations (ten years in the making!) for a new group that has emphasis with Phantasy.  I am sorry to say, that phantasy could be a form of necromancy and sorcery combined.  I feel ashamed, yet, my research and materials are vital to my group as we become a sort of LAARPing group. 

If I had more time, I would check the boards, and put up some posts.  This is a strange computer to me, and I feel nervous doing this.  My last experiences online were those of violence and frustration, with numerous people attacking me in what I feel was unfair and dishonest circumstances.  I will not be ashamed of the Great Spirit and it's Celestial. 

People know that I have a bunch of stories about my past.  Over the years, I have learned more of my own memories, and so, the stories are always evolving.  When you are missing half of the story to begin with, it is hard to reclaim or regain the memories.  I apologize for any misleading information.

[Pauli2]

I'm happy that your medication finally seems to help.

[Stillwater]

Hi Chaos Mage,

Glad to see you are feeling better!

[desert-rat]

You need to do some self hypnosis /medatation to see what repressed stuff is there . I get the feeling that you have stuff there causing you problems , stuff from this life or a past one .  desert rat 

[AJDIN]

Hi you!!!!!!!!!

[Anonymouse]

Missed reading some of your writing my friend.

I'll see you around I'm hoping

[Chaos Mage]

well i'm thinking about visualizing some basic colors, and coding it to my body in alignment of the chakra system
i figure that if you can visualize, or imagine, then you should use it, or lose it, as they say, it's like memory, keep trying to remember your life, cuz if you don't, you can lose your memories
i've been writing different things, though in line with my interests, one thing i wrote was a battle for the Reaza domain, and how Lacey had kicked everyone out... wow man, it was horrible, the Temple Of Power was filled with Wielders, a total of thirteen wielders, all of them directly controlled by Lacey.  Well, in a theoretical sense, we took Tia to Reaza, and she busted those wielders with a singular rift of flux.  So it stuck, and I just kept going, now, it's drawn back to Chrono Trigger, so I should play through the game again, and do it with the visualization open, you all can feed on stuff like video games, even art, you can take a single image and animate it in your mind until you've worked it into some type of dimensional structure... other than that, I hope that you guys are ok.

and no, the meds aren't helping, they are part of the problem, at least relations are ok, better than before, or than they have been for a few years... i'm gonna play a trick on my brother, and tell him that we should get boob jobs, lol, i guess that's creating a problem again, but it could be fun

[AJDIN]

Boob jobs, hahah! you crack me up

[desert-rat]

Hear are the chakra colors http://www.aznewage.com/chakras.htm    the link is from this site http://www.aznewage.com/     desert rat