Hello!
Well, I went to bed last night in a sorely depressed mood. Wasn't meditating or anything, wasn't absorbing any energy or trying to do anything, just laid there burned out from the chat lines.
So I fell asleep, and I can see that there is some kind of alternate reality stuff happening. A man was there, he looks like an older form of myself, but has more orangey skin, and white silver hair. Looks like an older form of myself though! So there was that, but I can't tell if this happened before or after the dream I'm gonna tell ya about. I think it happened both before and after, it's like in the Matrix, the 'load zone' where you can customize your experience. Well there was this old guy, and the Man In Black. Apparently this Man In Black is some heavy occult dude, really an old guy but only looks like he's in his mid twenties. So they were talking to me, and I can clearly see a portal to firstly, in the first sequence, the dream that I wound up having, and after that dream and a period of unconsciousness, it lead me back to this state.
So I started having a dream. While I was in the dream, it was all making sense, but being a schizo, I even hear this thing in my dreams, and it's like it is trying to control every aspect of my life. Like some kind of obsessive mentally ill retarded person who has no control so it wants all control, and wants me to be a voice activated puppet. But while i was having the dream, it was all very vivid.
So in the dream, and this is where there is lots of symbology that relates to the day that I'm living now, in the dream, it started out that I was in the Mushroom Kingdom, from Super Mario Bros. And I was talking to that silver haired guy, and he and I were walking along the path. A couple goombas attacked us, so I transformed into a wizard and turned them into grey stones. The Princess came up to us, congratulated me, and offered me a role in a tv show operated by her orbital camera. She said that it would be like a video game but it was 'actually a magickal tv show'.
In that, there is some confusion, because the dream was just starting. After al that had happened, I phased out of that dream location, and was in among these blue 'water spheres' and red 'fire ribbons'. But the perception was double vision, I was still in the Mushroom Kingdom, but also seen these strange objects. So after that...
I was "Merlin The Wizard" and the dream was like I was controlling a more realistic graphicked game of Super Mario Bros. I started out at this small fort, and was walking along, using my wand to cast fireballs on these goombas and koopas. But there was some other kind of perceptual activity, like I was torn between two different types of reality. (This relates directly to my faith complex, BST, betweeen full Buddhism or full Christian, so I think) I made it through the first level of that game, and noticed that I was being drawn more and more into the dream state.
I think I shifted position in bed at that point, but did not become body conscious. So there I was, and more things happened but I can't remember them. I do remember remembering them during the dream itself, it was so interesting. I have to stop talking about that part, it was a whole other level, like walking on a giant living cake of some kind, and fighting some kind of boss that was a golem and looked like a cartoon devil.
At that point, the dream became extremely realistic, and I have to cut into it at a part where I had just made it through level three or four, after freeing the orange and apple people. Basically they were oranges, lemons, apples, and possibly some tomatoes, but they were imprisoned in some kind of prison tree. So I was casting 'levitate' on the oranges and they flew away into space. Again, the double perception was there, like the Man In Black was constantly guarding me or making these events seem more plausible. So anyway, at that point, after beating the prison tree, or maybe it was poison tree? ... I swung around and got a good look at myself. I looked like a younger version of the old guy with the silver hair.
I had a crown of gold with red ruby things in it, and wore a large cloak that was both white and blue, yet also black and purple. I had a star pendant, some rings and my weapon, the wand.
So there was another level lined up for the tv show. It was a hallway built onto the edge of a field, on the tree line around the field. Multiple things happened here, I both remembered what had just happened, and also relived the experience of what was just going to happen while it was happening, and also returned to that moment after another level that was very difficult, because the magicks of the wand there were rendered useless.
So I started off this level, and Princess Peach was standing there, but I couldn't actually see her but she was there anyway. She said, "You're doing good, you're going to make a lot of money from this. Thanks for saving the oranges, we need them to keep our banannas strong." and I said to her, "I'm too tired for all this. Why does this camera have to follow me around? Can't I just live my life!" And she said something like, "When the quest is complete, I promose you that you can live your life. I'm trying to teach you what we are all about. Go for it, jump on the red and blue dials alternately to open the pathway to the High Tower. You'll have to turn a corner, when you do, watch out! Your magick is getting low, and you are going to have to replenish it with sunlight. Or oranges."
So the sun was shining, it looked like it was about noon or close to noon time, midday was just about there. I walked and there was dual perception of the video game/ side scroller type of activity, and also the more real experience. I met a girl, she was growing old very quickly but only aged up to about twenty two. She said, "This is my house, thank you for freeing the oranges. I love oranges. Wait, what are you doing? Waaait!!" But it was too late, I started to fly!
So I flew up, but I wasn't looking at the sky, I was looking at this strange structure. And then I noticed, my magick was down to it's last power bar. And I flew up, the feeling was incredible, and I arced around this hallway/building thing, but I couldn't land! So I made another loop, and then eventually just 'popped' back into the building. So that's the point where I was living about three dreams at once, they were all out of time, displaced from each other. The girl was about twenty two, and she and her mother were there, her mother was fifty three, and was someone that I've seen in my dreams before.
I looked at my stomach, and was now half naked, but was still Merlin The Wizard and the camera was telling me, "Keep going or we'll shoot you with lasers." And I turned to it and said, "I can't go on, I'm almost out of magick." And the young woman was saying, "Well go into the sunlight and recover your MP." So I tried to go out of the building, but the shadow of the building followed me outside, and I did the exact same sequence that I just did when I was flying. So the level restarted.
There were these orange and bananna people there, but I refused to use them. I was very hostile at this point for being watched by the orbital camera, and got back to the part where I was looking at my stomach and guaging my magic energy. The girl said, "The high tower is just ahead, don't worry, I've already taken care of the switches." And the level automatically restarted again and I was back in the sunlight, but the girl and her mom and a couple of these guys who belonged to the bear clan were handing me all these papers with arcane symbols on them, calling these the 'holy scriptures' but they were more like spells. I had the feeling that these people were really trying to help me recover my MP.
Then I got to the high tower, which was a city...
Well, I could go on with this, but it strikes me as rather pointless. Only I understand the symbology of the dream, to explain the symbology of this single dream would require a whole book! Anyway, I got to high tower through the city, cast magick on cars and turned them into purple tarts and fed the starving people of the city. The high tower was where my magic was rendered useless, and it turned out that a man who was the producer's brother's son had raped a child and was making crystal meth in a special magickal box. I tried to deal with him, and I couldn't, so they ended the tv show and I found my glasses, lots of stuff happened at the tower.
The orbital camera hooked itself onto the wall, after the show, I went to the bar, found lots of golden artifacts, and then relived that entire sequence but had already experienced it. I had a few drinks at the bar, met a couple chicks, we talked for a while, then I went outside, and I was being drawn back to this reality at that point. I seen my brothers riding Harley's and they had these other biker guys with them, one of them was talking pure and absolute rational logic but the way he was saying it sounded like it was a bunch of psychotic garbage. I talked to him, he gave me a small cigar, I looked at the huge television up in the sky, it had commericals on. I met a girl at an outdoor public library, and from there it starts accelerating until I return to reality waking up and goiing back to bed in an unconscious state.
I remember the last thing I seen was being part of a tv show that was remodeling a house, but they had trouble with the sewer system and they put tape on it to fix it. That girl that was aging was also there, but she was much older, like about forty or fifty. It was her house that they were remodeling. Eventually I got stuck deep underground with a dragon made of pure living gold, and then flashes of bright color and so forth until I finally woke up.
Like I said before Chaos, you are a great story teller. You need to start writing books and capitalize on all your Phantasy.
It has been for many years my objective to write books, but with the mind control inserting thoughts and trying to control my activity, it isn't worth it to me to even try.
Most living humans are not aware of the amount of writing that I've done in the passed ten years, a lot of it online in chat rooms. A lot of it in my own computer space, some of it on paper. When I was very disturbed and highly psychotic, I wrote many excellent short stories, fragments of a book series that I had hoped to call "Shadows Of Reality" after the nature of imagination and belief and it's mysterious power to effect consciousness.
The SoR was intended to be something that people could join up and write their own books for, like Magic: The Gathering series. Same kind of thing, after all, I have a book of Magic The Gathering, called Planeswalker by Linn Abbey, I think that's her name. The book was a heartmelter for me to read, because it confirmed so many things that I believed in. That book and it's ideas, due to my attachment to it and belief in it, continues to effect me to this day.
Obviously, I have some conscious control of my own, but I am partially controlled by 1.Jehovah God, and 2. The Anti Christ. That's my belief anyway, otherwise, how would I survive all this crazy stuff that's happened to me? Unless, by virtue of a living soul with spiritual capacity, my early childhood spells and invocations were successful.
The mind control is one thing, but I really put my heart to it, I could beat it, or him, or them. What would happen? I'd prolly gain that astral realm that I've been talking about, just as I had already gained it and sealed it up with a powerful sigilic crest. All events in sequence, all things in perfection, the undeniable virtue of living Creation, be it by Christ's Faith or God's Hope or the Living Love of Real Soul, we are alive to experience our life and Planet Earth is not the only existence. There is infinite reality manifesting itself at every objective of life, though reality is constrained by our souls as we live in the world, or else it would be a real 'Holy Chaos'.