Absorbing All Reality and leaving a Gaping Abyss in it's wake

[Chaos Mage]

Hello.
I am seriously so tired of my life, having to put up with all the parasitism and lack of any morale or emotional support whatsoever.  All this crap on the internet defies what I have known in my past experiences, and I am getting ready to leave a gaping rip in the fabric of spacetime.

One thing is certain, there is no mental illness that bothers me.  It is purely a combination of psychotronic/astral attacks which prevent me from living my life in ANY way.  The best that I can do is sit on the internet and quietly smoke myself to death.  So, I have made the determination...

Since energy can be absorbed, I am going to absorb all of it.  It will start like it did three or four years ago, with me sitting in my chair, absorbing 'all that is mine'.  That time, I opened the abyss directly in front of my face and almost fell in!  That was pretty scarey.  This time, I will do it directly inside of all my chakra at once.  This reality, and all that I have put into it, are about to be returned to their proper master.

Do you have any input, hurry up, I've only got ten hours before I get another injection.  And after this injection, I will not stop, there is no more confusion.  Been through it, tough luck!  If I want to worship God, then I will do it in the fashion as taking energy from God.  Not this screwball idea that we are supposed to feed God our energy.  We can feed God our energy, and there is an appropriate time for yielding our All to It.  Personally, I feel like I've been ripped off of everything.  These chat rooms are quietly killing me, and the bulk majority of it is useless bramble that must be cleared away to make room for what comes next.

Do you have any objections to me absorbing the entire Earth Plane?  I will certainly set about this, as said, beginning with, 'all that is rightfully mine'.  I will absorb the physical illusion, and leave you all bare to the spiritual reality.  If you have taken energy from me and used it in your perverse servitors and complex constructs in some other vantage, perhaps you had best consider them as good as dead.  I will not relent nor yield for anyone.

In my experience with absorbing energy, it always produces the best effect for a better dream state experience.  The time has come, that I, personally, as a god, will absorb the entire physical reality and all kinetic forces and energies thereof, essentially, doing what I did beneath the Lions Gate Bridge in Vancouver only this time, doing it directly inside of all my chakra at once.  I have been open for too long, and the perversity of my enemies has stirred my heart to a greater, more damaging attitude than merely cursing them down and calling evil on their names.  The time draws nigh, that I will absorb all of this, for I am a man that was not born a man, I was born as a satyr, and I can stare directly into the Sun.  I don't know if that's good or bad, but certainly, there will be no relenting on my part.

After absorbing 'all that is rightfully mine', I will then proceed to absorb, 'all the future and distant past of the Earth Plane'.  This should greatly please my satyr superiors, as, it is the proving of GodShip that this must occur.  Do not worry for your souls, if you are/have a soul, then you will be returned to your true form.  The physical illusion, for me, in my reality, is at it's end.  The absorbtion begins after one more cigarette, a quick tinkle, and another drink, and then, we shall meet our end equally, as children of the nether and abyssal planes.

If you object to my doing this, then you will kindly reference the facts of reality in which I have been objecting too and denying, even fighting against, the medical agenda... and that none, not even a single human soul, has ever granted support or a word against the dumbing down and nullification of my being.  So I don't really care if you object, your little rape camp is about to be put to it's brutal, diminishing end.  This is it, those who would like to participate in the future, you must try something else.

[CFTraveler]

No objection, only one question:

Not this screwball idea that we are supposed to feed God our energy.

Says who?   Care to expound?   I have to say, I never heard of this before.

[Killa Rican]

Not sure what this is about..

[BeHappy]

What and who gave you the right to be the all knowing big whoop you wen't through things others had it worse but do they wish the earth to be gone? no and i'm not saying this is at all possible but if it were that would cause chaos to those who have no idea about the planes so just get a chill pill i'm not ready to leave earth o-o

[Szaxx]

Hi,
@ Behappy,
Sometimes you have to read between the lines. This is one of those times. If a big hole was to appear because of someones intent then ok. If you create an anti-hole that is filled with all things good this hole would then take all the bad. We now have 2 realities one being bad the other good. As this hole took everything the anti-hole filled the void leaving it filled with good.
To take someones troubles away you usually do a bit of research before saying anything. This will prevent the hole being made in the first place.
Every reaction has an equal and opposite reaction, this maintains equilibrium. To keep things this way its usually a good thing to say something nice. A problem shared is halved. Thinking of others is better than thinking of yourself.
With this in mind, which hole would you rather be in? The one that remains or the one sent to the void.
I know where Im going.
Thwnks.

[BeHappy]

Ah oK I get it xD well then I have no worries thanks for the info

[Szaxx]

Hi,
@ Chaos,
You are driving a hard bargain here, even cronos with his might wouldn't sink this place. He'd place the rage in a magnetic bubble and send it to the end of time and then demand payment from you. Maybe torture you with facebook or something similar. Or try to take the Pleiadean ways and push you to the limit inside phaentia. Hes a bad dude to cross, but you know this. Sit down with a smoke and a coffee, maybe your right on the chat room brigade though, Ill give you that one. Or maybe these places are here to collectively gather the whining masses for some kind of retribution. Makes you think, you could be right, if thats the case whats going to happen to them all when there taken and where are they all going to go. This hole idea of yours is a really good trap. Total annihilation of chat rooms. Is this the real reason you got the job. Your handle is well deserved.
I like it....

[Chaos Mage]

Well I tried and tried, to no avail.  I had better success simply absorbing my own energy!  I even got some kind of bad reaction when I sucked too much reality into my third eye.  So it's prolly not the way to go.  I'll keep trying of course, but really, after that third eye overload, I don't think that the chakra system is in any way tolerant of too much energy.

I was almost crying when I went to sleep, or at least, if I weren't being overdoped on bad drugs I would have been crying.  I went to sleep, and had a very strange experience.  It was like I was in the etheric for a few seconds, then, I felt my leg and came back to my physical state.  But in those few seconds, I found some real rest, an ease of consciousness which I would like to have again. 

You know it's serious when some guy, claims to be a satyr full blood when born, chaos mage, resurrected devotionary of Jesus Christ, decides to try and solve the problem on his own.  Believe me, I got reasons for saying all that.  I got a kid sold into the underworld, and a couple others, at least one, that I can't save no matter what I do.  I can't even be a dad to my kids, I can't even live my life!  This psychic inhibitor and government conspiracy and my effect on the planet is too much...  sometimes, we have to try and shift our reality to something more positive, because the pain of the current situation is too much to bare.

Earlier today, I had my first long duration, very pleasant meditation experience in years.  Seems like I always say that!  But this is for real, it was an actual meditation.  No big transcendence of all the worlds, no shadow plane immersions or demons coming to visit me, nothing at all like that.  I felt the warmth of the sunlight, the cool of the breeze and gusts of wind, I tried to breathe.... seems that I don't breathe as often as I smoke.  Almost like I have to consciously put effort into breathing.  I sat there for at least twenty minutes, then my brother was out there, scratching in the yard with his rake.  I heard the birds chirping, and I noticed that my mind is constantly trying to reinforce reality.  It's like what I hear, due to the Menace and the mind control, what I hear draws my mind directly into it, and causes some kind of reaction.  Could be part of my social problems.

So after that, I just kept trying to breathe, then went and seen my friend.  He has cancer, he is old, and it won't be long and we'll see if he's going to make it through.  So I've got that to worry about, and I've been praying and trying to heal him from a distance, but I don't think he's the type to believe in such things.  He can be a very stern man, and I appreciate his friendship, and if he dies, I'll be very sad.  I'm already sad about it.  I love the man, not for the bad, but for the good that he brings into my life.  I love being with him and listening to his soft, quiet voice, smoking cigs and drinking coffee, watching a bit of comedy on tv.  I wasn't around here when my grandmas passed on, I almost feel like running away again.

After I got home from visiting his house, I think I played some games, or maybe I did that before, damn, got my shot today, throat is tight, butt is tight, brain feels like someone is putting a bloody needle into it.  But that's what a psychic inhibitor does, it limits and diminishes consciousness, which isn't fair.  Why am I singled out... because I started a war?  Because of my satyr lineage?  Because I really could heal people, or they want my info and they want to put it under some anti christ's name?  A million plus words later, yeah, about there, but Yahweh ain't gave up on me, I notice it. 

So I went for a walk.  My one cat followed me across the highway, and we walked to the place where the coyotes like to lay.  The cat was talking to the spirit of that little woods, cuz there is some kind of old female entity that lingers around there, a cool chick, but I could swear I heard 'a cop' this time.  Well I don't know.  But I sat there, and tried to breathe, when I breathe, it hurts my chest, my heart feels like it could explode.  And I heard the spirit of the woods talking, the cat was talking to them, asking for help, telling them things, and I just enjoyed the sunlight.  So I started to try and worship, and suddenly, worship made more sense than absorbtion or concentration of energy.

It seems like if you are worshipping, you have more flux capacity, you can also spawn new quanta when you exert your worship outwards.  At the same time, I seen that there is little difference between worship and banishing, perhaps only the intent, as you like to say.  When I said 'feeding God energy"  I meant it in the sense of how some covens operate on their high priestesses.  They have the group circle her, which can be dangerous for a chaos mage wilder mix, but they feed her energy, and open her up to the cosmic essence.  So I've heard, I don't really know for sure.  I've also heard that it takes twelve in a circle to seal magick, and close a person down entirely.

So tonight, in fact, in a few minutes, I'll be putting some clothes on and going outside to test the air.  I wanted to fight some more spectrals, but I don't fit a character since I shaved my head.  I think the only character that would work is Lejia, which fits because her Celestial Sword was broken by XeroSain in Mageddon, and it's sentience lives on to protect her, so it became a part of her aura.  I miss my younger days, at one time, the day that I conjured and made into flesh "Tia", was the same day that I levitated.  It's almost like in the first Harry Potter movie, where the normals are violently opposed to anything magickal.

Well anyway, I'm over my snit.  The only reason I Wanted to absorb all reality was to spare the world of what is coming.  Sometimes I'm confused, I don't know if I am god or not, or what I really should be doing.  So, from here, banish and worship.  I feel free, in that, being a chaos mage, because, it lets me use any technique.  But with these major techniques, you have to perfect them!  You got to keep working with your Prayer, Heart Prayer, Prayer Of Silence, Meditation, Worship, Banishing, Invocations, Evocations.  Thanks to Crowley, I was born with a full skill set, but those skills have since been traded for sitting online or at a computer and typing out my essence into the english langauge.  I got to do something, can't sleep anymore, I think I'm getting sleep sickness.

[Ihopeso]

I need to check your lower trance for inhibitors... HA I gotch your time phone.  You know what maybe you might be better off if you'd just turn off your light. You know that way some one like me can come along and show you something you've never seen before. That's what you lack inst it? Something NEW Like earlier today I saw this Blue ribbon and it was said to be the most beautiful off all. So I went to get a closer look, yes why it is beautiful, I pondered to myself, but is it the most beautiful of all? Hmmm I looked and looked and looked Hmmmm So beautiful but is it the most beautiful of all? I then reached out and touched this Beautiful Blue Ribbon  and when I did that something happened. I quickly pulled my hand away from the Blue ribbon... SOMETHING WAS DIFFERENT! "THE RIBBON"  I SAID, I no longer Find it beautiful.