need some unusual help

[sublunary]

Humans are not a normal species of animal.

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[cristaphin]

Looks like normal nowadays teenage angst to me. I remember writing poetry and being ticked off, and feeling lonely too. Nothing new in the universe.

Not enough mental disipline to be any threat, unless of she does something stupid for attention and burns down someones house, then she's not powerful, just needs mental health services.

If you felt attacked and felt it was her, it's possible it's from the etheric larvae you've made of her and your own obviously growing obsession. You might want to go read about psychic defense if your that concerned.

Sorry this sounds so harsh, dude.  But from my 40 year old, female, been there there, done that; My intution just sees a scared kid growing up in a hard world. Someone reaching out for help, for someone to be saved by, without relising that noone saves you, you save yourself.  One needs to take responsibility for there own energy. (That includes you dear. You are responsible for your own energy. Your the one choosing to share it back and forth with this girl.)

Try listening to happy music awhile??
Something less intense??  
don't know what else to suggest.  Looks like you are your own biggest threat.  Just like she's hers.

Good luck.

(Addendum thought:  The kids nowadays are some of the strongest, brightest, and best the world has ever produced.  They are learning faster, have more information then ever.  They are dealing with more garbage and other peoples head-trips like never before.
I know that getting to know yourself, and feeling like you can take care of yourself, while still having to be dependent on the local bill payer is tough. It always causes alot of angst.
I just wish.... I dunno, I wish the youth today just knew how bright and beautiful they really are.  I wish I could get through to them that it's all okay.  It may look bad politically, socially, enviornmentally, economically, and that IS alot to worry about....  
I'm sorry. I'm sorry for this screwed up world that they've been handed, but the ironic thing is that if one looks at it from a broader perspective, it's a change time.  It's not screwed up, it's changing, and change is always a bit chaotic.
I know it's hard to believe, but it's really fine. Everything is going to turn out okay.  Especially if all that 'angst' energy is taken and focused into action. Get involved. Find something that bugs you, find a local volunteer thing for it and DO something. (I help in homeless shelters and abused pets) Sitting in front of your computer for hours on end complaining isn't going to speed up the process.  
And will you or nil you, the world must change because it cannot sustain what is happening.
Heaven help these wonderful, kids.  If they were to unite and get involved....  ahhh, ticked off kids, getting a grip and changing the world for the better.  
Makes me smile.
*end of addendum rant*)

[darkheaven]

cristaphin: thank you

yes i share it, in a way, i do not mind, obsession she is not 4 me, i am thinking about her maybe 2 much but i'm not obsessed


"it's possible it's from the etheric larvae you've made of her and your own"

can u explain this cause i don't understand

"Looks like you are your own biggest threat." - i allways was and allways i will...and i have done alot stupide things...this is the reasons why i refused to atack her, the reason that i share my energy, the reason that deep inside me i let her in...i seek 2 but my days as "me agains the world" are finished for some time now, the idea is that i know how she feels in some way now, i accepted what is happening 2 me (in general terms) dump the fear, sitting down and enjoying the show (not doing anything  )...


i was in her same position not long before, maybe this is my scream for help ...he...


about the music...i like what i'm lisetening, about the intense part i don't get it...


and once again thank you, thank you all

[cristaphin]

Then I acknowledge the error of my pop psychology and commend you to listening and trying to help

Larvae-
Everything (matter/energy/everything under creation) is made up of song/vibration/thought web (who you talk to calls it different things. For the sake of description I'm going to use the web analogy here).
Since everything, including yourself, is composed of individual strands of this web, everything is encompassed  in it. We are all the same web, just different aspects of it.
The ether is like the spirit realm, and the web composition is just a little variant in chemistry. Like in a real spider web, some strands are tougher, some are sticky, some more elastic, and so forth.

You, having consciousness, direction, and having multi layers of web in you (Body, Soul, Spirit) are capable of affecting the web around you.  If you think on a thing long enough and give it your energy (more web) in the etheric / astral realm it begins to form. For example, you ever seem to notice that life seems to kick you when your down? That's because you draw like energy to you.  Positive breeds positive, negative breeds negative.
You make up this girl (Yes, I know she really exists, stay with me here), you 'breath life into her', you give this entity powers and sinister attributes, and that's what you make in the ether.  Given enough energy, the "larvae" will begin to "function" on it's own.
If you think about this image you have of this girl (You don't really personally know her or her motivations do you?  It's things you've surmised??) think she's powerful and attacking you. The lavaes feeds from that energy and gathers more web for it's incorporeal form.

I doubt very highly that the girl could attack you.  To affect the web to that degree takes a tremendous amount of energy, and much discipline.  Most, and I mean most people don't have the kind of focus and understanding to break out of their own web section and affect another to that degree.  That's one of the restrictions of this plane; It has to be because we all have wildly swinging emotions (Oh, drop dead) and while we're learning to control/discipline our thoughts and ourselves these safeguards are crucial.

Not that you can't affect things, we are all made up of the same web after all and you tug on one section, it's felt all over (why it's so important to give out love and positiveness).

But you definitely can affect yourself and your immediate web area.  
Larvae aren't only negative little bloodsuckers, by the way. Take for example...oh.. childrens imaginary friends. They make up a friend specific, that larvae fills the need.  Or, along the same lines, people who want to connect to higher realms. They gather positive energy, imbue it with a "transmitter frequency", the 'higher friend' reads the akashic records (book of life as it were) and since this particular larvae is part here and part there, it is easier to access.

If you do this consciously, make sure your very deliberate about it tho.   The akashic isn't really something to fool around with, even though we alter it a little every day.  That is why mindful living is so important.

Well, this was a couple years worth of study compressed into a sloppy readers digest version.  Look around the other sites here for perhaps a clearer version of what I'm trying to say.
But I hope this helped a little bit.

Namaste

[darkheaven]

it helped alot...hmmmm...but i must be sure cause i do not recall that i created this, everything started with my friends and my only thoughts were that she may have something very attractive in her aura...

thank you

i'll try to absorb the larve back into me if there is one...i'll continue my research and keep you posted. I'll try to speak with her and see what she will say, work out on my defense and all i can

thank you all

[You]

Larve eh?

I liked that monk story.

[darkheaven]

the monk story is the best story...i know it for some time now...

[BDawgPHD]

my new favorite story i luv it  

[Orygbus]

Try sending her loving/positvie energy