newbie: AP's / physical emotions and fear

[V]

Hi everyone,

I'm new to the forum.

Over the last few years I have begun more and more to consciously experience AP. Although as a child I thoroughly enjoyed my "flying" experiences, I have found that as I get older, read more, my fears have become stronger. I was very fearful when I consciously experienced full body vibrations one afternoon a few years ago, but when I "woke" fear turned into elation. I felt so happy!

About a month ago, while on vacation, I don't know if I was leaving or returning, I hovered over my body, and this was the first time that I saw myself - I woke in the morning feeling thrilled. I want to experience more.

Last night, as I was drifting, I began to see the tunnel. Funnily enough I asked myself: what is this tunnel of shapes? And instantly then realized I was about to leave my body and stopped myself out of fear. I was so mad at myself, I tried to stay awake, focus, and keep myself calm and began visualizing my protective fields around me. But that's all I remember. However I woke this morning feeling VERY emotional. I burst into tears and cried. It really shook me to wake up and begin to cry! I'm feeling delicate today.

Does anyone know why this happened? Has anyone experienced feeling emotional?

Why am I feeling fear? I had so much fun as a child. However I must add, that even as a child with the good experiences I also experienced many battles, and I think past-lives - I would escape through windows, places, scenes, it wasn't pleasant. But I still continued to enjoy many fascinating and insightful travels.

The more I read the more I do understand that fear is a self-built condition - I know that I didn't have this before, so where am I going wrong now? I meditate as often as I can - practice positive visualization, cleansing and healing. But I also spend time reading, and often what I read frightens me. I feel that perhaps I'm alone in protecting myself against more powerful and darker forces.

For the record, I do drink alcohol - rarely, but I do, and I enjoy it.
I also smoke pot, every evening. I'm trying to give up. My healer has told me to stop many many times, but even though I do, over the years I have begun to consciously experience more. I'm also a little psychic and I have strong intuition. I realize that I could develop this more if I were to stop these vices. Anyway, I'm working on that! For now, I would appreciate some feedback.

Thanks,
V.



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[Frank]

I feel that perhaps I'm alone in protecting myself against more powerful and darker forces.

Hi:

The above belief construct you have subscribed to is the root cause of your problem. Cancel your subscription to that construct and it will all simply go away.

Yours,
Frank