Cezyl's OBE and Astral Corner...

[beavis]

I'm sure lots of people hate you for being a weirdo and it causes you lots of problems when you need things from certain people, like a job. But you're doing the right thing. I wish me and most others here could be as open about it as you.

[Cezyl]

quote:Originally posted by beavis

I'm sure lots of people hate you for being a weirdo and it causes you lots of problems when you need things from certain people, like a job. But you're doing the right thing. I wish me and most others here could be as open about it as you.

Hey beavis...

Thanks for your reply.

Perhaps a lot of people hate me. Could be. I don't hate me though, that's the key. I love me. I realize that I withheld previously for my own fear, for my own discomfort; for instance of being discriminated as for a job or whatever, as you mentioned. I don't care though man. The job doesn't support me, the Source does. And if a person would discriminate against me for that, then perhaps it's better that I don't work with them...

And actually, I find I have more friends than ever. It's amazing. For even if everyone in the world stopped talking to me, whereas before I started being open about it I had too many friends, would they be talking with me anyway? If I were to withhold something such an important part of me, is there a relationship with ME in the first? Think about it...

Furthermore withholding was starting to cause me physical problems. It was causing a stagnation and build up of pent up energy, like a pipe about to burst. My throat chakra started to get clogged for all the things I wanted to say, but for fear didn't, and thus this started to manifest as throat problems. The more I open up and essentially be myself, the more open and vital does my energy get, and my body get. And the people that are around me, they are really around me. I can say I just came from OBE practice, and say what happened, just like how they'd want to talk about their day at school, or whatever. It is bringing new dimensions to my life, and it is not a matter of them accepting me, but of me accepting me, and that's the main thing that counts. I really feel that I'd rather be homeless and penniless than all bundled up and closed in like that again, in a prison of my own making. At least then I'd still love myself...

Peace...

Cezyl

[Euphoric Sunrise]

Good to see you back on the pulse Cezyl! []

As you know, i have a lot of respect for how you've opened yourself up and grown because of it. I think it provides a valuable lesson for many people, and not just with OBE or any metaphysical/'paranormal' subject.

The hardest part is for people to take that step, as i'm sure you know. Next year is a new start for me. That may sound like i'm still running from it, and i probably am, but it's the best i can do for now. I'm still learning [|)]

[Cezyl]

Hey all...

I know what I need to do to jumpstart my here-now practices...

I still have the belief that I am more prone to higher dimensional practices, which is supported by present experience, but focusing on that actuality is keeping me stuck in it. Thus...

I'll start to add a wild card into my practices of intensive affirmations. I'll affirm even more than I practice. "I can easily OBE into the here-now travel... I can go here-now just as easily as astral..." I am rereading my journal entries as I re-proofread Travel Far preparing for the final draft and subsequent printing, and I see the patterns forming. The same pattern of going form relaxing, to imagery, to dream (potentially), to awareness, to paralysis, to relaxing from the dream and astral catalepsy has been going on for years. I just need to keep up my practices so the momentum doesn't fall, and alter my belief systems to accommodate a more perpetual success with here-now travel. I'll for one make a perpetual loop thing, where I record myself saying: I can easily separate into here-now travel, and stuff like this, and just listen to it and meditate with it. I am still off until Monday (hooray) so I have enough time I'd say to implement it.

I can easily here-now travel...

Wish me luck.  []


Cezyl

P.S.
I feel very empowered.  []

P.S. P.S.
It's good to see you ES. I'll look for you on chat, we can catch up a bit. (Though it hasn't been all that long...)

Take care...

Cezyl

[Cezyl]

Session A19- Affirmation meditation

4/30/2004 2:03 PM

I shall simply put on the delta frequencies and meditate to my "I can easily OBE" affirmation mp3, which I recorded myself. I'll have the delta frequencies (Brain Sync) playing in the background...

I'm going to master this thing!!!

Start: 2:10 PM

End: 2:25 PM
This is going to work. I sat and listened to the delta frequencies (Brain Sync Sound Sleep) while simultaneously listening to my sound recording of my new mantra: I can easily out-of-body into here-now travel, just as easily as, or more easily than, I astrally travel.

I had the mantra a little lower than the Brain Sync CD, and I could feel it penetrating my mind as I listening to this mantra over and over, and agreed with it, and felt it. Being off all this weekend I was able to think: I can just sit and do this, give myself to this. I have all the time in the world. This weekend I shall get out again. I just need to change my inner structure, my belief system, as far as here-now travel is concerned.
I started to get into an alpha trance. I saw some light flashes on my screen, and got kind of tingly.

P.S.
I'll keep this affirmation thing playing all day, no matter what I'm doing... Unless there is something I must actually listen to... I'll keep you posted. I feel very empowered.

Cezyl

P.S. P.S.

beavis, I don't consider myself a weirdo. A trailblazer maybe... very brazen... ahead of my time even... But not a weirdo. [] OBE is not weird, nor is evolution of consciousness...  Not to me anyway.

Cezyl []

[Cezyl]

Session A21

4/30/2004 11:14 PM

I am about to practice. I'll first take another stretch of my physical body, and then listen to my delta frequency CD and OBE affirmation combined. I'll do this as long as I can. Then I'll lie down and focus on the heart, or whatever else comes to mind...



12:52 AM

I just made the post about the Ballabene stepping directly out method. I shall go into that, and start with my delta frequencies meditation, with my continued mantra of success playing in the background. I shall give it all I've got. I'll focus on my energies with the arm-up, and bring on the separation and release!



8:34 AM

I started at about 1 AM. I had a good practice session, very long, very nice. I started by reading over Ballabene's pages, or my favorite of his pages actually, which I 'happened' to find right away when looking over his site in the Internet Archive. I love that site. And I love that description of the technique he used. I was happy and hyped up.

I say down as per my now usual, with my delta frequencies from Brain Sync Sound Sleep CD. I added my eternal loop mantra/affirmation saying "I can easily out-of-body into here-now travel, just as easily as, or more easily than I astrally travel". I was letting that affirmation penetrate me. I know now that it is some internal blockage I have to projection that must be washed away, and I feel that this affirmation is doing it. I'm learning, and It's getting easier for me. Even as I write this journal the affirmation is playing softly in my ears, and I feel it working inside my being.

So I had the affirmation playing on one player, and the delta frequencies playing on the other. The mantra I have a bit lower than the frequencies. I was just listening to the mantra and the frequencies, no technique like counting or anything. Inner self that time guided me to just sit and wait. I let it permeate me, both the frequencies and the mantra. Then inner self prompted me to start counting. I was lazy at that point, and didn't want to do jack! But I went ahead as inner self said and started counting from 50-1. As soon as I started counting the vibrations started. I stoopped counting to experiment and the vibrations waned. I started counting again, the vibrations started. They were light, full body, but definitely the real vibes, not the mock vibes of alpha. And by simply counting I was able to start them. By the time I got to '49' they were there. I experimented with focusing more strongly on the numbers, and the vibrations came a bit more strongly, relative to my focus.

I started to strobe the vibes, even though I didn't even want to do that. Perhaps the frequencies, or just the trance, had me in a 'just want to sit here and do nothing' kind of mood. But I strobed them up and down my body a bit, and it worked, and I swirled them around a bit. I started to ponder the notion that soon I'll be able to project right there from this sitting position at my computer, directly from this meditation. "Every time I meditate I get father and deeper, in much less the time. Every time I meditate I get farther and deeper, in much less the time..."

I went and laid down after a while. It took about 13 minutes to get at the vibrations (I took a look at how long the delta frequencies had been playing.) It took 16 minutes before I laid down. A 16-minute long meditation session to start...

I lay down and decided to start on my back before turning to my stomach. I put my left arm up at the elbow (in case I fall asleep during relaxation) and started relaxing. I noticed that if I just mentally relaxed, the same vibrations I had from meditation came back. They were light, full-body, and I was again able to strobe them up and down, and move them around my body in a swirl. They were still light though.

The thought of perhaps projecting through vibrations like I did before, under the inspiration of Robert Monroe, caused me to go with playing with the vibrations rather than doing the rocking method of Ballabene. I turned to my stomach and proceeded to play with the vibrations, but I fell asleep. Luckily I set my alarm to wake me at 5 AM for another practice.



5 AM Practice: I woke up and AGAIN I DID NOT hit the snooze button. I'm getting there, into the groove, into the practice space, that 'zone', that's the word. I woke up, looked at the tme after turning the alarm off, and started to relax and focusing on the heart. I wanted to cheat myself out of the body, hopefully. Perhaps I didn't focus so well. Perhaps I need to practice those concentration exercises Mysticweb suggests, or some type or form of concentration practice, to foster that ability.



8 AM Practice: I woke up naturally at about 8 AM. I was about to get up but decided to practice again, remembering that Ballabene practiced his energy feeling exercise in the mornings. I relaxed and just started to feel my energy, and 'feel it flowing through and strengthening my body' as Ballabene suggests. Soon those same vibes came back. This time though I stayed with the program. I didn't strobe them or anything. I felt the vibrations for a while, and felt the energy flowing through me. I let them build as much as they can. After a few minutes they were still light. And then I started the rocking motion. I started to the left, as if I was about to turn to my left side, and then back to the right, as if I was about to turn to my right side. I kept going back in forth in my feeling control and my imagination, and as soon as I started doing this I started to have that 'difficultly breathing, loss of breath' feeling, and something unusual happened in my head. My head felt vacant, or under reverse-pressure or something. I'm not sure. And I felt some kind of suction or something in my body, like perhaps I was starting to rip my nonphysical body out. I'll continue with this practice. The affirmation is playing even as I type... Mwahaahaaa!



**Continue with the pattern. These nightly meditations at the same time with the delta frequencies are getting deeper and deeper each night.

**The rock has potential!

P.S.
During practice, out of sheer desperation perhaps, I asked help in getting out from any one, or any thing, that could help. This was very reassuring.


Cezyl

[Cezyl]

OBE- Ballabene session with delta CD and affirmations

Journal E1
Session A22
5/2/2004 12:54 AM

I am ready for practice. I masturbated earlier and am very free of sexual desire and loose. My energy is clear and clean. I feel almost a floaty feeling. I was listening to some Stuart Wilde clips, which is always good, and I am bucked up to get out. I have some inspiration and support:

"I wish u luck! Oh, here my Oversoul says hi and wishes u luck as well lol..."
Caca

From a friend and his higher self, which is always good. I'll run with that for all it's worth.  I'll go clean my teeth so that is not on my mind, and I'll practice like the dickens. I have all night, and I can get at least three sessions in. Elongated session...

I've been practicing awareness also...

1:19 AM
I cleaned (brushed and flossed) my teeth with as much awareness as I can muster. (I'm practicing awareness, as per would have been the first week of the Mysticweb investigation course.) I then looked over my previous entry of last night with my three practice sessions. I aim to build on that. I shall sit with my delta frequencies CD and affirmation combined, alarm set for 5 AM, and hopefully I'll wake up again at 8 AM to practice again. Remember to practice upon waking. I shall also go straight to the rocking, no cheating this time...
*** ***

9:42 AM
Very good session, although it didn't seem like it at the time. Earlier (yesterday before practice) I took some time to watch porn and masturbate, and I wondered if this would interrupt my practices. This thought may have been detrimental, for I went along fine. I sat and started to do the meditation, with my delta frequencies Brain Sync CD and my mantra/affirmation "I can easily out-of-body into here-now travel, just as easily as, or more easily than, I astral travel". I sat and listened to this for a while, about 8 minutes to be exact, and then I had to go use the restroom. I stopped the delta frequencies CD and went and 'rested', and took the time to ponder my situation. I further convinced myself that I can do it, and I have friends and support (Caca and his Oversoul gave me a heads up... Mwahaahaaa!!!) and overall I bucked myself up internally. I went back and put on the frequencies and meditated for 8 more minutes, a total of 16 minutes of meditation just like last time. This time it was different through, for nearly as soon as I sat down the vibrations came. Just like I read in Jay-Sinn's journal, the vibrations are coming faster and faster each time I practice, and they are coming with less and less effort.
I lay down and relaxed with the arm-up technique. Ok, I was partially cheating, but it worked. :> I figured my physical arm my fall down leaving my nonphysical arm up, like has happened before.  I also figured I can still do the Ballabene 'rock' thing without any interference.
I had my arm up and was relaxing into sleep, and feeling the vibrations and such. They were still light, but they were there... I then started the rock technique, even while my arm was up at the elbow. I tested what would happen if my arm fell, making sure no debris or anything was in the way of its fall. I was comfortable that it was fall OK, and just plop down on the carpet. I started the rock thing and had some sensations, but I felt that I needed to be back on my stomach, to relieve pressure from my back.
I turned to my stomach and started to relax and feel my energy in an upward direction from my feet as Ballabene suggests. I eventually fell asleep, and woke up at 5 AM as per my alarm...

6 AM Practice: I woke up at 6 AM, even though my alarm came on at 5. I'm sure the fact that I turned the thing down (volume) before going to sleep had an effect. For some reason I wanted to make sure I didn't receive a shock when it came on, or to wake the neighbors in the neighboring apartment. I turned it down even lower than usual, and it was not effective in waking me up right away.
I drearily got up at about 6 AM and turned off the music/alarm, and lay back down and relaxed, and did something more interesting. I focused on my heartbeat, deciding to count them to at least 1000, and I also rocked with the count. So for every two beats of my heart I rocked once. 1... 2... (in my imagination and tactile feel rocking to the right)... 3... 4... (in my imagination and tactile feel rocking to the left)... and so on. I got to like 30 I'd say before falling asleep, but this crossover combo of techniques worked well. I felt like I was hitting it with a double whammy!

8 AM Practice: I woke up naturally at 8:30 AM, which makes since for I start 30 minutes later than yesterday, starting at 1:30 AM this time rather than 1 o' clock. I decided to go straight for the Ballabene method, and I started feeling my energy from the feet up, just feeling the energy in my feet, and how it flowed, and then in my feet and calves together, and on up my legs. Then pornographic images started to flash before my eyes. It was like a snapshot of a frame every half a second, over and over. I kept 'blanking' it out of my mind, thinking 'aw crap, the porn is interfering with my practices.' That's the idea I had, BUT IT WAS WORKING. Crap!
I blanked these images out about 3 times total, and then I had the feeling that was starting to run down my ear. I was lying on my stomach, head facing to the right, my arms like hugging the floor (I lie on a blanket, and with my arms to my side they are on the carpet). I felt SO comfortable, as if the floor and the universe bent to accommodate the shape of my body. But this damn wax kept feeling like it was running into my right ear, so I cleaned my ear out, and decided to turn to my left side. I though against it since I had that position SO comfortable, but I thought to go ahead with it since every time I put my head to the right I felt wax running in my ear.
I turned to place my face to the left, and as often happens when my face is to the left my legs cross up, so that my left leg is on the back of my right leg, or vice versa. It was comfortable also, but not as comfortable as before, and I just saw it as a challenge to relax regardless of position.
I started to relax into sleep I think, I at least relaxed, and I kept thinking that maybe I should go back to the old position. I may have already started the energy feel again. But I went to moving my left arm, thinking to get more comfortable (did inner prompt me in that way into adding the 'movement' factor, Mwahaahaaa!), and the partial paralysis was there! It felt like I was trying to get my arm unstuck out of mud or some other thick clinging substance. I was like MAN; I was there! I was still in trance, so it wasn't exactly like that, but in relation to bursts of excitement while still in trance, that was at the top of the heap. The porn snapshots WERE the imagery. It was just porn snapshots because I was recently watching porn. And there goes the paralysis.
I was a bit anxious that I'd gotten so far and didn't do anything with it. But in a way I did (you always do), for I know next time that the imagery could be anything. I remember reading in Journeys Out of the Body that Robert Monroe used to see football players going though plays. And I also learned that it's very easy to get into the state when waking up in the morning. I got that idea from Ballabene, as he said he did his energy meditations in the morning. And Mysticweb and Samuel Aun Weor teach to wake up in the morning and not move to remember dreams and stuff easier. I find that you can move. Just stay in the state and you'll be fine. And the easiest and most efficient way to get morning meditation in is to do it right as you wake up. Mwahaa!!
I got a bit restless but still tried to relax for a while. Eventually I had to get up to use the restroom, and ended there. I am father along than before!!!

**I shall continue this practice as I have it. I have a good pattern that I can fit into my work schedule, just as it stands! The only change will be my early morning weekends...
**The imagery can be ANYTHING. It can most likely be what you had your attention on in the hours before practice/sleep.
**The energy-feel of Ballabene works, though it doesn't seem like it at the time. It's a 'silent' trance inducer. It may not seem like it is working, but it is...

Cezyl

[Cezyl]

If you all haven't heard, I'm mastering this thing by June 30, 2004!!! Mwahaahaaa!!!

[Cezyl]

Hey all...

I always feel very apologetic when I 'come back' to anywhere from an extended leave. But hey, I had to go do some things. But hey, I apologize if anyone was inconvenienced by my absence...

I see a few threads with questions to me that were posted in my absence, that I am doing my best to find the answers to, of note, or in questions, the 'delta is OBE' thread with the question about the states as answered to my by 'Skip' Atwater. I'm doing a search for the email now...

I've done SO much growth in the past several months. I've experienced cosmic consciousness, and come to terms with new levels of myself. I remember I posted a thread about how everyone should "Tell EVERYONE" about OBE, which did not get such a good response. Well now I am not only telling EVERYONE about it, but I'm passing out flyers about it to. Now I can talk about it anywhere. At work, on the bus, in stores I go to. It's common knowledge now that I am into OBE and practice it, and people ask me questions about it and share their own experiences. Everywhere I go SOMEONE has experienced paralysis, or vibrations, of that falling sensation, or SOMETHING. It's very interesting.

http://www.cezyl.com/flyers.htm

You can go here and read some of the experiences I'm having telling EVERYONE, including co-workers, friends, acquaintances, cashiers at the checkout and workers behind the counter, total strangers, EVERYONE. I talk about it like people talk about basketball, or getting their hair done, or the movie they've recently seen. It's what I'm into. If they can't handle it, it's not my problem, nor is it theirs. Because I'm sharing they have an opportunity to grow...

What else...

Ack. I 'type' here before you having not made any quantum leaps in OBE. I have practiced sporadically over the period of time between which I was here last. A good friend of mine who was a newbie last year gets out every day now. SHEESH. Last I've been out was several weeks ago, about three to be exact.

I'm picking up my practices again, working to fill out my online journal and master taking my nonphysical body with me, and separating at any time, before Travel Far comes out. I have about two months left. I'm reaching alpha regularly, theta sparingly, and delta (OBE) every few weeks now. I'll get there. Wish me luck...

I'm doing much, but I intend to come here every now and then and post some of my latest experiences and offer some help, etc. We'll see how it goes. Join in as you like. And as I always say, sometimes... []  Mwahaahaaa!!!

Cezyl