death in dream and obe

[Chaos Mage]

So it was my second night sleeping in the new bed, the beds made into one huge bed.
And morning was coming.
I began to dream, and immediately, I was having a heart attack.  In the dream, I was up in my bed room, and I must have been 12 in the dream.  It's the same age where I had a definite oob.

And in the dream, the bed was in the same place.

So I got up and the dream fast forwarded, and I explained to my mother that I was having a heart attack.  She told me to go back to bed and that's what I get for smoking.  So I went back up to my bed, and then the dream slowed down to a bare minimum.  In excruciating real time, I felt my heart explode and blood began to fill my body.  It was like a fountain of blood within me.  And I was laying there, and my nurse came in with two other nurses...

So I told her that it was her medicine that had caused this, and I got up and started to raise hell with these people.  My face was swollen with blood and my innards were bursting with blood, and she said, "You will take your last injection and then you are going to die.  We can't afford to have you running loose with government secrets."  and I told her I wasn't taking it.

So I passed out, and I felt the sting of the needle.  In that dream when I was 12 years old, I was told, "Find the needle."  is there a connection or is it brainwashing?
So anyway... I got up, in the dream, and I told her, that's really disgusting, I was already dead and you still gave me the injection.  I'm going to my brother's house and I'm going to die in his house with all this blood.

And she gave me another injection, and I was laid back down on my bed.  I began to die.
At that point, the dream became overlapped with another dream, but, I was experiencing them both in slower than real time.  I flung out of my body, and popped out the back door.  Then, I circled the house once very slowly, but I didn't have control.  Aleister Crowley had control.  And we started to fly off to England, to go and activate the rift gate at the Abbey.

We flew through intense mists, and then that singular dream entity stopped and the dream was back at my body, which had been transported and was being burned in my brother's furnace.  I seen a small child that I know, and for some reason, there was a voice telling me, "Yes, this is the one." (speaking of another child which was named "Orton's Son".  And I began to possess the young boy as he rode his bicycle, and then there were two dreams but they ended abruptly. 

So I woke to the phone ringing.  I couldn't move, I was too tired, I hadn't become fully conscious.  I got up and the day progress normally.

But to note, my blood preesure was 206/158 pulse 79 just a couple days ago.  Perhaps I am getting these more vivid experiences as a prelude to experiencing the liberation of death.

[AJDIN]

Stop smoking  

Seems just like a really interesting dream -

I had a weird one a couple days ago where my left upertorso was concaved and it was like i was missing my heart and the whole time i was looking for help but no one could help me, the dream went into multiple dreams and all intertwined and the whole time i was missing my heart, i also remember having vivid experiences which i could have mistaken as an OBE and all these other scenarios and situations which seemed too coincidental too all overlap and intertwine like it did for it not too be an OBE

Something was on my mind before that may have caused my subconscious too keep bringing it up while i was asleep - the high frequency of me not having a heart and concaved torso made me think that it was because the personal issue i had that night before bed

I too also dreamed of myself as a young kid in various situations and still all intertwined like your story

Maybe theres something on your mind that you need too make peace with

[Chaos Mage]

i didn't dream last night cuz I didn't sleep...
I did have conscious fantasies about various things, and this activity seemed to help alleviate a lot of stress... Over charged on fluids, will suffer indigestion as a result of that.

Seems like dreams are a primal existential level where everything is manifesting all at once.  I think it's a good idea to meditate, both in sense of quieting the mind and opening the senses.  Imagination can be a great reinforcement tool for the pristine Nature World of our Universe.  We can help keep our brains healthy by staying alert, and our chakra system open and connected through regular practices like diet, exercise, and work.  Also magickal work.

The day is coming...  I will have had enough of these machines.  I will even put down Final Fantasy, and smoking will be done for sheer sake of ritual.  I will live my phantasy of Lumina Star, and I will pray with Sky and work on the Transport Mecha with Jay.  There is so much life to be had just living here,  I'm really not ready for anything but my phantasy where I get to pray with all my heart and have hope prayers, heart prayers, song prayers, and regular focusing of raw elemental systems.  To think that this is my future, here, and anywhere else, I would not have freedom to stand on the street and raise my arm, much less prance like a satyr with ribbons and lace entwining his body.  Life is yet worth living, though I often can not see what I am looking at.

[embrace]

Next time silence your phone

[AJDIN]

Chaos just take a breath and relax, quit polluting yourself with those thoughts - live in the moment and enjoy it

And yes dreams are all in one kind of thing, i think of it as waking consciousness except everything is visual and there are no spaces for thinking so everything is manifesting at once and relating too other aspects continously

[Greytraveller]

Greetings Chaos
Yes oh my, a LOT of strange nonphysical experiences DO happen using mind altering substances. I've been there many times and had some Very Weird experiences too. My problem is that most of those experiences, dream and OBEs mostly, were out of my control. I was there first person. It was a direct experience but rarely did I have any real control over where I went or what I did. Whatever happened just happened and I was mostly just along for the ride. So that's my beef with mind alterants. I am Not a control freak but getting flung around throughout the (nonphysical) cosmos is hardly my idea of a good time!. 

Sincerely
Grey

[Chaos Mage]

Just to update you on my dream state, I had some strange dream about these really macho guys and fifties cars.  Just thinking about it, I kind of know what it means, but embarassed to say.
The dream filtered through a literal jungle of dreams.  Then, there I was at a wood cabin, looked like a defense hut.  These guys had this car, and I was a young bukkake slut. 

From there I can tell you that this jarble of dream images was a repressed sexual nature verging on actual manifestation in disfigured form.  My sexual capacities have been starved and I am considering becoming more female to accomadate my sexual fetish.
The dream indicated that I would have best success with a group of very muscular men who would give me an old antique car for a good five on one bukkake tape.
To find these guys, all I would have to do is find the car, which would be in the appropriate place.
Is that what I really want to do?
Hell no.
Yes.
I don't know.
Not after smoking and drinking this much pop.
That's the thing.
I need cash.
Make some dirty rotten pornos, well, that sure won't be getting me astral.
So what should I do?
The alternative presents itself in the next dream.

Before the men can begin the session, everything but the image of a girl and a red ball that appears next to her mouth, all of it goes white.  And I am here instructed by a strange machine to gather more of these strange machines and use them to construct a mageddon.  And more advice, which basically is coded dream symbology for the creation of an active intel network that supplies intelligence to operatives in the field.  The devotion of myself to a governance cell.

And then it said, "Or you can PHANTASY, and squander your magick in feeble, nothings of creation."
and it showed a hollow sky with a key in a citadel, obviously the Vatican.  A stark, dead religious wasteground where everything had been consumed, and only the key remained alive to yet reach with it's light to the depths above.  A paradigm of Anti Christ philosophy.

So I don't know about all this.  I have a plan, but it's going to involve a testing.  I just know that I was in such pain today, my whole right inner ear, and ride side of my head hurt.  Do you think I had a minor stroke in my dream?  Would that explain the pain in my head?

[AJDIN]

Are you a girl if you mind me asking?

interesting read, what makes you think about these scenarios and get such urges, is it a kind of seen it before and looked fun and something you want too try?

As for the pain, could be anything.. you could of slept wrong on your neck and might have caused some pain in your ear and in your head, try massaging your neck and shoulders