How Much have U lost time??

[the_demigod]

Heya,

Missed about 3 years in here (apologies ot the un-answered messages/emails).
Every day, when my WORK intruded into my sanity I was faced with:
- slaving away, remembering that this "work" pays the bills and allows for a decent life;
- remembering that the TRUE reality AWAITS me, and that "maybe" this period in life is the one where my aura/soul needs to get READY for the "next push", when my chakrams are preparing for my next level of development;
- or some other explanation (combine booze/women/religious writings into an acceptable excuse ;p)

Coming back after 2-3 years and reading all the posts, re-reading RB's book, I find myself wondering: HAVE I WASTED THE TIME??

Is my timetable (in some way) different?? Am I allowed to have FAILURES (when the current reality: career, house, money; dominates my life??) or should I pursue ADVANCEMENT at all costs (living in poverty, voting for political idiots, paying high taxes)??

I spent the last 7-8 years pursuing professional success in the hope of being able to AFFORD a lifestyle, where I CAN pursue self-growth (enough time for meditation, OBE, etc).

HOW CORRECT is such a materialist-turned-god/self-development-obssessive approach??

[CFTraveler]

Do you believe you have wasted the time?  It is my opinion that we always learn as we go, so that there is no such thing as 'wasted time'- it just seems that way when you decide to change course from the one you're on-but realize that you had to be where you were to get to where you are now.
Just M.O., of course.